I, the Lord of the Fifth Heavenly Throne, flow out of all things!

Since he woke up in the office, everything that happened afterwards seemed to tell him that he was not in good physical or mental condition.

But is this really the situation on my side?

"So, could you please answer the previous question?"

Calcraft stared at Reinhardt with a smile, and the rune of the double snake staff flashed in his sea-blue eyes. He chuckled and said:

"I am really interested in what your choices and values ​​are like. Most importantly, I want to know, listen, and remember them. After all, my conversation with you is unforgettable and memorable."

"……what?"

Reinhardt's eyes flashed.

He felt that Calcraft in front of him had undergone some changes similar to himself after he broke away from the previous [established] dialogue.

Unforgettable and nostalgic... There is something intriguing about this sentence.

At this moment, Calcraft was like a man from the future recalling the past.

"Sir..."

Reinhardt didn't know why, but his mentality changed after being corroded by that hateful sense of déjà vu and nothingness.

I no longer feel like my usual self, and it feels a little hard to stand that I am now very normal.

It's like I have a strong feeling of disgust towards myself as an ordinary person today.

"You are such a megalomaniac. The world you imagine must be quite interesting."

Reinhardt was a little confused. To him, the childish thoughts in his heart were like omnipotent delusions.

This abnormal phenomenon made him feel that his knowledge was growing rapidly.

But the amount itself has not actually increased at all, it is just a recollection, or a recollection.

The sense of déjà vu kept passing through his brain, and the unbearable feeling of emptiness in his chest was even more unpleasant.

Whenever Reinhardt spoke to the fraudster in front of him, he found himself losing control, as if his emotions were uprooted and his rationality was banished.

"Oh... then you don't remember? Our conversation, our meeting, our acquaintance, you don't remember?"

Calcraft, or the Mercury Snake, asked back.

The person who was talking to Reinhard now was no longer a trickster.

But it was the maddening truth that lurked behind him in the shadows.

"Yes, stop talking about that boring topic."

As a [human], Reinhard trampled on the devil's words that tempted people to fall into heterodoxy without hesitation.

Even though his mind is not in its normal state now, he is still a grown man.

He had no desire to interact with fantasies that would sicken his brain, and even though he had been attacked by that unreasonable feeling before, Reinhardt had no reason to affirm it.

I don't want to indulge in that exaggerated fantasy.

"Did I say that was megalomaniacal?"

Reinhardt raised his hand and gently rubbed his brows, relaxing his frown. He said in a cold and calm tone: "This is all I feel about you. I am not proud or complacent. Does my look make you feel dissatisfied? Don't imagine it alone. I am not a great man."

Reinhardt did not have the same feelings as ordinary people.

He had no desire to be listened to by others, nor did he have any choices or values ​​to be proud of.

The envy and jealousy from others are just their own thoughts that everything Reinhardt has is glory and achievement.

But what about Reinhardt?

All you can have are the medals in your room or on your body, the money that comes with social etiquette, the achievements and status you have achieved so far, and the power you hold...

Whether it was applause or cheers, Reinhardt's heart had never responded, not even once since he was born.

It’s not that I’m tired of it, I just wasn’t attracted to it from the beginning.

I'm just numb to happiness and pain.

In Reinhard's own opinion, Reinhard, who is praised, admired and envied by everyone, is very abnormal.

"I never knew how to show mercy, so I always tried my best to deal with everything. As a result, I didn't know when I reached my current position."

Reinhardt recalled everything since he was born.

Due to the collapse of the German economy after World War I, he interrupted his studies for economic reasons and joined the German Navy.

After that, Reinhardt quickly rose through the ranks in the military.

He served as a second lieutenant in 1926, was promoted to lieutenant in 1928, joined the Nazi Party and the SS in June 1931, took over the SS security department in 6 and became Heinrich Himmler's right-hand man.

He led the "Security Police" from 1936. In 1939, the security department, the Security Police and the secret police "Gestapo" were merged into the newly established State Security Bureau, and Reinhardt became the director.

These are his achievements in the military, and his achievements in other areas are too numerous to count.

He was also a very good athlete, a decathlete in track and field.

He was also proficient in skiing, swimming, sailing, flying, horse riding, cross-country, fencing, was both a sharpshooter and a swordsman, and once ran across Germany, etc.

and then?

After finishing everything he could, Reinhardt didn't feel any sense of accomplishment at all.

As for the president or something like that, he is indeed as Calcraft said, if he is qualified he can be the president and he has the ability to do so.

But Reinhardt found it boring, dull and uninteresting.

Nowadays, he has lost his passion, and just maintains and repeats the life activity called "survival" as the empire's beheading officer until his own life dies.

He is like...

“It was like the car had never stopped.”

Reinhardt, who had come back to his senses, spoke calmly with a sigh, saying in a calm tone: "No matter what the performance is, if you keep running without sleep, any car can go around the world once or twice."

"I don't know what you feel from me, but Reinhard Heydrich is just that kind of person. If you want to have fun, there are many other interesting people. Go find them."

Reinhardt implicitly expressed the idea of ​​seeing through everything that was in his heart, but the man in front of him was not moved at all.

I am neither excellent nor inferior, nor do I have any extremely outstanding strengths.

This is neither modesty nor overconfidence, just hard facts.

Precisely because he is a man with nothing special about him, he can only become boring.

No matter what expectations the man in front of her has, this fact remains unchanged.

Reinhardt is just an ordinary person and should be an ordinary person.

The reason is that he has never felt amazed or amazed by anything in the world.

From the words of Calcraft in front of him, Reinhardt felt the devilish corruption and temptation.

Let your heart beat freely. If it is a broken heart, you can enjoy anything.

However, Reinhardt, being a human being, rejected this temptation.

"Do you think I'm amusing myself?"

Calcraft looked at Reinhardt in front of him with a playful expression.

In response, Reinhardt asked expressionlessly:

"if not?"

He was not a revelation born from a virgin's womb. Even if he was, he was just a man who would die sooner or later.

It would be a bit funny to say that he was born with a mission.

He has already left his own mark in this world, and history will probably remember this man, Reinhard Heydrich, and that is enough.

"Alas, a noble person like you is not suitable for any strategy of concealment."

Calcraft shook his head and sighed helplessly.

"How great do you want me to be? Just as you said, being the beheading officer of the Third Reich is already an achievement that others dream of, but if I lose the status that was given to me, then I will be no different from an ordinary person in the market, right? I am just this level. No, it must be like this."

Reinhardt was already feeling a bit impatient with the man who was tempting him to deviate from humanity.

Not to what he said, but to yourself.

I have always been a very self-controlled person, but now I am gradually losing that self-control.

He felt it was unbecoming to be led and influenced by the fraudsters in front of him, so he kept promoting his own [Way of Being a Man]

"If you get beaten, you'll fall down. If you get shot, you'll die. That's how people are supposed to be. Death is inevitable. Just live well until then, rotting away until that moment arrives. Everyone will die, including me."

No matter how special and outstanding a person is, he will die when the time comes. Reinhardt stated this point in a very nihilistic tone.

However, even if it is nothingness, there should still be pursuit.

Zhila! ! !

Looking at the man in front of him, Reinhardt seemed to have a vision. In an instant, a young man with short blue hair and empty eyes but firm and eager expression flashed by.

I don’t know him, I have no memory of him, but he looks very similar to me.

I am now a passive nihilist, while the other person's eyes... are those of an active nihilist.

"Ah, you shouldn't have such negative thoughts. You can't despise yourself like this."

Calcraft looked somewhat helpless, and his tone seemed to carry some sorrow. He said, "Can't you see your true self? Love yourself a little. After all, it will be bad for the respect of your subordinates if you continue like this."

Reinhardt snorted at Calcraft's pretentiousness.

"You seem very unconvinced, Trickster. I told you at the beginning that you should go somewhere else to show off your eloquence."

He didn't know what words to use to lament, but he was sure that he didn't want to do what the man in front of him wanted.

Calcraft raised his hand to his forehead and lamented, "Alas, your Excellency the Lieutenant General said that he didn't know how to show mercy, so allow me to ask you in return, have you ever used all your strength? Have you ever been really serious? Haven't you wanted to run in your heart, but in reality you were walking slowly?"

"Whether you run or walk, nothing will change. One day you will stop and eventually die."

Reinhardt said in a calm tone.

The final outcome remains unchanged, so there is no need to worry about the process. This is the common point among all of us.

Reinhardt believed that he was no exception.

Calcraft touched his chin gently after hearing this, then laughed and said:

"It seems that I misunderstood. Compared to what I said before, you are more looking forward to the difficult problems that can stump you, the obstacles that can make you go all out to overcome, the enemies that are so powerful that your blood boils... the sense of accomplishment you get when you make them surrender. These... are you really not hungry for them?"

The mercury poison penetrated Reinhardt's body and mind.

But Reinhardt remained unmoved by the extremely sweet and tempting sound.

"I should have told you, that was just a joke."

Reinhardt said in a very cold tone:

"It doesn't matter if I feel bored or hungry. No matter what I drink or eat while I'm alive, my hunger cannot be cured. Then I have no choice but to [die] at that time - such a creature is wrong to be born."

That's the way of survival for a beast, right?

Moreover, it is a mad beast that "dies the moment it is satisfied."

It would be ridiculous to become a beast like that.

and also……

"We will all die one day, but it doesn't matter. What's the point of complaining about a few decades of life because it's not fulfilling enough? Complaining a little during the process is enough."

Reinhardt's explanation of his views on death cannot be said to be completely nihilistic.

But if death is certain, it is enough to just live in the process until then.

Calcraft nodded in understanding, then smiled and said:

"I see. Then your motto should be..."

“Remember death. Death is serious and heavy. We should take it seriously.”

Reinhardt organized his words and answered.

Think about death, don't forget death, and know that everyone will die.

According to the Latin proverb, there is no happiness after death, so we should enjoy life while we can and sing the praises of life.

Christian thought, on the other hand, holds that everyone will eventually die and that happiness during life is nothing but emptiness.