The chivalrous spirit is fickle

After this dream, Shen Yue kept it all in her heart, but occasionally she would toss and turn in bed, thinking about a question she didn't want to know the answer to.

Is Shigu so kind to her because he looks exactly like Luofu? He is just a substitute.

This thought made Shen Yue unable to sleep, but she didn't dare to tell anyone.

She didn't even think about why she had another dream within a dream, but she believed without a doubt that everything in this dream was real and not her imagination.

Shen Yue hugged Shi Gu's neck with a lonely look in her eyes. After hesitating for a long time, she asked Shi Gu softly.

"Master, where is your master?"

Shi Gu was stunned when he heard this, and fell into silence, not saying a word. Seeing this, Shen Yue hugged Shi Gu even tighter, feeling a little nervous and even a little uneasy.

As if worried, Shi Gu would abandon her and never see her again.

"She's dead."

However, after a long silence, Shi Gu let out a breath and answered the question in a nonchalant tone.

After hearing this answer, Shen Yue did not feel relieved at all. Instead, she felt even more uneasy. She knew she shouldn't continue asking, but she couldn't help but continued to ask in a low voice.

"Will you remember her then, Master?"

Shi Gu closed his eyes slightly and spoke softly.

"This question is weird, but since you asked, I can only tell you..."

"I miss her."

Shen Yue lowered her head, looking increasingly lonely. She thought that Shigu thought of Luofu every day because she looked exactly like Luofu. This might really be the reason why Shigu kept her by his side.

"Master, is she pretty?"

No matter how slow Shi Gu was, he noticed that something was wrong with Shen Yue. He wanted to turn around, but was pushed back forcefully by Shen Yue.

"What's wrong, silly girl?"

Shen Yue stubbornly pressed against Shi Gu's head, refusing to let him see her, and whispered,

"Don't turn your head. It's just a girl's privilege."

Shigu had no choice but to do as he was told and said softly,

"Master...she is very beautiful."

"As pretty as you."

Shen Yue was right, Shi Gu was indeed a fool. He was good at deciding a person's life or death, but not good at comforting others.

Shen Yue hugged Shi Gu's neck and stopped talking. The room fell into a long silence. Shi Gu felt uneasy, but there was nothing he could do.

With the sound of breathing, Shen Yue put her mouth close to Shi Gu's ear and asked softly.

"If, I mean if... Master, your favorite cup is broken, will you buy an identical cup as a replacement?"

After hearing this, Shi Gu thought about it seriously and then said.

"There is nothing in this world that is truly identical. Looking for a substitute is nothing but deceiving yourself."

"Just like if my master was gone, I would not look for someone exactly like her to replace her."

“Although I have many regrets, I will not turn regrets into mistakes.”

Shen Yue's eyes flickered slightly when she heard this. She understood that Shi Gu must have guessed something and that these words were meant to coax her and deceive her, but she still felt somewhat happy and couldn't help but raise the corners of her mouth.

But after being happy, Shen Yue frowned again and spoke to Shi Gu seriously.

"Although I'm unwilling, but...but if you have to choose, I can also be a substitute."

"Master, am I really useless?"

Chapter 39: Past and Present Life

"Master, am I really useless?"

Shi Gu gave a bitter smile upon hearing this. He was really not good at coaxing or comforting others. He thought about it and thought that perhaps it was because in his two hundred years of life, he had rarely been comforted by others.

Perhaps, I should deal with this kind of thing in my own way and in a decisive manner.

Shi Gu thought so, sighed deeply, slowly stood up, broke free from Shen Yue's hands, then forcefully pressed her down on the chair, stared into her eyes, and asked in a deep voice.

"Girl, do you know who you are?"

Shen Yue was a little at a loss. She listened to Shi Gu's question, put her hands on her legs, and answered in a low voice.

"I'm Shen Yue."

Shi Gu nodded slightly and spoke slowly.

"Yes, this is the most important point, but in addition to that, you also have an identity."

Shen Yue tilted her head slightly, her eyes blank, completely unaware of what Shi Gu was talking about. Shi Gu's eyes softened, he reached out and stroked Shen Yue's little face, and whispered.

"You should have met my master. I knew that crazy woman Su Xin would not be so honest and would do something tricky in Dameng Mountain City."

Shi Gu's palm was very big, almost covering half of Shen Yue's face, but it was also very warm, the kind of warmth that Shen Yue was most familiar with and most attached to.

It was this hand that pulled her out of the quagmire of no return, gave her a new life, and gave her hope to continue living.

"Since you have met my master, you should know that you look exactly like her. Have you ever thought about why this is the case?"

Shen Yue was stunned when she heard this. She had thought about it many times, but the only word that came to her mind was coincidence. But when Shi Gu asked this, she couldn't help but think of another possibility that she had not dared to think of before.

Reincarnation is a topic that is too mysterious and too abstract for ordinary people. Some people are willing to believe it, but there is no way to prove that reincarnation does exist.

Shi Gu's eyes were complicated and unreadable, and he spoke softly.

“Reincarnation is a river, and we are all fish in it, swimming back and forth, crossing the same riverbank countless times.”

"I stood on the shore and saw a fish I had seen before, many years later."

Shen Yue's body trembled slightly, her face turned pale, and her hands quietly clenched the corners of her clothes, while Shi Gu spoke slowly in a calm tone.

"Shen Yue, you are the reincarnation of my master Luo Fu."

After she finished speaking, Shen Yue took a deep breath, her chest rising and falling. She looked at Shi Gu in front of her, but it was as if she was looking at someone who was far away at the end of the world.

Suddenly, Shen Yue seemed to have lost all her strength. She bit her lips lightly and felt like a fool. A layer of mist covered her eyes.

"but……"

Suddenly, Shi Gu reached out and touched the corner of Shen Yue's eyes, smiled slightly, and said helplessly.

“No matter how similar fish are, they are not the same fish after all.”

"I accepted the fact that my master was dead many years ago. No matter how much I miss her, there will never be another Luofu in this world."

"Even if it was you, the reincarnation of Luofu, there wouldn't be even a trace of her left on your body."

"I know this, so I never regard you as my master. You are you, my disciple Shen Yue, and you are never a replacement for anyone."

Hearing this, Shen Yue's body shook, and her dim eyes began to light up again, hazy and expectant, like a firework that flickers out in an instant.

"Even if the person who walked into my store that day was a fat Shen Yue, a cripple, as long as you walked in, I would definitely help you."

"Whether you are the reincarnation of my master or not, I will accept you as my apprentice."

As he spoke, Shi Gu had been gently rubbing the corners of Shen Yue's eyes, smiling gently, and said.

"My master is not as stupid as you. There is no Luofu in this world now. There is only a greedy and stupid Shen Yue."

"So... don't cry. I can't stand seeing others cry, especially my apprentice."

Shen Yue looked at Shi Gu infatuatedly. She tried to sniff her nose, then suddenly threw herself into Shi Gu's arms, buried her face in his chest, refusing to get up, and spoke with a heavy nasal voice.

"Master...you are a big bad guy."

Shi Gu looked dotingly in the eyes, reached out and gently stroked Shen Yue's little head, and spoke softly.

"Yeah, I've never been a good person. I just do what I want to do, but even so, I don't want to make mistakes."

Shi Gu knows best what it feels like to be a substitute.

Many years ago, he met a woman who was very kind to him and was even willing to die for him.

But the way that woman looked at him was always as if she was looking at someone else. She called Shigu Mara, and it had always been like this.

It was as if Shi Gu himself was just an empty shell, an empty shell waiting for Mara to wake up.

Shi Gu didn't want anyone else to experience that feeling, so he would not use Shen Yue's body to resurrect Luofu. If he did that, Shen Yue would no longer be there, disappearing from this world forever.

Even if the memories are merged, Luofu's memory will cover Shen Yue's memory, and there will be no trace of Shen Yue left.

Never look for someone else's shadow in another person, you will never find it.

Shigu didn't want to do this, and neither did Luofu. This master and disciple pair had a silly tacit understanding for many years.

"Okay, you're already a grown-up girl, it's not good to keep crying like this."

Shi Gu pushed Shen Yue up from his arms, smiled, and pinched her face.

Shen Yue felt a little shy at this time, a blush appeared on her fair neck. She lowered her head slightly and suddenly asked.

"Master...was my name Luofu in my previous life?"

Shi Gu nodded slightly as an answer, but Shen Yue asked again.

"What kind of person was I in my previous life?"

It can be seen that after untying the knot in her heart, Shen Yue no longer had any resistance to her past life, but was instead full of interest.

It was this question that made Shi Gu stand there in a daze, as if time had stopped for him and was no longer flowing.

Master, what kind of person is he?

Shi Gu was unable to answer such a simple question. Only Luofu's face kept appearing in his mind.

Joy, anger, sorrow, happiness, reunion, separation, her voice, her smell, her hesitation to speak.

On the mountain peak among the misty clouds, Luofu would sit under a ginkgo tree. The golden fallen leaves were flying like a heavy snow. She would pick up a ginkgo leaf, put it to her lips, and play a little tune.

Shi Gu would sit on the other side of the ginkgo tree, holding a knife, listening to the music, and falling asleep.

She would say, "Disciple, I made a piece of clothing for you. Would you like to try it on to see if it fits?"

She would say, "Disciple, the plums on Mount Cang are ripe. Come with me to see them."

She would say, "Disciple, you should smile more often, you look better when you smile. Look, don’t you look good when I smile?"

She would say, since your teacher and student are so beautiful, you, as a disciple, should also show off a little. When you go out, you should say that your master is the most beautiful woman in the world.

Luofu's every smile, frown, anger, and frown seemed to have happened just yesterday. She was standing under the ginkgo tree, leaning over and smiling with squinting eyes, watching Shigu slowly waking up.

How to describe her? She is like the aurora that Shigu and Luofu saw for the first time in the far north many years ago.

Blooming in the darkness, beautiful, giving hope for life, yet making people reluctant to let go and unable to truly forget. It’s as if she’s always there, but the sky is too bright so we can’t see her.

She saved Shigu, gave him a life, and gave him a home.

It seems that at that time, as long as I go back under the ginkgo tree, I can let go of all my worries, forget other people's contempt, forget other people's sarcasm, and forget those fools who regard me as a demon.

After her death, the ginkgo tree was still there, and the golden fallen leaves filled the sky and the hilltops, but Shigu no longer had a home and could only wander around the world, walking and killing as he went.

He gained a bad reputation and made countless enemies, but no one knew that he was just living according to his master's teachings.

When you see injustice, draw your sword to help, kill the evildoers and reap good results.

But he was obviously not as good as Luofu. He was just stronger and better at killing than Luofu.

Shi Gu's eyes were dazed. He blinked hard, lowered his head slightly, looked at Shen Yue's delicate little face that was exactly the same as Luo Fu's, stretched out his big hand again, and gently stroked that little face.

Shen Yue's skin is so soft that it seems as if it could be blown away. It is smooth and delicate without a trace of impurities, as if it were carved from jade, making people love it.

"She is a very gentle and silly person."

"When I was a teenager, she often scared me and my senior sister by lighting candles and telling me ghost stories. But in the end, she was the one who got scared. She hid under the quilt and dared not come out. My senior sister had to comfort her."

"But at the same time, she's such a brave person who can die for others. Sometimes I wish she was a coward."

Shen Yue listened thoughtfully, but her attention was drawn to the "senior sister" mentioned by Shi Gu. When she was about to ask more, Shi Gu patted her head.

"Okay, if you don't leave, Xiaoxue will come to find you."

Hearing this, Shen Yue hurriedly stood up. She didn't dare let Su Xue see her being so close to Shi Gu.

Shen Yue lifted her skirt, rubbed her red eyes, and walked quickly out of Shi Gu's room, but stopped suddenly when she took the last step.