My girlfriend is a bad lady

"It doesn't matter."

"Don't worry, there are some things I will tell you, and some things I will never tell you!"

"What's the matter?" Kunijii Osamu asked curiously.

"Saito recommended a sister-themed game to me." Watanabe Toru said casually.

"You won't share it with me?!" Kunii Osamu put his arm around Saito Keisuke's shoulders, "I secretly gave you the disc I bought late at night."

"Don't say that in the classroom, idiot!"

Amid the disdainful looks from the girls in the class, Toru Watanabe left the two and walked towards his seat.

Without Kujo Miki, he tried not to talk to Kiyono Rin.

After school, the two read books in the club classroom to kill time.

"Come straight to my house after school tomorrow," Qingye Rin said halfway through.

"Your home?" Toru Watanabe raised his head.

"They are going to celebrate our birthday." Qingye Rin did not take her eyes off the book in her hand.

"Yeah." Toru Watanabe continued reading "Perception" - he bought the island language version in Jimbocho, and he also bought the English version when he had time.

Compared with yesterday's noise and the quiet and harmony of the past, today's club classroom always has a sense of uneasiness.

This was the first time the two were alone since returning from their family trip.

"What's on your mind?" Qingye Rin's voice was calm.

"Why do you say that?" Toru Watanabe raised his head again.

"Tell me about it." She closed the book and crossed her arms elegantly, like a noble lady.

“Is this part of human observation?”

"I guess so. Go ahead."

Watanabe Tetsuya closed the book and scratched the cover with his fingers.

"You know, I'm determined to be with Meiji and the others."

"But you can't forget me?"

"Yeah, I've decided to be with them, but I can't forget you. Sometimes I'm just pretending to be happy in front of them."

Toru Watanabe looked at the cover of "Percussion".

On a fig tree that should have been sawed off, a man and a woman sat on its branches, enjoying the wind and sunshine, as well as the scenery in the distance.

"Even though I have made up my mind, when I am alone, I will question myself: 'Why should I live like this if I cannot pursue what I love? What is the point of doing this?' But in my heart I am unwilling to give up on them. I say it is responsibility, but there is also love and greed."

After a moment of silence, he continued, "I feel that I am hypocritical and look down on myself."

Toru Watanabe took his eyes off the book and looked out the window.

The weather forecast says that this year's plum rain season in Tokyo will begin on June 8th.

"Why do you think so?" asked Qingye Rin.

Without waiting for Watanabe Toru to speak, she continued, "Compared to them and me who have no burden, you are the one who has the hardest time."

"Mr. Asuri can't leave you. Mr. Koizumi has worked hard for you for ten years. Kujo Miki... People like her admitted their mistakes for you and let you have lovers outside. You love them, cherish them, and have a responsibility to them."

"But you love me so much, you love me the most."

"Fate made you choose between me and them, but you remained strong, didn't give up, didn't complain to anyone, remained gentle, and kept your promise."

"You left loneliness and sadness to yourself, and tried your best to give them the remaining warmth. When they looked at you, you hid your reluctance, longing, and sadness, and they were in your eyes. You tried your best to make them feel at ease when they were by your side."

"Compared to sweet words, your feelings and your efforts to make them happy are what really touch them."

"So you don't have to look down on yourself. Compared to what you said about hypocrisy, I think you are just too sober, or too paranoid. There is nothing you need to be blamed for."

"Really?" Watanabe Toru asked.

"At least it's true for me."

"Here you are?"

"Because," Qing Ye Lin's fair face turned slightly red, and his eyes turned to the window, "I like you, so I might be biased towards you."

Watanabe Toru stared at her blankly, then smiled bitterly and said, "Kiyono-san, if you continue to be so cute, I will only become more and more miserable."

"Then just give up on them and be with me." Kiyono Rin said, "Aren't you watching "Perception"? There is a line in it: "Some of us get dipped in flat, some in satin, some in gloss. But every once in a while you find someone who's iridescent, and when you do, nothing will ever compare.""

Some people are superficial, while others appear beautiful on the outside but are rotten on the inside.

But sometimes, you meet someone who is as brilliant as a rainbow.

From then on, everyone else was just a passing cloud.

——Toru Watanabe thought about the meaning of this English sentence.

"If I do this, I'll become a complete scumbag."

"No, I'm sober now and know what I really want. And even if you're a scumbag, I won't despise you. I'm a bad woman." Qingno Rin said with a smile.

"I'm trying not to think about these things now. I'm just thinking about how to make you and Meiji reconcile."

Qingye Rin picked up the book and started reading it again.

"I'm waiting for the day when you understand what you really want, or the day when you realize how much you can't live without me."

Chapter 282 Birthday (1)

I thought the conversation that day ended there, but ten minutes before school was over, there was a knock on the door.

Thinking that it might be Keisuke Saito who was looking for him about the game again, Toru Watanabe stood up and walked over - taking into account Kujo Miki's mysophobia, he now tried his best not to let anyone enter the private human observation department.

I opened the sliding door and saw a petite and cute high school girl with short hair standing at the door.

"Senior, Watanabe-senpai!"

"If you have any questions about the oboe, please ask during the instruction time." Toru Watanabe pretended to close the door.

At that moment, Horikita Mai took advantage of her petite stature and slipped into the Human Observation Department.

Watanabe Toru could reach out to stop her, but after a slight hesitation between 'touching a girl's body' and 'allowing a girl to enter the Human Observation Department', he chose the latter.

"Good afternoon, Senior Kiyono." Horikita Mai greeted while looking around the club classroom curiously.

Bookshelves, refrigerators, televisions, game consoles, sofas, and hangers for maid uniforms were all too numerous to take in.

"Good afternoon." Qingye Rin responded calmly, as if to say, "Don't talk to me."

Watanabe Toru closed the door and brought a chair that Ikki Aoi and the others used to sit on to Horikita Mai.

"Thank you, senior."

"What's the matter?" Toru Watanabe sat down in his seat and casually opened "Persistence".

"Senior!" Horikita Mai put her hand on the cover of "Percussion Beats", "Go on a date with me after school!"

"Sorry, I'm not interested in girls younger than me." Watanabe Toru took out the book and added, "Except my K-san."

"What about Senior Qingye? Oh, Senior has the same birthday as you, so she's not younger than you."

"Horikita-san, there is one more thing I want to remind you of," said Qing Ye Lin, looking at the book in her hand, "He likes me more than his K-san."

Watanabe Toru turned his head and looked at her: "What are you talking about?"

"Did I say anything wrong?" Qingye Rin raised her head and asked with her head slightly tilted.

"…It's true that I'm wrong, but it's only temporary. I'll love K-san even more soon."

Qing Ye Lin lost interest, his eyes returned to the book, and he said, "It's completely impossible. You can't do it. Give up."

Without arguing with her, Watanabe Toru looked at Horikita Mai who looked curious: "It's over now, you can go back."

"Hmm - why are you more indifferent than before, Senior?"

"I'm afraid you'll fall in love with me."

"Because of this?" Horikita Mai said in surprise, "But I've fallen in love with you, Senpai!"

"Then give up as soon as possible. By the way, I will not guide you from today on."

"Hate it, I was just joking, you're so heartless, senior! Humph!" Horikita Mai pouted, "Senior Kiyono, let's go on a date after school, I give up on you, senior!"

"I'm busy." Qingye Rin refused without thinking.

"Ah——" Horikita Mai wailed in frustration, "Senior Kiyono is just as ruthless as I thought."

After saying that, she immediately covered her mouth and looked at Qingye Rin in fear.

"Senior, Watanabe-senpai," she lowered her already petite body and whispered, "Senior Kiyono won't be angry, right?"

"You can rest assured about that. She never gets angry." Watanabe Toru said with confidence.

"Is that so? That's great." Horikita Mai patted her chest, "Phew, I was so scared. I almost thought that the senior would hate me."

"Even though she's not angry, she will get upset. Once she gets upset..."

"Is it scary?" Horikita Mai stared at Watanabe Toru with her round eyes like a little animal.

"Terrible? She's always been terrible. It has nothing to do with whether she's being weird or not."

Horikita Mai nodded in agreement, then quickly shook her head.

She skipped this already scary topic and asked, "What happens if the senior sister gets upset?"

"How should I put it——" Toru Watanabe tapped his fingers on "Heartbeat", "She's cute, very cute, super cute, I just want to make people angry all the time and make her upset all the time."

"Um," the schoolgirl raised her hand, "Senior, I have always had a question, are you a masochist?"

"Yes."

"..." Watanabe Toru, who was about to answer, turned his head to look at Kiyono Rin who was reading a book.

After giving the warning, he retracted his gaze and said to Horikita Mai:

"This is not a question of being a masochist or not. For the people you like and the people who like you, you have to change yourself."

"Senior!" Horikita Mai opened her eyes wide in admiration, "You must have experienced many Shuras, you are really good at making excuses!"

Watanabe Toru turned to Kiyono Rin and said, "Can this child speak?"

"Watanabe-san," said Rin Kiyono, "if you want to become great, you must get used to and take the initiative to listen to the truth that you don't like."

"You really can't talk, I mean you two!"

"Hehehe~" Horikita Mai gave a unique Gengar giggle.

"I'm not complimenting you."

"I know, but being scolded together with Seino-senpai here shows that I am close to you."

"School is about to end, go home if you have nothing to do." Toru Watanabe started to chase people away.

"Actually, I invited you to go out with me because I wanted to buy you a birthday present. I also wanted to ask you for advice on what you like."

"birthday present?"

"Yeah." Horikita Mai placed her hands between her pleated skirt and the chair, "No one, including me, knows anything about what Kiyono-senpai likes. Only Watanabe-senpai can find out something from her. Others can't do it at all. It's hard to even start a conversation with her."

"I see." Watanabe Toru nodded, "I can help you, but..."

"No need." Qingye Rin suddenly said, "I won't accept your gifts."

"But everyone is preparing to give gifts to the seniors, and some of them have even bought them."

"Then please tell them that I don't need it." Qingye Rin answered indifferently.

Horikita Mai secretly tugged at Watanabe Toru's sleeve and said, "Senior, please persuade this senior. This will turn her from being popular to being hated."

"By the way, I won't accept it either." Watanabe Toru pulled back his sleeves, "I wonder if anyone has given me a gift. If so, please help pass it on."

"Eh——Why?! Didn't you receive chocolates on Valentine's Day, senpai?"

"How do you know?" Valentine's Day was in February, when Toru Watanabe was still a freshman in high school.

"Everyone knows about your story, senior. By the way, senior, I heard that you spent hundreds of thousands of yen on the return gift for the White Festival. Is that true?" Horikita Mai asked curiously.

"Really." Watanabe Toru said, "So I don't accept gifts. The cost of returning gifts is too high. Got it?"