Give the child a little shock to the world view

But now, having lost her self-healing ability, Mayumi Hanega once again felt the discomfort in her heart.

Her eyes went dark and her chest ached so much that she could hardly speak. The resurrection had cost her too much energy, and her emotional fluctuations had caused her illness to relapse. She could only sit down slowly and try to calm her breathing, and then took out the medicine from her backpack and poured it into her mouth.

When she recovered, Megrane sat in her arms with concern, leaning very close to her: "Mayumi? What happened to you...? Can't you heal yourself? What's the matter with the disaster?"

Megrane noticed the difference between Mayumi Haga and himself in the way they were eroded.

Perhaps it was because the disaster eroded them in different ways, and Megarane was only affected in her mind at the time. Even because there were not too many things in her mind, she had no other desire except to get Mayumi Haga, so as long as she was purified by Mayumi Haga with fire, she would be fine.

Overall, the disaster did not affect Megalane's soul...but it went straight to Mayumi Haga's core.

The core of Mayumi Haga after being eroded is actually quite different from that of Urzana.

The biggest difference is that a corner of Mayumi Haga's core has been broken, and the disaster has dyed the bright golden color with a light haze, and the progress of the breakage is still increasing with the number of times Mayumi Haga is resurrected. However, Urzana was only eroded on the surface of the core. Although there are cracks, they have not penetrated deep into the interior.

Megrane was very anxious: "You can't just revive casually, do you know that? You will be completely devoured if you do so! Only then will you really die... I really don't understand! You have always been so dumb, how come your mind is so fragile now?"

In fact, she also knows that what Mayumi Hanega has to endure is not on the same level as her, or anyone else...but can't this guy hold on a little longer?

She didn't know that because of the Desperate Monster, Mayumi Hanega's mental protection had completely disappeared.

This time, the shadow of Mayumi Haga's past officially engulfed her already crumbling heart.

Mayumi Yuga didn't have the energy to talk to Megrane, she just chuckled twice, "Then be swallowed."

"If it's swallowed, then...what did you say?" Megrane's words were stuck in her throat. She widened her eyes and finally noticed the most abnormal thing about Mayumi Hanega. She moved closer and observed every familiar detail on this face in surprise.

Unfortunately, she couldn't find any evidence that Mayumi Haga said this against her will.

In other words, Mayumi Haga really did say these discouraging words sincerely.

"What are you thinking? Do you feel that you can't go back so anything is fine? Aren't you living well enough in this world? Why are you saying such things..." This time, Megrane began to truly examine Mayumi Hanega's own thoughts.

She always thought that Mayumi Haga was the person least likely to seek death.

It is obvious that one person has been able to hold on until today, so there is no reason to give up in such a happy new world.

Mayumi Haga simply looked away, lowered her eyes, and her eyelashes projected a small fan on her cheeks: "I don't want to actively embrace death."

Even though this is the peaceful ending she has not been able to achieve after walking so many roads, Mayumi Haga will not step into the grave before the conditions are met.

She once had infinite value, so she dedicated her infinite self to her duty.

Now, she only had a few things left, but she would not take these things to her grave peacefully.

She would burn up all that she had left, and when she could no longer get up, she would be able to fall into a peaceful sleep.

This is definitely not a desire to die, but it cannot be said to be a desire to survive.

After all, Mayumi Haga would not take the initiative to protect herself during a battle, and she would wish her brains could be spread more evenly. In this way, even if she had 999 lives, she would not live long.

When Mayumi Yuga thought of this, she suddenly felt a little happy. She laughed in front of the anxious Megrane, making the latter confused: "What are you laughing at? Why are you laughing at this time?"

"When I realized that my life was limited, I felt even better than before." Mayumi Haga's tone became much lighter.

She remembered a lot.

I think back to the time when I was weak before I became a guardian.

Whether it is the first cherry blossom in spring, the rainstorm and iced watermelon in summer, the scene of everyone in the village working hard in the fields in autumn, or even the blizzard that almost collapsed the roof in winter... they were all much more colorful than now.

Those memories should have actually shone brightly in her mind and should have become a vital part of her, but they were buried because of the longer time that followed.

In fact, it is the limited life that can often give birth to infinite miracles.

Mayumi Haga's smile actually looked a bit like snowflakes, which melted immediately after falling, leaving no trace, but the pleasant coolness still remained on the tip of the nose.

It's like the aroma emitted after the last piece of firewood in the fireplace burns, quiet and fiery.

Under Megalane's worried gaze, Mayumi Hanega sat up from the ground, holding on to the wall.

Her clothes were soaked through. Even after she was resurrected and put on a new pair of pajamas, they were still stained with the corpse fluid with a high sugar content on the ground, making her look a mess.

The weakness that had been suppressed by Miss Guardian's self-healing ability in the past resurfaced, her face was pale and somewhat transparent. She calmed down for a while, and estimated the number of resurrections she could use based on the state of her core and the loss of each resurrection.

There are up to 53 more times.

Mayumi Haga knew what was going on.

Chapter 127 I didn't do anything wrong

During class, Tono Hitomi would occasionally cast worried glances towards her surroundings.

Mayumi...why didn't you come to school today?

The seat belonging to Mayumi Haga was empty, and there was no one sitting in Belle's seat next to her.

Although the magical girls and jewelmon's return visit day is coming soon, if she wasn't still adjusting her body and couldn't transform, she should have taken time out of her spare time every few days to work harder on magical girl activities... But Mayumi is not a magical girl, right?

Although in the eyes of the people in Miracle City, the Guardian lady who often hangs out with magical girls may not be much different from a magical girl, but as a magical girl, Touno Hitomi is still clear about the difference.

The guardian Mayumi Haga is not bound by the rules of magical girls and is much freer than magical girls.

However, after the homeroom teacher, Ms. Kirino, paid a home visit, it became clear to Mayumi that she should not have skipped classes without asking for leave.

Tono Hitomi has known Mayumi Haga since she was a child. The latter's compliance with the rules is outrageous. Before the special circumstances during this period, Mayumi Haga had never taken a day off.

Even Tono Hitomi would sometimes pretend to be sick and not go to school when she was a child.

So, what happened today...?

Tono Hitomi couldn't help but feel a little worried.

Without the ability to transform, her magic was severely restricted, and she could do almost nothing. She could only use telepathy and a few harmless everyday magics.

He couldn't fly or use enhanced magic, let alone magic cannons... He couldn't even transform into magic equipment, so he was basically isolated from combat.

In this case, if I rashly help Mayumi, I might end up holding her back... no, it should be said that I would definitely do that.

If Mayumi Haga knew magic, it would be fine, but Mayumi Haga's fighting style is not the type that can protect people from the enemy. If another person rushes into the field, the magical girl will cover the passerby with a magic shield, and Mayumi Haga can only protect it with her body.

And it might even distract Mayumi.

Mayumi Haga needs to concentrate highly during the battle. Although Mayumi Haga herself should not be distracted easily, it is still better to be prepared for the worst.

Considering this possibility, Tono Hitomi will not take the initiative to disturb Mayumi Haga when she is out on field work.

...Well, part of the reason is that she is also busy with her own affairs.

Too much homework has been missed and there is no way to transform, so Touno Hitomi has been in a state of panic lately.

In addition to discovering her feelings for Mayumi and knowing some of her secrets, Touno Hitomi felt that she had received too much information recently and thought that it would be better for her to give herself some time to calm down.

Without a doubt, she liked Mayumi the best.

When she first met Mayumi, she saw that Mayumi Haga was not sociable, so she took the initiative to find her to play with her so that Mayumi would not feel lonely.

But later she discovered that Mayumi Haga didn't care about being with others at all, and didn't care about the idea of ​​"fitting in", so her behavior might be unnecessary.

When she was a child, she thought that if she was always alone, she would definitely feel lonely.

But after a while, Hitomi Tono realized that some people just like to be alone, and if you force them into a social circle, it will only make them feel uncomfortable.

Fortunately, Mayumi Haga is somewhere in between the two.

Mayumi doesn't hate being in a crowd, but it makes her feel helpless. Being alone is also okay, but her mood will get worse if she stays alone for a long time.

The correct way to get along with others is to become Mayumi Haga's friend.

A small number of close friends.

Although Tono Hitomi can get along with everyone, she prefers the atmosphere with Haga Mayumi.

Quiet and focused, when the two of them were together, it was as if time had stopped at that moment and Mayumi was only looking at herself.

At first she thought it was a unique atmosphere between best friends, but later she realized that best friends might not be so ambiguous.

...Although she might be the only one who felt her face blushing and her heart beating fast, Mayumi always had a blank expression and no reaction at all.

She initially thought it was because Mayumi was too wooden.

And only recently did I finally realize that perhaps Mayumi was instinctively resisting something.

Although she had once shown a relaxed smile in her dream, such a dazzling Mayumi has become like this in this world.

Because I have endured too much, I choose to close my heart and refuse to accept anything.

Tono Hitomi didn't know what she should do.

She does like Mayumi Hanega, but for Mayumi, is her love too reckless and frivolous?

Yes, she did not know Mayumi well enough. If Mayumi's past was shrouded in darkness, and if Mayumi decided to leave her wounds in the dark to heal slowly, would her reckless act of trying to open Mayumi's heart hurt her?

Tono Hitomi is careless most of the time, but when faced with such an important issue, she has to hold herself back and sort out the relationship between herself and Mayumi Haga.

So she chose to give herself some time to think about these issues.

The most important thing is to test Mayumi a little.

However, until the order to [Seal the Desperate Monster] came from the other end of the mental communication, Tono Hitomi did not see the figure of Mayumi Haga.

Strange, Mayumi was supposed to be at school today... Wait? They're asking us to seal the Despair Monster?

It is said that a magician from the Star Tower came to this city to seal the Desperate Monster who was not allowed to exist in the world, but accidentally let it run away, and more people are needed to help find the trace of that monster.

Before Tono Hitomi could raise her question in the telepathic communication, Takajo Yuri spoke first: [Ms. Terasaki, may I ask who the Despair Monster is? Do we have to seal it away? ]

The instruction came from Ayaka Terasaki, and several people were using telepathic communication during class, but Ms. Kirino miraculously did not stop them.

After Ms. Kirino revealed that she was also a magician last time, Terasaki Ayaka pulled this senior into their mental communication channel to facilitate the spread of the news and to let Ms. Kirino know that the two magical girls' behavior of skipping classes was justified by their magical girl mission.

This is to maintain the peace of the city!

In other words, Ms. Kirino asked Ayaka Terasaki to pull her in and supervise the two magical girls to prevent them from skipping classes, and even if there was something important, they had to let her know first.

This group was created for the convenience of taking leave.

And now, Ms. Kirino said in a deep voice: [The Despair Monster is not a monster you can seal. If you encounter one, please inform me and Terasaki immediately and we will handle it... Do you understand? ]

In other words, the magical girls are not responsible for direct battles with the Despair Monsters. Because the two magical girls in Miracle City are still a little immature, in order to prevent them from getting injured or even dying in the battle with the unprecedentedly powerful evil enemy, the seniors do not intend to let the magical girls rush to the front, but only let them assist in the investigation.

However, this has nothing to do with Hitomi Tono.

If she could still transform now, she would definitely rush to the front regardless of the warnings of her predecessors. But now her transformation ban has not been lifted, if she really encounters the Despair Monster, she will have no choice but to run away... In fact, she may continue to rush.

After all, Hitomi Tono has such a reckless personality.

However, this was the first time that Tono Hitomi heard such a strict order.

As far as she could remember, she had never come across such an evil enemy that had to be sealed... Such ruthlessness also indirectly proved that the enemy's threat was greater than the monsters she had seen in the past.

Are the suicides that happened some time ago related to this weirdo?

Tono Hitomi looked at the empty seat of Haga Mayumi with a little worry.

If that monster is so strong, is it because Mayumi was seriously injured that she couldn't come to school?

Let's go to Mayumi's house to see her after school.

The ominous premonition in Tono Hitomi's heart became more and more intense, causing her to have no intention of listening to the following classes. She counted the seconds waiting for the school bell to ring, and hurriedly said hello to Takajo Yuri who was going to look for the Desperate Monster next. She immediately grabbed her schoolbag and ran out of the classroom.

...

In fact, Mayumi Yuga also considered going to class in the morning. But Megalane stopped her with a dark face: "In your current state, do you want to die in front of those human cubs when you go to school? And show them your exquisite resurrection skills?"

Mayumi Haga paused.

She now has 48 resurrection chances.

I forgot to drink the life potion before going to bed yesterday, and my heart stopped beating five times in my sleep.

To be honest, her health was not so bad that she would stop breathing in her dreams. Even when she was fifteen or sixteen years old and her health was the worst, it was not that bad.

But perhaps because the disaster was mixed with the nature of a desperate monster, she was always haunted by nightmares after coming to this world. The nightmares that she didn't care about in the past could now take her life silently.

It's really lack of consideration.

Endless nightmares are a shortcut for disaster to erode Mayumi Haga, because when Mayumi Haga is awake, her mood is always calm and rational, and she will not be swayed by despair, but it is different in an unguarded dream.

Mayumi Hanega covered her forehead with her hands, and after the heat in her body subsided, she was indeed a little annoyed.

If I had known this, I shouldn’t have slept.

"Dream? Does Mayumi need to strengthen her dream?" The eyes of the little bear ornament placed on the head of Mayumi Yuga's bed lit up, and the little bear's consciousness connected and spoke, "Mayumi...? You look so weak now, what's wrong with your body?"

The little bear is only half the height of a palm now. She jumped onto Mayumi Haga's bed worriedly, and then moved her short arms and legs to grab Mayumi Haga's arm and get close to her.