The civilization before the collapse, heroes and heroes are reborn with me

Zhu Yufeng sighed softly: "I am really sorry for that matter... Alicia."

"No, I don't want you to say that. There has never been any apology between you and her. You both just insisted on your own ideas, and under the manipulation of fate, there have been many regrets and estrangements. Fortunately, you have resolved the previous estrangement this time." Eden shook his head and said, "I tell you this just to let you know that Ellie's feelings for you are definitely not inferior to Lilith's."

Chapter 164 Past Thoughts

Zhu Yufeng reached out and picked up the wine glass, looking at the red wine inside and said, "I... of course I understand all this. I have never doubted Alicia's feelings. I also know how much courage she had when she first decided to find me and confess her identity as a reborn person. At that time, she already knew that I was also a reborn person, and that I still remembered everything from the beginning. With so many misunderstandings and estrangements between us, she chose to confess to me... but..."

"Can I understand it this way, Ai Li, is the first beauty you know, and a kind of yearning you have, while Lilith is your companion on the road ahead, and your long-time supporter... Now you seem to be completely unable to make a choice between them?" Yiden looked at Zhu Yufeng and said, "If you had already made a decision in your heart, you would not have been unable to make a decision until now."

"That's right. I have no choice." Zhu Yufeng looked up at Eden and said, "Kevin and I have talked about this issue. I have no choice, whether it's Alicia or Lilith."

Eden was silent.

Zhu Yufeng laughed at himself, picked up the wine glass and took a sip, then said: "Yidian, tell me, do you ever want to bury me like this?"

Eden smiled and said slowly, "If I bury you, Ellie will be sad, but I'm afraid she will dig you out the first time. Rather than burying you, I prefer to bury Kevin."

After saying that, Eden took a sip of wine, then gently shook the glass, looked at the red wine inside and said, "After saying all this, I also want to know, if Ai Li had not confessed all this to you, and still watched from a distance like in the last life, what choice would you have made?"

Zhu Yufeng was silent for a moment, then smiled bitterly and said, "Do you think she would be like this?"

"Of course not." Eden took another sip of wine and said with a helpless smile, "Because Ellie likes you so much. Before the incident of the eleventh Herrscher, she talked about you to me and Aponya at the tea party she hosted. The incident of the ninth Herrscher... Lilith confessed to you after that, right?"

"Yes, but I was focused on fighting Honkai at the time, and I didn't think I was qualified to respond to her feelings, so I didn't agree to her." Zhu Yufeng said, "When I talked about this with Alicia before, I realized that most of the Fire Moths thought I agreed at that time."

And after that, Lilith let herself go and started to do whatever it took...

"It seems that you are really not good at these things." Eden sighed softly, "Although you did not agree to Lilith, you took an indulgent attitude towards her behavior afterwards. Why do you think that others will not misunderstand your relationship?"

Zhu Yufeng thought for a while and said, "Maybe it's because I don't care. At that time, I just wanted to defeat Honkai, not for the future of mankind, but just to save Alicia's fate. Lilith got it right. You know, she's so good. She's in charge of many affairs and meetings in the Fallen Angel Squad..."

"Just like what Ai Li did in the Fourteen Heroes?" Eden looked at Zhu Yufeng with amusement. "Kevin, as the leader of the Fourteen Heroes, basically did nothing. Then someone who should have been the leader refused to become the leader and communicate with Ai Li because of the gap between them. As a result, Ai Li was responsible for almost all matters."

"Don't say that. I can do things, but what I can do is too little compared to Lilith." Zhu Yufeng tried to defend himself. "After Lilith takes over these things, she can do better than me, and the chances of winning against Honkai will be better... so..."

He was controlled by Lilith, and he had no choice...

"Isn't this the same as Kevin?" Eden shrugged. "We all know that Kevin wanted to be the 'savior' hero for Mei from the beginning. He did it because Mei needed him, and you are the same. Besides, I think Kevin is not without his own ideas, but he thinks that others can do better than him in this regard, so he gave up thinking. Isn't it the same for you?"

"Maybe..." Zhu Yufeng still tried to struggle. He felt that at least his emotional intelligence was higher than Kevin's. "But I'm not Kevin after all... My academic test scores are much better than his... He may be more humane than me."

He has never been affected by depression. He would kill anything that stood in his way. For example, during the purge of the rebels, not to mention the handling of the surrendered prisoners, he hesitated before making the decision, but he did not hesitate after making the move. When the suppression just started, he directly used the Black Abyss and White Flower to smash out a Sahara Desert. He did not have any psychological burden.

He only cares about the people he cares about, and he is too lazy to remember other people's names. The rebels are not needed by the Fire Moths, and should not exist for humans, so what is he feeling guilty about?

Just do it and it's done.

Even after his rebirth, when he was considering how to deal with the constraints again, he still wanted to continue to do as Extremely Evil said, but this time he had to take the initiative to stop Alicia from communicating with other fusion warriors.

"Really? Then who was it who said to Ellie at the beginning when he confessed to her that he would continue to work hard to become a hero like Kevin and get more attention from Ellie?" Eden said jokingly while looking at Zhu Yufeng.

She still remembered the smile and tenderness in Ellie's eyes when she talked about that incident in the previous life. At that time, the boy's eyes were only on her, but when the boy became the hero he wanted to be as promised, the two of them had already drifted apart.

She had heard Ellie talk about that incident twice, once when she had just joined the Fire Moths, and another time when she was dressing Ellie up before the "Last Banquet". Compared to the first time, when she mentioned the incident again, there was only confusion and sadness in Ellie's eyes.

"You two are really close friends who can talk about anything." Zhu Yufeng smiled helplessly, "Yes, at that time, I was actually quite jealous of Kevin. I was jealous that he, as a hero, received so much attention from Alicia... The relationship between Kevin and I changed after the Seventh Herrscher incident. Before that, it should be considered that... I was unilaterally hostile to Kevin?"

"After all, you are also a boy." Eden poured himself another glass of wine, and then filled Zhu Yufeng's glass. "But I am a little curious. Since you joined Ellie's team after the Fourth Herrscher incident, and Kevin had fought side by side with Ellie before that, if you care about these things, why did you wait until the Sixth Herrscher incident to confess? There must be an inducement in between, right?"

Zhu Yufeng was silent for a while, then looked away and said softly, "After the Sixth Herrscher incident, Alicia once asked Kevin a question. She took Kevin's hand, put it to her forehead, and asked Kevin if one day he had to choose between her and most people, and he could save most people by just firing that one shot, what would Kevin choose?"

Eden was stunned, then nodded thoughtfully: "Ellie also said this before, because at that time Kevin felt very guilty for killing a whole city of people because of his momentary weakness... Were you there at the time?"

"Yes." Zhu Yufeng said with empty eyes, "It's just that I just happened to pass by..."

No way, he had known this would happen, but he was too unwilling to accept it so he secretly followed and watched the live broadcast... and then he found that the gap between him and Kevin was still too big.

"The reason why I said later that I also wanted to be a hero like Kevin was because I felt at that time that as long as I became the hero that everyone expected, no matter what kind of setbacks I encountered, there would always be someone to comfort me and help me out of the predicament," Zhu Yufeng continued.

But now he knew very well that it was actually his own problem. Due to his identity as a time traveler and because he knew the direction of the plot in advance, he refused to communicate too much with other people who were not Yingjie, refused to integrate into this world, and looked at everyone arrogantly.

What's the point of being a fallen angel if you don't have some distance from the world?

How can you be a hero if you don't have any psychological or personality problems?

Eden was silent.

"Just like when Alicia asked Kevin a question after the Sixth Herrscher incident, or when Kevin fell into severe depression after the Seventh Herrscher incident, Alicia gathered all the fusion warriors at the time to hold a birthday party for Kevin in order to encourage him." Zhu Yufeng continued to recall, "But compared to the time after the Seventh Herrscher incident, I actually didn't care that much. At that time, I felt that I couldn't surpass Kevin. The side effect of his being a fusion warrior was ultra-low body temperature, while I was suffering from sleepless nights... The only thing that comforted me was that my Honkai resistance had increased..."

So... after the incident with the 12th Herrscher, after learning about the true side effects of Kaede, Airi...

Eden lowered his eyes.

She suddenly thought of another question. As far as she knew, when the Fusion Warrior Plan was proposed, it was not just Kevin and Zhu Yufeng who performed the surgery, but there were only these two successful cases, and the expected probability of success was 0. Kevin did so because he believed in Mei, but what about Zhu Yufeng?

This is what Eden thought and asked: "At that time, when you were facing a future that was almost certain death, you were not like Kevin who believed in his lover. What gave you the courage to undergo the fusion warrior surgery?"

"Because I have nothing, and that is the only chance I can seize. If I seize it, I can be like Kevin. Even if I am still not as good as Kevin, at least I won't be left too far behind..." Zhu Yufeng replied, "I said, I want to change the fate of Alicia and all the Thirteen Fire Chasers. If I can't become a fusion warrior, then what I want to do is just a foolish dream. I don't have the knowledge of Su or Mei, nor the excellent physique of Kevin. I can only gamble... Fortunately, I finally made the right bet in the end."

"Alas..." Eden sighed softly, "The past is gone and only exists in our memories. The story between you and Ellie was once full of regrets, but fortunately, we can start again."

When saying this, Eden was already thinking that it would be more appropriate to bury Kevin there. In his previous life, Alicia helped Kevin so much, but now Kevin was determined to be a member of Fengli's party.

After all, Eden actually felt that if Zhu Yufeng hadn't seen the scene where Alicia asked Kevin the question, he probably wouldn't have confessed his feelings, nor would he have gone to Europe to meet Lilith afterwards. As long as he and Alicia spent more time together, Eden believed that the two of them would definitely be able to succeed.

But there is no if.

Things had turned out like this and Eden was having a headache. She knew very well why Zhu Yufeng couldn't choose between the two of them.

Alicia was the first person Zhu Yufeng fell in love with and confessed to. He once fought against the collapse just for her. Now Alicia has also confessed her feelings to Zhu Yufeng. The estrangement and misunderstandings in the previous life have become a bond in this life after being resolved.

Lilith took the initiative to confess her love to Zhu Yufeng, and even after receiving a negative answer, she still chose to support him and accompany him all the way. During the Eleventh Ruler incident, she knew that there was a dead end ahead, but she had no regrets.

Probably because of this, Zhu Yufeng had no choice, so this guy simply chose to give up.

Why did Lilith still have memories after she was reborn even though she died in the tragedy of restraint? However, Airi also disappeared before the end and also had memories after she was reborn. If the source of all this was that Kaede, as the Herrscher of Time, did it unconsciously...

So, in Feng's heart at that time, these two people were almost equally important?

As for Zhu Yufeng's identity and power as a Herrscher, Alicia had told Eden about it when Zhu Yufeng and Lilith first met and they were working together.

"But this is starting again..." Zhu Yufeng's eyes moved towards the red wine in the glass with a guilty look, thinking to himself, "In fact, it was not until I was reborn that I realized that it was not just Alicia and Lilith who had this idea..."

It is said that he definitely did not dare to say it.

Eden noticed the strange look in Zhu Yufeng's eyes and understood it. Of course, she also knew that besides Ai Li and Lilith, there were other people who liked Zhu Yufeng. Take the time when a group of people went to pick out swimsuits for example. She could see that except Hua, everyone else seemed to have some other thoughts. However, seeing that Lilith and Ai Li didn't seem to care much, she didn't say much.

Speaking of this, she remembered the ballad that Zhu Yufeng asked her to compose for all the fallen angels. After reading the song that Lilith wrote for Zhu Yufeng, she also tried to write one herself...

However, before today, she didn't quite understand some of Zhu Yufeng's ideas, so she was a little unsure about the melody and had to follow Lilith's pace. But now, she can create independently.

Chapter 165: Alicia: It's no big deal as long as you accept it

"We're back~" Alicia pushed open the door to the living room, "My dear Eden, you actually came back quietly without telling us. If Miss Veronica hadn't told us that you had bought all the swimsuits in that store, Phyllis would have been worried that we would be left there to work.

Eden, who was already slightly tipsy, raised his glass to Alicia with a smile and said, "I have something to say to Feng, so I came back first. Sorry, Ali, for making you worry."

"Eh? Did Eden and Feng whisper something to each other? Can I know?" Alicia tilted her head and looked at Zhu Yufeng who was slowly tasting the wine.

"Of course." Yiden looked at Zhu Yufeng with a smile, "I just think that Feng should know some things."

"It's some details of the [Last Banquet]..." Zhu Yufeng looked up at Alysia, "As the organizer, you must be very clear about it, right?"

Alicia was stunned. Eden actually told Feng this?

All along, after resolving the misunderstanding and eliminating the estrangement, she and Zhu Yufeng had not mentioned in detail some things in the past. In Alicia's view, the past has become the past, and there is no point in pursuing it again and again, especially the details of "The Last Banquet". She only picked out some unimportant ones to talk about. She did not want Zhu Yufeng to feel guilty about it.

"The Last Banquet?" Lilith came out from behind Alicia. "I remember that, too. When Feng got the invitation, I tried to persuade him to attend."

"Huh? Why..." Alicia looked at Lilith in surprise.

"So it was really you at that time..." Zhu Yufeng held his forehead with his hand.

"Hmm?" Eden was a little confused. What did this have to do with Lilith? She remembered that Lilith should have died at that time, so why would she still remember this incident?

"Yes, I think I had analyzed it very well at that time." Lilith crossed her arms and looked at Zhu Yufeng with empty eyes, "But someone insisted that Alicia liked everyone, and even thought that even Eden didn't receive an invitation, so how could I be qualified to receive one."

Zhu Yufeng looked up at the ceiling.

Lilith continued to complain: "I continued to persuade him, but he gave me a reason like 'Why doesn't Alicia believe me? Why does she think I will attack her just because she is a Herrscher?' Well, I didn't say anything more."

Alicia looked at Zhu Yufeng with a complicated expression. Zhu Yufeng had explained the final reason to her at the very beginning. She never expected that Lilith was involved. Then she remembered the story about the beginning and end of everything she had talked about with Zhu Yufeng before. He came to this world because of that story, and he gave up his feelings for her because of that story...

In other words, I initially liked him because of the story, but then I gradually drifted away from him because of the story...

It makes people feel very complicated.

Eden looked at Alicia, then at Zhu Yufeng, and said thoughtfully: "It seems that something has happened that I don't know about."

Apparently, Lilith may have continued to exist in some form at that time, and both Feng and Ai Li seemed to be aware of this.

"Yeah, it might be a little complicated to explain." Alicia smiled, "I'll explain it to you later, Eden."

Eden smiled and said gently, "It's okay, Ellie, you can explain it anytime you want."

She didn't expect that Lilith would actually persuade Feng to keep the appointment, but... even if Lilith did so, a certain stupid guy still insisted on his own opinion and did not keep the appointment.

As they were talking, the others entered the living room one after another. Sakura looked around and then asked, "Rin...did she go to do her homework?"

"Yes." Zhu Yufeng nodded. "Ling is very well behaved, as I said. I was reading a story to her, but Yiden wanted to tell me something, so I took her back to her room to do her homework."

Ying was silent for a moment, and she began to wonder if the time she spent with Ling in her previous life was less than the time she spent with Feng and Ling... But fortunately, in this life, she ran away early and joined the Fire Moths, so she had more time to spend with both Feng and Ling.

"After all, Feng has a lot of experience in taking care of children." Lilith shrugged and said, "Astaroth really likes to stick to Feng~"

"I only like obedient children." Zhu Yufeng corrected.

"Oh, by the way, Feng, do you want to guess what style of swimsuit we bought?" Lilith looked at Zhu Yufeng and said with a smile, "Are you looking forward to it?"

Zhu Yufeng had a blank expression on his face: "Ah, I'm really looking forward to it."

Regardless of other people, as for Lilith, when did she go to the beach to perform a mission or take a vacation without bringing a swimsuit? And she even brought the wrong swimsuit with other people.

So...he could only say he was used to it.

"If you're going to be perfunctory, be a little more serious!" Lilith said helplessly with her hands on her hips.

"Is it because Feng has seen too much?" Alicia said speechlessly. She had guessed it. With Lilith's personality, it would be impossible for her to go to a place like the beach without a swimsuit. If it were her, she would do the same...

"Alas, you don't know that when Feng saw me and Xila wearing swimsuits for the first time, he was surprised for a moment, but nothing happened. He just continued to do his own thing." Lilith spread her hands, "There's nothing we can do. After all, although Feng said that he felt you wouldn't have any special feelings for him and that he had let it go, at that time he was basically not interested in anyone else except you."

Paddo looked at Lilith.

Even if Sister Lilith said so... under such circumstances, you were able to raise Brother Yufeng's favorability to at least the same level as Sister Ai Li. Sister Lilith, you are quite good at poaching people.

Alicia: "..."

She felt depressed when talking about this! Feng also told her that in his previous life, he had asked Lilith to help him train some skills to pursue girls, but in the end, Lilith did it herself, and she didn't see what skills Feng used to pursue her from beginning to end!

And thanks to the fact that maple is essentially a piece of wood...

"Don't look at me like that. At least I helped you experience the time when he was even more wooden than he is now." Lilith said innocently, "I told you before, he would even let me stand there alone in the sun while he held an umbrella to queue up for water. Although he would help me hold an umbrella later, you would find that he would unknowingly hold the umbrella to his side. I would stand next to him in the rain, and he wouldn't realize it unless I told him."

Alicia: "..."

At least you held an umbrella, right? Right?!

Padu: "..."

So what we are saying is that Sister Lilith is really too good and too strong. It is impossible to fight her head-on. However, Sister Ellie seems to be able to do it...

Lilith continued to try to output: "Let me tell you, even though Feng always seems to not care about anything and doesn't take it seriously, he is actually very shy. When we were on a mission in the Far East, if you asked me to take a shower with him, he would run faster than anyone else. You couldn't catch up with him."

"Is it possible that you are too open?" Zhu Yufeng looked at Lilith, trying to stop Lilith from continuing to output.

"What's the big deal? As long as you accept me, we are lovers. Isn't it normal for lovers to do these things?" Lilith spread her hands. "Oh, yes, it's the same even if we are lovers. Maybe we can try something more exciting?"

Zhu Yufeng: “…”

Very good. If I, the Ninth Herrscher, had really agreed to Lilith's request at that time, Lilith would have been able to do even more tricks, right?

Eden filled another glass of wine for himself and sighed softly in his heart. As expected, Lilith was able to raise Feng's favorability to the same level as Ai Li. She was really capable. Ai Li...she still needs to work hard...

But at least here in Australia, I can still help a little. I'll tell Veronica and ask her to prepare.

The corners of Alicia's eyes twitched, and then she looked at Lilith with empty eyes and said, "Did the education you received since childhood teach you these things?"

"Who told Feng that it would be useless if he didn't take some extreme measures?" Lilith looked at Zhu Yufeng with empty eyes, "I did learn your tone and your way of thinking at the beginning, but it didn't work when I confessed after the Ninth Herrscher incident. I asked him: 'Is it because I am not Alicia after all?' He told me that I don't need to be anyone, I just need to be my true self."

Lilith's expression finally became a little serious, and she said with some emotion: "Indeed, it's better to be myself, because he will accept me, no matter what I really look like. At least after the tragedy of Constraint, he did shed tears for me. I don't mean when we were in the morgue, he shed tears for all the fallen angels at that time, but when he killed the Ruler of Constraint, he shed tears for me alone."