I will never give in to Miss Death

After entering college, Yin Shiren’s presence in the dormitory was not strong. He didn’t smoke or drink, and he didn’t have strong friendships with the boys in the same dormitory. His gaming skills were not outstanding, and he was basically just doing odd jobs and doing logistics in school clubs. I believe that even if you ask your former “good friends” in college with Yin Shiren’s information and photos now, they would need to look at him for a while before they suddenly realized - Oh, him, remember, he is...ah, haha, hahahaha.

Even after entering society, Yin Shiren was unable to accomplish anything great.

I have never had a girlfriend since I was a child. I have always lived in my own little world. I go to work and come home every day. After paying the basic rent and daily expenses, I use my salary to occasionally buy some games, recharge my membership to watch anime, use a second-hand mobile phone, and keep the configuration of my computer as lowest as possible. I will not take the initiative to pursue girls, and I don’t have any brothers or friends with whom I have a very good relationship. There is nothing worth clinging to in this world.

Now thinking about it the other way around, this kind of ending is actually the best for the former "me" or Yin Shiren.

I have signed an organ donation form. If I die under normal circumstances, my body can theoretically help many, many people, but that is only under normal circumstances.

The property manager of Snail House Apartment only checks whether the residents pay the rent, water and electricity bills on time every month. They don't check the rooms every day like they do in university dormitories. If the tenant has a very good relationship with the property manager, or does things at fixed times, it's not a big deal. But if one day the tenant is quiet, the property manager might find it strange and come to inquire. Tenants like "Yin Shiren" who have a bad relationship with their neighbors and rarely go out are not the focus of the property manager. If one day it really happens as Yin Xiamo said... with irregular work and rest, not eating on time, and some cerebrovascular disease, and suddenly fainting and falling to the ground, it is estimated that no one will notice if he loses contact for three or four days.

When that time really comes, if a sudden death occurs and the person is not discovered until several days after death, the organs in the body cannot be donated.

The physical functions of adults generally begin to decline around the age of 30.

In other words...it is most appropriate for "Yin Shiren" to donate his organs at this time as he is approaching 30 years old.

Being born ordinary, living an ordinary life, and then burning oneself at an age when all organs of the body are still in excellent condition, allowing children in need like Lu Xinmeng and Li Denghua to live for oneself, such a life... at least in my opinion, is enough.

Especially after becoming friends with the optimistic and cheerful Lu Xinmeng, and learning about the difficulties faced by Li Denghua, a smart little loli as a child prodigy, I feel that Yin Xiamo’s choice at that time was not wrong.

Yin Shiren is just an ordinary person, I can choose to forget him, but what about Xia Mo?

She killed the Demon King alone, who was equivalent to the "God of Death" who was like the "savior" of that world. She forgot her past self and buried the "brave man" who saved her life and was once the hope of the whole world deep in her heart. This does not seem to be the same concept as me abandoning the past.

"..."

After hugging each other, under my gaze, I saw Yin Xiamo slowly walk to the lake, stepping on the mossy stones on the shore in her cute black and white round-toed Lolita shoes, standing up straight, clasping her hands together and bowing slightly towards the lake.

"Please ask the gods in the lake to bless Nuoer and me, and wish us a happy marriage for a billion years. May Nuoer be happy forever."

Yin Xiamo pretended to pray towards the lake and bowed again.

"May Nuoer get used to and like a girl's body as soon as possible, and then become my little wife..."

"Hey!"

I heard something strange: "What weird things are you talking about?"

"It would be best if Nuoer became obsessed with girls' bodies and indulged in them, turning into a little pet that can only meow for milk without me."

"Yin Xiamo!"

The warmth that I had finally cultivated from the confession was completely destroyed by the girl by the lake. I walked quickly to Yin Xiamo's side, but I was a little worried that the mud on the shore would dirty my newly bought shoes, so I could only walk carefully along the harder roads: "This is not the place to make a wish!"

In my impression, Crayfish Lake has nothing to do with "making a wish".

This is a place to play and rest.

Crayfish Lake has been here since I was old enough to understand. At that time, the city's finances were tight and the staff of the Medicinal Plant Garden had a hard time. They also had to take care of the children in the welfare home and they didn't even have enough food to eat. There happened to be a large abandoned pond here, so people at that time suggested making use of this fish pond to raise fish, grow vegetables and so on.

At that time, a lawn not far from the crayfish lake was full of vegetable gardens. The workers of the medicinal plant garden and the uncles and aunts in the welfare home were also responsible for taking care of the nearby wild duck flocks. When the wild ducks laid eggs, there would be a lot more duck eggs, fish and shrimp on the welfare home's table.

This feeling is similar to that of some villages. At that time, people in the city believed that the medicinal plant garden might develop into a "hundred surnames" village in the future. No one expected that decades later, with the expansion of Kamihama City, this place would be classified as the "Glory Zone". The vegetable garden of my childhood was gone, the wild ducks no longer flew here, and the beautiful lake in my memory has become a dead pool today. At this rate, no one will notice this lake in the next few decades. The lake water will gradually evaporate and disappear, turning into grassland, and my mobile phone will be buried underground with the sedimentation of mud and sand, becoming an eternal memory.

"It doesn't matter. As long as your heart is sincere enough, the gods will hear you no matter where you make your wish."

Facing my protest, Yin Xiamo in front of me turned around, lifted the hem of her skirt with one hand and flicked it gently: "Are you right, Xiao Nuo'er?"

"No, I don't think so."

I shook my head repeatedly: "By the way, I am an atheist."

"Oh, is it so?"

She jumped down from the stone and came to me. Yin Xiamo lifted my cheek with one hand and said, "Who is that person in front of you?"

I thought for a moment: "Demon from another world."

"So what's going on with this body of yours?"

Holding my face in her hands, the girl looked down at me, "I know everything, right? Every night when we go to bed, our Nuoer is like a shining shell on the blue sea and silver beach. Only her mouth is hard, but as long as she probes into your heart and carefully opens those two snow-white cracks, she can touch the softness in your heart."

"Nuo'er calls himself an uncle every day, but in fact, his heart and body are softer than any other girl. Not only soft, but when a certain shining pearl of yours is touched by the one you love, you will immediately reveal the nectar of your kind heart..."

"What a mess."

I was amused by Yin Xiamo's serious look and took away her hands that were holding me: "When did you become so eloquent?"

"The culture of this country is profound and extensive. Otherwise, why would I wait so many years to find you?"

The girl seemed very happy that I had recovered: "I turned you into this without your permission... after so long, you should be used to it, right?"

"not yet."

I lowered my head and stretched my feet in soft lace socks and round-toed leather shoes: "It's only been a few days, how can I get used to it!"

"That……"

Yin Xiamo put her little head in front of me and said, "You don't hate it, right?"

it's OK?

Yin Xiamo's innocent yet cunning look made me turn my head away: "Ah... um..."

This kind of thing...how can I put it into words?

At the beginning, I did feel a little dissatisfied because I was changed from a big man into a delicate little girl. It was like a habit. You have been a man for so many years, and suddenly someone comes out and kills your original body, and turns you into another person. Most people will be uncomfortable and dissatisfied.

If I have to say, my "dissatisfaction" comes more from this physical "change" rather than gender.

I don't have that kind of... male chauvinism, or the feeling that women are inherently "inferior" to men. If that kind of person were turned into a girl, they might really wonder "why I am a woman", but I was more troubled by the various discomforts after the physical changes.

Of course, there was a little dissatisfaction with turning from a man into a little girl, but later it gradually disappeared due to various comparisons in daily life.

The most obvious difference between men and today's little loli is strength and height. In the past, due to my inherent ideas, I instinctively thought that "being tall is good" and "being strong is great". After becoming a little loli, the first difference is the height. However, after living in this body for a few days, I gradually discovered that being "small" is not as inconvenient as I imagined - the door of the rental house is two meters high, and it doesn't matter whether I am 1.80 meters or 1.40 meters tall when entering and exiting. When climbing the stairs, if you can't take two steps, just take one. When cooking, if it's not tall enough, just use a small stool.

Similarly, my strength is not very strong now, but not so weak that I am "completely unable to live". I can move an ordinary table and carry things when I go out to buy groceries. It seems to be completely sufficient to cope with daily life.

Moreover, being small in strength and stature has its advantages, that is, I usually need to eat a lot of food, but now only about half the amount is enough.

It feels like... using a high-powered vacuum cleaner to suck up cat hair. It has strong suction but consumes a lot of electricity. One day, I changed it to an ultra-small portable vacuum cleaner, which has lower power and saves electricity. Cat hair is so light anyway, so it can be sucked up just the same.

Apart from strength and height, the only other obvious differences between men and women that I feel are probably going to the bathroom and menstruation.

Boys just stand there when they go to the bathroom and shake off after they are done. But it is different for girls. They have to squat down and bring toilet paper. They also have to prepare sanitary napkins and tampons when their period comes. It is very painful and makes them feel anxious, which lasts for half a week.

These two points can indeed be classified as "inconveniences" for girls.

But what have I gained by losing some of the "convenience" of my body?

As a little girl, in today's peaceful society, the mainstream views are "protection", "love" and "humility". Occasionally, someone would give up their seat for me on the bus. When the author had offline gatherings, Pippi and others would subconsciously want to "take care of" me because they saw that I was a girl. I even got a job as a maid in a cafe because of this, which was completely impossible when I was a man.

Girls can wear whatever they want, but men can't wear women's clothes.

In addition, because I am a little girl, my body is in the period of youth and vitality. I don’t have the problem of insomnia that male uncles have at all. I can sleep soundly every day and wake up full of energy the next day. I can face the world with more energy.

There are also things like the body becoming more agile, the limbs becoming more flexible, the vision becoming clearer, etc., but these can be classified as "becoming younger" and have nothing to do with gender.

If I have to say something related to gender, it would be that every morning when I wake up and look in the mirror, or when I change clothes, I feel very good when I look at my beautiful and lovely body.

In fact, if you calm down and analyze it, it is not that difficult to accept the transformation from an uncle to a little loli.

I also know that a big part of the reason for the decision to "reincarnate the hero into a little girl" was because Yin Xiamo wanted to be closer to me.

There is also an element of "it's all their own fault" in it.

No matter what, no matter how shy I am, I have to admit that Yin Xiamo's choice was right.

In theory, it is more "comfortable" for me to live as a little loli than as an uncle.

It's the word "comfortable". Girls can wear light nightgowns after taking a shower and smell fragrant all over. But if it's a man... I find it difficult to imagine that scene. He would take a quick shower after work every day and then wear shorts to sleep. It's completely different from Yin Xiamo's style.

Why does it feel a little off?

By the Crayfish Lake, I chose to avoid Yin Xiamo's inquiring gaze and let a lot of random thoughts run wildly through my mind. I had a feeling that "something seemed to be wrong but I couldn't put my finger on it."

When did I start to feel that... being a girl might not be so bad?

Or is it just like Yin Xiamo said, I was subtly influenced by this body?

But if we analyze it rationally, it is indeed true. A cute little girl does live a more comfortable life than an ordinary old man. What is wrong with that?

"Since Nuoer doesn't hate being a girl, then I'll make it clear here."

As she spoke, Yin Xiamo took my hand and turned to the lake: "Today we will let the Lord Lake God bear witness that Yin Nuoer will be Yin Nuoer from now on, a very cute child, and I will be Nuoer's guardian, and we will be together for the rest of our lives."

Eh?

Is this also a form of "brotherhood" in the other world?

"Hurry, hurry, Nuoer, come here."

After I finished "praying" to the lake, the girl next to me pulled me over and said, "Hurry up and tell the lake god that Nuo'er is very cute and will be Xia Mo's wife in the future!"

"What the hell is this!"

I suddenly came to my senses: "There is no God in this world, right?"

"Then I'll give in a little bit. Nuoer just needs to say 'Nuoer is very cute, very, very cute, the cutest in the world, meow' and that's it."

"You can even give up your wife just to make me like being a girl!"

"Eh? Does that mean Nuoer is more willing to be my wife? So that's how it is...Wife! Kiss!"

"Let me go, hot."

"Chiliu——"

"Why lick it!"

"..."

……

After playing with Yin Xiamo for a while beside the crayfish lake, as the sun was about to pass overhead, we walked out of the grove and returned to the shady road in the medicinal plant garden.

Just as I remembered, even at this suitable time for going out for a walk, there were not many people at the Medicinal Plant Garden. At a glance, whether it was the golf course with a sign "Closed" not far away or the surrounding tree-lined paths, they were all empty. The only sound was the crisp chirping of various birds.

"There's a big flower field along here, it's really beautiful."

Walking together on the main road of the medicinal plant garden, I pointed to the big trees at the end in front and said: "The flower fields were planted in recent years. I saw photos of them online. They are very beautiful. Do you want to go and see them?"

"Okay!"

Yin Xiamo grabbed my wrist and said, "Where we go today is up to you, dear."

"You're becoming more and more disgusting."

I didn't push the guy away. I felt the warmth of the girl's soft hands touching my skin and turned my attention to the shared bicycle on the side.

“Are there cars here?”

Walking up to the little car, I tried to scan the QR code on it with my phone.

It actually can be opened.

I bent down and looked at the car.

The bike is very new. Judging from its shape, it should be a model that was just produced and put on the market in the past year. Moreover, it does not have a very high base like the "adult" mountain bikes that I keep in the rental house. Even a child like me can sit on it.

In recent years, as the sharing economy has become increasingly popular, similar cars can be found everywhere in Kamihama City.

Shared bicycles, shared umbrellas, shared power banks, even the currently popular "cloud gaming" is essentially "shared computers."

The light blue shared bicycle in front of me looks no different from the ones in the city. Someone nearby must have ridden it for fun and then forgot to put it back.

Although the medicinal plant garden is remote, there are still dozens of tourists every week. Some people like that kind of fresh and natural place. When they are under pressure from life, they will come to see the big trees and listen to the birds singing. It’s free anyway.

By the way, I remember that riding a bicycle should be a muscle memory. Does my current body still retain the relevant skills?

"Noer, I want to sit on this!"

I was still thinking about whether to pay for a test ride when the girl next to me took the initiative to sit on the back seat of the car. "I read a lot of country love stories in the library before. The couples in the books all rode this kind of small car when they went out to play. Many books are accompanied by illustrations, which are very artistic!"

"So you're planning on experiencing that kind of country love story?"

I tried to sit in the front of the car, and put my feet on the ground as much as possible: "Our skirt won't get stuck in the wheels, right?"

"Isn't there a protective device here?"

Yin Xiamo gestured to the baffle under her: "It's okay, it should be OK!"

"Then I'll try."

I scanned the code with my phone and unlocked the car.

“I don’t know if I can find the balance.”