mygo, but Cthulhu

"Soyorin, you promised me that if I ever lost control, you would kill me... Now is the time to fulfill your promise."

Hearing her words, Su Shi opened her eyes wide and tried to beg, but Aine gritted her teeth and interrupted her first, leaving Su Shi stunned. After she came to her senses, her voice became broken and painful, and she desperately held Aine's hand in panic.

“Aine…don’t do this, please, I really can’t lose any more, I want to continue living with you…”

"It's okay, Soyorin. I know you're a strong person. Even if I die, you still have Rikki and Lenai... Besides, I've actually discovered that although our feelings for each other are important, no one can really live without the other."

Aine sighed slowly, smiled softly at her, and gently but firmly pulled her hand out little by little.

"We simply endured too much in a short period of time. The grief accumulated in our consciousness, making us fear loss to the point of near insanity... In truth, we all turned the pain into obsession and poured it into each other, which is why we are so afraid... However, we hurt so many people in the process, so it is only natural that we would lose more."

"What Amoris said back then was actually true. Even if I sacrificed the lives of innocent people to prolong my waking hours, it truly was meaningless... The warmth we shared will forever remain in our memories, yet it was drowned out by pain, becoming an accomplice to that pain... I realized it too late, but fortunately, I was still able to make a final attempt to remedy the situation."

Chihaya Aine

She spoke in a low voice, then turned to look at Xiangzi. At this time, an uncontrollable blood color appeared in the depths of her gray eyes, and her voice was full of pleading.

"Xiangzi, please don't help them stop me."

“Aine…”

As Toyokawa Shoko spoke in pain, Aine stomped on the ground and rushed out at the fastest speed. Su Shi opened her eyes wide and released the barrier without hesitation, but she used all her strength to break it directly.

"Chihaya Aine!"

Aine heard Riki's shrill scream from behind her, and at the same time, a spatial rift appeared in her body. However, she was prepared for this move. She stepped on the ground again with terrifying acceleration and changed direction at a high speed. At the cost of her calf flesh being instantly shattered, she avoided the capture of the rift and rushed forward.

At this moment, Toyokawa Shoko subconsciously raised her hand. She knew that as long as she could release the spell in time, Aine would be captured... But did she really want to do this?

Those amber eyes, filled with despair and pleading, appeared before her eyes again. Aine's expression just now was exactly the same as Deng's, filled with exhaustion and oppression that refused to endure the torment any longer... She had been devastated by Deng's abandonment, but hadn't Deng also found freedom in death? Even if they were both in pain because of her departure, wasn't that a blessing for her?

Even if they forced Aine to stay, they would have to kill her with their own hands...which would be even more cruel.

After realizing this, Toyokawa Shoko sighed deeply, and she weakly put down her hand. Then Aine's figure disappeared directly with a whistling sound. Su Shi was stunned for a moment, then slowly turned back to look at her in disbelief. Her voice was extremely desperate, but it seemed steady.

"Xiangzi...you clearly had the opportunity to stop her, why didn't you do it?"

"What would happen if we kept her here? The only way out is gone. If she leaves now, at least we won't have to kill her ourselves, right?"

"But, I at least want to see her last moment. Even if her life must end, I still want to be with her until the end!"

Su Shi cried and wailed. She seemed to have lost all her strength. She fell to her knees on the ground completely powerless, and tears fell drop by drop on the dust.

"Even if I'm destined to lose her, I still want to hold her until the very last moment... Why? Why can't I even fulfill such a small wish? I just want to see the one I love one last time. Doesn't this world even allow that?"

“Every time, it’s always like this… Deng gave up, and when I arrived, you told us the news of her death. I was talking to my mother on the phone the day before, and then she was killed by that monster without any warning. I could only find her head… Now even Aine is leaving. Why is this? Why?!”

She screamed in despair and pounded the hard ground frantically, causing her fragile palms to quickly become torn and bruised. But even so, she seemed to feel no pain, screaming and hurting herself continuously, hoping that the physical pain could cover up the mental torture.

"..."

Toyokawa Shoko didn't know how to comfort her for a moment. After a moment of silence, she sighed and took out a pistol, ready to kill Bailu Qiansheng, the unstable factor. When Eve hurriedly wanted to rush forward, Mizukawa calmly stood in front of Shoko, and raised her hand to signal to the unconscious Tomoe on the other side.

"Wait, she promised us that she wouldn't let us sink into the dream... But Ba was also affected by her spell. Wait until I confirm that she can wake up and has no sequelae, then you can kill Bai Lu Qiansheng."

"This dangerous creature is a risk. Even letting her live for one more minute is a risk. Do you really want to do this?"

Toyokawa Shoko frowned and asked, while Mitakeran looked at her coldly.

"This is all for everything I care about... Aren't you the same? In order to keep Chihaya Aine awake for a little longer, you even let her eat Tomoe's sister, not caring that she will go crazy sooner or later... You have no right to blame me, right?"

Toyokawa Shoko was speechless for a moment, but at this moment Bailu Qiansheng suddenly laughed and shook his head gently.

"It's no use now. It's very difficult for Udagawa Tomoe to wake up. I didn't cast a spell on her intentionally. This was her own choice."

"What do you mean..."

"Bai Lu Qiansheng, you said that Ba can't wake up? If that's true, then I'm going to lose a very important toy... You don't want your friend to experience the torture methods of the Blood Cross, do you?"

Before Mizukari could subconsciously ask, Feimali suddenly rushed in front of Qiansheng, grabbed her collar fiercely, gritted her teeth and grinned as she spoke softly. The blonde girl trembled at her threat, took a deep breath, and tried her best to remain calm and explain.

"This isn't my fault, Himari. I didn't break my promise to Mizukuri... When I cast the spell just now, some of the magic power leaked out due to the spell's sheer size. Udagawa Tomoe took it in and lost herself in this dream."

"Really? Then I believe you must have a way to solve it?"

Fei Mali's face was twisted and close to her eyes, and her terrifying eyes, widened to the limit, stared at Qiansheng's eyes. The blonde girl looked at her silently for a moment, and then frowned in surprise as if she had discovered something.

She had thought she would see utter madness and distortion in Feimali's eyes... However, when her senses temporarily failed and there was no interference from those screams and laughter, she instead noticed the incongruity in those eyes through her extreme understanding of the human spirit.

There is indeed no lack of madness and chaos here... However, what surprised Bai Lu Qiansheng was that she actually saw worry hidden under bloody desire in Fei Mali's eyes. This seemingly crazy girl was not worried about ugly desires at this moment, but was really worried about her friends?

Bailu Qiansheng couldn't help but open her eyes wide at this unbelievable discovery. The next moment, she felt the dagger stabbed directly into her stomach. Feimali turned the blade in annoyance. The severe pain made Qiansheng's face twisted. She grabbed her shoulders tremblingly to avoid falling.

"I'm asking you a question, Shiraeguro Chisei. Why are you looking at me with such disgusting eyes? I really want to rip your head open and pour all the contents of your intestines into it... Now, tell me, how can I make Udagawa Tomoe wake up?! She's my toy! How can I just sink into her like this?!"

"You guy..."

"Let Qiansheng go!"

Just when Mizukuri clenched her fists in exasperation, even though Bailu Qiansheng desperately shook her head to dissuade her, Wakamiya Eve raised her hand without hesitation and cast a spell, allowing the ice crystal to directly penetrate Feimali's body.

“Hahahahaha! Hahahahaha! This is so exciting!!!”

The pain was like a spark that ignited the madness that had been suppressed for a long time in Feimali. She laughed wildly, turned around suddenly, drew out a dagger and rushed towards Eve. When the latter subconsciously wanted to fight, Feimali turned into dust and passed by her. Then, a distorted voice sounded in Yamato Maya's ears.

"Hello, friend of Qiansheng."

Maya's body froze in fear as the dagger, stained with the blood of the Thousand Saints, pressed against her face, staining her skin bright red.

"Feimary, you actually dare to do this..."

Wakamiya Eve roared in anger, while Himari shrugged and patted Maya's shoulder with a smile.

"I haven't done anything yet, Wakamiya Eve, but if you keep interfering with me like this, I don't know what I might do... Do you think you can save this poor girl in time? Or is my sword faster?"

"you……"

Wakamiya Eve trembled, and her face turned pale. She noticed the fear in her eyes that temporarily overshadowed her anger. Feimali's face became more and more distorted, and lust filled her crazy consciousness.

Look at them, how pitiful they are, each one struggling in the mire because of their friends... Why not just kill this girl right in front of her? Scarlet Mary? You also want to see her expression at that time, right?

At this moment, the restless temptation sounded in her ears again, and Feimali had long been accustomed to it. She turned around with a sneer in her fantasy and looked at herself with a blood cross on her face.

"Shut up, you bastard. I still need Bai Lu Qiansheng to help me save Ba. Her safety is the most important thing."

"After going through so much, you still say such things? Feimali, you don't owe them anything at all, why don't you accept me? Then you will experience unparalleled freedom..."

"You're a piece of shit. You're just my illusion, an insignificant piece of shit. I can never be you because you're fucking nothing. Do you understand?! You're nothing! Hahahaha! Hahahahaha!"

Feimali gave her the middle finger, then felt a twisted excitement and laughed uncontrollably. In Maya's panic and disbelief, she picked up the dagger and cut her throat directly, hugged Maya's body tightly, and let her blood spray on her body as she screamed.

"Phew, it feels so good."

After turning Yamato Maya into a bloody mess and leaving her and Wakamiya Eve stunned, Feimali hummed a song and staggered towards Shirasagi Chisei. At the same time, she became even more amused by Mitakeran's extremely disgusted look, and smiled as she pulled the blonde girl up from the ground.

"Now, can you tell me what I should do to wake Tomoe up?"

"...Since she chose to immerse herself in the dream, the best solution is for me to use mental magic to pull her out. However, I can only use the spell after a day. Because her brain has been altered by the drugs, her magic power is severely rejected by her body. Her consciousness is dissipating with every passing moment, and she will be brain dead in three hours."

Seeing that she didn't really hurt Maya, Shiraishi Chisei became more and more certain of her discovery. She looked at Himari with a complicated look and explained softly, and the girl's face twisted instantly.

"So is there any other way?"

"Yes, that is to allow the soul of the person most familiar to her subconscious mind to enter her consciousness. However, this means that the magic power will continue to tear at this person's defenseless soul. Even if she can wake up, I'm afraid that person will die."

Bailu Qiansheng responded seriously, and after a moment of silence, Feimali laughed and turned to look at Mizukuri who had a suppressed expression.

"Lan, Mocha, it sounds like this is another classic life-for-life situation. Speaking of which, I really want to complain about this shitty world. Why do such disgusting situations always occur? Isn't there even a little bit of novelty?"

"Don't go crazy here, Feimali, get out of my way. Since this is the only way, then I must..."

"What do you have to do? Sacrifice yourself? Don't be ridiculous, Mizukari. You don't have that kind of power."

Fei Mali shook her head slightly, and at the same time she leaned over and held Tomoe's hand. Mizukuri was alert and subconsciously wanted to stop her, but at this moment, she also met those eyes, and was surprised to find that there was some familiar emotions in them.

Was this a hallucination, or was it possible that the Scarlet Mary she knew wasn't completely dead, and part of her still lingered within this madman?

"Feimary..."

"Because she is mine. If she died in happiness like this, it would be such a waste. I haven't even tasted her despair and wailing yet."

As Mizukari muttered hesitantly, she saw Feimali's face suddenly twisted. The familiarity in her eyes only lasted for a moment before being overwhelmed by disgusting madness. Lan was stunned for a moment and couldn't help but grit her teeth. She raised her hand angrily and quickly released a spell.

"Don't come near her, you bastard!"

The spell easily shredded Feimali's soul, which had just left her body, but her immortality wasn't limited to her flesh. The translucent girl quickly returned to normal, smirking and waving at Mizukari before burrowing directly into Tomoe's body. Mizukari rushed forward anxiously and furiously, but was stopped by Bailu Qiansheng.

"Wait, Mizukari, the soul of Himari has already gone in. The weight that Udagawa Tomoe's consciousness can bear is also limited. If you follow in, she will die immediately."

"That bastard is definitely going to hurt Tomoe. Am I just going to wait here and let her torture my friend?!"

Mizukari roared madly, while Bailu Qiansheng calmly and gently comforted her.

"She may be crazy, but with her logic, she would at least let Tomoe wake up first. I don't think she would waste time torturing Tomoe's consciousness... Besides, this is your only choice now, isn't it?"

"...If she dares to hurt Tomoe, I'll make her regret it."

Mizukawa didn't know what to say for a moment, and in the end she could only curse weakly and tiredly. She sighed, then raised her hand and grabbed Toyokawa Shoko's pistol that was about to be aimed at Shiragi Chisei again.

"Please, Ms. Toyokawa, please don't do anything right now. I don't want anything to happen to Tomoe."

"But how dangerous is she..."

"Nia's incarnation took the initiative to thwart her plan. Do you think she will still cling to it? She has already been forced to give up her paranoid ideals. There is no need for you to be so eager to kill her."

Mizukawa responded softly, and after looking at her for a moment, Toyokawa Shoko sighed with some complexity, hesitated for a moment, and finally put down the gun.

"Alright... considering we really owe you a debt, I won't kill her for now. But if I find out she's plotting something else during this time, you can't stop me."

"Okay, I promise you."

Chapter 370 Shattered Dream

"Ba? Ba?"

In a trance, Ueda Gawabata heard a vague yet familiar voice. She subconsciously opened her eyes, but met a pair of unexpectedly worried eyes.

"Are you okay, Tomoe? How come you suddenly fell asleep standing up during practice? Is it because you've been too tired lately?"

"Thrush...Thrush!"

After realizing who the girl in front of her was, Tomoe Ueda sobbed and hugged Tsugumi Hanezawa tightly. She herself didn't understand why she had such a reaction, but the pain from unknown sources engulfed her like a tide, making her tremble and desperately hold on to the long-lost warmth in his arms, tears wetting her face.

"That's great, Thrush, you're still alive. I knew you wouldn't die... That's great, that's really great."

"Eh?! Tomoe, what happened to you? Let go a little, I can't breathe..."

Tsugumi Yuzawa was stunned for a moment by her unexpected reaction, and when she came to her senses, she quickly spoke out. Tomoe Udagawa heard her somewhat uncomfortable voice.

Yin Ye quickly let go and stepped back in panic, almost falling to the ground.

"I'm sorry, Thrush, I didn't even think about you just now... I'm sorry, are you okay?! Are you hurt anywhere?!"

She was extremely nervous and wanted to check on Thrush's body, but the latter quickly waved his hands and looked at her with a confused and worried expression.

"Tomoe, I'm fine, you really don't have to worry... But why did you suddenly react like this? Did you have a nightmare?"

"I... I don't know either. I feel like I've had a very long nightmare. In that horrible world, something seems to have happened to you, Thrush, and I can't do anything..."

Tomoe Ueda was stunned for a moment, then tried to squeeze out a sound with trembling hands. She tried to recall the specific content of the nightmare, but terrible pain soon came to her mind, as if another part of her was extremely reluctant to recall those things.

"Okay, don't worry, Tomoe. It's just a nightmare. Thrush is fine and there's nothing wrong with her. We're all safe. Don't feel bad."

Seeing that she was about to cry again, Fei Mali hurried to comfort her. She walked forward and wanted to pat Tomoe's shoulder, but when her palm touched Tomoe, the latter quickly stepped back reflexively, staring at her with fear and anger on his face.

"……bar?"

After seeing her eyes clearly, Himari couldn't help but be stunned for a moment, and Ueda Gawabata then realized how abnormal his reaction was, and hurriedly bowed his head to apologize in panic.

"I'm sorry, Feima Li, I didn't mean to do that... I don't know what happened to me, I'm really sorry."

"It's okay, Tomoe. I don't mind it...but are you really okay? You look really weird."

Himari shook her head and asked softly with increasing concern, while Tomoe was silent for a moment before shaking his head tiredly.

"I'm fine, everyone. I'm sorry to have worried you. I just had such a long nightmare that I haven't recovered yet... I'll be out for a while."

After she finished speaking softly, she hurriedly left the recording studio without waiting for their response, leaving only the four people looking at each other solemnly, and they could see clear worry and confusion in each other's eyes.

After going out, the fresh air that hit her made Ueda Gawabone's mind much clearer. She took a deep breath and found that her last vague impression of the nightmare had disappeared. She only remembered a desperate and cold heart palpitation.

"I had this dream for no apparent reason, and it even interrupted my practice. I'm in a really bad state today."

She sighed silently, trying to calm herself down, and after her consciousness stabilized a little, she suddenly heard a familiar voice coming from behind her.

"Tomoe, are you okay?"

Mizukuri asked with concern as she walked over to her side and handed her her favorite drink. Mocha also brought the snacks to Tomoe at this time and stretched out his voice with a smile.