Mygo, are you all yanderes?

Although it was obvious to the naked eye that everyone except Kaname and Nagasaki Motoyo was very nervous about next week's performance—Nagasaki Motoyo also seemed a little strange today, but Takamatsu Akari didn't know why.

But without a doubt, although everyone was nervous, they were at least able to use their instruments normally; it was just a matter of how well they performed.

Takamatsu, on the other hand, was afraid that she wouldn't be able to sing on stage.

Although she had been practicing in private ever since Crychic disbanded because of Toyokawa Shoko's words, "Kite, you are the one who needs to practice the most," the psychological shadow still lingered in her heart.

Although she can sing normally when practicing privately, she can't perform as well when practicing with others.

Her voice was always suppressed and unable to let go, perhaps because the ghost of Crychic was still lingering around her.

She had also seen RIG's stage. Gao Songdeng dared not imagine what would happen if she couldn't sing in front of so many people on such a big stage.

Will the performance fail? Will the band break up again because of her? Will everyone be disappointed in her and leave her again?

Takamatsu Akari hates this. She has only just gained happiness and has only just begun to feel a little bit like a human. She doesn't want all of this to disappear.

So even if it's forcing himself, Gao Songdeng is determined to make sure he can sing it.

The second thing is what Chihaya Aine said to her during the day.

'Do you like him, or is it just friendly affection?'

The "you" refers to Takamatsu Akira, and the "he" refers to Kusano Akira.

So what is this 'that kind of liking'?

That's about all the comprehension Gao Songdeng has to offer.

Is there another kind of liking? If it's not liking between friends, then what else could it be?

I can't tell the difference between the tall pine lamps.

She never thought about this during her short life. In her memory, besides her parents, there were only her band friends and Akira Kusano.

So when Chihaya Aine asked that question, Takamatsu Akari was truly at a loss for words.

What are her feelings for Kusano Akira? What exactly is that kind of affection? Why did Chihaya Aine suddenly ask this question? Does her affection for Kusano Akira seem different from that of a friend to others?

Ever since Chihaya Aine uttered those words, Takamatsu Akari has spent the entire day pondering these perplexing questions.

Even until just now, everyone thought she was playing with her stickers, but she was just using playing with stickers as an excuse; she was actually spacing out.

She couldn't understand these questions.

Isn't her relationship with Kusano Akira just friendship?

Although she did enjoy being with Kusano Akira, Takamatsu concluded that it was because she hadn't seen Kusano Akira for too long.

However, no matter how much she thought about it, Chihaya Aine's words still made her very flustered, and she couldn't even think calmly.

Then came the third thing that bothered her.

4. As mentioned earlier, Takamatsu Akari really enjoys being with Kusano Akira; she feels happy when she is with him.

Perhaps because she had been separated from Kusano Akira for too long, Takamatsu Akira always wanted to hold onto Kusano Akira's hand, fearing that Kusano Akira would suddenly disappear one day.

However, this is where the problem lies. Although Gao Songdeng is not a very thin girl, she is definitely not as strong as a normal boy of the same age.

She wasn't the type of girl who liked working out; her only form of exercise was going out to look for stones when she had free time.

But suddenly her strength began to increase dramatically, abnormally so.

Lu often crushes newly picked stones in her hand when she's not paying attention, and each time it breaks her heart.

However, at that time, Takamatsu Akari had not yet noticed the abnormality in herself and thought that those were just accidents.

Until today, she noticed that Kusano Akira seemed to be distancing himself from her.

Why was Kusano Akira distancing herself from her? Takamatsu Akari was both puzzled and terrified.

Why did Kusano Akira start to distance himself from her instead of becoming as close as before after finally meeting again?

Did she do something wrong again without even realizing it?

Takamatsu Akari's mind, already confused by her unclear emotions, was now even more unable to distinguish what was in front of her; she had only one thought in her mind.

You must hold onto him tightly, so that he can never leave her again.

Then she noticed something unusual about herself—she hadn't used much force, but Kusano Akira's hand was swollen from being squeezed so tightly.

Did she hurt Kusano Akira?

The joy of being able to be with Kusano Akira, the happiness of knowing Kusano Akira's current address, and the inexplicable feeling that blossomed in my heart when I held his hand.

Everything disappeared, replaced by a fear a hundred times deeper than before.

She didn't want things to turn out this way. She really didn't want to hurt Kusano Akira. If things continued like this, no matter how good their relationship became, Kusano Akira would definitely get angry, right? He might really leave her again.

She doesn't want that.

Therefore, °ˉ四·杷艾［∝杉／伍肿Ｚh�qn: Takamatsu no Tō no K ...

What if I hurt him again? What if I scare him away? What if I end up alone again?

So, despite her desire to figure out what she felt for Kusano Akira, despite her desire to be able to stick close to him like before, and despite her desire to let him know about their past promise.

However, once she thought about Kusano Akira's estrangement and the harm she had caused him, Takamatsu Akira decided that she must stay away from Kusano Akira.

Even if she can't stand by his side all the time like Chihaya Aine, as long as Takamatsu Akira does nothing, Kusano Akira won't leave her again.

In that case, wouldn't you consider it a lifetime?

Author's Note: 4k

I'm not feeling inspired today, so I'll stop updating here for now.

Hopefully I'll get a featured spot tomorrow (though it's unlikely).

good night

Volume 1: Chapter 45 (Forty-Three). Envy?

Of course, these weren't the only two things that gave Takamatsu a headache.

She had two more worries in one day: one was Kusano Akira's estrangement from her and the hurt she had caused him, and the other was this third thing.

First of all, Takamatsu Akari must clarify one point: she does not dislike Chihaya Aine; on the contrary, she likes Chihaya Aine very much and is grateful to her.

If it weren't for Chihaya Aine's sudden arrival and her suggestion to Kusano Akira to form a band, Takamatsu Akira would still be like a stone hiding in the mud, spending her days harboring her dark thoughts while clumsily trying to attract Kusano Akira's attention.

Takamatsu Akira lacked the confidence to speak with Kusano Akira on her own, let alone the exciting prospect of forming a band with him.

Not to mention being able to re-form a band with Nagasaki Motoyo and Shiina Tatsuki.

Therefore, Takamatsu Akari was very grateful for Chihaya Aine's invitation, as Chihaya Aine had to some extent saved her from her current predicament.

She felt that Chihaya Aine had done her a favor.

Moreover, even disregarding these favors, from Takamatsu Akari's own perspective, Chihaya Aine is an extremely capable person, a hundred times stronger than her.

Sunny, cheerful, positive, enthusiastic, and generous, Chihaya Aine excels in her studies and is also very proactive. Everyone should like her, including Takamatsu Akari.

But that's precisely why Takamatsu Akari is so conflicted—if only Chihaya Aine weren't so likable.

Or rather, don't try to please Kusano Akira.

Until today, Takamatsu Akari could say without any qualms that she really enjoyed seeing Kusano Akira and Chihaya Aine together.

She liked it this way because it made her look like she had become 'human' along with Chihaya Aine and Kusano Akira, standing next to them.

And perhaps out of her kind nature, Takamatsu Tama dislikes seeing other people arguing, or even having a cold war—whether the person is a stranger or an acquaintance.

Therefore, she enjoys seeing her friends getting along well; such an atmosphere makes her feel at ease.

But after Chihaya Aine said those words today, Takamatsu Akari, realizing something, underwent a completely different change in her thoughts and emotions. Guilt.

Seeing how close Chihaya Aine and Kusano Akira were, joking around so intimately—even closer than she was to Kusano Akira—Takamatsu Akira felt...uncomfortable?

Yes, I'm annoyed.

Takamatsu Akari felt this way, and although it wasn't nice to say it, she just found the sight of Kusano Akira and Chihaya Aine so intimate jarring. (Tsukasa)

They formed a band together, and she and Kusano Akira knew each other a long time ago. So why does Chihaya Aine seem to have a better relationship with Kusano Akira now?

Takamatsu Akari also wanted to be able to joke and playfully tease Kusano Akira like Chihaya Aine.

Although Akari Takamatsu knew that her personality wasn't as outgoing and sociable as Aine Chihaya's, she still really wanted to be like her.

Perhaps it's because this makes them seem more like good friends? (Four)

Anyway, she hoped her relationship with Kusano Akira would be more significant than his relationship with Chihaya Aine; she wanted to be number one in Kusano Akira's heart.

She didn't want to see Kusano Akira and Chihaya Aine getting along well; she wished she could take Chihaya Aine's place; she wished Kusano Akira could be more unrestrained towards her; she wished she could be liked more...

Takamatsu Akari developed a feeling of envy towards Chihaya Aine.

To put it more bluntly, envy even gave rise to a small amount of jealousy.

However, this idea is undoubtedly wrong and should not be taken seriously.

Chihaya Aine is also her friend. Although she hasn't personally promised to spend her whole life with her, she's a member of the band and owes her a debt of gratitude...

How could Takamatsu Akari think, how dare she think Chihaya Aine is an eyesore?

And while I don't want to see them get along well, I also don't want their relationship to deteriorate.

Even though he knew that such thoughts were wrong, Takamatsu Takayuki couldn't control his mind from wandering in that direction.

She disliked this despicable version of herself.

........................

"Dengdeng?"

Chihaya Aine waved her hand in front of Takamatsu Akari, whose pupils were unfocused and staring blankly at the wall. Akari looked at her with a puzzled expression. When Akari still didn't react, she shook Akari's body.

Takamatsu Akari had been in a daze since earlier, staring blankly in the direction where she and Kusano Akira had been, and no matter how she called her, she couldn't be woken up.

Although Takamatsu Akari often daydreams, she seemed a little too engrossed today. Chihaya Aine usually only needs to call her once or twice to wake her up.

Although her gaze remained fixed on where they had just been and not on them who had already left, Chihaya Aine felt as if Takamatsu Akari's gaze was still lingering on her.

It's so hollow, it's absolutely terrifying.

After chatting for so long, it was time for training to begin. As the lead singer of the band, Takamatsu Akari had to snap out of this state, otherwise the performance couldn't continue, so Chihaya Aine was responsible for waking her up.

Originally, this task should have been given to Kusano Akira. After all, although Chihaya Aine and Takamatsu Akari spent more time together and were both girls, it was obvious that Takamatsu Akira liked Kusano Akira a little more.

However, Kusano Akira refused to take the initiative to contact Takamatsu Akari today, so the task had to fall to Chihaya Aine.

However, Chihaya Aine could understand why Kusano Akira was unwilling. After all, his hands had been ravaged by Takamatsu Akira during the day, so it was normal for him to be a little scared.

Speaking of which, is Kusano Akira's hand worse than it was this morning? Did he develop some new problems with his hand after that?

"Teng-teng—can you hear me—it's time to start practicing—"

Chihaya Aine placed her hands on Takamatsu Akari's thin shoulders and gently shook them, while bringing her mouth close to Takamatsu Akari's ear and deliberately prolonging her words as she spoke loudly.

"...Xiao Ai?"

Hearing Chihaya Aine's voice suddenly ring in her ears, Takamatsu Akari finally snapped out of her reverie. She glanced at Chihaya Aine in a daze, seemingly still not quite understanding the situation.

"Dengdeng, you're finally back! It's time for practice now."

Chihaya Aine stood with her hands on her hips, revealing her canine teeth, and looked at Takamatsu Akari with a sunny disposition.

Seeing Chihaya Aine's sunny demeanor, Takamatsu Akari lowered her head, letting her thick bangs cover her amber eyes, as well as the thoughts flowing within them.

Looking at Chihaya Nana, who was so poised and warm, and who showed her such obvious kindness, Takamatsu felt a little guilty.

She had just been secretly jealous of Chihaya Aine, but now Chihaya Aine was being so kind to her.

She felt even more despicable.

"Little Lamp really gets easily absorbed in her own world."

Nagasaki Motoyo smiled, her fingers deftly plucking the hard strings of the bass, searching for the right feel.

She was originally a double bass player in the school's music club, so she was quite proficient in playing the bass, which is somewhat similar.

However, she has never been very concerned about the band's music. For her, the band is not something to pursue dreams, but rather a 'home' she longs for.

She didn't join Crychic for the music itself, but was captivated by the 'destiny' that Toyokawa Shoko spoke of, which is why she accepted her invitation.

Even during the Crychic era, which was very important to her, Nagasaki Motoyo's bass skills were only adequate, and she never thought about improving them.

In this band that she doesn't really care about, Nagasaki Motoyo has absolutely no intention of practicing bass; she just goes through the motions of practicing every day.