Fighting Against the Odds: I Am the Right Path

Hearing the answers from the two, Xiao Yan responded in a deep voice, a ripple in his heart.

After a while, Xiao Yan looked at the two of them and said.

"Qiu Feng, Ye Nuan, I'm sorry, I won't join anyone."

"what?!"

Hearing Xiao Yan's words, Qiu Feng exploded. We have been arguing with you for almost an hour. No matter who you choose, you should at least come up with a result? But you actually said that no one will join? Are you kidding us!

Although Ye Nuan also had some resentment in her heart, she was relatively calm compared to Qiu Feng, and asked in a deep voice.

"Is it because you don't agree with our views?"

"No, quite the opposite." Xiao Yan shook his head slightly and said solemnly, "I think what you two said makes sense. I agree with both of your comments."

"But now I really can't decide which side is right. I'm really sorry."

As Xiao Yan spoke, he bowed his head deeply to the two of them to express his apology, and continued in the stunned gazes of Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan.

"Please give me some time. I need to think carefully about what you two have said. When I make a decision, I will report to you immediately. During this period, I hope that both of you can temporarily stop the armed conflict. Please."

After hearing Xiao Yan's sincere words, Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan were both stunned for a while, and they looked at each other and communicated with their eyes.

After a moment, he nodded lightly.

"Okay, since Mu Qiang's faction has had a lot of casualties during this period, let's just stop fighting for now."

"Seconded."

Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan said this, and they both understood that it would be difficult to tell who was right and who was wrong if they continued to fight, and the result would only be mutual losses.

Moreover, the two of them also vaguely realized that armed conflict would not be able to change the other party's views. If it were so easy, Xiao Yan would lead the Xiao family to crush them to death. Who would dare to say anything?

Since Xiao Yan did not do so, it proves that Xiao Yan himself has discovered that the problem cannot be solved by force alone.

Now that Xiao Yan has said this, it can be considered as giving the two of them a way out, so let's stop fighting for the time being.

Afterwards, Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan took their people away. Wu Hao watched them leave and approached Xiao Yan and asked in a low voice.

"Hey, the captain asked you to disband them. Is that okay?"

"Don't worry, I'll go explain to Sister Xiao Yu later." Xiao Yan supported himself on his knees and stood up, chuckling, "Also, Sister Xiao Yu's original intention was to ask them not to cause any more disputes. As long as they don't cause trouble, Sister Xiao Yu doesn't care how long the Strong Admiring Faction and the Strong Fearing Faction exist."

"Haha, that's true."

Wu Hao scratched his hair lightly. At this moment, Xiao Ning suddenly came up, hugged Xiao Yan's neck and snickered.

"Finally, I'm done. Let's go. I'll take you there."

Boom!

Before Xiao Ning could finish his words, he was pulled back by two pairs of hands. He then let out a series of miserable howls under the inured gazes of the people around him.

After the howling ended, Xun'er and Xiao Mei threw Xiao Ning, who was covered in shoe prints and twitching all over, aside with gloomy faces, not caring at all about his life or death, which made Xiao Yan tremble.

These two girls were as cruel as ever to Cousin Xiao Ning.

Then Xun'er and Xiao Mei immediately put on gentle smiles and surrounded Xiao Yan. Xiao Yan couldn't help but sigh at how quickly they changed their expressions.

"Brother Xiao Yan, do you have anything to do next?"

Xun'er asked with a smile. Xiao Mei beside her also had a hopeful look on her face. Ever since Xiao Yan came, she had been busy with things, and she was also busy filming, so she had no time to be alone with him. She had been thinking about him for a long time.

However, Xiao Yan's answer made her look disappointed.

"Sorry, I want to be alone for a while." Xiao Yan said softly, turning to look at the others, "Thank you for your hard work, everyone should go and do your own things."

Xiao Yan waved his hand lightly and walked away slowly, causing Xun'er and Xiao Mei to look a little disappointed.

Hu Jia, who was standing aside, crossed her arms and raised her eyebrows in confusion as she looked at Xiao Yan's back.

"Why does it feel like that guy is suddenly in a very low mood?"

Although he usually speaks and acts in a hot-tempered manner, Hu Jia is surprisingly sensitive to other people's inner changes.

When Xiao Mei heard Hu Jia's words, she was instantly moved and wanted to catch up with Xiao Yan immediately, but was held back by Xun'er.

"Xun'er?"

"Don't disturb him yet. Let Brother Xiao Yan be alone for a while."

Xun'er said softly, looking in the direction where Xiao Yan left, her eyes full of worry.

After leaving, Xiao Yan came to the back mountain of the outer courtyard, found a big rock to sit on, and flipped through the series of speeches by Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan that he had just recorded. He kept thinking about every word they said in his mind, and marked something with a pen from time to time.

At this time, Yao Chen appeared, looked at Xiao Yan's actions, and said softly.

"Xiao Yanzi, you seem very irritable now."

"Ah, Senior Yao, did you feel it?"

Xiao Yan did not deny it, and Yao Chen smiled helplessly.

"I've been following you for such a long time, and I can probably understand your mood changes to a certain extent." Yao Chen paused, and then said, "Do you think what those two students said just now is useful?"

"Quite a bit. I have also discovered the huge flaws I had before."

"A huge flaw?"

Yao Chen raised her eyebrows in confusion. If anyone asked her what Xiao Yan's biggest flaw was, Yao Chen would answer without hesitation, "He's too upright." Although Yao Chen benefited a lot from Xiao Yan's uprightness, she still felt that being too upright was not a good thing, especially for Xiao Yan.

However, this was just Yao Chen's own idea. Xiao Yan would never think that being too upright was a flaw.

Yao Chen really couldn't think of anything that even Xiao Yan himself would consider to be a huge flaw.

At this time, Xiao Yan frowned and answered.

"I was too arrogant before."

"arrogant?"

The doubt in Yao Chen's eyes deepened. How could you be so arrogant when you underestimate your own abilities from the beginning to the end?

Xiao Yan nodded slightly and said affirmatively.

"Yes, it's arrogance, arrogance in every aspect." Xiao Yan looked up at Yao Chen and said softly: "Senior Yao, you also know, right? I have always avoided accepting favors from others, including you, and I try not to ask for help as much as possible."

"Ah, that's right, because your integrity doesn't allow you to accept favors from others easily. In your opinion, that would be to trouble others for your own affairs."

Yao Chen said this with a helpless expression on her face. Xiao Yan was simply a stubborn person and she had wanted to complain about this for a long time.

Hearing Yao Chen's words, Xiao Yan smiled bitterly.

"Before, I also always felt this way. I thought that I only tried not to ask for help from others for the sake of the righteousness in my heart." Xiao Yan paused, and then said: "But after the incident in the Black Horn Region, I realized that the reason why I didn't ask for help from others, such as not wanting to owe favors to others and not wanting to trouble others, were just superficial reasons."

"The real reason is that I feel deep down that I can handle the situation at hand by myself and I don't need to ask for help from others."

Xiao Yan's words made Yao Chen pause suddenly, but then he immediately understood and agreed in his heart.

Indeed, that is indeed true.

Every time Xiao Yan encountered difficulties before, he gritted his teeth and persevered. It was not just to stick to his beliefs, but actually because of the arrogance in his heart, which made him always feel that he could solve it by his own strength.

So far, Xiao Yan has only asked for help from him twice.

One was when he first encountered Mobas in the Tagor Desert, and the other was when he avenged his children in the Black Horn Region.

Only during these two times did Xiao Yan clearly know that he could not handle the situation by his own strength, and therefore he asked for help in borrowing his strength.

"There is one more thing, Senior Yao." Xiao Yan looked at Yao Chen, his eyes dotted with a little brilliance, "I have always been much stronger than people of the same level, right?"

Xiao Yan’s question made Yao Chen stunned for a moment, and he couldn’t help but reply.

"you know?"

In the past, Xiao Yan had fought against so many opponents of greatly different levels. Although he didn't win easily, at least he had fought back and forth. However, from beginning to end, Xiao Yan never expressed any doubt about his own strength. Therefore, after Yao Chen complained again and again, he gradually got used to it and thought that Xiao Yan was too slow to notice this.

But listening to what Xiao Yan said, it seemed that he was not that slow?

Seeing the astonishment in Yao Chen's eyes, Xiao Yan smiled bitterly.

"Once or twice is fine. After so many battles, no matter how slow I am, I should have discovered it." Xiao Yan said slowly: "I will take the initiative to face powerful enemies who are far superior to me again and again because I know in my heart that although my level is not as good as theirs, I can deal with them with my strength. Deep down in my heart, I know very well how strong I am."

Yao Chen was silent for a while, then asked slowly.

"Then why did you pretend not to know before?"

"Because I'm scared." Xiao Yan forced a smile, "I'm afraid that when I know that my strength far exceeds that of people of the same level, the arrogance in my heart will grow stronger and stronger, and I will look down on others more and more, and then become the type of person I hate the most."

"Once I was in Qingshan Town, after I killed Mu She, who was the most powerful man on the surface, I had the intention to kill everyone in Qingshan Town who might pose a threat to the people around me, even innocent people, because at that time I felt that I was above everyone else and that no one would blame me no matter what I did."

"I really don't dare to encounter that mentality a second time, so even though I later realized that my strength far exceeded that of people of the same level, I buried this matter deep in my heart and subconsciously didn't let myself realize it."

"But the arrogance that came from this incident has actually always influenced my words and deeds."

"I am just a great fighting master. I dare to help the children open a restaurant in a place like Black Horn Region because I have the confidence to do so deep in my heart."

"Even when I avenged my children, it wasn't just because of my emotions. I felt that as long as I borrowed your strength, I could fight even a Dou Zong."

At this point, Xiao Yan couldn't help but laugh, and looked at Yao Chen and asked again.

"Senior Yao, do you know why I have always been so humble?"

".Because you must strictly adhere to your own righteous path."

Yao Chen hesitated for a while, but still said so.

If it were before, she would have said this without any hesitation, because in her opinion, Xiao Yan was just that kind of person.

However, after Xiao Yan's previous remarks, she became a little uncertain.

"I thought so before." Xiao Yan said, his eyes revealing self-loathing, "But the real reason is that deep down in my heart I feel that if I am arrogant, I will be looked down upon by myself just like those other arrogant people."

Look down upon. These words don't sound like something Xiao Yan would say, let alone something he would do.

Even when facing those people whom he had killed with his own hands, Xiao Yan had always only shown hatred towards them and had never once said anything like "contempt".

At this time, Xiao Yan was still explaining to himself.

"Until now, I have always viewed my life from the perspective of the Righteous Path. Xiao Yan is like a puppet controlled by the Righteous Path. That is why I can restrain my desires time and time again. It is much easier to control someone who is completely under my control than to control myself."

"Deep in my heart, I have always held the idea of ​​fighting violence with violence and eliminating evil with evil."

"But the [Righteous Path] in my heart tells me that this method cannot fundamentally solve the problem and will only backfire."

“Whenever I encounter difficulties or dangers, I always want to escape, and I always want to give up on things I promised to others.”

"But the Right Path also told me that it is not the Right Path to always think of escaping when faced with difficulties and dangers. People who follow the Right Path should never be so cowardly, and they should risk their lives to fulfill their promises to others."

"That's why I have been trying my best to manipulate myself in the name of the Righteous Path, doing things I don't want to do, and enduring the most instinctive thoughts in my heart as much as possible."

"Before, I had been deliberately ignoring these things. It was not until the incident in the Black Horn Region that I finally saw clearly what kind of person I was originally."

“Even so, the Right Path still persuades me to persevere and not give up, but it doesn’t tell me where to go next.”

Xiao Yan slowly raised his head and looked at Yao Chen, and Yao Chen was shocked.

Two lines of clear tears slid down Xiao Yan's cheek, his pupils trembled slightly as if on the verge of collapse, and a slightly broken smile appeared on his face.

“Senior Yao, the [Xiao Yan] you knew before never existed from the beginning.”

"Everything I said and did was not what I meant."

"Those are all fake."

Xiao Yan's eyes were filled with confusion about the future, as if he was a lost child, not knowing where to go.

The righteous path that he had always relied on now had big problems.

What happened in the Black Horn Region and the deaths of those children made Xiao Yan deny in his heart the righteous path he had previously upheld, and along with it, the person Xiao Yan, who was built on the righteous path, was also denied.

After listening to Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan's respective opinions today, Xiao Yan's heart became even more confused, and his previous beliefs had been shattered.

Xiao Yan didn't understand what the future righteous path and his future self should be like.

Chapter 399 Teacher-Student Relationship

Xiao Yan cried

Yao Chen stared blankly at Xiao Yan, who had tears on his face. This seemed to be the first time she saw Xiao Yan cry since she woke up. Even when his children died, he was not so fragile.

Xiao Yan has always regarded the righteous path as his life creed. Everything he said and did was based on the righteous path in his mind.

However, Xiao Yan now began to doubt the righteous path he had always adhered to. At the same time, he felt confused about his past self.

Are the things I did in the past really meaningful? What should I do in the future?