mygo, but Cthulhu

"Lan, let's go together..."

But Feimali didn't finish her words, as she suddenly fell straight to the ground the next second. In shock, she only saw that her legs had turned into dust, and at the same time, this change continued to spread to her body.

Wait, why is this happening? Why did it become... Hey, did her father desperately warn her about something before he died? What can't she feel?

...Happiness, she cannot feel happiness, otherwise she will die completely.

When Feimali realized this, the others were unable to evacuate the passage in time because of her fall. They tried to pick her up in panic, but Blood Cross had already pounced on them with a roar.

She fell heavily to the ground. Under the setting sun, she saw Mizukami and others pinned to the ground. Her face was tightly grasped by countless hands among her pink hair, but she could still see the scene that drove her crazy through the fingers. Her eyes widened to the limit because of despair.

She cared about everyone in aftergrow, she cared about these friends who grew up with her, she regarded them as precious treasures... But, under the dazzling sunset, everything she valued was easily torn apart and desecrated. Her friends were screaming, her friends were crying, but she could do nothing. Her consciousness quickly faded away as her body turned to dust, leaving only desperate madness.

Aa ...

Amidst her hysterical wails, her trembling, tear-filled eyes were torn apart by countless hands, and her throat was screaming madly until the last moment before it turned into dust, but she was unable to change anything, and it only made her more aware of her own powerlessness.

If only she wasn't so stupid, if only she was suffering, she wanted to protect everything she cared about, she wanted to change it all, she wanted a chance to start over.

In the last moment before her consciousness faded, Feimali was praying desperately and madly, and she also saw the huge withered baby in an instant. He allowed her regret, but the power to change the outcome needed to be accumulated by herself.

"That's why, Uehara Himari."

In the void, the pink-haired girl smiled and spoke softly to the crying Himari who was curled up on the ground, raised her hand and helped her up.

"You forgot that you can't feel happiness, so Lan and the others suffered such terrible torture because of us. This is all our fault. Fortunately, we still have a chance to make amends."

"I, what should I do?"

With tears streaming down her face, Feimali spoke subconsciously, and the girl hugged her gently and whispered slowly in her ear.

"This is a closed-loop spacetime. All you have to do is endure it. Even if you are trapped in pain and madness, you still cannot use those powers because they are all accumulated to change everything."

"Pain is not our enemy, but our friend. You were too eager to escape from it before, so it gave you the most intimate embrace... But I know you can't accept it so easily. Now you are covered by numbness, so you need to find a new you to accumulate pain."

"The new...me?"

Feimali looked at her in a daze, and the girl smiled and held her hand. Under her guidance, Feimali saw the small-scale space-time reset given by Quache Utaus. She raised her hand lightly, and the time in the underground space flowed backwards at a rapid speed, and everything returned to the moment when she was knocked down by the Blood Cross.

"..."

Uehara Himari stared blankly at the familiar and extremely bloody scene in front of her. She watched herself gradually become numb in wailing and collapse, and when she could no longer feel the strong stimulation, the bruised girl disappeared, and then inscribing horrible pain instantly covered Himari's consciousness, making her kneel on the ground wailing. She experienced everything that she had endured in an instant, and even her numb mind was completely torn apart. The pain and enthusiasm kissed her, making her sink in her own broken blood and flesh.

After an unknown amount of time, Fei Ma Li finally regained consciousness. She forced herself to get up from the ground with trembling hands, and found that there was still nothing around her, and the pink-haired girl was still looking at her calmly, with nothing but emptiness in her eyes.

"I... I've endured so much pain, so much pain that's about to tear me apart. Is that enough? Is that enough?"

Feimali asked almost pleadingly, and the girl just shook her head slightly. She showed the moment when Feimali was about to hold Lan's hand and turn all her pain into strength, but she could only stagnate the reality for less than a moment, and the ending would not change... unless she accumulated more pain.

"This... this is impossible. Why am I going crazy and still can't change anything? This is impossible..."

Realizing this, Fei Ma Li completely collapsed and knelt on the ground, wailing and crying, while the girl looked down at her without any expression. She did not persuade or blame, but finally just asked softly.

"Feimary, do you want to give up?"

"I……"

Uehara Himari opened her eyes wide, staring blankly at herself covered in blood. Her trembling pupils shrank to the limit. After a long pause, she slowly turned her head to look at

Looking at Mizukami and the others who were torn to pieces in the picture, their expressions gradually turned into complete despair and powerlessness.

After a moment, she struggled to get up from the ground, gritted her teeth and reached out to the symbol for resetting time. Her body twitched with fear, and Feimali desperately held her arm, forcing it to touch the symbol above the void.

...From the outside, only a very small amount of time had passed, not even enough to be perceived, and she could no longer remember how long she had endured.

She still has almost unlimited time. Even though she is panicking and going crazy, she still has to create a new self. They will suffer until they become numb, and she will accept their pain.

...She had no choice, she could only do this.

Chapter 271 Pain, You Are My Only One

This process was much longer than Feimali could have imagined. Countless times, when she thought she could finally change everything, the result was still extremely cold and still required her to suffer more.

She collapsed again and again until she couldn't count. She wailed and cried madly. She madly used all kinds of vicious means to torture her other self, but the girl's expression did not change from beginning to end, which only made her feel an extremely strong sense of irony.

She began to lose recognition of her own body, and everything in her eyes became confused. Her memory was lost bit by bit, slowly shattered by the lingering pain. She lay in a pool of her own blood, not knowing how the injuries on her body appeared. Her numbness was easily torn apart by the new pain that piled up over and over again, and she fell into unimaginable darkness and madness.

...Until her corpse piled up into a mountain, until flowers with blood-red crosses bloomed everywhere, Feimali opened her eyes again. All she could see was scarlet, and all she felt was pain.

"here we go……"

She murmured softly to herself and slowly climbed up from the flesh and blood, but before she could take a step, her ankle was grabbed by a twisted hand. She turned around and met the devastated face of one of the corpses, Fei Mali.

"Feimary! Stop it! Don't go on... I can't take it! You can't take it! Why do we have to endure this?! Even Lan and the others are not worth it! Stop it!"

Feimali did not answer. She just chopped off her hands with an expressionless face. After removing the restraints, she continued to walk forward, but more and more corpses began to scream and roar, crawling towards her madly.

"Stop! Feimary! We are only human after all! We can't hurt ourselves over and over again like this, we can't do it!"

She still didn't answer, but patiently tore off their flesh and bones, making sure that they were no longer able to hinder her before continuing to move forward. She stepped over countless of her own cries, crawled over the mountain of corpses bit by bit, and finally came in front of the girl and nodded to her gently.

"I'm here. Sorry they took me so long."

"There is no concept of time here. If you don't give up, it doesn't matter when you come."

The girl responded softly, and when Feimali was about to reset again, she suddenly held her hand, causing Feimali to turn around and look at her in confusion.

"Why are you holding me back?"

"Feimary...why don't you give up?"

The girl looked at her with empty eyes, a complex expression on her face full of incomprehension.

"As they said, you're just a human who signed a contract. You shouldn't have been able to hold on until now. You've torn everything you had apart. Do those warm memories still mean anything to you? Is it necessary for you to sacrifice so much for your friends?"

"...You're right. I don't remember what I once valued. Even now, when I look at Mizukari and the others, I don't feel anything."

After a moment of silence, Feimali nodded calmly, and when the girl was about to ask more questions, she responded softly first.

"But now, pain is nothing to me. No matter how much it piles up, no matter how it changes, I will no longer resist it. To me, it is like air, water, and food."

"And I choose to continue because there are certain things I have never been able to forget. They are incredibly stubborn. Even at this moment, they still keep telling me that I must change everything... So, I choose to continue."

"...You are no longer human, Scarlet Mary."

The girl was stunned for a moment and then suddenly laughed, and Fei Mali nodded slightly.

"Yeah, I think I should be called a monster now, but I don't care anymore. Those Blood Crosses are already very familiar to me. I even have a special nickname for each of them. Their methods are starting to get a bit boring to me."

"Let's start chatting again after I finish this reset."

She raised her hand to touch the sign, and in the process that had become so repetitive that she was already tired of it, she suddenly realized that in all these long years, apart from blood plasma and meat paste, there seemed to be nothing to accompany her... She felt a little lonely.

...No, there is still something to keep me company.

Looking at herself crying and collapsing again, this thought suddenly flashed through Fei Mali's mind. She suddenly realized something and couldn't help but chuckle.

"Really? I didn't react for a moment... Hasn't the pain been with me all along?"

"O pain, you are my only one. I desire nothing else but you."

Fei Ma Li chopped off the head of a collapsed woman with force, kissed her broken face with a smile, and held the head in her arms to feel the warm blood.

"Pain, you have always been faithfully with me, and have not changed even a little bit until now."

As revenge for her, all the corpses hatefully merged everything they had into Feimali's body. They hoped to defeat her with pain, but Feimali's expression remained unchanged, and she just continued to walk forward.

"When my soul was wandering at the bottom of the abyss, you were the only one who stayed by my side, protecting me. How could I blame you?"

Fei Mali gently touched the mark. She no longer trembled at this moment. At the same time, she was silently counting in her heart when the familiar blood crosses would appear and when the torture would begin. This was her unique interest.

At the same time, she couldn't help but close her eyes and praised all of this in a very soft voice.

"Pain, you will never flee from my side, and now, I can finally express my respect for you and clearly recognize your existence... Your mere existence in this world is so beautiful."

"You are like the one who has never left the hearth of my poor heart, and has stayed with me longer than the friends I have always been attached to. I know you all too well, and I am so grateful to you."

"Although I no longer know what happiness is, I know that when I die, you will still be with me. Deep in my heart, you will lie down beside me... and I will thank you for the last time."

"Tear,"

The last corpse merged into Fei Mali's body, and she wiped the blood off her face with a smile. She turned around and walked towards the sign as usual, but a sudden sound made her stop the next moment.

"That's enough, Scarlet Mary."

"Huh? What did you say?"

"I said, enough is enough, you don't need to do this anymore."

The girl sighed deeply, tired and complicated

She took a breath, and Fei Mali was also stunned. She thought for a long time before she understood what she meant, and couldn't help blinking.

"Long ago, you said the pain needed to change the outcome was enough?"

"Well... there's only one more thing to do."

The girl nodded silently, then gently held Feimali's hand. She led Feimali into the stagnant picture and slowly merged into her body.

Strangely, this time, Feimali did not feel the pain of ****. From the emotions coming from herself, she only felt... sadness, heavy sadness.

"Why are you so sad? Everything you hoped for has finally come true, hasn't it?"

Feimali asked in confusion, and the girl stopped, looked back at her with tears in her eyes, and hugged her body tightly with trembling hands, even if it meant being swallowed by Feimali faster.

"I'm sorry... Feimali, you've paid too much and endured too much. I'm sorry."

"...No need to apologize, Feima Li. I know you've been persevering."

After a moment's silence, Fei Ma Li also hugged her back and whispered in her ear. While crying, the girl's body merged into her little by little, and Fei Ma Li felt nothing but sadness and guilt.

"..."

She stopped for a long time, but finally chose to move forward. She came to the girl who was about to hold Mizukami's hand. After sighing, she held her hand tightly.

It's time to end this extremely long repetition.

She smiled at the girl, then threw her backwards with force. The power gained from countless pains knocked Mizukami and the others away, and also destroyed the exit. She closed her eyes and listened quietly to the familiar screams, feeling the opening and closing.

The next moment, Fei Mali opened her eyes that had just recovered. She looked down at the weapon stuck in her body and shrugged slightly.

"Nothing new here, guys."

Without hesitation, she tore her own flesh and blood and climbed up from the ground. The blood crosses around her subconsciously wanted to overwhelm her, but in the blink of an eye, they were pierced through the neck by the weapons she pulled out of her body, and the gushing blood soaked her body.

"Sorry, Big Guy, Dumb Head, and Plate, I don't really want to play with you anymore. It's been repetitive for too long."

Uehara Himari chuckled, then tore off her filthy face with force. Her new facial features quickly recovered. At the same time, she used a dagger to pry open her skull and poured out all the bugs in her head.

"Ahhhh!"

After a moment's silence, all the Blood Crosses rushed forward with roars, and Uehara Himari also cut open her chest and pulled out the steel bars in her body. She threw it away fiercely, and the spilled blood instantly turned into a large amount of dust, which quickly grew and poured into their mouths and noses, causing them to fall to the ground.

A blood cross behind him wanted to raise his crossbow, but before he could do so, his throat was pierced by a dagger thrown by Feimali. Several others wanted to surround her, but Feimali had already known their blind spots for attack. While leisurely strolling, she had already swung her knife through their hearts, causing them to fall to the ground one after another.

She changed her entire body, and the Blood Crosses all died in this ease. When Feimali grabbed the throat of the last Blood Cross and lifted him up, his crazy face was full of incomprehension. He grabbed her arm and stared at her intently.

"Ahem...how could you..."

"Strange? I'd actually be happy to explain it to you, but it's a bit of a waste of time, so forget it."

Feimali shook her head slightly, and after meeting her seemingly calm gaze, Blood Cross suddenly froze for a moment, then he seemed to realize something, gave up struggling, slowly revealed a twisted smile, and his hoarse voice was full of appreciation.

"You are amazing... my kind."

"Thank you for the compliment."

Fei Mali nodded slightly, then strangled his neck directly. She threw the body aside and after finally finding a relatively intact piece of clothing, she put it on while raising her hand to cast a spell, causing the flames to suddenly expand and cover the blood all over the ground.

In the scorching flames, the girl hummed a song as she walked forward. Her body gradually began to tremble, and her smile became more twisted and wanton with her steps. Her hysterical laughter also resounded throughout the entire underground space, and the swaying shadow reflected by the sparks was full of madness.

"Come on, it's time to go find our friends. We can't keep them waiting any longer. After all, time has returned to normal... Oh, and I think I need to say hello to my old friend."

Then, Feimali seemed to suddenly remember something. She stopped, curled the corners of her mouth, turned around and waved gently to the flames and blood, and even slowly bent down to salute.

"Thank you for your company, my pain. Please follow me from now on."

Chapter 272 Xian Juanxin's Decision

"boom!"

Misaki Ozawa was awakened by a loud boom. She opened her eyes suddenly and saw tall buildings collapsing one after another. She couldn't help but stand there in a daze.

It was a while later that she realized that she was being carried on the back of a man in black. Perhaps because he did not expect her to wake up so soon, her wrists were simply tied up, and her heart and the others were also being quickly transferred.

At the same time, Ozawa Misaki soon felt a strange abnormality. She found that her senses seemed to have many extra parts. She could keenly feel the state of every corner of her body. At the same time, she also had an inexplicable feeling: she could perfectly control her body.

Most humans only use their bodies to the most basic level. Even elite warriors who have undergone extensive training cannot be sure that they can use their bodies perfectly... However, for some reason, Ozawa Misaki has this firm sense of confidence at this moment.