The correct attacking posture of Shirai Kuroko

The haters who were originally refuting Chen Zixuan, probably thought of her elder sister again, and as they spoke, they naturally and unobtrusively immersed themselves in their own world called lily.

However, before she could indulge herself for long, the facts before her made her feel depressed again. Her pair of pigtails, which were full of vitality, returned to their previous state like castrated seaweed as she became depressed.

This made Chen Zixuan, who was standing by, speechless.

"You know what? I also had someone I liked, and when I found out that she didn't like me at all and didn't want me to pursue her at all, I felt as depressed as you are now."

"Oh? Really? I can't tell? What happened next? Judging from your tone now, you definitely didn't catch up with her in the end, right?"

Miss Heizi, whose attention was attracted by Chen Zixuan's words and who had temporarily recovered from her depressed state, asked in a tone of affirmation and even a hint of gloating.

However, Chen Zixuan's answer surprised Miss Heizi.

"Well... to be precise, I think he caught up with me."

"Ah? You caught up with him?"

"Well, although I caught up with her, I didn't choose to be with her in the end."

"...Why?"

Hearing Heizi's strange questions, Chen Zixuan's face showed a look of reminiscence.

"I remember that I had only known her for about a week when I asked her out. I was rejected without a doubt. Later, I didn't want to give up, so I sent her a "good night" text message every night. A year later, she agreed to my request to date her. But I refused. Or, I cut off contact with her before she was ready to agree to me."

"Huh?! Since you've worked so hard to get her, why are you unwilling to date her in the end? Could it be that you're just seeking revenge?"

Kuroko felt that she could not understand the thinking of the man in front of her at all. The way he easily gave up the love he had finally gotten was something she could not understand as a student of Tokiwadai aristocratic school before she traveled through time and as a girl of the right age who yearned for beautiful love.

To the haters, Chen Zixuan's behavior is totally unreasonable!

And under Kuroko's unreasonable gaze, Chen Zixuan, who was sitting next to her, crossed his legs and supported his head with one hand on the armrest of the chair, smiled softly again after seeing Kuroko's incomprehensible look towards him.

"You know what? Shirai, this person~ Sometimes I just want to have sex, but I find myself in a relationship unexpectedly. Sometimes I want to have a good relationship, but I find myself just having sex... The world is so big, the bed is so small, the two people on the bed were so good, but they can't grow old together... I really like the story of holding hands and getting married, but I live in an era where having sex doesn't lead to anything..."

"...What's the meaning?"

Chen Zixuan's mature remarks seemed to show that he had seen through the frivolity of love among young men and women of this era. However, Miss Kuroko, who was a minor among the Japanese aristocratic girls, could not understand them.

As for Chen Zixuan, maybe he just happened to be in the right mood, or maybe he wanted to remind the current black fans as a person who had experienced it, so when faced with the black fans' questioning, he actually began to explain to them without getting tired of it.

"I'm actually talking about the definition of the word 'love'. Can you understand? Why would a man suddenly fall in love at first sight and chase after a woman? Why would a woman suddenly fall in love at first sight and chase after a man? Or like you, a girl chasing after another girl. Do you know what the definition of love is? The definition of love is nothing more than your inner yearning for something perfect that you can't get or that is difficult to get."

"Yearning?" Listening to Chen Zixuan's words, which sounded like advice from someone who had been through it, Kuroko inexplicably felt that she couldn't refute anything. After all, as Chen Zixuan said, what she had for her elder sister, the girl named Misaka Mikoto, was a yearning for that kind of woman who was like sunshine.

That admiration is like the natural pursuit of light by human beings.

What's even more outrageous is that after traveling through time, Kuroko discovered that the yearning he had for Misaka Mikoto was actually just a setting made by the author of the original novel of Toaru Majutsu no Index for the needs of the plot.

That experience made Kuroko feel as if he had been dragged into a huge scam by fate, a scam where even his own existence was just a lie...

However, facing Heizi who fell into deep thought after hearing what he said, Chen Zixuan had no idea what girl's secrets this little girl was thinking about.

He only continued speaking after Kuroko asked a follow-up question.

"Yeah~ The feeling of being in love is just like when you were a kid and saw a toy you really liked in a toy store, but you didn't have the money to buy it. The process of falling in love is the process of wanting to collect money to buy that toy, and taking action to start saving money. But when you have collected enough money and bought the toy you liked but didn't have the money to buy before, what do you do? How long can you play with it?"

"So...is this why you don't have a girlfriend?"

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Chapter 40 Midsummer

"So...is this why you don't have a girlfriend?"

"..."

Originally, Chen Zixuan, who had said those words like a love expert, actually wanted to continue saying something, but in the end, he never expected that the Heizi who was listening to him would suddenly say such a thing when he was speaking excitedly.

Although judging from Heizi's current appearance and the tone of her previous speech, this sentence might really just be something she said unintentionally.

But for Chen Zixuan, these unintentional words often cause great harm to him, a single dog for more than 20 years.

"Huh? What's wrong? Why did you suddenly stop talking?" The black fan who didn't realize that his unintentional words hurt the other party, after seeing Chen Zixuan's sudden silence, looked at the other party with a little confusion in his eyes.

Under Kuroko's confused and naive gaze, Chen Zixuan, who was holding his breath in silence and unable to swallow it, had to close his eyes and take a deep breath.

"...I don't deny...this is one of the reasons why I don't have a girlfriend, but...now doesn't seem to be the time to talk about this, right?"

Chen Zixuan's forced tone successfully caught the attention of Miss Heizi, who had not yet come to her senses. Heizi, who had been looking innocent, was stunned for a moment, and a meaningful smile immediately appeared on her cute and playful face.

And this meaningful smile was directed at Chen Zixuan, who seemed to be holding back something.

"Oh~~~ So Mr. Chen Zixuan also cares about not having a girlfriend~~~"

"..."

"Ah~ Kuroko seems to smell the resentment emanating from a virgin who has been single for more than 20 years~~~"

[...Can I hit her? ]

Violent images appeared in his mind, but Chen Zixuan, who still respected the virtue of a good Chinese man who used words rather than violence, took several deep breaths in front of the black fan with a smirk on his face. It took him several seconds to calm down his mood after being ridiculed by the loli to the point of "Fuck."

"Huh! Let's get back to your question. Shirai, I've said before that the process of falling in love is like a child spending a long time to raise enough money to buy a toy he likes, but humans will always get tired of new things one day. I made this analogy to ask you, if the girl you mentioned, the one you like, is really pursued by you one day, then how long do you think your freshness and admiration for her will last?"

After completely calming down her turbulent mood, Chen Zixuan asked this question to Heizi who was still laughing at her. After hearing this question, the smile on Heizi's face slowly began to fade, and finally became as serious as Chen Zixuan who was currently speaking righteously.

"If it were any other time...the haters would probably refute you loudly with disdain...but now..."

Speaking of this, Kuroko couldn't help but recall what she found on the Internet the day before yesterday about the original work of "Magic Index", as well as all the records about the relationship between her, Shirai Kuroko, and Misaka Mikoto, mentioned in the sister work of Magic Index, "A Certain Scientific Railgun".

The setting that she fell in love with the "electric princess" seemed to be due to "plot requirements"...

"Heizi, I...Heizi, I...Heizi..."

Tick ​​tock...

A tear fell from the corner of Kuroko's eye and then fell on the white hospital bed sheet covering Kuroko. The girl cried, she cried because of a question she couldn't answer, and she cried without even realizing it...

Is love forced upon you still love? Is fate manipulated by others still fate? Can you say that your love is just [necessary for the plot]?

The ending has already been like this. Can I still shamelessly say to the person I admire and love in the novel, "Sister, Kuroko loves you and wants to be by your side"?

is it possible?

"Oh...ah? Heizi...Heizi obviously doesn't want to cry...Hey...Chen Zixuan...you know...Heizi I...Heizi I obviously won't cry..."

With her head lowered, Heizi spread her hands in front of her hazy eyes, her eyes were full of crystal clear tears. She didn't know when her eyes were filled with tears. Big tears flowed down her cheeks one after another like water dripping from a broken faucet, and then shattered into her white and rosy palms under the action of gravity...

Heizi raised her head, her trembling eyes trying to open wide to look at Chen Zixuan who was sitting beside her and looking at her quietly...

The corners of her mouth were trying hard to squeeze out an extremely ugly smile, an ugly smile that should not appear on the face of a proud lady like her...

"You know... Kuroko doesn't want to cry..."

"No one will laugh at you. At least, I won't."

A hand gently covered Kuroko's cute little wine-red head, and a gentle but firm word of comfort was given. This man just looked at Kuroko like this, and although there was no expression on his face, one could still feel a faint discomfort.

It was an impulse to throw oneself into the other person's arms and cry loudly, just like the impulse that Heizi had the night before yesterday when he climbed on the other person's chest and cried loudly...

But Heizi didn't do that. She just stared blankly at the man who dared to comfort her like he was comforting a small animal and put his warm hand on her head. A slight sob came from her throat, and there was a hint of confusion on her cheeks, which seemed to be completely stunned, but more of it was a kind of waiting, a waiting that even Heizi herself was not aware of.

A desire to wait for someone to comfort her...

Chen Zixuan, this guy with a very long reaction time, is usually a bit dull, but being dull doesn't mean he is stupid. How could he not see the cliché plot that is common in Korean romance dramas at this moment?

So, after looking at Heizi who was waiting for him and sobbing softly uncontrollably for a while, Chen Zixuan's face was replaced with a gentle smile. This smile was not the kind that only exists between lovers, but more like the doting and helpless smile that a brother shows to his sister, or a father shows to his daughter, when the sister or daughter suffers a huge blow in her life, to comfort her.

Chen Zixuan stood up from the plastic chair he was sitting on, turned his back to Heizi, and sat on Heizi's hospital bed. He supported himself with his hands on the bed, leaned back slightly, then raised his head slightly and looked at the white ceiling of the hospital above at a 45-degree angle.

"I'll lend you my shoulder, no thanks."

"Asshole, you are such a good person...but you still say you have never been in a relationship..."

"...Hey! Do you need it or not?"

"Woo..."

Finally, Heizi took the shoulder that Chen Zixuan offered him, buried his face in his shoulder, and burst into tears like he did the night before...

When Heizi was tired of crying, his tears dried up, his voice became hoarse, and he finally just leaned on his shoulder, seeking the faint sense of security that kept coming from him...

"Hey~ Chen Zixuan~"

"What is it~"

"You really... have never been in love?"

"Ah~ Because I have pursued girls and been pursued by girls, I found that the so-called love is just to experience the excitement that makes my heart throb. I just like the feeling of trying hard to pursue but failing. After that, I am no longer so obsessed with love. However, I still like and yearn for love. That feeling is like the four seasons. The gentle spring brings the throbbing of first love, the rainy late autumn brings a touch of warmth, and the cold winter brings each other snuggling..."

"It's really artistic~ But did you miss one?"

"Yeah, but it's not that I missed it, I just don't want to say it."

"Oh? Why? Are you annoying?"

"I don't hate it~ I like it very much. I like to keep my favorite things in my heart, for example..."

At this point, Chen Zixuan turned his head, still with that brotherly smile of doting on his sister, and looked at Heizi who was also looking at him with a hint of doubt...

"This midsummer~"

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Chapter 41 I heard you like children

The next morning, Chen Zixuan, who was sleeping next to Miss Heizi's bed, was woken up by the ringing of his cell phone...

As a result, when he took out his mobile phone with sleepy eyes, he looked at the screen and was stunned for a moment with sleepiness on his face!

The person who called turned out to be the girl he had tried hard to pursue and had even sent her "good night" text messages for a year, which made him see through love!

Why would this girl suddenly call him at this critical moment, after so many years? !

With such doubts, I looked at the name that I had saved for many years on the phone screen...

Chen Zixuan finally hesitated and answered the phone call that puzzled him.

"Hello? We haven't contacted each other for a few years. Why did you suddenly think of calling me?" Chen Zixuan, who had just woken up from the drowsiness of just waking up, asked puzzledly.

"Well... I haven't seen you for a long time, so I called you today." On the phone, the girl's voice was still gentle, but her tone was not as naughty as when Chen Zixuan first met her a few years ago. Instead, she revealed a feeling of being worried.

"Um... it's not impossible... what's the matter?"

Chen Zixuan, who heard some clues from the other party's tone on the phone, repeated the question to the girl he had once pursued on the other end of the phone as if to be sure.

And during his repeated questioning, the other party finally stopped being polite and directly stated the purpose of calling Chen Zixuan this time.

"...Um, Xuan."

"Yeah, I'm listening."

'...I have thought a lot over the past few years, and recently I have come to the conclusion that I still want to be with you.'

Hearing the girl's words, Chen Zixuan, who had chosen to escape when the other party agreed, couldn't help but frowned slightly.

"Why? When I was pursuing you, wasn't there a very handsome rich guy pursuing you? And I'm not handsome, and I'm not as rich as that guy... Why did you suddenly call me and tell me this?"

"Um... that! He and I are just ordinary friends... and... and I..."

When Chen Zixuan asked the girl he had been pursuing for a long time on the other end of the phone, the girl suddenly hesitated...

Finally, after hesitating for a moment, the other party seemed to finally muster up the courage...

"I heard that you like children..."

"..."

Chen Zixuan continued answering the phone, and fell into silence with the girl on the other end of the line...

"Um...who is it?"

Heizi, who was awakened by the sound of Chen Zixuan talking on the phone, sat up from the hospital bed. Her little face, which looked extremely pretty under the reflection of the sunlight pouring into the ward from the window, still had a dull look as if she had hypoglycemia. She rubbed her beautiful eyes which were still sleepy with one hand, and asked Chen Zixuan, who was still on the phone, in a sleepy voice, puzzled.