Tokyo: The evil god doesn't want to be the top star

“But…”

When she sang these two lines, she bent and shook her head vigorously, her voice filled with surging anger, but it was eventually swallowed up by the ending with a crying tone.

Crystal tears fell, flashed in the light, and disappeared into the darkness at the edge of the stage.

"I once thought about ending it all because my heart was empty."

"The reason for feeling unsatisfied and crying must be because the heart longs for abundance and fulfillment."

Tears welled up in her eyes, and Yayoi Tsuki used all her strength to finally roar out in venting her anger.

The "keyboardist" beside her had already danced with his hands, mixing the drum beats, guitar strings, piano accents and other musical instrument sounds into a gorgeous interlude...

This melody makes people feel as if they are in the darkness, struggling with all their might, but in the end they can only taste the pain of powerlessness.

"So, a big star like Yayoi Tsuki also has the same despair as me, trying her best but being powerless?"

Inside the room, the crackling charcoal fire created a suffocating atmosphere.

But the girl just stared blankly at the screen, watching Yayoi Tsukishima, who was trying hard to hold back her tears and had tears in her eyes during the interlude.

Under the shock of seeing her idol openly reveal his weakness and despair, a faint but pure power began to take root and sprout deep in her heart.

"I once thought about ending it all, because the laces of my shoes were loose and I was not good at tying them again. The same is true for the bonds between people."

"I once thought about ending it all, because the boy from the past is always staring at me. I should kneel down on the bed and apologize for what I did that day."

After calming down a little, Yayoi Tsuki sang at the top of her lungs with tears on her indifferent face.

"The dim light from the computer screen, the noise from the room above, the ringing of the phone, and the boy covering his ears like a bird in a cage."

"Fighting against invisible enemies, he is Don Quixote in a small room, although the final outcome is destined to be ugly."

Curled up with her frail body, the power in her voice suddenly doubled...

The high-pitched, loud, angry and unwilling long sound seemed to completely pierce through the surrounding darkness!

"I heard Miss Yayoi's singing, each part was stronger and more powerful..."

"Even though she was in despair and faced countless failures, she did not compromise... She did not admit defeat... She was still fighting..."

"She didn't give up... In such darkness... Even if there was no hope until the end... As long as she was still alive, she would keep moving forward..."

The girl in front of the screen had tears on her face without her noticing.

All of Yayoi Tsuki's emotions, moods and spirits were conveyed 100% to her in front of the screen through her magical voice and this gentle and powerful song, injecting her with the power to overcome despair.

"Bang bang bang bang..."

"Hua Cauliflower, there's a boy who claims to be your classmate and is here to visit you..."

"Hua Cauliflower? Why is there heat and smoke in the room? What are you doing? Why did you lock the door? Open the door!"

"Uncle, aunt, move aside, I'm here to knock on the door!"

At the same time, there were calls from parents and a familiar male voice outside the door.

The image of a thin boy in a white school uniform flashed through the girl's mind.

Even in a hellish school where everyone is trampling on you, openly or secretly...

At least there is someone who will come forward to protect her.

Even if he was beaten up for protecting her, he would never forget to smile warmly.

The girl wanted to move, but found that her body had been suffocated by the carbon monoxide and had lost its strength.

“Perhaps, what the manual teaches, that there are no more worries when you die, is wrong?”

The "seed" planted by Yayoi Tsuki's singing in her heart, once noticed, will grow into a towering tree that cannot be ignored.

"Do not……"

The girl tried her best, squeezing out the last bit of strength in her body, and crawled towards the door step by step in the dark room...

In the corner, the "Complete Suicide Manual" in the schoolbag seemed to be burned by an unknown fire, fading and carbonizing rapidly, and dissipating into wisps of foul air.

"Kacha."

The girl's scarred and thin hand weakly placed on the door handle and gently turned it with her last bit of strength.

"Hanagi-san!!!"

A ray of hope seeped through the door, and a boy also covered in scars rushed in and picked her up.

"How could this child do such a stupid thing!"

"It's all mom and dad's fault. If they had noticed it earlier...what would we do if something happened to you!"

The girl, whose consciousness was blurred, smiled weakly in the warm embrace.

"Ms. Yayoi, I am just like you. I have not given up..."

"From now on, I will never admit defeat."

……

Chapter 162 Because I Haven’t Met You Yet ( Words)

Chapter 162 Because I Haven’t Met You Yet (4 words)

2024-07-13

Chapter 162 Because I Haven’t Met You Yet (4 words)

“No, no!!!”

"It would be too easy for those who defrauded me of my money to end it like this..."

In an apartment somewhere in Tokyo, the song of Yayoi Tsuki was echoing on the radio. A middle-aged man with his neck hanging on a hemp rope struggled in mid-air and fell heavily to the ground, gasping for breath.

"Ms. Yayoi, you are the same as me... But it's just repeating five times, it's not worth it at all..."

In a cram school in Nagoya, a girl was sitting on the toilet, listening to Yayoi Tsuki singing at her best on her cell phone, and dropped the utility knife in her hand.

"Damn it, damn it, damn it... It's just work..."

"I can't find it, so I started my own business!!!"

In Osaka's commercial district, a young man in a suit stood on the edge of the rooftop of the 173-meter Umeda Building. He stared at Yayoi Tsukishima singing in the darkness on the giant advertising screen on the building opposite, then retreated back to the rooftop with a roar.

"Are you idiots? You actually did such a thing..."

In an abandoned warehouse somewhere in Kyoto, a young man with blurred consciousness struggled to break the window beside him.

Sunlight and oxygen poured in along with the broken glass.

"However, I am even more of an idiot than you for signing up for this 'suicide club'..."

"The reason why humans have not become extinct until now is not because we persist in our belief in survival no matter how harsh the environment is, right?"

Looking at the charcoal basins all over the floor and the unconscious men and women lying around him, he sat weakly on the ground with a self-deprecating smile.

A mobile phone next to him was broadcasting live the new song release conference of Yayoi Tsuki.

NHK, NTV, Fuji, Asahi, TBS, Tokyo, from the six major TV stations in the eleven districts, to local TV stations, to various live streaming platforms...

Even radio stations of all sizes, advertising screens in the streets and alleys...

Driven by some kind of "mysterious official power", everyone was broadcasting Yayoi Tsuki's singing in unison, spreading her moving singing to every corner of District 11.

In unknown places, countless people who have thoughts of suicide, or are already doing so, have had unknown power injected into their souls by the song "I Once Thought of Ending It All", awakening the most primitive survival instinct in their bodies...

Those "Complete Suicide Manual" that were difficult for ordinary people to see and appeared mysteriously, also gradually burned to ashes in the singing.

……

In the center of the dark stage, standing under the only ray of light, Yayoi Tsukishima was still singing sincerely and powerfully.

"I once thought about ending it all because I was considered a cold-hearted person."

"I cry because I want to be loved, because I understand the warmth between people."

"I once thought about ending it all because of your brilliant smile."

"If you keep thinking about death, it must be because you take life too seriously."

Even if my voice is hoarse from exerting too much effort...

Even if my long hair is messy because of the big movements...

Even if the makeup is smudged because of the tears that can't be stopped...

Even if my expression is out of control due to excitement...

Yayoi Tsuki continued to sing with all her might, as if she was burning her life away.

At the end of the song, the image of a young man on a messy rooftop with snot and tears streaming down his face, yet holding onto his own hands tightly, flashed through her mind.

"I once thought about ending it all..."

She suddenly turned her head and looked at the "keyboard player" in the darkness beside her with deep affection: "...It's because I haven't met you yet."

The power in her voice faded, becoming lighter, gentler and more hopeful than ever before...

"The existence of people like you in this world makes me like this world a little bit."

"Because there are people like you in this world, I have some hope for this world."

It was as if I saw the light that broke through the darkness and saved myself.

"..."

After the song was over, Yayoi Tsuki walked forward barefoot and bowed deeply to the camera.

There was silence all around, no applause, no cheers, no fancy lights or sound effects...

The only "narration" was the sound of benches scraping against the ground as the dozen or so listeners who were determined to survive were taken away by the agents of Section 9.

“The above is my new song, “I Once Thought of Ending It All.”

"I hope this song can give you the strength to find the light when you are in the darkness."

While the audience watching the live broadcast were still lingering on the touching aftertaste of the new song...

"Next, I have one more thing to announce to everyone..."

"Due to personal health reasons, I have decided to suspend my music activities indefinitely."

Yayoi Tsuki stood up straight, with tears on her face, and faced the camera, and without any warning, she said something that surprised the entire District 11.

"Yes, the previous rumors are true."

"In fact, I can hardly hear any sound from the outside world now."

"I was originally planning to retire, but I suddenly came across this song "I Once Thought of Ending It All" by producer Xia Fan."

"After listening to it, I felt that this song was really about me and people who are in the same darkness as me."

“At that time, I was thinking, even if I can’t hear it anymore, at least I have to sing this song to everyone before I leave the stage.”

She told the story in a calm and optimistic tone.

"However, I stopped my music activities not to give up, but to seek treatment options and find a glimmer of hope..."

“So, please support this new song and join me in looking forward to seeing you again in the future.”

Having said that, Yayoi Tsukishiro bowed again to express his gratitude.

"Today's new song release conference ends here."

"Goodbye, everyone."

The live broadcast signal of the new song release conference was immediately interrupted.

……

Chiyoda, J-Sha Building.

"Yayoi Tsuki's new song release conference only lasted more than ten minutes, and it's already over?"

"Did I hear it wrong? She just admitted that she is deaf and announced that she will retire indefinitely?"

"Company B made a big fuss about launching an 'all-channel broadcast', but it ended in such a short time, and the singer even announced his retirement. This is really unconventional."

Members of the "Railway AK Production Committee" headed by Manjiro Akimoto stared at the dark live broadcast screen with confusion on their faces.