After my rebirth, Miss Saint turned evil

Yes, the hero has made great contributions, but wasn't I the one who worked so hard behind the scenes? Wasn't I the one who served you?

Despite this, you completely ignore me. Wouldn't it be nice if you could just act a little bit according to my ideas?

Isn’t it nice to just… “You’ve been a great help” or “That’s great” and say such compliments to me?

I know, I know, it's an ugly emotion, and I know I'm just throwing a tantrum.

Still, even so, it was completely unacceptable.

Something close to tears almost overflowed from the corners of her eyes, and An slowly opened her lips.

"...I will explain the whole thing from the beginning. Please listen to the whole thing before making any judgment."

In order not to expose his embarrassment, An said this in a trembling voice.

As a negotiator, this is the first time I have been insulted like this.

Chapter 5 The Thorn in My Heart

——Should I formally join the Heraldry Cult, or maintain my current ambiguous stance, or live as a knight serving Eltis, the elf?

This is the option Lalge An informed me of.

Murphy still remembered that it was a trembling voice, which was rare for her.

"If possible, I hope you can make an ideal choice for the Saint."

After saying this, An glared at Murphy and quickly left the room.

Alas, in the end I still couldn't figure out whether my confinement had been lifted or not. I'm really fed up.

Now thrown into the air-conditioned room again, Murphy rested his elbows on the table, closed his eyes naturally, and thought in his mind.

To him, those were all unexpected choices, and even because of their excessive luxury, they made him feel confused.

After all, all his so-called choices so far were just stretching out his hand, getting his fingers scarred, and then being forced to make a choice.

But now, he was given the right to choose for himself.

However, precisely because he couldn't get used to this, he now didn't know what to do.

Should I become a member of the Heraldry Cult, serve Gasalia, or continue to maintain my current status? Honestly, neither is bad.

The Church of Heraldry should treat Murphy well to some extent, and if he goes to Gasalia, he will be granted the status of a knight.

There is no doubt that those were indeed among his goals.

However, there were also some other concerns in his heart, that is - did he deserve such a thing?

Murphy thought that if it were someone else, they probably wouldn't worry about such things.

If someone were like the sun-like hero Ames Castina, they would surely make choices based on their own justice and kindness.

And Filia is a believer in strength, and Frodo should also choose to become the most important character to herself with her wisdom, and Eltis will make a choice for Gasalia, right?

So, what about me? Why am I here?

Was it to hold Ella's hand?

Is it to fight alongside those whom I admire - the heroes?

Isn’t it to avoid repeating the same mistakes?

The more he thought about it, the more confused Murphy became.

Even things that should have been clear were now shrouded in fog and mist.

Now Murphy didn't even know why she was groaning in annoyance.

"That's not bad. After all, that's what life is like. People are always struggling with regret and pain - contradictions and choices are the greatest joy of life!"

You again? Murphy's eyebrows twitched.

Sneaking quietly into his eyelids, swaying like a crawler, was the shadow that had once given him the choice.

That same exaggerated, twisted smile appeared in Murphy's mind.

Having said that, of course, it was just a random imagination that popped up in my mind.

However, Murphy couldn't help but think: How great it would be if it was Ella's figure that appeared in front of him.

"That's truly disrespectful, but this is the final act. Anyway, the actors have all stepped onto the stage. So, I only have one responsibility left."

The dark appearance was nothing but his imagination, but even though it was clearly his imagination, he said something that he could not understand at all.

Since you are the one who appeared in my mind, why don’t you explain it in a more simple and understandable way?

Ah, no, come to think of it, this black shadow seemed to be like this before, most of the things he said were meaningless and difficult to understand.

If possible, don't beat around the bush. It would be great if you could give the troubled lambs a little more enlightenment.

"No, that won't do. Leaving the choice to others, escaping reality, is wishful thinking. Some people cry out for salvation, while others don't care, but I reject those people."

That makes a lot of sense. I always feel like a fool for seeking the answer.

After saying this, my mind suddenly recalled the figure who had said similar words before.

I still don't quite understand what the villain meant by those words.

But the look of the master at that time was really admirable.

"Therefore, I have only one thing to say: this is an opportunity. The path you've been given is irreversible. You've already left so many footprints."

——And, since you have the happiness to make a choice, then after worrying to your heart's content, make the difficult choice.

Just like that, after leaving these words that he had said once before to Murphy, the shadow disappeared.

As if to say that asking this question was meaningless, there was no longer any sign of its existence in the eyelids.

In the end, I still know nothing.

Well, it must be because of my own worries that the dark shadow appeared in my mind and performed this very boring skit. That must be it.

But despite this, I still felt a little relieved, and it also reminded me of the past, the scene when my heart made the decision.

Murphy exhaled with a "ha", letting the air pass through his throat, and a white mist floated out of his mouth.

For some reason, the cold air that he had previously hated now made him feel very comfortable.

As expected, people cannot change easily - things like habits and nature that are ingrained in them are often difficult to change.

I thought I had suppressed the servility in my heart, but it seems that it still cannot disappear from my heart.

Somewhere in my heart, I still wonder: Can someone like me truly belong to anyone? If too much is placed on me, then perhaps I will be frustrated and even lose everything if I can't meet those expectations.

Because of the fear of losing, I refused to get. In this way, stupid feelings took root in my heart.

Stupid, really stupid. Didn’t I decide on my goal a long time ago?

In order to hold Ella's hand tightly, to fight alongside the heroes whom he admired, and to not repeat the same path as before, everything was already decided.

In order not to give up anything, I am here now, so the action I should take is determined.

Then, it was the shadow that reminded me of this.

This is really, somewhat unacceptable.

Chapter 6: An Qi Ren (3000)

Lalge An felt a twisting in the depths of his stomach, even causing him a dull pain.

For some reason, the joints of my body became stiff, and my feet felt very heavy when I took steps forward. If I let my guard down, countless sighs would probably escape from my lips accidentally.

But there is nothing that can be done about it. Rather than this, I must rush to the venue as soon as possible.

Yes, heading to the venue of the joint meeting between the Church of Heraldry and Gasalia.

Since it is a preparation for a real war, the joint meeting held by the two forces is no longer a simple matter. It is completely different from the previous meeting when the Heraldry Church and Gasalia formed an alliance.

After all, no matter what, it was just a meeting with strong ceremonial significance, but it was just a formal meeting held after the decision to form an alliance.

However, this time is different. Facing the giant sword called the Cathedral that is about to chop down on them, the Church of Heraldry and Gasalia must work together.

No amount of time would be enough to prepare for that.

It was precisely because of this that, even though she had put on makeup to attend the joint meeting, she couldn't hide the dark circles around her eyes.

After all, not only do they have to select the attendees for the meeting and collect information that changes every day in order to arrange for the attendees to develop sophisticated combat plans, but they also have to coordinate the corresponding armaments.

It is hard to say that everything is ready now, after all, there is no end to those unstable factors.

However, what is now entangled in An's heart and binding his legs like heavy chains are not those things.

Rather, she even welcomed the fact that something of that magnitude became an issue.

In fact, what An feared most was that someone would talk about the hero, Murphy, at the meeting.

After all, no matter what, An has not told anyone that the Lord of Gasalia, Fen Eltis, is asking the Heraldry Church to hand over Murphy.

Yes, even including her own master, Saint Matthias, Ann did not say anything.

In reality, that didn't mean Ann had betrayed the Order of Heraldry, nor did it mean she hadn't fulfilled her duties.

After all, Fen Eltis's words were only informal, spoken casually like a small talk when the decision was made to hold a meeting.

In addition, until the convening of the joint meeting, An had been solely responsible for coordinating the work between the Church of Heraldry and Gasalia.

Ann was given this authority from Mattia to handle what happened there at her own discretion.

Therefore, even if one or two things from idle talk are quietly buried in the depths of one's heart, there is no reason to be blamed.

But Ann knew about it, or rather, it was impossible for her not to know about it - she'd better tell it out loud, that is, she'd better report it to Saint Matthias.

Although it was just a casual chat, the person that the Queen of the Allied Country now wants to be delivered is undoubtedly an important figure in the Church of Heraldry, that is, Murphy. This is a big problem.

Therefore, if the two forces want to cooperate sincerely in the future battle, this is undoubtedly a matter that must be dealt with as a priority.

However, even after understanding this, An still couldn't bring himself to speak to Mattia.

The reason is: the unpleasant changes felt in Saint Matthias.

What would happen if Saint Madia, who now has feelings for Murphy that are free from calculation and gains and losses, were informed of Fen Eltis's extradition request?

Whenever An thought of this, a creepy feeling would emerge in his mind.

It was as if the devil's fingertips were touching there, and An could even feel the touch personally.

So, there were two possible endings that An could see in the end.

The first one is that Saint Mattia's mind was filled with the same elaborate plan as before, and she would hand over Murphy to Gasalia without reservation.

At the same time, this is also the path that An believes the Church of Heraldry should take.

After all, the existence of Murphy itself did not disappear, but was extradited to Gasalia, an ally. The alliance between the Church of Heraldry and Gasalia should become more solid because of this.

Rather, perhaps the Heraldry Church could interfere with Gasalia's policies through Mephi.

Even considering the possibility of losing two important combat forces, Filia and Frodo, this outcome is still beneficial.

Rather, there is a view within the Church of Heraldry that unstable combat power following a certain person should not be considered combat power.

If it were the original, the former Mattia would definitely choose this option.

However, for An now, there is another ending, or choice, which has clearly appeared before her.

That is, Saint Madia rejected Fen Eltis's request not based on reason or calculation, but based on her own emotions.

Just like when he learned that Murphy was going to the mercenary city of Belphein alone, he showed an extremely excited expression.

An really wanted to deny it, hoping that such a thing would not happen, and wanted to be sure that the saint he loved would never make such a choice.

But whenever Ann was about to speak out about Fen Aldis, this possibility always left a scar in her mind.

If something like that happens, what will become of the alliance between the Church of Heraldry and Gasalia?

Although it has not yet reached the point of a breakup, it is hard to imagine that it can develop into a good situation in the future.

So, in that case, how can we fight against the powerful army of the Grand Cathedral?

The answer is, it is completely unbeatable.

In other words, a rift in the alliance with Gasalia means that the Church of Heraldry will disappear from this land sooner or later.

However, this is the only thing An cannot tolerate.

That is why Ann persuaded Mattia to allow her to put Murphy in "confinement".

During this period, An himself came up with a way to make Murphy voluntarily join the Heraldry Cult.