Another string reel from Bandoli

In his anxiety, Xian Juangan ignored the fact that his pain tolerance ultimately had limits. The accumulated pain would only require a tiny bit more to overwhelm his nerves.

For example, a heart gradually shrinks and disappears.

……

Toyama Kasumi returned home and was practicing guitar like a madman downstairs in the warehouse, singing and playing three chords over and over again.

My fingers hurt but I'm happy.

But Toyama Kasumi felt very uneasy.

I can’t sing, it’s so scary, I don’t want to sing, I’m afraid of other people’s eyes, I can’t do anything well, I can’t sing, I don’t want to sing, I want to run away...

This was Kasumi Toyama's true thoughts when she sang Kasuga Kage.

In front of Xian Juanxin and the others, facing the few people in the audience, she was still afraid.

Once you turn your gaze to the dark side of your heart, you will feel more and more eroded.

No matter how well he pretended to be like the real thing, he still couldn't get over the psychological trauma of his childhood.

The haze of being bullied at school.

But she couldn't do that. She had made a promise with him that she would no longer be that decadent self, no longer keep her head down, no longer be dull. She had changed her hair style by cutting it short, no longer wearing glasses, no longer being that Chuan Kara.

Kasumi Toyama, carrying a guitar bag, returned to her home at nine o'clock. Feeling that she would be lectured by her parents, she took a deep breath and put her cunning eyes filled with stars back on.

"I'm back--" In a very quiet voice, Toyama Kasumi returned home.

Then she saw the figure curled up on the sofa in the living room.

He usually has no flaws, but his sleeping posture seems to be always tense and defenseless.

……

When Xian Juan Gan recovered from the pain of losing a heart and turned back into a normal human being, he regained his consciousness.

Something was pressed against him, warm and soft, like a kitten, and he seemed to be able to feel her heartbeat.

Thump, thump, thump...

The girl is not as bold as she appears.

A few strands of hair tickled his cheek.

"It's so hot, go back to your room and sleep." A hoarse voice sounded.

Xian Juangan still tried to hide his true spirit, pretending that everything was normal and that he was just asleep.

"Shouldn't liver paste feel shy? Hey, how about my body?"

She spoke boldly and shamelessly like a female gangster.

"...I've seen it so many times that it doesn't matter." Xian Juangan endured the pain and climbed up, pushed him onto the sofa, climbed up himself, and changed to a sitting position on the sofa.

Resist the urge to smooth over the feeling of loss in your chest.

"If you don't live in Ichigaya Arisaki's house, why did you come back?" Xianjuan Gan was trying to change the subject. In the dark night, he turned his back to hide his face, which looked absolutely terrible because he had a missing heart.

He would not expose this weakness in front of Toyama Kasumi.

"Of course I have to come back. How can I see this side of Liver Sauce if I don't come back?" Toyama Kasumi said cunningly.

"Listen to me, Arisaki and I have formed a new band..."

Toyama Kasumi just gestured and demonstrated, her eyes shining like stars and with a satisfied smile.

Talking about what happened today, of course she would not take the initiative to mention Ichigaya Yusaki about her complicated feelings.

Toyama Kasumi concealed the bad things and only mentioned the happy things.

The two of them played their instruments with abandon. They leaned forward, tossed their heads, strummed guitar and keyboard. Finally, their eyes locked, and they struck a pose. Like idiots.

But Xianjuangan didn't listen carefully. He wanted to persuade Toyama Kasumi to give up Satomi, but Toyama Kasumi took the initiative to set up a chat group for two people without the knowledge of others, leaving him at a loss as to how to respond.

Just playing, this is the evaluation of Xianjuan Gan.

After Toyama Kasumi took away the notebook of music scores that was not suitable for her at all, Genjukangan always thought that Toyama Kasumi was just playing house.

"Yes, yes... just have fun." Xianjuan Gan responded to Toyama Kasumi with such a perfunctory attitude.

This caused Toyama Kasumi to be dissatisfied.

"Why don't you just be frank and congratulate Arisaki-san and I for officially starting our band activities?"

She leaned forward.

The collision conveyed the girl's displeasure.

"Then what is this thing you mentioned earlier, a women's tea party?" Xian Juangan said with sarcasm.

"Hehehe" Toyama Kasumi pretended to be stupid, she really couldn't refute it.

"But I mean it this time, I really do—"

"Take good care of yourself first. If you leave me one day, I won't be able to help you."

Xianjuan Gan didn't have any expectations for Toyama Kasumi.

Toyama Kasumi's expression became very serious, and her expression became muttering.

"Liver pâté is just because I always look down on people like this. I can do it well if I work hard!"

She displayed a tattered notebook in front of him as if to show off.

"We're forming a band and have decided to sing the songs above..."

“Isn’t that still your song?”

With his back to Xian Juangan, he glanced at the notebook out of the corner of his eye. He remembered this tattered notebook.

"It was my notebook before, but now it belongs to Arisaki's father."

"You're always like this no matter what you learn. You give up before you even start. It's always like this. You can't do anything well."

"You're doing this again with forming a band. You gave up before you even started. When will you stop relying on others?"

Xianjuan Gan said something that was contrary to his wishes.

It was awkward, but he just wanted to say it.

But this time, he was greeted by Toyama Kasumi, who left without saying a word...

With the locked door

Chapter 95 The day they found each other

The curtains were not drawn.

Toyama Kasumi leaned quietly on the side of her bed. In this room decorated with stars, the bright moonlight refracted in a wonderful way, creating a visual feast like a sky full of stars.

That was the effect he had spent several days creating for her when they were little.

Only then would her silent purple eyes remove their disguise.

My room used to be quite dark.

She often spends a lot of time in her room escaping from real problems, interpersonal relationships at school, and her own loneliness.

I dreamed I could still be like when I was younger... lost in the sound of the stars. Being in my own world was always happier than facing reality.

I myself am not that energetic.

The depression surged and receded like a tide.

It made her feel uncomfortable.

She knew she shouldn't have lost her temper and left without saying a word, but the more she tried to control herself, the more powerless she felt.

But she cheered herself up and decided to go out immediately.

The world is ever-changing, but the heart will realize it.

After all, she chose to be this kind of person.

The door to Toyama Kasumi's room was made of wood. It was the only material that his sonic screwdriver couldn't affect.

After a renovation of the Toyama residence, she chose this mahogany door, and with a little selfishness, she asked him to design a lock core for it that even he would find difficult to crack in a short time.

He must have gone to great lengths to crack the wooden door just to cheer himself up.

Toyama Kasumi mustered up her courage, put on her usual smile, and gripped the door handle tightly.

I opened the door, but didn't see the familiar man.

Almost simultaneously, a faint scent like gummy candy wafted around me.

Toyama Kasumi glanced subconsciously.

Then she saw the lower half of the body stuck against the wall of the door.

Toyama Kasumi took a step back.

In her own room, her upper body was stuck in the wall, a yellow and blue block was attached to the rope, and the pink-haired girl's face was blue and she was about to vomit. Her blue eyes were cloudy and dull, she was dazed and lifeless, as if she was dead...

This time, the pink-haired girl had a nostalgic chain collar around her neck.

……

When the string rolled up and broke free from the wall.

After the dark green light, and after reaching the limit of the pain of losing a heart, he had to suppress himself to endure the pain that doubled twice in a row, as if all the cells in his body were being torn apart.

Genmakigan has returned to his original state, and Toyama Kasumi can understand why his face looks so bad and doesn't have any doubts.

There is no need to avoid Toyama Kasumi's gaze anymore.

Xianjuan Gan uses this method to conceal his pain and avoid Toyama Kasumi's unnecessary concern.

It was awkward, but he did it.

After recovering, Xianjuan Gan sat on Toyama Kasumi's bed with a dazed look on his face, leaning against the bedside table to reduce his burden.

The invisible function of passing through walls was particularly familiar to Toyama Kasumi.

It was the alien form that she named Ghost when she was a child.

"Hmm, liver sauce, how come you're using this watch again after all these years? And you've turned into a girl? That ghost bound by chains is a bit scary. Can't everyone satisfy you?"

It was still Toyama Kasumi who spoke first, moving her eyes as if teasing.

She regretted her words almost as soon as she opened her mouth.

Having played the role for so long, she was used to using this teasing word order to offend him unintentionally but with incredible precision.

"What do you care... I've become much more bizarre than these strange monsters."

His answer killed the topic just as Kasumi Toyama had expected.

There was a brief silence between the two of them.

In a room decorated with stars, two people were leaning on the bed.

Neither of them knew how to begin the conversation that ensued between them.

Only the sound of heavy breathing filled the air between the two of them.

It was like the childhood when the two of them didn't know how to communicate with each other.

"Really? This is a rare opportunity. We're all girls now. Let's have a girls' tea party together. You won't feel lonely if you're alone."

Toyama Kasumi instinctively started saying strange things again.

He looked very bad now, but what he said was when he was in a good mood.

The courage to show her uniqueness and weirdness in front of others and face people's conversation.

When facing him, I always don't know what to do.

Toyama Kasumi was at a loss as to what to do.

She wanted to hum something, but when she opened her mouth and tried to hum it, she found that she couldn't even remember the lyrics. Those lyrics were now like sand blown by the wind, scattered at the slightest touch.

Those lyrics that I once took the time to memorize...

It's not what I want at all.

"Toyama Kasumi, these are not the words you wanted to say."