If you can't learn, then just fall in love

It was just to give myself a little psychological comfort. Even if it was a girl who had a crush on me, Hanyu Aozora couldn't not take action just because there would be no involvement.

There is nothing wrong with being a gentle male protagonist in a light novel, as long as you think what you do is right.

"I guess so. Joint liability." Hanyu Aozora looked at Miku seriously. "Just now you said you missed the day of the fireworks display, right? I hope you don't mind this."

Looking at the boy half-squatting in front of her, Miku was a little surprised, but she still stretched out her hands and put them on his shoulders.

"I always feel that you are going to strangle me by choking me next."

"No, I'm not Princess Kai." Miku's face was slightly red, and she gently leaned against the boy's solid back, "I'm just afraid that Qingjun, who is afraid of trouble, will say that this is a joke the next second, and at most he will take me back with him. After all, it's not far or close, and it would be a waste to call a taxi."

Because he was facing away from Miku, Hanyu Aozora twitched the corners of his mouth without any concealment. That was actually what he thought, and he thought about it more than Miku.

But in the end he rejected them all.

"I guess so..."

"Ok?"

"Nothing." Having chosen what he thought was the right approach, Hanyu Aozora was too lazy to think about anything else. After making his choice, he just had to do it. "If you don't come up, I'll assume you've rejected me."

"Don't."

Lying on Qingjun's back, Miku rubbed him subconsciously, which made Hanyu Qingkong very nervous and his body became much stiffer.

As expected, you are Miku-nyan, right?

The boy curled his lips and complained in his heart, but when he thought of the "cat's claw" pressed against his back, he shook his head.

Because there were no pantyhose, Hanyu Aozora touched the girl's smooth and white legs. Needless to say, Miku's face must be blushing now.

Feeling her hot breath on his neck, Hanyu Aozora looked helpless, but in order not to drop the stupid Miku to the ground, he still carried her well.

"Qing Jun... seems to have changed, but also seems to have not changed."

If he hadn't changed, the trouble-fearing Hanyu Aozora would never have carried him on his back, but if he had changed, he would be too similar to the original him.

“Same, but not quite the same.”

No matter what kind of Hanyu Aozora he is, he is a very gentle fool, and Miku has no doubt about that.

After all, a fool who can take care of an autistic fool like himself must be a gentle fool.

Miku likes that she always does what she should do and follows through on her decision.

“I really hope I can achieve this level…”

Smiling bitterly, Mijiu knew that it was a very difficult thing to do and she didn't have that kind of awareness yet.

Maybe, when the fireworks show and Qingjun are alone together, I will have the courage to confess?

But before that, you have to pass the exam.

Miku clenched her fists and prepared to fight hard. She didn't want to lose to that guy Nino.

"What are you saying is 'this is not enough'? It's like you know Qingjun very well. I won't lose. I'm the first girl among the sisters to know Qingjun."

It is worth mentioning that Miku still doesn’t know that Hanyu Aozora had met Nino when she was a child.

If I knew...I would probably become autistic.

Chapter 148 I Believe in You More

"Qing Jun."

"Ok?"

"you're lying."

"Is there any?"

Miku hummed softly, "You don't smell like sweat at all."

Hanyu Aozora thought to himself, it's really not easy for you to still remember this.

"Well, I lied to you."

"Then, Qingjun, don't do this next time."

"Oh." Since Miku said so, it proved that she smelled the odor on her body. Even if she was a pervert, Hanyu Qingkong was a little embarrassed, "I won't do it again in the future."

Besides, he's not a pervert.

Having made such a promise, both the boy and the girl felt a little embarrassed.

With her pretty face flushed, it took a lot of courage for Miku to say these words. She felt that she was becoming more and more like that idiot Runxiang. She clearly liked him, but she didn't dare to say it out loud.

Hanyu Aozora was also helpless. He might break such a promise at any time and anywhere. For a girl like Miku who was particularly gullible, in order to prevent her from getting hurt, he often had to deceive her with white lies.

For example, he guessed that Miku didn't dare to confess, so he chose to carry her on his back. If it was Nino, he might have just called a taxi.

Hanyu Aozora knows that he is a cunning and scheming person. He always tries to win the favor of girls without making a sound, trying to find a sense of his own existence through this behavior.

He used to feel self-loathing, but now he is too lazy to do such useless things.

It doesn't matter anyway. I used to feel awkward about myself, but now I just need to do what I should do, make use of everything I can, and try not to hurt others.

This is the wish of the weird and morbid Hanyu Aozora, and also the motivation for his actions.

There was no way to explain it to others, nor could he express his feelings in words. He didn't know if he could hold on, or if he could maintain the false balance.

Anyway, he had already realized it.

Even if this awareness is just a mirage and will end up hurting many people, he still wants to maintain it.

"The flowers and water that separate the darkness..."

Suddenly thinking of this quatrain about parting, Hanyu Qingkong recited it softly. It must be said that he felt more and more that his death was approaching, and the ending of the hatchet seemed to be waiting for him not far away.

"Did Qingjun dream of a black cat?"

Miku asked Hanyu Aozora worriedly as he suddenly said this.

"No, I just think this sentence is very cool." Hanyu Qingkong chuckled. He did have a black cat when he was a child. If he really dreamed about it, he would not be afraid, because the black cat must be here to pick him up. "Miku actually knows these anecdotes. I thought you were only interested in the history of the Warring States Period."

It's because you like the Shinsengumi more that I'm catching up on that part of history...

Miku only thought about these confession-like words in her mind and didn't have the courage to say them out loud.

"Well, I've been watching Taiga dramas recently, and I've learned about the history of that period." Miku blinked, "After all, that period is quite famous, it was a turning point for Japan."

Hanyu Aozora thought that what I liked was just the city management, and I had no interest in the late shogunate period.

"Yeah, the Meiji period is easy to come up with questions in history exams, so it's good that you know that aspect of history." Reiwa Otaku is not very interested in the end of the Edo period and the Meiji era. He quite likes the more Akatsuki Taisho era.

Sanjiu was speechless for a moment. She really wanted to tell Qingjun that she didn't learn that knowledge for the exam, but because the person she liked liked it, she tried to like it...

"no."

"Eh?"

Miku opened her mouth but couldn't express what was in her heart. She could only pray to God to convey her thoughts to Hanyu Aozora.

That's impossible...

Yes, it's impossible. There is no such thing as a god. Even if there is, he won't protect someone as cowardly as me.

"No, nothing."

With a sigh, the autistic girl fell into autism.

It was a nice month in early spring, with mild weather and gentle breezes. Although it was already the end of spring, the girl stared blankly at the distant sky and thought of this line of poetry from Manyoshu.

Are there gods in the sky? If there are gods, please bless me, a fool. I want others to understand my heart.

I didn’t dare to say it out loud, I didn’t dare to take action, but I really wanted him to know.

Although Qingjun already knew it.

"that."

The boy who was carrying her on his back suddenly spoke, which scared Miku who was daydreaming.

There was no response, but Hanyu Aozora still continued to speak. Playing dumb at this time would make the autistic idiot even more autistic. "Miku just said that it was not like that. What she meant was that your original intention of understanding that period of history was different from what I said, right?"

"Um..."

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that to myself just now." Although it wasn't the first time that he guessed what others were thinking, Hanyu Aozora still chose his words carefully. "Miku, who loves history, is so serious about learning about that period of history, it must not be for the exam."

"I'm sorry for making your motives utilitarian."

"Although I can't guess why, I do know one thing."

"I'm happy that Miku likes that history."

If he continued talking, he would cross the line. Hanyu Aozora braked in time. This was already his limit. He did not have the superpower of reading minds, and for him who was not perfect, this was enough.

Thank you for liking what I like. I should never say that.

However, it seems that even this half-hearted approach is enough to make the autistic girl on his back happy.

"God does not exist after all..."

"Eh?"

Hanyu Aozora discovered that Miku also had the tendency to become a radio girl.

"Qing Jun, do you believe in gods?"

"Do not believe."

I was going to say that, but having personally experienced soul exchange, Hanyu Aozora changed his words.

"do not know."

After receiving the unexpected answer, Miku was stunned for a moment, but still chuckled and expressed her thoughts.

"I don't believe in that kind of stuff at all."

"Instead of believing that kind of thing, it's better to believe..."

"You (whisper)"

Hanyu Aozora heard nothing. He curled his lips. He didn't care as long as Miku didn't talk about historical materialism and dialectical materialism.

"It doesn't matter what you believe in, the most important thing is to believe in yourself."

"Having said that, Qingjun, do you believe in yourself?"

Miku, who has never been confident, asked Hanyu Aozora back.

“I don’t believe it.”

Hanyu Aozora would never believe in himself, he prefers to believe in others, he likes to lie, likes to escape, likes to play dumb. He is not perfect at all, but there will always be some imperfect people to help him.

"Qingjun, please be more confident. You are so amazing."

"No, Hanyu Aozora is stupid. He can't do anything well, but he wants to do everything. He only causes trouble for others." Hanyu Aozora suddenly laughed, "I'm kidding, I'm a genius~genius~"

"..." Miku was speechless at Hanyu Aozora's shamelessness. She didn't know what to say for a moment, "Probably."

But in Mijiu's heart, Qingjun is just a fool who likes to show off but tries hard to hide his clumsiness.

"Thank you for the compliment~"

Hanyu Aozora had a blank expression on his face. He had fooled the stupid Miku once again. That was fine. Anyway, they would have nothing to do with each other after graduating from high school. The remaining two years were not enough time for the autistic girl to gather up enough courage.

The lifting of the ban on Kato Megumi was an accident. Hanyu Aozora will be very careful next time and will never give any girl the opportunity to confess.

The boy walked up the stairs step by step with a cold expression, not because of anything else.

Because Miku is a bit heavy.

"Qingjun, are you thinking about something rude?"

"No, I'm just thinking about what to eat later."

"I haven't even told you what it is yet, and you're already denying it. Qingjun, you're guilty. I'm committing seppuku."

"I don't think my answer is unreasonable at all. You're just overthinking it."

Yes, only a moron would say something like "I'm not thinking about your weight", but Hanyu Aozora is a genius.

Come to think of it, the genius form seemed to have knocked E-sensei into a state of emotion with just one punch.

The boy who considers himself a genius will probably release the emotions of the female characters one by one.

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