In the anime series, Goto Ichiri is actually my childhood sweetheart?

"But there will always be true love at this time and then move on, Feng, why are you so pedantic?" With Eriri's way of thinking, she didn't quite understand Takahashi Feng's thoughts.

If you keep hesitating at this time, what if you miss it in the end?

"It's okay to be pedantic, but that just shows that I am a pedantic person."

Gao Qiaofeng does not deny this statement. It should be said that so many years of experience have made him such a pedantic person.

What kind of person you are is determined during the process of growing up.

Now that this is his second life, it is difficult for him to change.

Ying Lili wrapped the hair scattered on the bed around her neck and thought quietly.

"Hey, Feng, do you think I'm good-looking?"

These questions are almost like triggered landmines, and are particularly common in the battle of love. They are usually asked by the woman, and the man will be blown to pieces if he is not careful.

"You're undoubtedly good-looking. I feel flattered to be friends with someone like you. If you hadn't been lying next to me, I wouldn't have thought I could know someone like you. If you didn't like otaku stuff like novels and anime, you probably wouldn't even look at me." A low and steady voice came out slowly, resonating with Takahashi Kaede's heart.

Takahashi Kaede truly believed this from the bottom of his heart. After all, Eriri was above her peers in terms of family background, appearance, and ability, and was treated like a star in school.

For an autistic person like him, such a person is simply unimaginable.

Eriri sat up suddenly. She had been wondering how Takahashi Kaede would answer, but she didn't expect that he would think of her in this way.

"Feng, you are so outstanding, how could you think like that! And I am not that kind of person, I won't look at others like that!"

Takahashi Kaede turned her head away. Eriri wanted to ask more, but at this moment the bathroom door opened and Goto Ichiri, wearing a short-sleeved shirt and shorts, walked out slowly.

"What are you doing? Aren't you going to sleep yet?"

"nothing."

Ying Lili put on her shoes and walked straight to the inner room.

Today, Eriri slept alone in the inner room, while Takahashi Kaede and Goto Ichiri slept in the main house.

Chapter 97: On lonely nights, there are always people seeking warmth

"The popular idol is about to taste the sourest candy in the world. Can it make the professional idol show an indecent expression? Please wait and see!" The host explained in an excited voice. Standing next to him was a beautiful girl in a princess dress, who was looking at a plate of candy on the table in the middle of the stage with a fake smile.

As the candy entered his mouth, the idol's delicate face twisted as expected, and the laughter of the audience below mixed with the canned laughter in the background.

Gao Qiaofeng yawned with his eyes half opened. He was completely exhausted. He picked up the remote control on the bedside table, turned off the TV that was playing the prank show, and then lowered the temperature of the air conditioner by a few degrees.

He huddled into the bed, trying to wrap himself up completely and cut off all contact with the outside world.

Recalling what happened that night, Takahashi Kaede was actually very satisfied with his own performance, from his caution when they met, to his decisiveness in asking Eriri to find someone, to his perfect connection with Nao Uesaki's reaction in the end, and taking down the middle-aged man in the shortest time possible. He almost did everything he expected to do.

It can be said that I did not bring shame to myself. If I had been frightened to the point of being unable to move or had fled when the incident happened, he would probably have hated me for the rest of his life.

but......

Gao Qiaofeng tried hard to close his eyes, but his eyelids kept trembling, as if resisting sleep, a purely escapist behavior, forcing Gao Qiaofeng to constantly recall the details of what happened that night.

The corpse stabbed to pieces by a sharp knife, the soft and sticky impact when a stone was raised and smashed down, and the middle-aged man being strangled, a living person fainted in his own hands, and after waking up, he shouted angrily, pouring all the negative emotions on him, and then was strangled by him calmly.

When she understood how much pain pepper spray would cause to others, she still resolutely raised the pepper spray and poured all the juice into the middle-aged man's eyes.

These behaviors and thoughts, which are extremely detached from real life and can even be said to have nothing to do with real life, keep circling, repeating, and strengthening in his mind.

He would never regret doing this. If it happened again, he might be more ruthless and vicious, and use more effective methods to quickly make the middle-aged man lose any ability to resist.

His conscience did not receive any condemnation, and he even kept praising himself in his heart.

But when he thought of these details, he would tremble, cold sweat would pour out like a waterfall, and he would feel cold to the bone.

He pulled the quilt tightly, wrapped himself like a caterpillar, and curled up on the soft bed.

Takahashi Kaede has never misunderstood himself.

He is indeed a cowardly person. Although he can do some impulsive actions based on momentary passion, he will only be constantly afraid afterwards and cannot muster the courage to face it. He can only create a small space for himself to get some comfort.

It seemed as if nothing had changed. He was like this in his previous life, curled up in the dark room, fearing the bullying he had suffered during the day, and fearing the teachers and classmates he would face the next day, as well as his adoptive mother.

Just for watching others play games, he was verbally abused. Finally, he couldn't bear it anymore and started a fight, but what he got in return was scolding from his adoptive mother.

The teacher called his mother over and in front of many teachers and classmates, she used the most despicable words to belittle him, making him feel worthless and ashamed.

His head lowered lower and lower at the sound, and when it couldn't go any lower, he suddenly wanted to see the expressions of the people around him.

Looking up slightly, there are expressions of calmness, ridicule, watching a show, pride, and worry, but there is no affirmation.

Although when he grew up, he fully recognized the true face of this group of people, and was sure that his resistance was the right choice, he would not let his bones soften even if he was insulted.

But on many bad nights, this nightmare of being isolated and helpless still often occurs.

Hey--

I don’t know when this problem will be cured.

Hiding under the quilt and sighing softly, Gao Qiaofeng covered his eyes with his arms and pulled his eyelids down hard.

Intentionally control your breathing, make it even and rhythmic, calm your mind and don't let any random thoughts occur.

Takahashi Feng was forcing himself to fall asleep, but he was not the only one suffering from insomnia.

Ying Lili was sitting on the bed at this time, staring at her mobile phone.

The above are all the various conversations that Eri Kashiwagi and Mr. Hashi have had over the years.

"Eri, you are such an idiot. Why did you say those words to Feng just now..."

The more she read, the sadder she felt. She realized that she had been brainless and nothing she said was on point. When Gao Qiaofeng was telling her his true feelings, she even scolded him for being old-fashioned and inflexible.

How could Gao Qiao Feng not understand what she meant? If he understood and still said so, it meant that those were definitely what he really thought.

I am completely denying the idea of ​​my loved one!

"I'm such an idiot~~~"

Ying Lili fell on the bed, threw her cell phone aside, covered her head tightly with a pillow, and made strange noises.

Her only wish now was to travel back to the past and comfort Takahashi Feng properly instead of saying those thoughtless words.

But there is no way to regret it now. I should cheer up and make amends actively.

Even though Gao Qiaofeng cares so much about Yili, she is totally unwilling to admit defeat. The matter has not yet been settled, and it is still uncertain who will win or lose!

Since Gao Qiaofeng thinks she is out of her reach, then she will take the initiative. With her experience as a comic book artist and her recognized appearance, shouldn't it be easy for her to win over an innocent straight man?

but......

Is it really so urgent?

Ying Lili clamped the pillow between her thighs, her eyes swept across her flat breasts, and looked at her delicate, fair but petite hands that were obviously not fully grown.

He's not even in junior high school yet, and Feng has said that he's a conservative person. If I suddenly change my attitude and take the initiative to pursue him, will the result really be good?

She thought of Tanaka Misaki, and lay back on the bed in distress, biting her lower lip lightly.

"Let's take a long-term view."

......

The bedside lamp and the room light were turned off, and the only sound in the room was the slight sound of the air conditioner.

Gao Qiaofeng turned over and picked up his mobile phone. The light from the screen flashed in his eyes, and he quickly dimmed the brightness.

1:30PM

It's already half past one in the morning.

Put down your phone. Check-out time tomorrow is at noon, so you’ll still make it in time even if you sleep late.

Turning over, Gao Qiaofeng saw the curtains slightly open and looked out. It was pitch black. Even in the brightest areas, there were only a few shops open at this time.

Perhaps the only places still in business are bars and karaoke bars.

Gao Qiaofeng rubbed his eyes hard, but after just a quick look out the window, his eyes became too sleepy to open.

I really want to sleep, but I just can't fall asleep.

Feng Takahashi pricked up his ears and began to feel the sounds around him. He didn't know if it was an auditory hallucination, but he heard a rustling sound behind him.

Gao Qiaofeng held back and the sound only lasted for a moment before stopping.

Just as he was about to continue sleeping, he suddenly felt a collapse on his back, as if something had crawled onto his bed.

The air conditioner was very cold, and Gao Qiaofeng could clearly feel a hot object lifting his quilt and pressing against his back.

A sweet and refreshing fragrance came, and Gao Qiao Feng felt itchy on his face. He reached out to touch it and found it was hair. He couldn't see the color in the dark, but it was very soft and felt as smooth as silk.

A pair of small hands came up and hugged Gao Qiaofeng's waist, and the touched parts felt numb.

The little hand groped upwards, Gao Qiaofeng twisted his body uneasily, and the movement of his hand stopped immediately.

"Are you still not sleeping so late?"

Gao Qiao Feng didn't dare to look back and asked softly.

"Xiao Feng, I don't dare sleep alone today."

A tired voice came from behind. It was a familiar voice that Gao Qiaofeng had heard countless times before. However, the difference was that today's voice was particularly gentle. Gao Qiaofeng felt his heart skip a beat...

Goto Ichiri also suffered from insomnia, and his insomnia was comparable to that of Takahashi Kaede.

She kept imagining what would happen if Gao Qiaofeng had an accident while fighting with the gangsters today, or what would happen if the sharp knife ended up stabbing Gao Qiaofeng.

The world outside is much more terrifying than she had imagined, and even Takahashi Feng cannot face it with ease this time.

When Eriri and the safety personnel arrived at the scene and she hugged Takahashi Kaede, she truly felt the weight on her shoulders and her trembling hands.

If Gao Qiaofeng had an accident, all those past memories, whether it was walking to and from school together every day, the monotonous conversations, or the occasional little shyness, would become the most painful memories.

If Xiao Feng died, I would definitely become a completely useless person. My mother would be disappointed in my incompetence, my father would care about me but put his hopes on Erli, and I would live in my cupboard, collecting the minimum living allowance and drinking beer, disappearing from this world in the pain of missing Xiao Feng.

The more Goto Ichiri thought about it, the more frightened she became. Her imagination was so rich that it seemed as if this kind of thing had really happened to her. The real emotional experience made it impossible for her to distinguish between reality and illusion in this pitch-black night.

She desperately wanted truth.

So she crawled to Gao Qiaofeng's side, got into the warm quilt filled with familiar smell, and hugged tightly the hero who stood in front of her and protected her today.

"Come to think of it, Xiao Feng and I have never slept together since that thunderstorm night when we were kids." She thought silently in her heart.

The last time she slept with Gaoqiao Feng was because Gaoqiao Feng gave up his bed to her. As a result, he was freezing on the sofa, and finally he was willing to sleep in the room after her persuasion.

Goto Ichiri has almost no memories of his childhood, and the memories he can recall clearly are almost all related to Takahashi Kaede.

"Are you still not sleeping so late?"

Takahashi Kaede's gentle voice came, is he also suffering from insomnia?

Goto Ichiri didn't know whether Takahashi Feng was woken up by her noise or because of insomnia. The only thing she knew was that as long as she acted coquettishly, Takahashi Feng would definitely satisfy her demands.

She hugged Takahashi Kaede tighter.

"I am afraid."

I don’t know if it was an illusion, but Goto Ichiri could clearly feel that Takahashi Kaede’s body suddenly shook.

But she didn't care so much. She came up to him in a daze, pressing Takahashi Feng's back tightly, as if she wanted to merge herself into Takahashi Feng's body.

Only in this way can she feel the true reality and the fear in her heart can dissipate.

Nothing is more soothing than hot flesh.

She didn't dare to wear any clothes like nightgown outside the house. Now she was only wearing a short-sleeved shirt and long pajamas outside, without even wearing underwear.

The underwear was so uncomfortable to wear, and the underwear that Goto Michiyo bought for her was no longer big enough for her. She would feel suffocated if she wore it at night, so she simply didn't wear it.

"Xiao Feng?"

Takahashi Feng suddenly turned around, lowered his head, and met Goto Ichiri's eyes.

In the dim room, the two young people lay on the same bed, covered with the same quilt, so close that they could hear each other's breathing and smell each other's unique scent.

Takahashi Kaede's hot breath hit Goto Ichiri's face, making her feel a little itchy.

The two of them just stared at each other in silence. Even through the thick darkness, they could see that the blush on each other's faces had spread to the base of their necks.

Goto Ichiri reached out and touched Takahashi Kaede's face. The face, which should have been cooled by the air-conditioning, was actually warm. So Goto Ichiri touched it gently as if he was warming his hands.

For some reason, she felt a wave of heat in her lower abdomen. The feeling was not strong and did not seem to be swallowing her up, but it made her feel very novel.

"Xiao Feng, I feel so weird now..."