In the anime series, Goto Ichiri is actually my childhood sweetheart?

Takahashi Feng did not completely accept Touka's advice. He was a little stubborn about himself.

Touka looked at him and shook her head before continuing.

Chapter 3: Night talk with Juhua and Takahashi Kaede's awakening

"You have to consider things from the perspective of the person you like, not your own. If you are together, you are a whole, and you must pursue the sameness of the two of you. You have to be her, and she has to be you."

Touka raised the spoon and pointed towards the kitchen. Takahashi Feng looked over and saw a frying pan.

It was lying in the dishwashing sink. The surface of the pot was as new as if it had just been bought. There was still some foamy water in the pot, and it seemed that Ryoko had just washed it.

"It's like when you are a cook cooking in the kitchen, the pot is your closest lover. You have to consider whether the surface of the pot is clean, whether the bottom of the pot is burnt, and whether the cooking residue can be cleaned. Correspondingly, as long as you maintain it properly, its service life will be longer, and the food cooked in it will not be tainted with burnt smell."

"But if you just treat it as a tool and subjectively think it is strong iron and does not need maintenance... you can imagine what the result will be."

"It will be burned through one day." Takahashi Feng shuddered and was a little afraid to think further about what Touka said.

If Goto Ichiri is still unable to stand on her own feet in society in the future and has to rely on me, will she really accept it with peace of mind?

Or do you suffer from psychological pressure every day, feel guilty, lack of confidence, or even self-loathing?

No matter how bad the ending is, I am definitely the instigator of all this.

Whenever Goto Ichiri encountered a challenge that would allow her to grow, I was the one who took the initiative to take on the responsibility, and then turned around and told Goto Ichiri that it was okay, she was here.

This kind of chronic destruction, for someone like Goto Ichiri who is already different from normal children, my so-called help will eventually become the last straw that breaks the camel's back. One day in the future, regardless of whether Takahashi Kaede is still by Goto Ichiri's side, she will definitely feel a deep fear when she looks back at her growth trajectory.

The person who has been helping himself ends up destroying himself.

Takahashi Feng thought for a while from Goto Ichiri's perspective, and suddenly felt an indescribable fear.

This fear triggered the worries that had always existed in his subconscious.

At this moment, his pupils trembled slightly and his trigeminal nerve hurt.

"Takahashi-kun? Feng-kun?" Touka waved her hands in front of Takahashi Feng's eyes twice. Seeing that his eyes were empty and he looked dazed, she flicked Takahashi Feng's head hard.

"It hurts!"

Takahashi Feng covered his head and subconsciously looked at Tohka in confusion. A red mark appeared on his head. This time Tohka used all his strength to hit him.

"I don't understand what you are thinking, but my intuition tells me that you are definitely not thinking about anything positive." A cold voice came out of her mouth.

She pinched Takahashi Feng's face with her backhand. Takahashi Feng's face was very clean and felt very comfortable, making her unable to let it go.

"Give the person you like a little confidence, and also give yourself a little confidence. Since she is liked by you, she will definitely behave a hundred times better than you think."

Are these young geniuses all a little bit crazy?

Touka withdrew his hand without changing his expression and thought about Takahashi Kaede's situation.

Takahashi Feng was still touching his head with his hand. It felt like a sonic boom had occurred on Touka's head, and his scalp was smoking.

"What's wrong with the back of your hand? It's so red?" Shihua had sharp eyes and noticed the abnormal pink color on the back of Takahashi Feng's hand at a glance.

"Ah, this. I got burned accidentally during the day. If you hadn't told me, I wouldn't have even remembered it."

Gao Qiaofeng looked at the back of his hand and sighed.

Before Shihua came, she was still thinking about that kind of thing, but now she is not in the mood at all.

"What a sloppy fellow! Just wait."

"No......"

Takahashi Feng stretched out her hand and wanted to call out to Touka, but Touka was quick and decisive and walked out the door before she could finish her words.

Not long after, she came over with the ointment.

"Hand out."

Shihua's tone of command came over, with an implication that no one could refuse.

"Oh."

Takahashi Feng stretched out his hand obediently, and Juhua half-knelt down. Her cold fingers were stained with ointment and she gently applied it on the back of Takahashi Feng's hand.

It's strange, although he doesn't have the same heart-pounding feeling as when he came into contact with Goto Ichiri, Takahashi Kaede still feels very at ease.

He had only felt this kind of security with Ryoko.

"Can you tell me what you're worried about?"

Night talks can always make people open up their hearts. Outside the dark window, the occasional chirping of cicadas quietly reveals the hearts of every stubborn person, allowing everyone to speak out their truest thoughts.

Shihua felt that she had an obligation to help this confused 'teen' to clear away some of the fog in front of her eyes, and she was indeed interested in this matter.

"The person I like... is very introverted, and I have always been the one helping her."

"When you said that just now, I started to wonder if my help from my own perspective was just wishful thinking on my part and was actually hindering her growth. I was just afraid that when she grows up, she would be under a lot of pressure because of me, and after realizing the cruelty, she would blame me for hindering her growth... No, she wouldn't blame me, she would only blame herself for not living up to her expectations."

Takahashi Feng held his head anxiously, and he remembered the request that Goto's mother had made to him a long time ago.

"Please let my daughter grow up!"

So many years have passed, has she really grown with my help? In fact, I have always been a hindrance.

"Is her introversion a disease? What have you been doing to help her?" Touka asked after thinking for a moment.

"No, that's just her personality. As for helping... I will do anything that requires communication with others. She usually only communicates with me at school."

"Does she have any other friends?"

"Have."

Ying Lili definitely counts.

"Does she have her own hobbies? There is no high or low, as long as it is something she likes."

"Yes, games, novels, comics, and so on."

"Does she talk a lot?"

"More often with me."

"Are her parents alive and loving?"

"Alive and well, and always caring about her."

"Does she have a tendency to self-harm?"

"No, I don't think that will happen." Goto Ichiri's silly smile appeared in Takahashi Feng's mind. He recalled what he saw when he slept with Goto Ichiri two days ago. There was no wound on his body.

Goto Ichiri is the kind of person who can smile foolishly all day long if she is given a bag of snacks. Self-harm is something that is completely different from her.

"Do you think she loves you?"

"Love... love, actually it's better to ask her herself."

Touka's stormy questions left Takahashi Kaede with no time to think before answering, but he still subconsciously turned his face away out of shyness.

He was still very embarrassed to say such words. Takahashi Feng's face was thin, and the blood color inside was easy to see, but there was nothing he could do about it.

Touka's eyes narrowed slightly, and Takahashi Kaede suddenly became nervous, not knowing what the result would be.

This pile of questions is like an online questionnaire, and after filling in the answers, it will give you a person's personality tendencies or something like that.

Is Shihua also studying psychology? She seems to be a very versatile person.

Because Tohka hadn't spoken for a long time, Takahashi Kaede's thoughts began to wander again.

Suddenly—she spoke.

"Do you think... this kind of person has problems? Will his future be affected because of someone like you?" Touka's puzzled tone and her half-hearted expression are like the teammate with the best record in a 5v5 game mocking you. Although you are anxious, she is right and you can't say anything back. You can only sulk and keep your dissatisfaction in your stomach.

"I, you——"

Gao Qiaofeng subconsciously wanted to object, but after a long time he couldn't utter a word.

Jukka took a deep breath.

"She has parents who are alive and love her, she is good-looking and popular, she has a cheerful personality and doesn't put pressure on herself, she has hobbies she likes and is willing to spend time on them, she has one or two close friends instead of making friends who don't matter to her, she has a handsome childhood sweetheart who likes her very much and is a little genius, her only shortcoming is that she is not good at talking to people and this childhood sweetheart will help her talk! You are worried about such a person?! Why don't you worry about your own mental health?!"

Touka spat out these words in one breath. Her original intention to help Takahashi Feng relieve his difficulties was gone. She now only wanted to complain about the boy in front of her who was always troublesome.

"She actually has a younger sister who always teases her at home..." Takahashi Feng muttered.

"She even has a sister who is very close to her?!" Touka's voice unconsciously became sharp.

"I buy things for my sister every day, but she has never been this close to me. She is not good at talking, but she is liked by her sister... Why do I feel like I am the loser?"

"Listen carefully. I think I understand, Takahashi-kun. You have a big problem, and you have to solve it yourself. No matter what method you use, it doesn't matter what method you use. Only you can change. I can't help you."

Shihua suppressed his emotions and calmed down again.

"...What is it?"

"Change your perspective on things. You are too pessimistic. You are as pessimistic as a middle-aged man who has experienced hardships and has never encountered a good thing in his life. His wife ran away, his children are not his own, he lost his job, and his financial situation is bankrupt... I think only this kind of person can think like you."

Touka extended a hand to Takahashi Kaede, motioning him to hold on to her.

"What's wrong?" Takahashi Feng reached out and grabbed it. Ryoko's hand was bigger than his, very delicate and soft like a carefully carved jade.

"If I were a stranger and you were having a hard time on the street one day, and I extended a kind hand to you without warning, what would you think?"

What would I think?

Takahashi Feng looked at Touka in front of him. Regardless of whether it was to help or not, he would definitely stay away from someone who suddenly extended a hand to him.

"I'll think you're plotting against me."

He answered subconsciously that this was how Takahashi Kaede thought.

"But I don't want anything from you. We haven't even known each other for long." Touka smiled. Takahashi Feng suddenly realized something and lowered his head deeply.

"You want me to be more positive, right? Don't think the worst of things like that." Gao Qiaofeng laughed bitterly. His problem had actually reached this extent, even though he usually considered himself to be self-reflective.

Shihua was a stranger to him not long ago, but now they have started to confide in each other, which means that the words he just used to convince himself were all self-paralyzing in nature. He can make changes and be positive, but whether he can succeed depends on whether he wants to.

This is equivalent to him drawing a frame for himself, and the name of the frame is 'Nothing good will happen, I won't trust anyone', and then whenever something happens, he puts himself into the frame, stops thinking about it, and his body moves according to the command of the frame.

But sometimes his subconscious reactions are not actually bound by this frame.

"Yes and no."

Touka stood up, squeezed her numb legs, helped put the bowls, chopsticks and spoons into the kitchen sink, then covered the soup on the table with a lid to prevent it from getting cold.

"I hope you think less and watch more. Support the person you like in whatever she wants to do. Don't refuse to help her for some awkward reasons. Do your best to help her. Believe me, such a child will never let you down. She will make you feel dazzling one day."

Touka has never met Goto Ichiri. All her knowledge about him comes from the few words spoken by Takahashi Kaede and Ryoko, but she never doubts that a person who is loved by so many people will not have a smooth life.

From Goto Ichiri's perspective, she can spend all her time in the field she likes, and can be protected by Takahashi Kaede and enjoy love. As long as she has the inner drive and finds what she wants to do one day, no matter what challenge it is, it will be easy for her.

"I see. Thank you, Sister Touka."

Takahashi Feng suddenly felt a lot more relaxed. The worries that had been lingering in his mind all day were solved by Shihua's casual reminder. He felt so relieved that he suddenly wanted to cry.

"I'll leave the soup here for now. I'll come back for it in two days. You can still ask Miss Ryoko if she wants some. I was so serious just now that I forgot to call her."

"If you want to cry, feel free to cry while I'm gone. It's not shameful to be emotional during adolescence, but it's shameful if you don't improve."

"Okay, I'm leaving tonight. Bye."

Touka opened the door, and the moonlight from thousands of meters away shone down, making Touka Kotori's face as white as snow. Her graceful body curves could not be concealed even by a loose black home T-shirt.

Her right hand waved slightly in the air, she closed the door, and the footsteps gradually faded away.

It was not until the sound of the door closing next door was heard that Takahashi Feng came to his senses and got up to knock on Ryoko's door.

"Ryoko, Touka-sister has brought some midnight snacks. Do you want to eat some?"

After a chaotic sound of people getting up, Ryoko, with messy hair, opened the door.

"Where is it? I want to eat!"

Chapter 4: The manager of the woodworking shop is no scumbag

"Don't eat too much at once. Why didn't you tell me earlier that you were so hungry? If you had told me, I would have gotten up and helped you cook."

Although Ryoko ate slowly and leisurely, maintaining her image of a cool beauty, this was already her third bowl.

From the moment Takahashi Feng poured the soup for her and went to the kitchen to wash the previous dishes, to the moment he came back after washing, Ryoko kept eating, swallowing everything she could in the bowl like a tornado.

Finally, after swallowing the last mouthful of the macaroni and tomato soup combination, Ryoko leaned back in her chair and burped.