As a commander, I will never meet a heavy female ship girl

Yes. Lorraine thought desperately, I am a substitute made by stitching two people together.

So much so that he wrote with much greater force, as if venting his emotions.

"I'm really getting more and more curious about what you did during those three years when you ran away from home." Luo Yi looked a little angry.

But the tone that came out of his mouth was one of heartache.

No matter what, he is still my younger brother.

"I don't know." Lorraine really didn't know this time.

I don't know in the physical sense.

His memory of those years is now confused.

The two four years before the time travel were forced together by violence.

Two personalities, two consciousnesses, two memories, will all mix into his dreams in the dead of night.

A person who can't even correctly understand "Who am I?"

"Why didn't you inherit your sister's pride?" Luo Yi sighed.

"Lorraine." Seeing that Lorraine was indifferent, Luo Yi raised his voice slightly.

Lorraine looked up, "Huh?"

Those blue-purple eyes now only contained the emptiness of the starry sky.

He lowered his head again.

Their eyes met and then disappeared.

Chloe understands her brother too well.

She has already thought about her next move.

Chapter 213 No Way Arrow

Luo Yi looked at Luo Lin, not with a coercive or questioning look, but simply with the concern of a sister for her brother.

"What were you thinking when you jumped and risked everything to save Burgundy?"

The atmosphere eased a little.

"All I think is, she is my ship girl."

"What's the result?"

"Not bad, at least they all survived." Lorraine thought for a moment and added, "Intact."

"So why do you think there's something wrong with you?"

"I... could have avoided it."

"Learn from your mistakes and pay attention next time. It's a simple truth."

"Yes, sister, but no matter what, the operation against the fortress was my fault for taking action without authorization."

"Don't you care about yourself at all?" Luo Yi sneered and started scolding directly.

She knew very well that in Lorraine's current state, it would not work to reason with him like the Republic did.

He is really good at putting pressure on himself.

Now, Lorraine's problem is that he puts pressure on himself and is unable to vent it, which eventually turns into a one-sided internal conflict directed at himself.

The Republic's approach to the powder keg was to lengthen the fuse.

And Luo Yi’s way of dealing with it is... to ignite it directly.

The atmosphere suddenly sank to freezing point.

I'm obviously the kind of bastard who only cares about self-satisfaction. Lorraine's first reaction was to refute me.

But in the end he didn't say it out loud, because this rebuttal did not conflict with what Roy said.

As a matter of fact, he did—he didn't care about himself at all.

When a person's defenses are broken, it usually means that he has been scolded to the point of pain.

"What? Was I wrong? Or do you only allow Burgundy and the others to say this to you, but not me?"

"When you say something about me, you've never been wrong." Lorraine lowered his head dejectedly.

"Snap." Luo Yi snapped his fingers.

"You admitted it yourself," she reaffirmed.

"Anyway, your idea is that it doesn't matter if you die, as long as Burgundy and the others are fine.

You don't even consider the consequences, right? Like what will happen to Burgundy and the others after you die."

Lorraine was silent for a moment, then nodded slowly. At that time, he really didn't think about those things.

"So what about you now?" Luo Yi's tone softened a little.

Now we need to give him some time to react.

"Now..." Lorraine thought for a moment, "If I die, Burgundy will probably go crazy; and the Republic..." He hesitated, "will probably continue to live as I said. Richthofen should be the same. As for Venice..."

"She might continue to wander. But who knows what the above statement says." Lorraine never fully accepted her own idea until the end.

"You don't even understand your own girl. You are indeed incompetent." Luo Yi continued his words.

"Yes, so I really don't even have the ability to be a good commander."

A sharp, cold light flashed in Luo Yi's emerald green eyes.

"That is to say, you still have a strong desire to commit suicide, right?"

Luo Lin paused, "Sister, what do you want to say?"

"I'm worried that you'll die one day. What will happen to my investment in you, a heartless little thing? It hasn't been converted into my retirement ATM yet." Luo Yi made a somewhat cold joke.

"Sister, please don't use your sense of humor at this time." Lorraine didn't feel like laughing at all.

"Okay, okay, no more joking." Luo Yi said seriously.

It’s time to move on to the final step.

"Without any signposts to help you define your feelings...how?" She looked at Lorraine.

Lorraine just finished writing the last stroke and said, "Sister, you didn't say you can read minds."

"You keep your head down, how can you see where you are?" Luo Yi did not respond to Luo Lin's complaints, but directly asked a soul-searching question.

When Lorraine heard this, he just closed his pen and remained silent.

He didn't know how to answer -

"It's true that I can't think straight." Lorraine smiled bitterly, ""

Fortunately, Burgundy and the others kept supporting him, so he didn't fall down in such an embarrassing way.

But for him, there were indeed no road signs or maps around.

Today, I am also filled with a heart that is about to break, wondering where I came from and where I am going.

"Believe in the moon, or believe in yourself. I mean, brother, you have to believe in something." Luo Yi said softly.

"But what can I believe in? In fact, I myself can hardly be sure whether my memory is reliable..."

"Then forget it."

Lorraine could only keep smiling bitterly.

Roy continued, "To Burgundy and the others, you are the commander. To me, you are my brother. Isn't that enough?"

"Or do you think that a problem that you may never be able to solve is more important than the life you have right now?"

"But if one forgets where he came from..."

"It wasn't a very good memory to begin with. Now that it's lost, why bother chasing it?"

"Why do you have to force yourself to remember things that are inherently painful? Do you think the suffering you've experienced can motivate you to move forward?"

"I think so." Lorraine nodded slowly.

"Actually, they are not." Luo Yi said bluntly, "They are becoming your excuse to escape, aren't they?

But this is far-fetched. Why do you use your illusory past to deny everything you have now?"

"So, sister, what do you think I am with these two lives entangled together?" Lorraine put down her pen.

"It's my brother." Luo Yi said without hesitation.

Lorraine was stunned.

"why?"

"Because this period of life cannot be faked. It is something you have truly experienced and exists. The same is true of that illusory past."

"but I……"

“There’s nothing wrong with leaving your own footprints and moving forward.

You are now carrying such pain for so long, and moving as slowly as a snail..."

"Then what are you trying to achieve? You're almost working yourself to death."

"But no one tells me what to do!" Lorraine looked at her sister and finally couldn't help but break down. "Everyone keeps telling me that I'm wrong and I'm going astray. Yes, I know that, but can anyone tell me what to do?"

Luo Yi stood up and gently hugged Luo Lin.

"Sister, what should I do? There's nothing that can help me know who I am. My memories are a mess, as if they weren't mine..."

Lorraine would not tell the ship girl about this helplessness. The girls were already tired enough, but her sister was just fine.

"It's actually very simple. Just do what you should do. If Burgundy and the others have lost their way, then tell them what to do now. There's no need for a grand vision, just cherish the present moment."

Loyi knew the crux of the problem with these children, and she patted Lorraine's back gently.

“Don’t think about things you don’t understand. Time will slowly tell you the answer.

Besides yourself, the only people who can heal your scars are time and many other people.

When you're on the road, someone will be willing to give you medicine."

As Lorraine himself said, the present is a gift from God. What he has to do is not to find something he can use from the blazing fireball that fate has knocked him into.

What he really needed were two non-conflicting obsessions, which had already become embers deposited in his heart.

This little ember is enough to serve as ink to compose an elegy.

An elegy written by someone who has lost his way.

He stood where the signal was weakest, trying to connect with other people.

It feels like I am on Earth, yet not on Earth.

The signal seems to be interrupted here. This world has no meaning at all, which makes people very anxious.

But what he didn't expect was that the paper could still emit smoke due to the heat generated by friction, slowly rising into the sky, sending out a signal of "I'm here".

Chapter 214 continues

"The young couple is doing fine." Luo Yi watched Lorraine and Burgundy leave with a helpless expression, "Tsk tsk tsk, even an old lady like me is tired of watching them."

In front of her were Lorraine's previous psychological assessment reports.

"Let me see how to make it up, Principal Zhenhai, you really are... aren't you trying to embarrass me... Never mind, he's my brother after all~"

This was the first time Luo Yi had seen someone add water to a report. When she was a psychologist, every client would want her to admit that she was sick. How could someone add water to a report?

"Hey, little brat..." Luo Yi muttered softly and shook his head.

It is never time that heals scars, but yourself.

That's probably all she can do.

Lorraine had no memory of how she walked out of the consultation room.

Maybe it was a psychological effect, but when he came out, his steps were much lighter.

But his sister is indeed an excellent counselor...at least that's true for him.

"Okay?" Burgundy looked at Lorraine expectantly.