If you can't learn, then just fall in love

PS I always like Nakano Ichika

Ichika will lose if she doesn't confess her love to protect her sister.

The cover of the latest volume of the manga is Hanayome Ichika. I'm ready, I'm just waiting for Hanayome Miku

Chapter 143 Where are you now?

Kirisu Madoka was sitting on the sofa teasing Rengar and Lily, and her mood improved a little. Although she felt a little embarrassed, it was much better than being locked outside the house.

"Here, it's better to drink some hot milk at night." Hanyu, who had not shaved and went out to eat, picked up a teacher from a girls' high school and handed the hot milk to his teacher. "By the way, what should I call you, Miss Mafuyu or Teacher Kirisu?"

Once, Kirisu Mafuyu asked Hanyu to call her Miss Mafuyu in private, but when Hanyu called her that, Miss Kirisu said expressionlessly, "Hanyu-san, as my student, you must be clear about our identities."

"Of course you should call me teacher, Hanyu-san." Teacher Kirisu turned his face away. In Hanyu's opinion, he was probably just a variant of tsundere.

Hanyu shook his head indifferently and sat on the sofa. "Teacher, what are you going to do? Do you have a spare key?"

It's quite funny. Miss Mafuyu couldn't get into the house because she lost her key and stayed outside for a long time. She was not picked up until Hanyu and the classical section went home separately. At present, no one knows what to do with this reckless girl.

Lily jumped off Kirisu Mafuyu's legs and ran to Hanyu's side. "It's a good thing Lily didn't go back with you, otherwise it would have been hungry all night."

Kirisu Madoka covered her face, not knowing why she was always embarrassed in front of her students. Even Erha looked down on her. She wanted to say that she would go out and find a hotel to stay for the night, but her stomach started to growl.

The expression on Mafuyu's face froze. She glanced at Hanyu cautiously, and was relieved to see that he was still playing with Lily.

"I remember that you didn't eat anything for lunch." Hanyu, who was playing with the puppy, didn't look at his teacher. He didn't want to embarrass Miss Manfuyu. "Want something to eat? I'll make some. I'm a little hungry, too."

After saying this, Rengar jumped onto Hanyu's belly. Such a big fat cat almost made Hanyu vomit after he had just eaten a lot of food with them.

"It's okay, teacher. I'll just go out to eat something and find a place to sleep for the night." Seeing the interaction between Hanyu and the cat, Manfuyu burst out laughing. She remembered that Hanyu just said he went out to play with his friends. There's no way he would be hungry now. He probably lied for her.

As she stood up to leave, Kirisu-san's stomach growled again. This time, Hanyu couldn't hold back and laughed. He handed the cat and dog to the teacher and rolled up his sleeves. "There's nothing to eat outside now, so you can rest here for a while." Thinking of the day when he first got closer to the teacher, Hanyu was quite emotional. "Let's just consider it a beginning and an end."

Since Hanyu-san said so, Madoka didn't act pretentiously. When she heard him say that everything should be done from beginning to end, Miss Madoka felt a little unhappy for some reason. She teased Rengar's chin and waited quietly for Hanyu-san to finish cooking.

A few months ago, I was sitting here, while Hanyu was busy in the kitchen. Kirisu Madoka hugged the fat cat tightly, and her thoughts flew to who knows where. It was great that I twisted my ankle that day and saw Aozora who was different from usual.

Thinking of the stupid things she had done in this room, Madoka subconsciously hugged Rengar tightly, her face feeling a little hot. He was just a student, but he had intruded into her life without permission.

"It seems like I'm always the one being willful." Realizing that she had caused a lot of trouble for Hanyu, Madoka closed her eyes, "Aozora-san is always helping me."

Smelling the aroma, Ms. Kirisu also heard Hanyu's call, "Teacher, come and have something to eat."

When they walked to the dining table, Mafuyu was stunned, "Hanyu-san, is this too rich?"

“Is there?” Hanyu glanced at the dining table and realized that he had used up a lot of the food on hand because he was absent-minded. “Tsk, it’s indeed a bit too much. I can only trouble you to eat more. It doesn’t matter if you can’t finish it. The rest can be put in the refrigerator.”

Madoka looked at Hanyu. She was just a little rash, but not stupid. Today's Hanyu became very unruly after receiving the letter. She silently walked behind her lovely student and put her hand on his shoulder.

"The teacher is not a big eater and cannot eat so much. It's not good to leave too much. Qingkong, please sit down and eat together." Holding Hanyu's shoulders, Manfuyu suddenly remembered his unexpectedly strong body when he hugged her like a princess.

With a light cough to cover up his embarrassment, Mafuyu sat opposite Hanyu and pretended to be relaxed. "Eh? Why did you stand up again? Don't you want to listen to me? I still have to be your teacher for a month or two. Don't think of disowning me so early."

Hanyu smiled helplessly, "I just went to get the rice and chopsticks. Teacher, you can't let me eat with my hands." Sitting back, Hanyu poked the rice in the bowl absentmindedly, "Teacher will always be a teacher, and will not change. Don't worry about this."

After receiving a positive response, Miss Mafuyu originally wanted to show her satisfaction as a teacher, but for some reason she became unhappy. "Forever is too absolute, can't a teacher have other identities?"

Realizing that her words were a little strange, Mafuyu waved her hands and explained, "That's not what I meant. I just think that I can be friends with Aozora-san, and the teacher's words are always a bit hard to let go."

The corners of Hanyu's mouth twitched, thinking, if I call you Miss Madoka, you will not teach me a lesson with a cold face. Picking at the food listlessly, Hanyu hummed to show that he understood.

Kirisu Madoka also fell silent. The only sounds left in the room were the two people's chopsticks hitting the bowl and chewing, accompanied by the occasional meowing of cats and dogs.

Suddenly, Kirisu Mafuyu was choked by something and started coughing. Hanyu was startled and quickly handed over the water, "Be careful, Miss Mafuyu." Hanyu, who deliberately changed the name, felt that it was quite exciting to call his teacher by her name directly. It really gave him a feeling of friendship.

After recovering from her shock, Kirisu Madoka looked embarrassed at what she saw. "Um, Mr. Hanyu, there's something on your face..." She bit her lip and could not say the next words because it was too embarrassing. She reached out and took the thing off Hanyu's face.

"Ms. Madoka, your expression makes me doubt whether you are going to spray rice on my face." Hanyu looked doubtful and reached out to touch his face.

Mafuyu grabbed Hanyu's hand and said seriously, "Absolutely not, Mr. Hanyu, you have to believe me."

Feeling the strength from the teacher's hand and her expression, Hanyu felt that he had guessed it almost right. The corners of his mouth twitched, and he had to give up. After all, the beautiful girl's mistakes could be forgiven.

After dinner, Kirisu Mafuyu wanted to clean up the dishes, but was refused by Hanyu, "I don't want to be without a bowl for dinner tomorrow." Thinking of Hanyu's words, Mafuyu rubbed the fat cat and wondered in her heart if she was really that stupid.

"Ms. Madoka, have you thought about what I told you this afternoon?" After finishing his work, Hanyu took out the envelope from his schoolbag, opened it and read it carefully. "It's about you taking care of Rengar."

"I've thought about it. I'll try my best to take good care of it," Kirisu Madoka was full of confidence, forgetting what the situation was like at home. "Anyway, raising Lily is one person, and raising a cat together wouldn't be bad either."

Hanyu, whose eyes hurt from reading English, looked at Manfuyu unhappily. He began to wonder if he had entrusted his trust to the wrong person. He estimated that Rengar would lose several pounds if he handed him over to her.

"It's up to you. If I can't keep it, I can leave it with Kato." After putting the letter away, Hanyu touched the fat cat that came over and said, "Hey, you will follow Miss Mafuyu from now on. Got it?"

The fat cat licked its paws and looked nonchalant. Yuzuru smiled and rubbed its head, then held it in his arms. It felt soft and warm. He really wanted to stay with his master forever.

"Have you told your friends about this?" Madoka asked a question that concerned her. "I don't think you will tell them, Mr. Hanyu."

"Bingo, it's not a big deal after all," Hanyu smiled lightly, "It's just going to a place far away, there's no need to mobilize a large force."

For the first time, Kirisu Madoka felt dissatisfied with Hanyu. What did she mean by unnecessary? She knew that Hanyu was very important to her teachers, classmates, and friends, but he still denied her existence. "Hanyu-sama, has anyone ever told you that you have a bad personality?"

"..." Without continuing to maintain a meaningless fake smile, Hanyu looked at Kirisu Mafuyu calmly, "Of course, I have. Many people have complained about my character of being afraid of trouble and causing trouble for myself, such as Ying..."

"You know that's not what I mean." As Hanyu's teacher, Kirisu Madoka felt that it was her duty to correct the child's overly distorted personality. "Why do you want to minimize your own sense of existence?"

Hanyu's usually beautiful eyes seemed like stagnant water to Mafuyu. "Ah, teacher, you are really amazing. Not only did you say what I wanted to hear the most, but you also discovered that my [sense of existence] is very low."

Holding back her inner dissatisfaction and shyness, Kirisu Madoka sat down next to Hanyu and put her hair back, "Of course, I'm your teacher. If I can't find it, I have no right to teach you."

Hanyu rested his head on his arm, looking nonchalant, "It's up to you. Our teacher-student relationship won't last for a month anyway. If you want to play this teacher-student game, please do it as soon as possible."

"After all, Miss Madoka, you can't even solve your own problems, so why are you here to teach me?" Hanyu smiled faintly, "Ice skating or something."

"I'm going to the United States soon, so it's okay for you to know my true face, teacher. Please, give me some final guidance."

PS The real heroine, Madoka Kirisu, is here to tell you what others don’t have the courage to say.

Prepare to shape the image of the protagonist. You can't treat him as a tool who only cares about winning the favor of girls.

I want everyone to like every character in this book. The character creation in this part is also related to the development of the plot. I hope everyone will read it patiently.

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(Today someone said that the protagonist’s personality is disgusting, so I, a willful person, decided to make the protagonist’s image more vivid)

(In fact, I think the protagonist’s personality is quite similar to Oz, except that he hasn’t changed yet)

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Chapter 144: Hanyu Qingkong (Subscription not recommended)

"I'm a person who is very afraid of trouble. You know this very well, right?" Hanyu rubbed the fat cat, speaking in a relaxed tone as if he was talking about someone else's business, as if it had nothing to do with him. "Although I always help you without any trouble, I have also shown some emotions unintentionally."

Kirisu Mafuyu nodded. She remembered every time Hanyu-san complained and frowned impatiently. "Yes, I know everything. But this should be regarded as saying one thing and doing another. Hanyu-san should really want to help others."

Without answering, Hanyu took two cans of drinks from the refrigerator. "I wanted to give you coffee, but it's not good to consume caffeine at night. How about juice? I'll just drink this."

Mafuyu thought for a moment and snatched the 'coffee' from Hanyu. "It's strange to hear such words coming from Hanyu. After all, I'm the teacher. I can do whatever I say."

"It's up to you. I'm just giving you a reminder, teacher. Even though I said I want to give you coffee, it doesn't mean there will be coffee." Hanyu opened the juice in his hand and drank it.

Madoka looked carefully at the package label in her hand and found that it was also juice. Madoka, who wanted to show off for once, found that she was being fooled again and pouted in dissatisfaction.

“Don’t be angry like a child. Didn’t you just say ‘Why am I a teacher?’?” Hanyu threw the can into the trash can with a calm face. “I’m not saying one thing and doing another. I just chose the right thing.”

Kirisu Madoka grabbed Lily who was trying to escape from his legs and hugged her. He didn't quite understand what Hanyu meant, "Correct?"

"For example, teacher, you think I am hypocritical, but my heart is honest. Is it because of the club I founded?" Thinking of the bunch of problematic students in the Classics Department, Hanyu felt a headache. "It seems that a bunch of problems were gathered together, which brought me a lot of trouble, but in fact, I avoided a lot of trouble."

"They have many problems in their studies, but when they are together, they can motivate each other. I just need to start with them, say a few nice words, and occasionally answer questions they can't solve, and then I can quietly wait for their efforts to bear fruit."

"I do worry about their studies, but I can't say it's all for them. When preparing everyone's teaching plan, I subconsciously finished my own review and preparation, thinking to myself, 'I have to do it sooner or later anyway, so I might as well finish it while I'm at it.' I was doing something that was beneficial to myself and receiving their gratitude."

At this point, Hanyu smiled lightly, "Do you think this is the right thing to do? I just casually do something that I should do, but I can still be appreciated by others. The so-called gentleness of the male protagonist in the light novel is probably similar to this."

Kirisu Mafuyu raised her finger, "But Hanyu-san is still doing unnecessary things, you can't deny that."

Rengar couldn't understand what the servant under his butt was saying. He curled up lazily on Hanyu's legs. Although he always bullied Hanyu, he might also like Hanyu very much.

Hanyu stroked the cat's chin, his eyes wandering off to somewhere else. "It's not all superfluous. Since the establishment of the Classical Club, I have received very few love letters, and I don't have to write back to each one."

Come to think of it, there are so many high-quality girls in the Classical Club, the other girls in Toyosaki must at least have the confidence to be better than them before they dare to hand over a love letter.

"And I went to help them to avoid more trouble." Hanyu thought for a moment and explained slowly. His relaxed look made Kirisu Madoka, who was drinking juice, feel uncomfortable for no reason. "The Nakano family and the Furuhashi family have a good relationship with my family. We are in the same school. If the relationship was not good, my parents would punish me."

"The reason why I say it's not all redundant is that there will always be someone to do what I do. For example, Furuhashi and Tsukata, they are both talented people, the school will not sit idly by, at least they will find someone to be their mentor." Hanyu glanced at Kirisu Manfuyu. If I'm not mistaken, Kirisu-sensei is probably the school's first choice as a tutor. "Even if they have different ideas from you, teacher, they will move forward with their own will. This depends on their innate character of not admitting defeat, and has nothing to do with whether I work hard or not."

"The five idiots of the Nakano family only need a tutor who understands them. As long as they can be taught from their perspective and pay a little attention, the passing task can be easily completed." Thinking of how stupid they are, Hanyu covered his face, "But it will take some time, and Nino and Miku's personalities will be a little troublesome."

"Wu Yuan? If she hadn't met me, she would have been happier. After I met her, the most I did was to make her misunderstand and sad." Thinking of Wu Yuan crying that day, Hanyu pouted, "Teacher, can you imagine that Wu Yuan would cry like that? Guys who make girls cry are bad. Although I have a slight phobia of girls, I still don't want to make girls cry."

Hanyu was suddenly stunned. He thought of Eriri. If that idiot knew that he was going to the United States and didn't tell her, she would have jumped on him and bit him to death, and then cried for a long time. While saying "I hate you", he grabbed the corner of his clothes tightly, not wanting to let go.

Then, she pretended not to care and let Hanyu leave without worry. Miss Eriri was a very rational person and would not let the person she liked give up the opportunity to improve himself for such a reason.

This kind of loser-like behavior is quite suitable for that golden-haired tsundere idiot.

Shaking his head, Hanyu felt that Eriri was really his nemesis, similar to Kato. "Kato is special. We have known each other since childhood. She has a low sense of presence. I happen to be the observant person, and we became friends for this reason."

"Kato hasn't realized that as her hair grows longer and her expressions become richer, such an excellent Kato will also become more noticeable. If there is a chance that others will discover Kato's ordinary cuteness, she can also become the most charming heroine on her own."

At this time, Hanyu lied. He couldn't imagine not meeting Kato, just like he couldn't imagine not meeting Eriri.

"I'm actually not needed," Hanyu smiled lightly, his eyes hollow. "My father and I have had a bad relationship since I was young. No matter how hard I try, I never get a reply saying, 'You've worked hard, take a break.' Although my mother is very gentle, she never lets me rest. No matter how well I do, they think it's their due. I don't accept that, so I want to work harder to achieve their expected goals."

"Once, I had a fever and did not do well in the entrance examination. I thought someone would comfort me, but everyone said, 'Don't do it again. Taking care of your health is also part of studying.' No one cared whether I was so uncomfortable with the fever that I wanted to throw away my pen. They just wanted me to do what I should do."

That time when Hanyu had a fever and was promoted to junior high school, he did not go to the same junior high school as Eriri because of that reason. What Eriri said, "That's my mother's alma mater," actually only accounted for a small part of the reason.

"At that time, I was thinking, if someone else played the role of Hanyu Aozora, would it be better? Hanyu Aozora's story has already been arranged by others. As a tool, he studies step by step, makes friends, and does things that he finds troublesome, which can make some people happy."

"When I first read light novels, I felt that the protagonists in them were all arranged by the author to do stupid things, but they were inexplicably valued by others and became gentle people in the eyes of others." Hanyu was a little tired, put Rengar on his face and closed his eyes. "I want to be needed by others and want a sense of existence, but I can't do it. I can only do troublesome things and comply with my parents' expectations, because only in this way can I become someone needed by others."

"I really want someone to tell me, 'You have worked hard, go do what you want to do.' But everyone prefers the disguised Aozora Hanyu rather than the distorted and broken Aozora Hanyu from the beginning."

"I'm actually a person who likes to complain a lot. I like to tease people who cause me trouble. I'm a little bit mean and lazy. When faced with many things, I have a lot of ideas but don't want to say a word. I'm so lazy that I just want to slack off all day. When I'm disturbed by others, I will be very unhappy and scold them."

"I'm very hypocritical. I know what kind of me everyone likes, so I only dare to pretend to be the one everyone likes, because only in this way can I avoid unnecessary trouble, do my best to be [Hanyu Aozora], and reduce my [sense of existence] to the minimum. In this way, the twisted me can fish deep in my heart and occasionally come out to breathe or something."

Kirisu Madoka bit her lip and rubbed Hanyu's hair fiercely until the nonchalant boy showed a helpless expression. "Hanyu, you are not only weird, you are also a chuunibyou. These weird words are all your own thoughts. Your existence is meaningful to all of us. You really exist."

Helplessly tidying up his hair, Hanyu Aozora laughed, "Chuunibyou? Teacher, what I just said was all thought out. In fact, everyone has the same idea as me to a certain extent." After a slight pause, he squinted at Teacher Kirisu, "Everyone cares about their own sense of existence and thinks about whether they are meaningful to others. When people are idle, they are bound to be cheap, and the most common way for everyone to be cheap is to think about their own value and their value to others."

"Like you, teacher. Didn't you give up skating to become a teacher after careful consideration?" Hanyu pointed out his teacher's past after finishing his hair. "Although I don't know the details, the starting point is the same, which is nothing more than value and sense of existence."

Kirisu Madoka shook her head desperately. She didn't agree with what Hanyu said. A weird student like this was different from herself. The Hanyu in front of her was a complete chuunibyou. She couldn't allow her student to deny himself.

"Let me put it another way. Teacher, have you ever played FGO?"

Kirisu Mafuyu shook her head. She had only recently started reading light novels, and she only read novels written by Hanyu. It was really difficult for her to play any mobile games.

"It doesn't matter if you haven't played it, the gameplay isn't that great anyway. The selling point of that game is the plot and characters, but a protagonist is introduced into the plot. The protagonist is not well-developed, and it's obvious that it's meant to draw players into the game, but this involves a problem, the existence of the protagonist."

"Many people wondered if removing the protagonist's halo or replacing him with someone else would have no impact on the plot. In the end, the question became [Is the existence of the protagonist meaningful]."

"If the so-called protagonist can be replaced, then he has no meaning of existence and is not needed."

Kirisu Madoka understood what Hanyu meant. "But Hanyu-san is different. You are a real person, not a character. Hanyu Aozora has truly entered my life and our life, and you are irreplaceable."

"No one is irreplaceable. I have already explained this issue." Hanyu took the cat down and looked at his teacher. "Even you, teacher. If there is someone who helps you clean the room and causes one misunderstanding after another when you are with him, your relationship with that person must be much better than the half-baked relationship between us two."

Teacher Kirisu, a tsundere and reckless lady, must be easily moved by such a gentle person. He brought Lily, who had been trying to run over here, and let the cat and the dog lie down in his arms. Hanyu felt that the two masters seemed to be the ones he couldn't let go of the most.

"In fact, the best proof is whether everyone will gradually forget about me after I leave. How about making a bet? If everyone can still live a normal life, it means that Hanyu Aozora is not needed. He is just a person who accidentally broke into your life because of coincidence and has a low sense of existence."

Kirisu Mafuyu tapped Hanyu's head in dissatisfaction. She finally understood what Hanyu was talking about. "Hanyu is a cunning and scheming person who always likes to put himself in an advantageous position. He is awkward and immature, and has no respect for teachers at all. He says things that make others sympathize with him, and blames the mistakes on the non-existent [story writer], so that he can find an excuse for his trouble-free personality."

Hanyu Aozora smiled disdainfully, "Teacher Kirisu is the same, just like my father, he uses an adult's attitude to demand others, and even avoids my questions. In fact, you don't have the confidence to be sad because I'm gone after I leave. Everyone forgets. When one person leaves, someone else will take his place. The reason why a story is called a story is because the characters keep appearing."

"The role of Hanyu Aozora was originally created by everyone. Because it was not needed and did not exist, everyone accepted it no matter what. After that fever, I might have been stupid, and became very twisted and sick. From then on, it was enough for me to play the role that everyone expected."

"It's normal that Hanyu Aozora is not liked. He is sick, twisted, gloomy, afraid of trouble, and lazy. He doesn't look like the protagonist of a story at all."

"One last question, Kirisu Mafuyu. If I were that kind of person and ignored the cat that day and just left you there, would we still have the relationship we have now?" Hanyu held Rengar in his arms and stood up, looking down at Mafuyu. "Let me answer for you. That's impossible because I can't be the protagonist if I were that way."

Taking the empty can from Kirisu-sensei's hand and throwing it into the trash can, Hanyu Aozora pouted, "So, are you not used to the real me?"

After checking the time, Hanyu said that it was time to go to bed. He told that reckless girl should just sleep in the guest room today and stop thinking about it. He was too lazy to care about that kind of thing.