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The doctors and nurses were chattering.

Ryougi Shiki didn't hear a word she said.

because.

At this moment, her eyes were filled with horrifying images.

She saw that everyone was torn into pieces and everyone was dead.

She looked blankly at the roses beside her.

Looking at the "thread" on the rose that was about to break, she reached out and couldn't help but touch it.

click -

The moment she touched the rose, it died.

"Ah!!!" Ryougi Shiki screamed in horror.

The nurses consoled her, "What's wrong? Are you feeling unwell?"

But Ryougi Shiki completely ignored them. All she saw were dead people and those horrible lines.

click -

In fear, Ryougi Shiki poked her own eyes hard with her hands.

"Doctor! Come quickly!"

"The patient is harming himself!"

"Stop her quickly!"

Like Toono Shiki, people who have experienced death will awaken the "Mystic Eyes of Death Perception".

During the coma, his consciousness was unable to see the outside world, but was constantly looking at the nothingness within. Therefore, he was constantly exposed to the concept of death in the nothingness, and after waking up, he obtained the Mystic Eyes of Death Perception.

……

The next day.

Zhong Xuan came to the hospital slowly with a folder.

Then he slowly walked into Ryougi Shiki's ward.

"Who let you in? Didn't I say I didn't want to see anyone?" Ryougi Shiki listened to the door opening and cursed.

Because of the self-harm incident, she had a bandage over her eyes and her hands were covered with plastic bags to prevent her from self-harming again.

"Hehe." Zhong Xuan walked up to Ryougi Shiki and said with a smile, "I'm a teacher after all. It's normal for me to work as a psychological counselor part-time, right?"

"I told the hospital that you needed counseling, and I came in!"

"Liar!" Ryougi Shiki cursed.

She turned around and was about to press the button on the bedside to call the nurse.

"If you don't want to know what's going on with your eyes, then press it." Zhong Xuan said in a provocative tone.

As expected, Ryougi Shiki stopped what he was doing.

She sat back slowly and asked, "Do you know about my eyes?"

"I not only know about your eyes, I also know how to use it! If you are interested, you know!" Zhong Xuan said with a smile.

"..." Ryougi Shiki hesitated for a moment, then said, "Okay... Then I will allow you to be my psychological counselor."

"Thank you for your patronage!" Zhong Xuan said with a smile.

"What's your name?" Ryougi Shiki asked.

"Me? My name is Zhong Xuan, you can call me Teacher Zhong!" Zhong Xuan sat on the chair next to the bed and said with a smile.

"Zhong Xuan..." Ryougi Shiki muttered to himself.

She felt that the name was familiar, as if she had heard it somewhere before...

No, it was like the name that I had been repeating in my heart for the past two long years...

very familiar……

But I still can’t remember…

She is not who she was before.

This personality is not the original personality of Ryougi Shiki or Ryougi Ori.

It is a personality that has been reshaped after experiencing death.

Because although Ryougi Shiki and Ryougi Ori are two personalities, they are different from the dual personalities that people usually talk about.

The memories, preferences, and behavioral standards of her dual personality are consistent, only the choices she makes are different.

Rather, it's more like two emotional expressions.

Therefore, they were originally one, but lost one side, and now this one is a complete personality. Therefore, although she inherited the original memory, she is still somewhat different in essence.

The biggest difference between her and the original two is that when she looks back at the memories from two years ago, it feels like watching a "movie".

Although I know psychologically that this is my old memory, emotionally I feel that it is someone else's congratulations and I cannot empathize with them.

For example, coming to visit one's parents.

Although they are my parents in my memory, deep down I feel that they are familiar strangers.

All those classmates and friends in my memory, I have no feelings about them now.

and.

The memory of how I got into the car accident has disappeared.

I have absolutely no idea how I got into the accident.

In my memory, the person who continued to have lunch with me was called Kurodori Mikiya, and I couldn't remember why I had to have lunch with him.

Could it be... that I am very familiar with him?

"You said you have no feelings about your past memories?" Zhong Xuan asked after listening to Ryougi Shiki's description.

He had been receiving counseling for three days, and it was the first time that Ryougi Shiki told him about her troubles.

Ryougi Shiki nodded.

"That means, for you now, it is not a memory, but information!" Zhong Xuan said with a smile.

"Information...what should I do in the future?" Ryougi Shiki said worriedly.

"You look very distressed. What are you distressed about? Do you feel that you can't empathize with this information, so you are distressed that you can't play the role of the previous 'style' well?" Zhong Xuan said with a smile.

"In fact, you don't need to pretend to be your old self. You are the real you now. You don't need to embarrass yourself because of the world's perspective."

Zhong Xuan's words, under the effect of [Narrator] [Incitement], and the strongest psychological counseling skill [In that era, again!], Zhong Xuan's words are extremely magical.

"I am who I am now...I don't need to care about my past memories?" Ryougi Shiki muttered to himself.

"Yes, there is no need to force yourself to act like your former self, nor is there any need to deliberately like the things you liked before, especially the people you liked before." Zhong Xuan continued to deceive.

"Well...you're right..." Ryougi Shiki nodded, she agreed with Zhong Xuan's statement.

After all, playing someone else is hard work.

It is really uncomfortable to express my love to those strangers who I have a crush on in my memory.

Compared to the Kuroto Kirei in her memory two years ago, Ryougi Shiki felt that the name Zhong Xuan was more familiar.

It seems that this name has always been with me in my most helpless moments.

Moreover, she smelled Zhong Xuan's scent from a close distance.

——Very familiar.

Although she didn't know why, the smell was really familiar.

It was as if my body had already been familiar with this smell, and my body had already accepted the smell of this man, and my body did not resist at all.

"I still have a question...that is, I want to kill someone...In the intelligence two years ago, I have always resisted this...According to the records in the intelligence, I always thought it was because of Zhi, but now I still have the urge to kill...It seems that I have this problem myself..." Ryougi Shiki has let go of her guard against Zhong Xuan and continued to express her troubles.

It’s just like Aozaki Touko in the original plot, except that Zhong Xuan stole Aozaki Touko’s role.

"What should I do... Before, I seemed to have deliberately suppressed my urge to kill in order to fit in with the secular world and the moral world... What should I do in the future?"

"Everyone has this tendency, especially when they are wronged, wronged, or in danger. You are in this situation too. Because of your dual personality, you have a sense of rejection of the secular world and think that you are incompatible with this world. This creates your sense of insecurity, and your insecurity triggers this psychological protection mechanism, which is the impulse to kill." Zhong Xuan continued to deceive.

"You are the same now, because you don't like the intelligence you received before, and everyone in the world thinks you should live according to the intelligence. This makes you feel insecure and empty inside, which triggers your psychological protection mechanism, which is the impulse to kill."

"My advice is, don't suppress yourself, release your impulses!"

"Then... am I still a human being? Can I still be accepted by the moral world?" Ryougi Shiki asked.

This question is the fundamental reason why she suppresses her impulse to kill. She wants to integrate into this world.

But there is a fundamental mistake here, that is, she was misled by the hypocritical atmosphere of the island country.

The island nation advocates the theory of victim blaming, believing that those who retaliate in self-defense are evil, and that truly good people will not fight back when being bullied.

This is the fundamental reason why island bullying is so serious but no one dares to resist.

The world that Ryougi Shiki has always been troubled by and cannot fit into is the hypocritical atmosphere of this island country.

But Zhong Xuan doesn't buy it.

"Why not? Since you have this impulse, you can solve it in many ways!" Zhong Xuan said with a smile.

"You can become a policeman and vent this impulse on the prisoners! You can join the army and vent this impulse on the enemy! What's wrong with that?"

"Of course, I have another option here, that is, you can work for me!"

"I'm a magician. Magicians are not human. You can kill them at will. They are not bound by morals. You can kill as many as you want!"

"There is only one principle for killing people, and that is to kill the evil! As long as you think he is a bad person, you can kill him."

Immediately afterwards, Zhong Xuan gave Ryougi Shiki a short sword.

By the way, he activated the skill [Gift from the Star One]. This skill can nourish the other party's soul and make them feel grateful.

Ryougi Shiki was immediately attracted.

She clutched the sheets tightly in her hands, as if she were in a fierce tug-of-war with her own deeply held moral concepts.

"Take your time to think about it. I'll come to see you tomorrow!" Zhong Xuan smiled and left.

The plan is currently moving in a good direction...

Chapter 76: The Disgusting Kuroto Mikiya

at night.

Ryougi Shiki couldn't sleep.

She felt very lonely.

The hospital was extremely quiet at this time, and because her eyes were bandaged, there was only darkness in front of her.

——The first time she felt lonely since she was born.

And I am afraid of being alone.

She had never felt this way before, because with Ryougi Ori inside her, she always felt like she had company.

But now, she was truly alone.

Because she has no empathy for the information from two years ago, she doesn't know whether she is Shiki or Ori.

She thought she was Shiki simply because there was no Zhi in her heart who was talking to her.

Because of this feeling, she felt empty inside.