The Disqualified Commander of the Abandoned Shipgirl

Do you remember what you ate yesterday?

The ship girl remembers.

Generally speaking, this kind of ordinary memory, in terms of the storage limit of the ship girl's mind, can be stored for a very long time. Although the memory is naturally consuming the ship girl's mind, it can theoretically consume many, many years just by consuming it naturally.

It would be able to support several, even more than a dozen normal human generations without any problems.

This theoretical lifespan limit is comparable to that of the immortals in Donghuang legends.

The turtles have to step back.

But this is just doing nothing, eating and drinking every day, and living like this for a long time. You can indeed live a long time like a lazy turtle.

But what is a KanColle?

It's a weapon.

And it is a weapon that requires high intensity use.

Then, the theoretical lifespan is meaningless.

Lin Shen lay on the bed in a daze, his mind reluctantly calling out from his memory the "common sense" that almost everyone knew.

The battle takes a heavy toll on the ship girl's mental state.

Above all other things.

Strong emotional ups and downs can also leave traces on the mind.

And fighting is walking on the edge of life and death.

The battle itself requires high-intensity calculations, coupled with the accompanying emotional fluctuations, so the mind is in an extremely high state of operation every time.

The mind has limits to its operation and limits to its wear and tear.

Unless the ship girl has no emotions at all and becomes a cold machine - then isn't that a clone?

As long as the clone doesn't die on the battlefield, it can be kept for a long time.

a long time.

But the first frost is what is called a variant.

When their minds are subjected to high-frequency loads in a short period of time, they will experience some emotional abnormalities.

It could be irritability, it could be uneasiness, it could be a huge emptiness, in short, they are all negative emotions.

What is lost can be recovered, but what is lost has already been lost.

The more they lose, the less they have left, and the longer it will take them to return to normal.

Just like humans getting old—

When humans get old, their mental state will deteriorate along with their physical state.

The KanColle is just the opposite, her body is fine, but her mind is no longer as good as before.

If humans achieve so-called immortality, can consciousness really withstand the damage that comes with immortality...?

Or will forgetting still serve as the final protection mechanism?

Why won’t the ship girl forget?

"How about it?"

Noticing that Lin Shen didn't respond for a long time, Chu Shuang asked.

"...It's okay... probably." Lin Shen said weakly.

"Commander, how can you say that everything is fine?" Chu Shuang glanced at Lin Shen speechlessly, then cheered up a little and said, "Don't worry, although there is something wrong with my mind, it's not a big problem. As long as I can breathe a breath of Commander, I will recover~"

"..." But it only restored the state, not eliminated the damage that had already occurred. Lin Shen did not open his mouth to correct him, because he knew that he was the culprit.

The record achieved by Chu Shuang and her team was certainly brilliant and dazzling, but the price they paid behind the scenes was also unbearable.

Lin Shen felt as if his shoulders had become heavier.

"Commander, why are you so depressed?" Chu Shuang straightened up and held Lin Shen's head with her hands, "Or is it that I alone can no longer satisfy you~"

"No, that's not the case." Lin Shen said blankly, still not coming back to his senses from his previous thoughts.

Chu Shuang didn't waste any words. She stared into Lin Shen's eyes and kissed him directly.

It was another long kiss, she kept demanding, as if she wanted to suck Lin Shen dry.

Just as hard as ever.

After a few minutes, Hatsushimo let go, and the expression on his face looked slightly better.

"Don't think too much, Commander." Chu Shuang gently patted Lin Shen's cheeks and said seriously, "It's just a mental loss, not worth mentioning at all. I can definitely keep fighting until I help you accomplish everything you want to accomplish, I promise!"

In this short period of time, Chu Shuang had completed a self-examination of his own condition.

She's not stupid, she just lacks information.

As for things like mental depletion, just like a person knows from birth that he is growing up, getting old, and dying, the ship girl believes that she also knows the health bar above her head.

But despite hearing what Chu Shuang said, Lin Shen was not more optimistic. He checked Chu Shuang's mind and found that due to the previous damage and the recent loss, the shadow that could be felt was getting bigger and bigger.

"That's not something you can just promise, idiot."

"Huh, you're still talking about me, but haven't you also been hiding a lot of things yourself?"

"I've been hiding something..."

"Life span or something like that."

"..."

Chu Shuang looked at the silent Lin Shen, smiled and said, "We are both the same!"

"That's right." Lin Shen thought about it and couldn't help but smile a little relieved.

You won't live long yourself, and yet you still care about others.

No matter what, Hatsushimo will definitely live longer than him.

If we really compare the thickness of the health bars, Lin Shen is definitely not as good as Chu Shuang now.

It's a bit funny that he, a "dying man", is worried about Chushuang, who is "half buried in the ground".

The kind that is like the pot calling the kettle black.

"So, we must do what we should do~!" Chu Shuang said excitedly, then reached out to untie all the clothes on his body and threw them into the ship's space.

She pushed Lin Shen down on the bed and said excitedly, "Commander, turn down the sound!"

"Okay..." Seeing Chu Shuang so impatient, Lin Shen could only do as he was told helplessly.

Then--

And then of course just lie back and enjoy it.

Chu Shuang looked small, but once she sat on it and started moving, she was like a wild horse that had broken free from its reins. She was only concerned with enjoying herself while galloping on Lin Shen's body, and was too lazy to care about anything else.

Every time they did it, Lin Shen felt that Chu Shuang was so horny. Because she no longer cared about her image, after riding on Lin Shen, Chu Shuang naturally did whatever was convenient for her. She kept swallowing Lin Shen, and her movements were very fast, resulting in a very high frequency of crisp sounds.

Most people wouldn't be able to last even ten minutes if treated this way.

Lin Shen, on the other hand, can control his body and let Chu Shuang shake her body until she is satisfied.

He was too lazy to care about too much. What if doing too much would affect the body? It was all bullshit, so just get out of here.

After Chu Shuang climbed to the top for the first time, Lin Shen stood up, hugged her, and began to toss the petite body in his arms quickly.

All I could hear was the sound of the first frost.

(...)

"it is good……!"

Lin Shen responded to Chu Shuang with all his might, listening to her screams which were gradually becoming out of tune.

He seemed to have briefly detached himself from the long-term macro perspective and began to concentrate on the things at hand.

The goal is difficult to achieve.

We all have to work hard.

Like shooting stars and fireworks——

Before completely burning itself out.

Don't leave any regrets for yourself and the people around you.

This is what Lin Shen is thinking about now.

(...)

(...)

Everyone has their own emotions, and Lin Shen certainly has them too. He also feels tremendous pressure, confusion, and irritability. It's just that he is better at controlling his emotions.

But that doesn't mean there aren't any.

(...)

Lin Shen lay on Chu Shuang's body and breathed a sigh of relief.

"Huh... it's not that exaggerated, right?"

"Hey~ It does feel like it's been filled up~"

Chu Shuang said while breathing heavily and looking into Lin Shen's eyes.

She reached out and hugged Lin Shen's neck. Her legs that were pressed against Lin Shen's chest naturally slid to the sides and wrapped around Lin Shen's waist. Chu Shuang's face flushed, and she said, "Can we have another one, Commander?"

"What's wrong with you today? Are you a little too excited?" Lin Shen asked curiously.

Usually at this time, the first frost is almost enough.

"Maybe it's because of my mind~ Well, the empty and irritable emotions need an outlet~" Hatsushima smiled and said, "Isn't it the same for the Commander?"

"I... I guess so." Lin Shen did not deny it. He just stood up again and put his hands on Chu Shuang's hips.

"By the way, let me tell you something, Commander~" When Lin Shen started to move again, Chu Shuang leaned close to Lin Shen's ear and whispered.

"what's up?"

"It's not just me. Laffey and the others seem to be in a similar situation. I've already asked them."

"……what?"

"Except for Laffey and Glasgow, Ayanami-chan and the others seem to be in the same situation~ This kind of irritability may take two days to recover - Commander, do you want to pay attention to it?"

"I--"

Lin Shen immediately used his authority as a permission dog to take a look at the private chat history that Chu Shuang had sent in the soul network.

Then his expression suddenly changed.

Just now, Hatsushimo proudly showed off her stress-relieving method to Cupid, Ayanami and McCall.

One of the comments read: "Alas, I can't get the comfort of the commander, so pitiful~"

She seemed to say something to that effect to everyone.

"Do you like to show off so much when you have nothing to do——?"

Lin Shen looked at Chu Shuang in astonishment, but the latter just looked at Lin Shen with an expression that said, "I understand, you understand, I understand, I understand," and was as gentle as water.

"Well~ Anyway, for the commander, having more shipgirls with whom he has a closer relationship is a good thing no matter how you look at it~ eh?"

"..."

Lin Shen suddenly realized that he didn't fully understand Chu Shuang.

Although she is morbid and paranoid in some aspects, she is not stupid.

Just didn't say it, didn't mention it, didn't speak about it.

It doesn’t mean you don’t understand anything.

Quite the opposite.

She understands everything.

"You are as cunning as a fox, not like a cat at all."