The civilization before the collapse, heroes and heroes are reborn with me

Admiral was silent for a moment, then said, "How much hope do you think you have against Lilith?"

Since we get along well in scientific research, you may consider helping me.

"No."

Admiral: "..."

That's quite a clear self-awareness.

"Are you really not going to struggle a bit?" Beffinger wanted to see the captain's harem on fire! Don't be a coward, stand up!

Roffko glanced at Beffinger and said, "The dawn is enough as long as you look at it. The only thing in the sky that can touch the dawn of the rising sun is the bright moon."

Beffinger: "..."

Well, there’s no point in making trouble. You’re also a staunch Fengli supporter. It’s boring. Just continue watching Lilith torment the captain.

Lilith Extra: The Disease is Love

what is love?

This was a question that had always puzzled her.

Because she had never felt this way before.

She learns everything very quickly, from music, chess, calligraphy and painting to social etiquette. She has always been wearing a mask called "flawless" and watching the turbulent world indifferently.

The only thing she had seen was love, she had only seen it in books and in the eyes of others, but... she couldn't learn because she had never loved anyone.

Before her biological mother passed away, she had stroked her cheeks many times, sighed that she would never be able to see her in her wedding dress, and said with tears that she would always love her. She followed the example of others, kneeling in front of her mother's bed, and shed hypocritical tears. Everyone thought she was sad because of her mother's death, but her expression under the mask was cold.

She didn't feel anything inside.

Just like when her grandfather, who loved her so much, passed away, she felt nothing.

There is no sadness, and there is no joy either. It is as if I am just a person who has nothing to do with me.

The younger brother who always has a cold face but cares about me and my sister very much in his heart, only has eyes for my fiancé, and every time he sees my sister, there is always joy in her eyes... Unfortunately, I still don't feel anything.

Oh, when that sudden disaster struck, when she killed everyone in front of that man's gaze, she did not hesitate at all. What she felt was the joy called "freedom."

She knew very early on that she was bloodthirsty by nature. She would be delighted by the wailing of living creatures and excited by their dying struggles in desperate situations... However, because of the environment around her, she had to suppress her nature.

So, what is love?

Or in other words, what is love?

What she wanted to know was not the definition of love, but... how to love someone and what it felt like to fall in love with someone?

To be honest, she never denied that even for that man, at the beginning, she only had the intention to kill him, but because his existence could indeed bring her the benefits she wanted, she gave up the idea after a tentative assassination attempt failed.

At that time, she had already realized that he didn't care about her nature at all, and he never interfered with what she did. He only wanted her assistance when necessary. Of course, if she assassinated him again, that would really touch his bottom line... After realizing that she and he would get along well, there was no need for her to do so anymore.

She knew very well that she was a monster that could not be tolerated by the world, and she disdained to be accepted by the world. She had always been incompatible with the world, but was trapped in it again and again because of her human identity. If she could not escape on that day, or did not meet him, probably, she would choose to commit suicide one day.

In her eyes, the world is so boring.

However, she found an aura in him that was similar to her own. They might not be the same kind of people. He did not have as strong malice as she did, but they were the same in that they were incompatible with the world.

He doesn't care what happens to other people. If you have to say, the only person he cares about is Alicia, right?

Alicia... this girl's radiance was so dazzling that she wondered if it was just an illusion created by the mask, just like hers? From this perspective, she and Alicia were clearly the same kind of people, but he had completely different attitudes towards her and Alicia.

After all, I have a criminal record, so his trust in me is limited. Even if I say that I have given up the intention to kill him, I guess he won't believe it. A person like me who is a habitual liar... will actually feel distressed because he is not believed one day...

She also did some research on the past between that guy and Alicia. Although his trust in Alicia was a little unreasonable, it was not impossible because he liked Alicia and was even willing to join the plan like Kevin in order to stand on the same level as her, even though the proposer himself calculated that the probability of success was zero...

Of course, before doing this, he had already prepared himself for his death in the experiment. He had completed all the formalities in advance. If he died, the team he left behind would be completely taken over by himself, and her authority would be further increased.

Ah……

At that time, she probably didn't even think about it herself. Even though she was still hoping that he would die in the experiment, thus completely ending her contract with him and gaining true "freedom", but... in her heart, she seemed to firmly believe that he would definitely survive.

It was not until the Eighth Herrscher incident, when she fell into the Eighth Herrscher's dream, that she realized her deepest desire, a desire she should not have had.

She was the one who wanted to be with him.

She woke up very quickly in the dream, but she disguised herself very well. The Herrscher used the deepest desires in her heart that she had never discovered to weave a dream for her. In that dream, she and him lived the life she originally hated. It was because she hated that kind of life so much that she woke up and realized that if it was him, it didn't matter what kind of life it was. As long as he was by her side, she would be content.

It was also because she understood too well that he would not like her, the person he liked was not her, and he would not spend such a life with her, so she was sober from the beginning.

So, at the end of that dream, she killed "him" with her own hands.

The Herrscher asked in horror: "Why?! Isn't he the one you love the most?"

She answered: "It is precisely because he is my favorite that I have to return to reality, because the real him is the real him, isn't it?"

She doesn't need dreams because she is already in a dream.

Is this what the so-called "love" feeling is like?

Because he is the person she loves, she doesn't care about what kind of life he leads. However, the Herrscher cannot understand this kind of feeling. He foolishly follows his own understanding and lets her and him live a life of conformity in the dream like everyone else.

The real her longs for conflict, turmoil, war, and death.

Because this world cannot accommodate her true self, she has no place in this world. The world cannot accommodate her, and she refuses to compromise with the world and change herself. Therefore...she will find out how important he is to her. Because of his existence, she accepts her own darkness, and she is gradually able to accept the world.

Is this... love?

If the feelings that are surging in my heart right now, this feeling of wanting to be with him forever...if this is love, then what should I do? How do I love someone?

She didn't know because she had never loved anyone.

But she could learn, and she knew without learning that she urgently needed to improve the relationship between him and her, and that a contract and an alliance alone were far from enough.

So when she was slowly building a bridge called "trust" between the two of them, she had plenty of time to observe other people's practices and read similar books for reference, to get to know him and get closer to him little by little. She also had plenty of time to understand her own feelings and see clearly into her own heart.

She had made sufficient preparations for the banquet after the Ninth Herrscher incident. He trusted her enough, and she really enjoyed and deeply loved this feeling. Moreover, she had tried every possible way to reduce the time he and Alicia spent together. This was all thanks to Alicia not responding to his confession at the time. He felt embarrassed just thinking about it because he had done it in a rush. This made him avoid Alicia to some extent.

But...it was a plan that should have succeeded, but in the end...he still rejected her. When he chose to remain silent after his confession to her, as time passed by, she actually already knew the result. He was silent, just thinking about how to reject her more appropriately.

She had never failed before, but this time she admitted her failure.

Why? Why would he reject two people of the same kind, isolated from the world?

"Because... I'm not Alicia after all?" She asked with a smile. This was the first time she put on a mask tonight.

Did she underestimate his feelings for Alicia? She had tried so hard to imitate Alicia and tried every way to reduce the number of times Alicia met him, so why couldn't she replace Alicia in the end...

"No, absolutely not!" He said firmly, "You don't need to be anyone, just be yourself. You are you, not anyone else... I just feel that I..."

She looked at him. The tacit understanding she had cultivated between them all along had made her understand his thoughts. In his heart, Alicia's position was always unshakable. He might even have given up any idea of ​​falling in love long ago. Before defeating Honkai, he would not consider anything else.

So... even though she could understand his thoughts, she still couldn't figure out what the grudge between him and Honkai was. Why did he want to destroy Honkai even if there was no chance of getting along with Alicia?

Why? I don’t understand. I don’t understand. I really don’t understand…

The most outrageous thing is that she also knows that his real purpose in destroying Honkai is to destroy Alicia. So the question is, what is the relationship between Alicia and destroying Honkai?

If this was an agreement between Alicia and him that they would fall in love after the destruction of Honkai, then it would be understandable, but it was obvious that he no longer cared about whether he could be with Alicia, so...

To him, the position of Alicia in his heart seemed a little too special. She was now very clear that her position in his heart was also special enough, otherwise she would not have thought that this confession would be successful. However, the position of Alicia seemed to be something she could never reach...

It was also at that time that she understood one thing: it was useless to imitate Alicia. He really cared about her, not because she was like Alicia, but because she was herself, a being named Lilith.

He cares so much about Alicia, so what is his position on Alicia's side?

When she made up her mind to get involved, she asked Alicia if she had someone she liked, and emphasized that it was the kind of liking that comes from a romantic relationship. She got a negative response from the other party, but Alicia hesitated before answering. She was not interested in whoever the person was that made Alicia hesitate.

Even if it was really him, when this passage was brought up, Alicia would be speechless.

When she was forcing him to dance with her under the moon in the name of "compensation", she noticed a pink figure on the other side of the high-rise building where the banquet was held. Before that, she already knew that Alicia had come and gone, and it was no coincidence that Alicia appeared on the other side of the high-rise building where she could see this side.

The biggest possibility is that Alicia really cares about him, but is unaware of her own feelings, just like she was at the beginning. Yes, Alicia actually doesn't know what it feels like to like someone.

She no longer paid attention to Alicia and began to think about her next plan.

For Alicia, it was only a matter of time before she realized that she liked him. However, because she liked him and did not confess her love to him at the beginning, if he really had a lover, Alicia would never get involved.

Sometimes, being too kind can become a weakness that others can exploit.

Under her deliberate guidance, and his own attitude of not caring about other people, he was burdened with more and more darkness, and he had already fallen to the depths together with himself. Even if Alicia wanted to, he would not get close to Alicia again.

But this is not enough.

Far from enough.

When she knew that Yu Duchen's zero rated power could bind the consciousness of two people, she had been thinking of a crazy plan. He would not agree to her confession, but she wanted to stay by his side forever. More importantly, in a person's heart, no one or thing can compare to someone who died for him.

This is especially true for someone like him who is stubborn yet sentimental.

……

"Hmm? Lilith? Where is she going?"

The pink-haired girl noticed the silver-haired girl passing by not far away. At this point in time, the Fallen Angel Team should not be taking any action, right?

She suddenly remembered the first implementation plan she had heard of before. Could it be that Feng wanted to...

She quietly followed the silver-haired girl, but the other girl seemed to have noticed her and soon disappeared from her sight without a trace.

"I have to go to Feng's room and take a look... I hope I'm just overthinking..."

……

"Although I have no ill will towards you, you are indeed an indispensable part of my plan... If it were you, you would definitely find a way to stop Feng, right? But the only way to stop us is to implement the second plan in advance. And after that..."

"We will be together forever and never separate..."

"Love may also be a disease, and I am seriously ill."

Aponia Extra: The Man Who Defies Fate

She walked up to a serious criminal standing next to a thin girl and said softly: "Please stop your behavior and leave here."

Under the coercive influence of the rules, the serious criminal left mumbling something.

"Are you okay, kid?" She squatted down, took a look at the torn storybook, and sighed softly in her heart. Because the child's ability was too dangerous, the top leaders of the Fire Moth had discussed and locked him up in the deepest place.

She knew very well that this child had never had any malice towards the world, but perhaps it was precisely this indifference to the world that made this child more vulnerable to bullying by others.

Those imprisoned in the deepest places are mostly extremely vicious people. In this oppressive prison without sunlight, most of them are full of jealousy and hatred towards the sunny world outside. Some of them are members of the Poison Pupa. What they do with their lives and the short-lived freedom they buy with their lives can be easily done by the fusion warriors. The birth of the fusion warriors took over some of the work that originally belonged to the Poison Pupa, which made some of them dissatisfied.

In addition, every time other ordinary warriors entered the deepest place, they regarded the girls as monsters. After discovering that the "monsters" would not resist their bullying, the nature of some people to bully the weak began to be released.

This girl is not interested in competing with others, and no one will stand up for her.

Even for herself, because of the effect of the precepts, although she voluntarily entered the deepest place to serve as the guardian here, but... her ability was also feared by the higher-ups, so she was also subject to many restrictions.

She had no way to provide more help to the girl. She had tried to impose rules on those who entered the deepest places, but ended up receiving warnings from higher-ups. When she had no time to take care of the girl, those people's bullying of her became even worse.

However, due to the fact that the opponent was an uncontrollable and dangerous fusion warrior, they did not dare to beat the girl or anything like that. However, it was common for them to snatch the girl's storybooks and throw dead objects into her "cage".

The strong will draw their swords against the stronger ones, while the weak will only swing their swords against the weaker ones.

She felt disgusted with such a world, but she also felt pity for it.

She calculated in her mind the time when the thread of the girl's fate would break. Yes, she had already seen that in the not too distant future, the girl's fate would come to an end and she would be killed by the destined savior.

This is her innate ability. She can "see" the thread of fate in other people. She has tried countless times to help others change their original destiny, but in the end, not only will things change contrary to her original ideas, but it will also make others more painful when they are heading towards the end.

After countless failures, she finally chose to become a bystander prayer.

In her eyes, fate is irreversible.

However, even though she could see the thread of fate of the savior hero, there were still two people whose fate she could not know. To make an analogy, all people were puppets controlled by silk strings on the stage play of God, while those two people could create their own destiny according to their own ideas.

One of them, she had already met, was a warm and cheerful girl who always had hope for the whole world, Ai Lishiya. As for the other one, before actually meeting him, she had never thought that he would be the person Ai Lishiya talked about the most when she and Eden had a tea party with them, nor had she ever thought that he was a person who defied fate.

She could feel that Alicia cared about that person even more than Kevin.

Of course they would talk about Kevin, but Alicia would also say: "Maybe one day, Kevin will relax a little and Feng will catch up with him. Feng is also a very serious boy, but he may be more shy than Kevin."

She once felt strange about this and asked Alysia why she paid so much attention to that person.

Alicia was stunned for a moment, then she smiled softly and said in a gentle tone: "Just think of it as... something I once agreed with him~"

When she said this, she saw a trace of confusion in Alicia's eyes. Alicia always seemed to be worried about something. Although she kept paying attention to that person, she never took any further action. She even thought that if Alicia hadn't talked about these things with her and Eden at the tea party, no one would know that she paid such attention to that person.

Later she found out what Alicia was afraid of, but by the time she knew all this, all possible contact between Alicia and him had been completely severed.