mygo, but Cthulhu

...But she was actually very tired. She no longer had the strength to kill them. She had watched them grow up, watched them laugh and cry with each other... She didn't want to destroy any more.

"You... don't have to apologize. You're all just trying to protect the people you care about."

Tsuzuki Shifune took one last look at them, whispered something, then relaxed her body and let herself fall heavily to the ground. At this moment, she suddenly felt unprecedented relief, as if the heavy burden she had been carrying for a long time was beginning to dissipate... She seemed to be finally being liberated.

"grandmother!"

The spell on Le Nai finally disappeared at this time. She rushed to Tsuzuki Shifune anxiously, knelt on the ground with tears in her eyes and held her hand. The old man also smiled at her weakly.

"Don't cry, Lenai... I'm just too tired. I just don't want to hold on any longer. I've lived too long and endured too much... Being taken away by death like this is actually lucky for me. At least I can finally rest."

"But... the only thing I'm worried about is you, Lenai. I've already made arrangements for your parents, so you don't have to worry about them... Follow my power and return to Uza in the Dreamland. That is your original home."

Tsuzuki Shifune raised her hand and let the crimson light linger around Lena, and she cried and shook her head vigorously, her trembling voice full of determination.

"Grandma, I'm sorry... I still have to find Rikki, I have to protect her, and I also have to face reality with my friends... I can't abandon them."

"Really? But then, you'd be in danger too... Grandma's dying soon, so I'm afraid she won't be able to protect you anymore."

Tsuzuki Shifune sighed, and Rakuna clenched her fists and tried to force a smile at her, trying to comfort her while she cried.

"Don't worry, grandma. I will protect myself, and my friends will protect me too. You don't have to worry about me... I will live well. No matter what happens, I will persevere. I won't let you down."

"In that case...I'll feel relieved."

Tsuzuki Shifune smiled weakly and was about to close her eyes in giving up, but the next moment, she suddenly saw everything around her suddenly stop.

Whether it was Lenai's crying, the other girls' hesitation and anxiety, or the burning Tokyo, all of this was frozen in an instant. Tsuzuki Shifune slowly turned her head to look at a girl with pink-dyed hair walking slowly towards her, her pupils shrinking slightly.

...That was her when she was young.

"Are you really going to give up like this? Tsuzuki Poetry Ship? You can obviously repair the wounds directly, or destroy all the betrayers directly, right?"

The girl asked softly with a smile, and Tsuzuki Shifune was silent for a moment before just sneering.

"Stop pretending, Naya. Your pretense is just making me sick to my stomach."

"I'm just helping you recall how you felt when you made the deal with me."

The girl shrugged, and then Tsuzuki Shifune saw the scene around her suddenly change. She saw her former self desperately trying to kill those cults and gangsters who abused magic, but in the end she just fell in the corner with bruises all over her body, and the curses of those people searching were getting closer and closer.

"Ahem... Damn it, this is all because I don't have enough power. If I had power, I could avenge Saori and the others..."

The girl curled up on the ground, crying weakly in the dizziness of blood loss. She stretched her hands forward desperately, wailing in her heart for help.

At this moment, a miracle happened. She saw everything around her frozen, and a man appeared in front of her, holding her hand with a smile.

"You're lucky. I picked you randomly in this chaotic era. You want overwhelming power, right?"

"That's right, give me strength, no matter what the price, I'm willing to pay it!"

The rage of revenge made the girl answer without hesitation, and the man also raised the corners of his mouth happily.

"Even if after your revenge you are only crushed by exhaustion and pain, unable to do anything but kill, and ultimately betrayed by the very people you protect?"

"It doesn't matter even if it's like that, as long as I can get revenge!"

The girl screamed with a distorted face, and the man couldn't help but smile and nodded slightly.

"Well, then I will give you strength, and we will meet again soon."

As soon as the words fell, the scene quickly disappeared. The young Tsuzuki Shifune smiled and extended his hand to the old man, his voice full of persuasion.

"Look, Tsuzuki Shisen, how obsessed you were with revenge back then. How happy was the smile you showed after you killed those people? Have you forgotten that joy?"

"It's obvious that if you wanted to, you would have completely wiped out these girls. You used to be someone who enjoyed killing, so why are you so exhausted now that you're willing to give up your life?"

"...Yes, there was a time when I was truly immersed in killing. I derived pleasure from the violence and nearly lost myself."

"So……"

"But when I was about to go crazy, I heard the girls' music... Their performance was extremely immature, but the love they had for it was exactly the same as that of Miracle Crimson."

Tsuzuki Shichuan quietly looked up at the sky, his voice full of nostalgia and sadness, not even looking at his fake self.

"When I heard that music, I suddenly realized... I shouldn't have fallen for this horrible joy. I should have tried my best to protect these girls. I should have allowed them to enjoy a peaceful daily life, so they could experience the life I couldn't protect back then... That's what I should have done."

"In that case, you should continue to live, right?"

The girl continued to persuade with a smile. She gently extended her hand to Tsuzuki Shifune, and the latter sighed and raised her hand. The girl also curled her lips when she saw this scene.

"Snapped,"

Then, Tsuzuki Shifune used up his last bit of strength to open her hands. The girl was stunned for a moment, and the old man closed his eyes tiredly. His calm voice gradually became weaker, but there was not even a trace of hesitation.

"Yes, maybe I should continue to endure the pain and persevere... But, I'm too tired. I miss Saori and the others so much. They are all dead. I have dreamed of them countless times, but I could only wake up in pain... I don't want to continue."

"Let me choose selfishness. I just want to sink into death now... This is my only remaining wish."

“…I have to say, humans are really interesting.”

After a moment's silence, the girl suddenly laughed. She shook her head, turned around, and disappeared into chaos. Time began to flow again. Tsuzuki Shifune heard the noise around him again, and felt the death gradually approaching.

In a trance, she couldn't help but open her eyes and saw that she was in the livehouse. Her teammates were waving at her with smiles in the sunshine outside the door.

"Shichuan, you've been sleeping too long, haven't you? Come with us quickly, we still need to go shopping together."

"Saori...you are all still here. I seem to have had a very long dream, a painful and sad dream... Fortunately, you are all here."

Tsuzuki Shifune smiled, walked towards her friends, held their hands, and felt the precious warmth.

In the pool of blood, the old man couldn't help but reveal a relieved and gentle smile.

"I'm sorry to have kept you waiting... I can finally walk with you again."

Chapter 257 Infection

In the dungeon of the Shirahiro family, many deformed bodies were crawling and growling. Junda Mana saw a twisted newborn crawling out of the belly, and the guard who had been waiting nearby pulled it out with disgust on his face to prevent other degenerate people from eating the baby directly.

She knew that was herself. She was born in this ugly posture from the beginning. She grew up between prisons and stench. She was just a beast at that time.

In its limited thinking, it often lamented that it was of the unfortunate sex, so that its strength and physical fitness could not catch up with its other deformed counterparts. It could only lick food scraps after others had a full meal, so it grew extremely thin.

However, it still struggled to continue living like this, swallowing food and being alert to other of its kind. It did not know the meaning of life at that time. To it, living itself was the meaning.

...However, when feeding it again, it saw a strange scene. Other birds of its kind were scrambling for food, and it should have been doing the same, but it was still staring blankly at the beauty that was so different from its kind.

...What is that? Why does it look like one of our own? And yet it's so indescribable? What's that expression on its face...?

The beast could not understand, it broke away from the others of its kind, crawled to the side of the prison, and reached out to the beauty with a desire that it itself did not understand, wanting to touch the strangeness that fascinated it.

"Huh? There's actually one here that's not fighting for the food... What is it doing?"

After a moment, it suddenly heard a familiar voice. It raised its head and saw its tall and upright master standing in front of it. It subconsciously shrank back and wanted to step back, but it couldn't help but reach out to that beauty, wanting to hold her as soon as possible.

"Do you want this?"

The owner looked at it with interest, picked up the photo and stuffed it into its hands. It was stunned for a moment, then quickly retreated in panic. It shrank into the corner and finally felt safe. It lowered its head and looked at the beauty in its hands in fascination.

She was a little similar to them, but this made it realize her nobility even more. Her facial features were not distorted, her limbs were soft and slender, and the expression on her face... it had never seen it before.

The beast trembled. It couldn't help stroking the photo, but forgot that its hands were only dirty. The next moment, there were a few more stains on the beauty. It was stunned for a moment, and wanted to wipe it clean anxiously, but it only made the beauty unrecognizable.

"Ah ah ah ah ah!"

Unprecedented, the beast felt indescribable pain even though it had no wounds on its body. It wailed, and turbid tears dripped onto the beauty and filth, reflecting its ugly and painful face in pieces.

"Hahahaha, this one is really interesting. It should only have instincts in its head, but it still reacts like this... Let's drag it out. I want to ask the Mizuki family to modify it."

Amidst the laughter, Junda Mana's vision changed dramatically. She could feel indescribable pain. As her brain and body were cut and changed, she began to feel everything that she had not been able to discover before. She learned language and common sense until she finally put on her clothes and stood in front of the mirror.

There was an upright human in the mirror, but it felt strange. It looked around blankly, subconsciously wondering if the distorted self was still hiding somewhere, but Bailu Fadai just smiled and patted its shoulder lightly, the voice was very casual.

"Congratulations, you are now human, Junda Mana."

...It had become human, yet it still didn't understand the difference between humans and beasts. Was it really Junda Mana? Beneath its transformed, beautiful skin, it must still be that hideous creature.

"Chuhua..."

But despite doubting itself in its heart, it could not help but whisper the beautiful name.

Forgetting her, the restlessness in my heart kept surging, but was firmly controlled by the newly gained clear consciousness.

It is because of this pursuit that it becomes her, and it is also because of this clarity that she does not fall into madness even when she is rejected and feels pain.

What separates humans from beasts? Genes? Wisdom? Intelligence? Soul?

Junda Mana, these may all be true, but for you, the most core difference is rationality.

"Cough cough cough..."

Mana Junda suddenly opened her eyes, and then she started coughing because of the dirty water that rushed into her nasal cavity. She turned over with difficulty and saw burning flames all over the sky and noisy and chaotic sounds everywhere.

The stench of decay permeated her body. After a while, Junda Mana realized that she was in a stinking ditch. She trembled and wanted to get up but couldn't. She could only support her body and crawl out little by little.

But the process was extremely difficult. Her body was even stranger than she had imagined. She found herself twitching uncontrollably, and her vision was blurry and chaotic. She felt indescribable nausea, but this nausea had nothing to do with the surroundings, but rather a distortion deep in her soul... Her consciousness seemed to be permeated by some kind of horrible filth, and gradually twisted into a strange appearance.

"What's wrong with me?"

Mana Junda couldn't understand all this. She squeezed out a trembling voice, but was frightened by the hoarseness and distortion in it. She tried hard to recall what had happened before, and finally remembered the moment when she was swallowed by the filthy torrent.

She seemed to... pray for something in despair. Was that why she hadn't died yet? Was her body's abnormality also caused by the pollution?

Mana Junda sighed and used her last bit of strength to crawl to the road. She looked up at the tall buildings tiredly and found it difficult to get up for a while.

"Chuhua..."

She couldn't help but mutter to herself, recalling the beauty again, trying to draw strength from it. But just as she gradually relaxed, a thought suddenly appeared in her mind.

Why didn't she just drug Chu Hua and force her? She had that opportunity, didn't she?

"...Am I crazy?"

After being stunned for a moment, Junda Mana couldn't help but smile bitterly. She shook her head to wake herself up, but this action turned on a switch instead. Her vision turned scarlet in an instant, and more filthy and crazy thoughts rushed into her mind and kept crowding in her ears.

Junda Mana, you've always been so selfless. Have you ever thought about giving Hatsuka a taste of yours? Her blood must be delicious. As long as you cut her throat, that strong sweetness will spray out like a rainbow... Don't you try to imagine that scene?

"No, I can't have that thought..."

Should you string her up? She's so disinterested in you, why not punish her? She should be put on a leash with a nail driven through her bones to teach her a lesson, so she knows you're her master, right?

"I can't possibly do such a cruel thing to Chuhua. I've become a human being, not a beast anymore..."

Mana Junda began to tremble. She covered her head tightly, feeling the chaotic madness engulfing her like a tide. She twitched and couldn't breathe, with a twisted and sick smile on her face.

Why not? You have to, you ...

"Mana? Mana!"

The next moment, a panicked cry brought Mana back to reality. She subconsciously opened her eyes and saw her father looking at her anxiously, and he helped her up with great concern.

"What's wrong with you? I finally found you, why are you like this? Are you okay?"

"Of course, I'm fine, Father."

Junda Mana smiled, nodded vigorously, then took out a dagger and stabbed it into his abdomen very naturally. The man had never expected her to do this. While he was standing there in a daze, his abdomen was constantly stirred back and forth by Mana. The sound of flesh being torn made her squint her eyes in pleasure.

"Look, father, I pierced your belly..."

The next moment after she raised her crazy smile, Junda Mana's expression suddenly froze. She was stunned for a moment, and slowly looked down at her hands that were still tightly holding the dagger in a daze. She slowly loosened her hands in confusion and took several steps back tremblingly.

"Mana..."

Junda Sosuke squeezed out a sound in pain, and wanted to reach out to her but fell to his knees. Mana stared at her hands covered with blood with wide eyes, covering her face tightly in disbelief.

"This is impossible... Why would I do this... And do it so naturally? I... I even feel happy?"

"Mana...what happened to you? What happened to you? Did the committee do something to you?"

Sosuke Junda covered his wound and asked with gritted teeth, and then he saw Mana's expression changing horrifically, ecstasy, madness, panic and pain overlapping, indescribable distorted expressions kept repeating on her face, making her look like a wild beast about to go berserk.

"I'm sorry, father. I didn't mean to do that. I just suddenly felt like ripping your stomach open... I... I don't know what's wrong with me..."

Junda Mana trembled and shook her head desperately, and the next moment, she suddenly heard the sound of flesh tearing again. The sound was so close that it even seemed harsh to her.

After a moment of hesitation, Juntian Mana panicked and checked her hands. She breathed a sigh of relief when she saw that they did not hurt her father again. But when she looked up, she met her father's blank gaze.

"Mana, your face..."

"My face? What happened to my face?"

Junda Mana asked subconsciously, and at the same time hurriedly looked for a mirror. She soon saw the glass fragments, and when she picked it up, she also saw her face.

Her originally delicate white face was covered with filth and her father's blood. Her ecstatic smile distorted her entire face, and a bloody cross scar suddenly appeared from her forehead to her chin.

When Mana saw her appearance clearly, she couldn't help but tremble. She cut her palm with a piece of glass, and looking at the blood on it, she laughed uncontrollably.

**Feel all this, Junda Mana, you are so free now, all the pain has disappeared, all this happiness is in your blood, look at your father, don't you want him to feel this too? Quickly put this piece of glass in his stomach, he will become like you!