A world only known by the God of Lost Love

At this time, the computer screen was still displaying her unfinished manga draft from yesterday. Looking at the blank pages, Shiina Mashiro suddenly fell into a long thought.

The subject matter she chose is girl comics, and the background of the story is also the most royal youth campus.

She slightly simulated the storyboards and characters based on the comics she had read, and tried her best to restore the various scenes in that comic.

However, when she reproduced the storyboards, characters, and even the backgrounds one by one, she was still unable to feel any "interesting" feeling from her works...

Even though her own drawing skills were much better than the comic she was imitating, she still felt that her work was completely incomparable.

"Sure enough... it's completely different."

Unlike any painting she has drawn before, the comic is composed of multiple consecutive images.

In addition to the completion of a single page, the coherence and logic between each page should also be taken into consideration so that the entire work can be connected together.At the same time, in order to make it interesting to read, "storytelling", "narrative rhythm", "subject matter"... various things must also be taken into consideration.

Among these many elements, painting skills are important, but this ability alone cannot support the entire work.

"...Newcomer Award, there are still two months left."

Shiina Mashiro whispered:

This girl, who has been called a "genius girl" by the entire art world since her debut, feels a little uneasy about the selection of a new cartoonist.

The confusion of not knowing how to write prevented her from advancing the progress of the work, and the approaching time also made her mood become more and more tense.

In the past, she only needed to rely on her sensibility and inspiration to draw the colors and patterns that came to mind, and she would naturally receive praise and encouragement from everyone.

However, if you want to create a complete comic, you cannot rely solely on your own pure and simple sensibility.

She had no story that she could describe on paper, and she had nothing to express to the outside world.

She has always been focused on painting, but her life experience has been extremely boring. Her lack of emotional cognition has also prevented her from grasping the essentials of comic creation.

In the end, all that was left on her screen were some meaningless scraps. Not to mention submissions, even she couldn't figure out how to continue the blank screen in front of her.

Having never experienced such a predicament, she finally couldn't help but feel a little shaken by her dream...

"Can I really finish my first work before this?"

……

Speaking of which, why on earth would she want to become a cartoonist...

Ah, right.

It was because at her personal art exhibition, her work "lost" to a comic book in the hands of a little boy.

She still clearly remembered that day, when the little boy squatted in the corner and read the comics in his hands intently.

That was the first time she read comics, and it was also the first time she realized that painting could be presented in this way.

Characters, background.

Story, dialogue.

For her, a person who always subconsciously converts all external information into painting concepts, comics are like another world to her. Not only does it have complete and independent rules, but it also has residents living in it.

She longed for that world, and she also longed for the author who could depict the world on paper.

If possible, she would also like to use her own hands to create an interesting world that can attract others.

But...how to achieve this?

For someone like her who is slow to react, lacks common sense, and has a blank life experience, what kind of world can she draw——

Just as Shiina Mashiro was still sinking in the whirlpool of self-reflection, a gentle knock on the door suddenly brought her consciousness back to reality.

"Shiina-kun...are you in the room?"

Ren Suzuki's voice came from outside the door.

After hearing his voice, Shiina Mashiro immediately stood up from the chair, then she almost jogged all the way to the door and opened the door——

........................

"Actually, it's nothing important. I just wanted to ask you which color lunch box you want."

Ren Suzuki asked while holding a stack of lunch boxes found in the cupboard.

After hearing Suzuki Ren's question, Shiina Mashiro blinked first, and then moved his eyes to the lunch box in his hand:

"...They are all very simple colors."

"Well, they're just lunch boxes after all, so don't expect them to come in such incredible colors."

Faced with Shiina Mashiro's thoughts, Suzuki Ren could only reply with a wry smile:

"But if you really don't like these, I can go back and buy you another type online."

“…………It’s brown again.”

Looking at Ren Suzuki's face, Shiina Mashiro showed a slightly confused expression.

"I always feel that... no matter what kind of request I make, Lian will accept it."

"No, just for example tonight you asked me to cook with my upper body naked and I didn't agree."

As soon as this matter was brought up, Ren Suzuki couldn't help but curled her lips and complained:

"I also have a certain limit of tolerance."

"But...why do you have to be patient?"

Shiina Mashiro tilted her head.

"If you don't like it, can't you just reject me directly? Why are you so tolerant of me?"

"…………This is it."

Regarding this, Ren Suzuki didn’t know how to answer.

Leaving aside the matter of [Strategy], he does have a very high tolerance for geniuses like Mashiro Shiina.

And the reason for this tolerance is naturally because of his experience of a broken love...

"! Ah, right."

Seeing the subtle changes in Suzuki Ren's expression, Shiina Mashiro's eyes suddenly lit up.

Then she hurried to her work desk, picked up paper and pen, and excitedly came to Suzuki Ren——

"lotus!"

"What, what's wrong?"

"About the story you told me this morning...can you tell me in detail?"

Shiina Mashiro stared into Suzuki Ren's eyes and said:

"I want to...use it as my comic material!"

"………………what?"

Chapter 18: Ingredients list of "Suzuki Ren"

When Ren Suzuki entered high school, she had not completely gotten rid of the shadow left by her first love.

He puts all the blame on himself, and is never able to erase the guilt in his heart, and is never able to find his own value to others.

Under the influence of this morbid state of mind, Ren Suzuki left the impression of being taciturn throughout the first half of her freshman year of high school.

Until a certain time when the club recruited new members, he met a "weird" senior sister.

He goes his own way, talks to himself, has an extreme lack of common sense in life, and his social skills are extremely poor.

But at the same time, her talent in science is far beyond the scope of high school students.

The club she belongs to is a strange club called "Experimental Department", and in this club, as long as she declares it in advance, she can use all approved experimental supplies.

To put it simply, this club was set up by the school just for her.The purpose is to allow her to conduct independent research in the school. As for the other members of the club, they are actually just here to act as her assistants.

However, because her extremely arbitrary style of acting and her completely indifferent words and deeds are too difficult for ordinary students to accept, so she is always the only one active in her "experimental department"——

Until Ren Suzuki joined.

"When I just entered high school, I was completely confused. Not only did I not have any ideas, I couldn't find anything I wanted to do. For me at that time, the experimental department was simply the best place to go."

Ren Suzuki sighed.

"There is no need to think or judge. I just need to follow the command of my senior sister and I can successfully complete one task after another. For me at that time, like my senior sister who always believed in my own judgment, And people who can guide me at all times make me feel most at ease.”

In the process of obeying the command of her senior sister, Ren Suzuki inevitably came into contact with another side of her outside of the experiment.

For example, she is an idiot with extremely uncoordinated hands and feet. When eating, she can only use a spoon and cannot use chopsticks at all.

For example, her physical strength is so weak that she is out of breath even going up to the third floor, so she has been using the science classroom on the first floor.

In the process of constantly helping and understanding her, Suzuki Ren finally began to gradually discover her own value.

His tolerance and consideration allowed this idiot whose life was full of "challenges" to enjoy a more relaxed campus life.

His quietness and stability also allowed her, who was lonely, to find someone to talk to when the experiment didn't go well.

In this way, although it was not the intention of the other party, Ren Suzuki did unilaterally feel the value of his existence in this relationship.

This is completely different from Hiiragi's time.

He will no longer regard himself as a necessary existence, nor will he think too highly of himself to place himself in an important position.

He is just self-sufficient in digesting the few pieces of self-identity in the process of taking care of others.

In the process, he also gradually learned how to take care of other people's moods, and how to find the other person's advantages among all kinds of "trouble" and "flaws"——

Even after she suddenly left without saying goodbye one day, Suzuki Ren still carried out these things.

........................

"In short, with her help, I successfully found my identity."

Suzuki Ren scratched his head.

"After that, I continued to think the way I did back then... until now."

"So... Lian's positioning of herself is to take care of others unilaterally?"

Shiina Mashiro couldn't help but ask after hearing this.

After Suzuki Ren thought for a moment, he answered in an uncertain tone:

"Probably, in short...I am definitely more inclined to take care of others than to be taken care of."

"But... Lian has clearly said before that the relationship between people is to get what they need, right?"

Shiina Mashiro asked:

"If this is the case, then Lian has gained nothing in this process..."

"The gratitude and trust of others are also rewarding. At least I enjoy it myself."

"Other than that, has Lian never asked for anything else from others?"

"…………"

After hearing this, Suzuki Ren was stunned for a moment, then shook his head with a smile.

"Anything else? I've never thought about this...but after all, I don't need anything, so naturally I won't ask for anything extravagant."

"!"

After hearing this answer, Shiina Mashiro's eyes suddenly widened a bit.

Because she clearly saw the "dark red" she had been looking for in the seemingly innocent smile on Suzuki Ren's face.

"Including me...is this the same?"

Looking at the dark red color that made her feel "heartbroken" inexplicably, Shiina Mashiro asked.

"Does Lian have absolutely nothing you want me to do for you?"

"No."

Ren Suzuki shook her head decisively.

"Compared with my own affairs, I hope that Shiina-san's manga can continue smoothly... Well, my story shouldn't have any reference value, right? Even if such a story is drawn into a manga, no one will buy it. "

"…………"