Firefly, I want to be a Sanyo Hermit

"The current topics of these three departments are closely related to your power, Sister Kiana... This is too tiring." Raiden Mei said with concern.

"..." After hearing what Raiden Mei said, Kiana stopped harassing Sirin and sat up on the sofa. "But if I don't find something to do, I'll be too bored."

"Is it really because of boredom?" Hearing Kiana's words, Sirin looked at Kiana sideways. "Is it because of anxiety? If I don't find something to do, I will keep thinking about the Herrscher of the End."

Sirin knows the truth, but Kiana is kept in the dark...and the rule of 'not allowed to disclose' is a rule set by [End Kiana] herself.

So, Kiana has been worrying about these things.

How to say it...

"It's pitiful, but it's what he deserves." Xilin smiled secretly in her heart.

C.43 Senior Xilin

"Alas...Senior Sirin, Sister Kiana is too busy working like this every day..." To be honest, before coming to Saint Freya, Mei Raiden always thought that Kiana was the kind of hermit master in novels or on TV.

To put it simply, it means being free and carefree all day long, giving people a feeling of freedom.

After all, she would sometimes suddenly appear around me and bring me some surprise gifts.

So Mei Raiden has liked Kiana since she was a child...but when she was young, she called her aunt just like Qibao, but as she grew older, Kiana's appearance has not changed, so Mei Raiden started to call Kiana "sister" at some point.

But after arriving at Saint Freya, Mei Raiden discovered that... Kiana was not as leisurely as she had imagined, but had endless work to do every day.

Although it is possible that Kiana simply wanted to find someone to act coquettishly with, it is also a fact that she has a lot of work to do.

"I can't help it." Xilin spread her hands. "If you don't let her work, she will be unhappy."

"Sister Kiana, is she really the type of person who would feel bored if she isn't working?" Raiden Mei found it a little unbelievable.

Although she has been watching Kiana busy with work every day, Mei Raiden still doesn't believe that Kiana is the kind of person who would feel bored if she doesn't work.

After all, when Kiana comes back from work every day, her face is full of reluctance... How M must she be to be reluctant on the one hand, and force herself to go to work on the other...

Kiana is not someone who will have no money if she doesn't work.

"How is that possible?" Xilin shrugged and shook her head. "If she were given a chance, she would definitely stay at home idle."

"Then... why?" Raiden Mei asked Xilin. "Why does Sister Kiana keep pushing me to not stop?"

"During the time you have been in Saint Freya, you have heard about the [Key of God] and the [Pre-Civilization Era], right?" Seeing that Mei Raiden seemed very curious, Xilin also perked up a little.

He took the Coke from the coffee table, which he had just taken a sip of.

Xilin took a small sip, and the bubbles were almost gone.

"Well, I've seen some in history textbooks." Raiden Mei nodded, although her understanding was not comprehensive.

It was almost only mentioned that there was a pre-civilization era on Earth 50,000 years ago, and Raiden Mei didn't know anything else about it.

"We are not the only Herrschers. There was also a civilization on Earth 50,000 years ago, and it was the Herrschers who destroyed that civilization." Xilin began her explanation.

To be honest, Xilin herself had never thought that she would become a "teacher" one day.

At first, Mei Raiden thought that the pre-civilization era was destroyed by the Herrscher. After all, according to Sirin's description, the Herrschers of the pre-civilization era did not have "human Herrschers" like them.

But as the explanation went deeper, Xilin also revealed the super soldier named "Fusion Warrior".

"In the end, the pre-civilization era was destroyed by the Herrscher of the End. That's it... But as far as I know... Although the pre-civilization era was destroyed, not all fusion warriors died. Some of them came to our era with the mission of saving civilization."

Then, Xilin's description changed wonderfully.

The original description of the pre-civilization era was more science fiction-oriented, with things like [Key of God], [Fusion Warrior]... all being products of pre-civilization technology.

But in the early days of modern civilization, the "painting style" changed, and there appeared wonderful descriptions of immortals and gods...

However, after hearing the whole story, Mei Raiden also knew that these immortal gods were actually fusion warriors from the previous civilization.

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"So that's how it is. The reason why Sister Kiana is so busy is because she is worried about the [Hersher of the End]?" Raiden Mei finally understood what Kiana was worried about every day.

"Yeah, that's it." Xilin nodded. 'Why did I tell her this...'

Xilin looked at Raiden Mei, and after a while, she sighed slightly in the face of Raiden Mei's puzzled eyes.

In fact, there were many things that Xilin didn't have to tell Mei Raiden...but she still told Mei Raiden most of the things she knew, except for the "future".

"Thank you, Senior Xilin." Raiden Mei said to Xilin sincerely.

"Nothing, I just want..." Xilin subconsciously said halfway before she froze. "So that's how it is... I want her to know more about Kiana..."

"Is it because I think that I am taking advantage of the situation when Raiden Mei has lost all her memories..."

"Senior Xilin?" Seeing Xilin suddenly lowering her eyes in a daze, Raiden Mei called out with concern.

"Oh, I'm fine." Xilin came back to her senses and shook her head. "Come to think of it, you've been so depressed these days, what's the matter?"

Actually, to be fair, Xilin still likes Raiden Mei very much...

Although she is very different from the 'Raiden Mei' she saw in the [Illusion], she thinks that no matter which Raiden Mei it is, she is a very good person... It would be even better if Raiden Mei didn't like Kiana!

"Actually it's because..." Mei Raiden told Xilin about her recent confusion.

"That's it?" Xilin raised her eyebrows. "Just give up."

Xilin put her hands on her hips and said as a matter of course.

"Ah?" Mei Raiden's eyes widened in surprise. "Turning to pieces?"

"Yes." Xilin nodded. "You also know that I am a Herrscher."

"So it stands to reason that my power was 'suddenly acquired'."

In fact, Mei Raiden is just too serious, so she questions the power she possesses and worries that one day she will lose control and no longer be herself.

But is Xilin afraid? She was afraid before, and even experienced it.

She became a Herrscher at a very young age and had experienced a lot of darkness, so her emotions were indeed very unstable.

In the past, negative emotions were magnified under the instigation of collapse, whether it was hatred, hatred, anger, hatred, or the like.

"Senior Sirin..." Upon hearing that Sirin and Kiana had once had a fight, Raiden Mei showed a worried expression.

Although Sirin and Kiana are alive and well now and are definitely fine... Mei Raiden is still worried about what happened at that time.

"Then...what happens after that?" Raiden Mei asked hurriedly.

"And then nothing happened. I was easily defeated by Kiana. Even the Houkai that magnified my negative emotions was easily eliminated by Kiana."

At that time, Xilin thought that Kiana was too strong. Now think about it... Damn it! Wasn't it Kiana who did the bad thing?

Of course, this was just Xilin's joking idea. She knew very well what Kiana meant to her.

Perhaps the help at that time was just an insignificant contribution to Kiana, but everything that happened at that time was her redemption for Xilin.

'Senior Sirin really likes Sister Kiana...' Mei Raiden thought to herself as she watched Sirin look a little disgusted at first but then giggle.

"So...Senior Xilin, what you mean is..." Raiden Mei understood a little, but she seemed to know more clearly.

"I mean, if the sky falls, there are tall people to hold it up." Xilin shrugged. "Even if you really become unlike yourself because of this sudden power, Kiana will be responsible for waking you up."

"I see..." Mei Raiden nodded in understanding. "So this is what Senior Xilin meant by tanking..."

In fact, Xilin’s meaning is very clear, which is to let Raiden Mei not worry too much, because worrying too much will make her lose herself.

If one day, she really goes astray, then Kiana will take responsibility.

Until then, Mei Raiden just needs to do what she wants to do.

"I didn't expect Senior Sirin to see things so clearly..." Mei Raiden, who had been helped many times by Kiana, was different from Sirin.

Mei Raiden has always wanted to repay Kiana in her heart.

And Sirin... In Sirin's opinion, not causing trouble for Kiana is actually the best help. After all, they are Herrschers, and they are more terrifying than natural disasters.

"But... do I really want to give up..." Raiden Mei lowered her head and looked at her palm. "No... Senior Xilin didn't mean to give up, but to keep a normal mind."

'But can I really do it...'

"Alright." Xilin suddenly patted the dazed Mei Raiden on the shoulder. "I knew you wouldn't give up."

After all, she is Raiden Mei, and neither she nor 'Raiden Mei' seems to be the type to give up.

It was also because of this that 'Raiden Mei' felt pain due to her own powerlessness when Kiana hurt herself again and again.

"In that case, then think about it. Think about what you 'want'."

"You need a 'goal' and something to work towards."

Just like Kiana has not deviated from her path to this day, no matter how anxious she is, she still walks on her path.

Kiana wants to make this imperfect world a better place and works hard to do so, and she still does so today.

Kiana worked harder than any of them.

Because all of them can lose themselves to the power, because Kiana will save them...

But Kiana can't, because her power is too strong. If one day she deviates from her path and falls into darkness, no one will be able to stop her, so she must firmly maintain her self and original intention.

"What I want..." Mei Raiden's eyes seemed a little empty and confused. She didn't know what she wanted... "I don't know..."

"Then..." Xilin's voice brought Mei Raiden back to her senses. "Then I will 'lend' you an ideal."

"Senior Xilin..." Raiden Mei looked at Xilin and waited for her words.

"Save the world, just like Kiana, save the world. Before you find your true ideal, follow Kiana's ideal." Sirin said to Raiden Mei.

"..." Looking at Xilin's appearance, Raiden Mei's pupils trembled.

After a moment, Mei Raiden suddenly laughed.

"Puchi... This is the first time I know that Senior Xilin is actually very eloquent." Raiden Mei touched her forehead.

"Hmph, I am the Second Herrscher, your senior." Xilin snorted and said in a somewhat arrogant manner.

Looking at Mei Raiden, Sirin's aura gradually rose. That was not Honkai energy, but Sirin's mental power.

"Of course I have my moments of confusion, but I've long since gotten over the confusion about my own strength... No, that's not right..."

The mental strength that was enough to make an ordinary person collapse in an instant was lost in this small space.

Yes, although Mei Raiden has always called Sirin "senior" and respected her, but... somewhere in her heart, she still regards Sirin as a child, because Sirin is really childish.

At this moment, Mei Raiden finally understood... Xilin's strength is not just because she possesses powerful Honkai energy and powerful power...

What Xilin possessed was no longer the kind of power that was 'suddenly acquired'.

"I have never been confused because I have power, because Kiana once told me..."

"She said...I need to have the power to protect myself, and the power I have should not be used to hurt people who are as innocent as me."

Those were the words Kiana had said to her in her 'cocoon' more than ten years ago.

At that time, Kiana had already captured the Herrscher Core. She could easily destroy a huge threat to the world, but because of "trust", she handed the core to her who was still full of hatred at that time.

Even though more than a decade had passed, she still remembered what Kiana had said to her at that time.

"..." Mei Raiden looked at Xilin in front of her. This seemed to be the first time she truly knew Xilin.

She is not a child, and she has indeed gone further than me on the road of "life".

"Thank you, Senior Sirin." Raiden Mei took a deep breath and then slowly exhaled. "However, Senior Sirin 'lent' me Sister Kiana's ideal without permission. Did you get Sister Kiana's consent?"

Mei Raiden gave a slightly mischievous smile.

"You...you are so annoying!" Just as Mei Raiden imagined, Xilin's cheeks turned red and she shouted, then ran away in a hurry.

"..." Watching Xilin's running back, Raiden Mei slightly lowered her eyes and looked at her hands. "Thank you so much... Xilin-senpai."

C.44 Mei is not a child anymore

Saving the world is a very general wish, one that cannot even be called empty or pretentious.

But when she heard that this was Kiana's wish, Mei Raiden didn't have any doubts, as if it was a matter of course.