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"..."

Ruomai slowly raised her head to meet her gaze, then slowly sighed. She looked at her chest which had not been fully assembled yet, and simply dismantled this part of the steel, revealing the power source inside that was emitting a faint glow, and stood up to look directly at Shiina Riki.

"You still hate what I said back then, don't you?"

"Ruomai, stop provoking her. We just want this to end as soon as possible..."

"Haizi, you just don't want her to clash with Xiangzi again and get hurt, right? In your eyes, she is far more important than me, isn't she?"

Ruomai interrupted Hailing's persuasion indifferently, and the girl was stunned for a moment and couldn't help pursing her lips. She didn't know how to answer for a moment, and finally could only sigh.

"Don't say that, Ruomai. Didn't we agree with each other before? We are going to love each other. Hailing must care about you too. Don't question her like that."

At this time, Sanjiao Chuhua realized that the situation was not good and hurriedly wanted to stand up to smooth things over, but Ruomai just shook his head, his voice full of fatigue.

"Haizi did try to care about me before, but I disappointed her. It was once when she suggested killing all the bands, and now it's another time when she said those words to Aine... Haven't you noticed? Hatsuko, she's already tired of me. The only reason she didn't blame me is because I'm still her teammate."

"That's not true! Hailing was willing to share her flesh and blood with me before. She could clearly show such love to a lunatic like me. She can definitely accept you too! Hailing, am I right?"

Sanjiao Chuhua shook her head eagerly and turned her expectant gaze to Hailing, but the latter turned her head away to avoid her gaze and remained silent.

“…Hailing?”

Chu Hua looked at her in astonishment and spoke softly in confusion, while Ruo Mai sighed without surprise and turned to look at Ruo Ye Mu who was staring out the window.

"What about you, Mutsuko? The other you is gone, and now I'm only going to hear one answer... Do you care about me?"

"Ruomai, on the day I lost her, I noticed everyone's expressions... Only you didn't look sad at all. Instead, you seemed happy for me. Why?"

Ruoye Mu slowly turned his head, stared at her for a moment, and asked softly. Ruo Mai was stunned for a moment, then realized something and chuckled helplessly.

"Because from a mental health perspective, her death was a good thing for you, Mutsuko. Even if she wanted to protect you, her existence was mentally abnormal... At that time, I was happy that you finally recovered."

"Healed? She was taken to Aldebaran and imprisoned by Hastur for eternity, and you think this is my healing?"

Ruoye Mu opened his eyes slightly, and in addition to surprise, there was also a clear coldness in his eyes. Xiangzi also noticed this at this time, and hurriedly spoke to stabilize the situation.

"Mu, Ruomai didn't mean that. She just thought..."

"No, that's what I meant."

Ruomai interrupted her softly, and Xiangzi was stunned for a moment and looked at her in confusion, just meeting the calm gaze of the purple-haired girl.

"Xiangzi, I know you don't want me to have conflicts with others, but the cracks have already appeared. They definitely exist. No matter how much you pretend not to see them, they won't disappear."

"Rather than waiting for it to completely explode one day, I might as well point it out in advance. It will be better for all of us if we make it clear sooner."

"But……"

"Muzi, this is my answer. I know you won't be satisfied with my words, but I won't lie to you. Now tell me, do you care about me? Do you care about Yutenji Wakami in front of you?"

Before Xiangzi wanted to say something anxiously, Ruomai turned around and looked at Ruoyemu seriously. The latter frowned. She glanced at Chuhua with a pleading face, hesitated for a moment, and shook her head.

"You're completely different from Ruomai before. I didn't interact with her much, but she still considered my feelings. I didn't say I cared about her at the time, and that was my fault... However, you're very cold and indifferent. You never care about feelings. You only say words that I can't understand."

"This time, I can honestly say that I've never been happier with you."

"Mu, why..."

Hearing her resolute voice, Chu Hua felt dizzy and almost fell to the ground. After a while, she squeezed out a cry-filled voice in pain. Ruo Yemu did not respond to her question, but just lowered his eyes silently.

"Ruomai, what exactly do you want to do?"

At this time, Toyokawa Shoko couldn't help but frown and ask, and Ruomai also sighed lightly. She looked up and met her gaze. After a moment, she suddenly smiled helplessly, with self-mockery and fatigue on her face.

"Xiangzi, you know what? Every time I hear you say this name, I actually feel a sense of strangeness. At first, I wanted to pursue my own identity, but when I finally found this so-called belonging, I found that I couldn't adapt to it at all."

"You all know what the real Yutenji Wakami looks like, but I know nothing about her. I only have fragmented memories, and I can't even immerse myself in those scenes. I'm like a bystander."

"It was precisely because I couldn't understand human emotions that I misunderstood what you really wanted from me... Xiangzi, you actually know that what Shiina Ritsuki said is absolutely correct. I'm not Yutenji Wakami. I'm just the AI ​​that grew from her corpse. I happen to have a little bit of her legacy, but that's all... I'm not the person in your memory."

"Don't say that, Ruomai, I care about you very much, I don't want you to say that about yourself..."

"Are you still denying all this? If Ye Mu and Hachiman Hailing have already discovered this, Chuhua is only so obsessed with me because of her confused mental state... You should have admitted this long ago, Xiangzi. The girl who risked her life to save you is dead. You have always treated me as her. You have been deceiving yourself."

"do not talk!"

Shoko Toyokawa suddenly roared, which made everyone except Ruomai stunned for a moment. She stared at the purple-haired girl in front of her with trembling hands. The figure with a horrible bloody hole in the chest appeared in front of her again. She quickly turned her eyes away from the glaring mechanical gap, sobbing and trying hard to squeeze out a sound.

"Ruomai, I have never thought of it this way. I know you are the real Yutenji Ruomai. Stop questioning your own existence. Please don't say such things..."

"Do you really think so, Xiangzi?"

The girl shook her head and slowly approached her. The mechanical structure revealed in her chest kept conflicting with Xiangzi's memory, causing the blue-haired girl's face to twist slightly. She gritted her teeth and spoke softly.

"Ruomai, take care of your body first. We can talk about our business later."

"Why? This shouldn't matter, right?"

The girl stared at her expressionlessly and raised her voice calmly.

"Or, when you see this gap, you'll realize that I'm completely different from what you remember, so you want me to look more like a human?"

"..."

Shoko Toyokawa lowered her head and was silent for a long time, so long that Ruomai almost thought she was going to refuse to answer the question. Before she was about to continue asking, a weak and desperate voice slowly sounded.

"That's right,"

"what?"

"That's right! I just want you to look more like a human! I know you're an AI now, but can you please stop reminding me of that?! Can you please just let me indulge in this illusion?!"

Shoko Toyokawa suddenly raised her tearful face and roared madly. She grabbed Ruomai's collar tightly and stared at those familiar eyes. For a moment, she was overwhelmed by the bloody memories of that day and sobbed uncontrollably.

"Ruomai, Ruomai, why did you risk your life to save me? Mujica obviously can't live without you, why do you want to die like this? I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

She apologized in a daze while kneeling weakly on the ground. When Chu Hua subconsciously wanted to help her up, a pair of cold mechanical arms lifted her up first, and then a complex voice sounded slowly, making Xiangzi open his eyes wide.

"Xiangzi, you shouldn't apologize to me. I'm not the person you know."

"But……"

"Don't rush to answer. I don't want you to continue to deceive yourself because of pain and guilt, but if you can honestly confirm that I am really Yutenji Wakami, then look into my eyes."

The girl spoke softly, and Xiangzi subconsciously met her gaze. Those were eyes she was familiar with, but the fatigue in them was not what she remembered, which made Xiangzi stunned.

After realizing this, she panicked and instinctively wanted to look away, but her face was gently held by the girl, and she had to continue looking into those eyes.

"Now, answer me, Xiangzi, do you really think that I am the Yutenji Wakami you know? Do you really think so?"

"I……"

Toyokawa Shoko tried desperately to give an affirmative response, but under the serious gaze of those eyes, she could not utter a sound. In the confusion of emotions, she had to face the painful truth in her heart.

...She could actually feel that although the girl in front of her inherited a part of Ruomai, she and Ruomai were two different individuals after all. She was not Ruomai, but she had always been unwilling to acknowledge Ruomai's death, so she blindly treated her as her friend.

"……sorry."

After a moment, she gave up lying and apologized weakly. The girl was stunned for a moment and revealed that she had

With the expected self-deprecating smile, she shook her head slightly, then let go of Toyokawa Shoko, looked around, and sighed.

"No, you don't need to apologize. I was obsessed with the illusion that I was Yutenji Wakamu, and only now did I finally understand it all... I was actually never accepted by you. I was too self-indulgent."

"No, don't say that, Ruomai! I am willing to accept you, and I care about you too!"

At this time, Sanjiao Chuhua hurriedly grabbed her hand, and Ruomai just shook his head.

"Hatsuka, you only say such impulsive words because of your own mental defects. Everyone else has confirmed that I am not Yutenji Wakami. I have no reason to stay in Avemujica anymore."

"Regardless of whether you're the same Ruomai from before, at least everything you've experienced with us is real, isn't it?! You and I also made a promise that you'd let me learn to love you, so why are you backing out now?!"

Sanjiao Chuhua screamed and begged incomprehension. She subconsciously turned to look at Xiangzi, but found that the latter was just covering his face and sobbing softly. She hurriedly looked at Hailing and Mu, but they just stood there silently, with no intention of speaking.

"Chuhua, you see, Xiangzi and the others only need the real Yutenji Wakamu, and I am just a fake."

The girl shook her head and raised her hand to gesture to Xiangzi, who was sobbing and curled up on the sofa.

"Xiangzi is suffering right now. You should take care of her first rather than me. Isn't she the one you care about the most?"

"I……"

Chu Hua hesitated for a moment, not knowing what to say, and seeing her reaction, Ruomai completely threw away the last bit of hesitation. Data stream flowed out of the mechanical body, and her tired voice slowly sounded.

"I've tried my best to learn about love, but I still can't learn it all... I'm sorry, Chuhua, I want to love you, but I don't have the ability, nor am I qualified to do so."

"I can't love or be loved, and I don't deserve the name Yutenji Wakamu... From now on, you should call me Amoris. This ironic name is more suitable for an AI like me."

"Ruomai!"

Chu Hua subconsciously wanted to keep her, but at this time she also saw that Li Xi had raised his hand towards the data stream with an indifferent expression, and his voice was full of cold murderous intent.

"Well done, Amoris, I'm glad you finally realized your true nature... Now die!"

Space ripples erupted instantly, and Chu Hua gritted his teeth and desperately tried to condense a tide of rats. The huge number of rats delayed Li Xi's attack for a moment, and the data stream seized the opportunity to teleport away.

At the same time Chu Hua breathed a sigh of relief, Li Xi also flashed directly in front of her. She grabbed her collar with anger, dragged her roughly in front of her, and roared incomprehensibly.

"What are you doing?! She's already admitted that she's not Yutenji Wakami, why are you still protecting her?! Now she's nothing but the murderer of Deng!"

"I don't care about that! I just know that she and I made a promise together, so she's my friend!"

Chu Hua fiercely shook off Li Xi's hand, and the latter was stunned for a moment and then sneered, raising his hand to point at Toyokawa Shoko, who was barely recovering from the pain and looked tired on the other side.

"So what about Toyokawa Shoko? When that AI just now said it wanted to quit, she didn't say a word. When I was about to take action just now, she didn't stop me either. She obviously doesn't care about that guy. Do you want to object to her opinion?"

"I……"

Chuhua couldn't help but be stunned at this moment. She turned to look at Xiangzi subconsciously in confusion, and the blue-haired girl silently avoided her pleading gaze. After a moment, she squeezed out a voice that made Chuhua unbelievable.

"Chuhua, Lixi is right. That AI wasn't our Ruomai from the beginning... If she hadn't said that, perhaps Deng wouldn't have committed suicide. Since she wasn't Ruomai, I can't forgive her... Don't worry about her. If possible, we have to find a way to kill her."

“But, Xiangzi…”

"Please, Chuhua, I really don't have the energy to persuade you anymore...abandon her and stand on my side."

Chuhua wanted to say something incomprehensible, but Xiangzi interrupted her weakly. After hearing her pleading voice, the blonde girl couldn't help but open her eyes wide and stared blankly at the familiar golden eyes filled with tears.

The scene of the promise she made with Ruomai and the others that day flashed through her mind again, but the next moment, they were all shattered by the knife that stabbed into her mother's chest. The blood-stained fragments fell down with despair, causing her pupils to shrink to the extreme.

...So, is there really no point in trying to love from the beginning? Then, doesn't that mean she only has one choice left?

Sanjiao Chuhua began to tremble. She covered her face and tried her best to suppress the corners of her mouth that were about to turn up. Her mother's blood spread to her feet, and she looked up at her only treasure, smiled and nodded slightly.

"I understand, Xiangzi. Since this is your idea, I will definitely help you with all my strength."

It turns out that she has never been able to have so-called normal love from the beginning... Then, she can only fall into her own twisted greed and let the rat drown everything she has.

The only person she cared about was Xiangzi.

Chapter 353 Anger and Powerlessness

"The operation was a success, Misaki. You don't have to worry about her anymore."

Genmaki Shin spoke softly, and Ozawa Misaki just stared tiredly at the pale girl on the bed. After a moment, she spoke weakly.

"why?"

"I've already told you, Misaki, this is a necessary measure. Rather, I can't understand why you still care so much about the lives of innocent people."

Genmaki sighed, her tone filled with incomprehension and confusion. She walked to Misaki's side, stared at her and continued to speak seriously.

"We've all seen countless deaths, haven't we? Life isn't that important, it's so fragile. What difference does it make whether we kill those tens of thousands of people? They'll die eventually; it's just a matter of time."

"Oh, is this your reason? Because everyone will die anyway, so it doesn't matter if you kill as many people as you want?"

At this moment, Ozawa Misaki only felt a strong sense of absurdity and irony. She turned to look at the blonde girl with a sneer, and the latter just nodded calmly.

"That's right. Because I have the power, I can do this, Misaki. Ikumi died because of my stupidity and my lack of strength. If I had the army I have now, the Blood Cross disaster could have been easily wiped out... My mistake was awakening too late."

"And then? Even if Yumei were still alive today, would she approve of what you did? You've even become a bloody executioner. Do you think she would support you?"

"I don't know, and I'll never know. Even if she opposed me and hated me like you do, I would actually be happy. But she's already dead, and there's no way she can come back... For me, the only sin I have is not being able to protect her."

Genmaki Kokoro responded softly, and Ozawa Misaki sighed deeply. She gave up arguing and lowered her head, just sitting there powerlessly, not planning to question anymore.

This strange friend of mine.

"Heart! Misaki!"

The next moment, a familiar and urgent cry suddenly rang out, and a haggard-looking Kanon Matsubara and Kaoru Seta rushed into the ward. Misaki Okuzawa couldn't help but be stunned for a moment, and before she subconsciously wanted to say anything, the girl asked hurriedly in pain and incomprehension.

"Misaki, is the message you sent me true?! Did Kokoro... really do something like that?"

"That's right. Those tens of thousands of people are now dead, and the unstable factors threatening the company have been completely eliminated... Hanane, this is a good thing for us."

Xianjuanxin responded calmly and softly, and Hanane couldn't help but widen her eyes when she heard her words. She stared at Xianjuanxin in a daze, only to feel her vision flickering, and subconsciously made a confused and trembling sound in the chaos.