Madam, you don't want your sister to be unable to pay the rent, do you?

Whose black silk cake came out?

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Shen Xixi noticed Lin Yi's eyes, the corners of her mouth curled up slightly, her fingers stroked her black thigh stockings, and she felt a vague sense of vanity and satisfaction in her heart.

What does this feel like?

It seems like it hasn't appeared for a long time.

The last time I had this feeling was probably when I scored 670 points in the college entrance examination.

Congratulations from family, congratulations from classmates, calls from teachers, and enthusiasm from the admissions office.

I went to college with full scholarships, and with local awards, I haven't spent a penny since then.

My life should have been prosperous, but there are always some regrets in my heart.

When I was just eleven years old, I naturally fell in love with romance novels and comics due to my precocious mentality. I also liked to write and draw my own.

However, during this period, I was laughed at by my classmates. The words and sentences I carefully designed were mocked as disgusting, which made me want to vomit when I saw them.

A group of boys snatched my notebook away and made me read aloud at the podium. The whole class laughed. Seeing that I could only put on a helpless fake smile, they laughed even more happily.

From that time on, no matter what I wanted to write secretly, they would dig it out of my desk and read it to everyone. Even if I finally couldn't hold back my tears, it would be useless to come out.

It seemed as if I had been labeled as someone who could be bullied since the first time I failed to stop them completely, and that I was born to be bullied by them.

The daily fun of the group of people in the class was to bully themselves, find their notebooks, and then read aloud on the podium. They became happier when they saw themselves crying.

In particular, a boy called her a vest monster and laughed at her for wearing a short vest under her shirt. She still feels sad.

My parents don’t understand why I write these things and why I don’t focus on my studies.

Until I was thirteen years old, I came to a new school.

This was the first time I was recognized for this.

The boy sitting next to her looked at what she had written and said, "Are you writing a novel? That's amazing!"

I still remember that short sentence.

The boy's bright smile and gentle hands seemed to penetrate her skin and touch her heart.

unfortunately,

The boy who was lying beside him, tapping the table gently to remind him that the teacher was coming during class, just like an intersecting line, passed through that short period of more than a month.

Every day when he was away, Shen Xixi thought about that boy.

Every word made her happy.

I think about you day and night and am worried about you.

However, time and distance eventually separated everything, and all the longing was buried deep in the heart and immersed in the heart.

Eight years have passed, and Shen Xixi has become accustomed to being alone.

I originally thought that everything would pass with time, but no one expected that some things would resurface with the arrival of fate.

When they met again on the street, Shen Xixi thought it was an illusion. But when they actually met, the dormant emotions in her heart could not be stopped and all of them came out. The memories that were buried deep in her mind also gushed out one after another.

Numbness, itching, sadness, heat, all kinds of emotions accumulated in her chest. Only after she successfully exchanged chat methods did she confirm that it was real.

The fate that happened eight years ago is about to happen again at this moment.

I couldn't do anything at the time, so I listened to my parents and left to go to that school.

But now, maybe I can do something...

dong dong.

Lin Yi tapped the table lightly, "Shen Xixi?"

"...Well, you go ahead." Shen Xixi tucked her hair around her ears and chuckled after coming back to her senses.

"How much do you know about Yin Lili?"

Lin Yi didn’t know how to ask at this moment. He wanted to keep Yin Lili alive, but what about Shen Xixi?

What was her purpose in contacting me for a meeting?

I want to ask myself if I miss... Yin Lili?

And the chat messages that Yin Lili sent to him completely shattered his impression of Shen Xixi. It was simply hard to imagine that the literary girl Shen Xixi could say such words.

Or is it that every chat between a girl and her best friends is an untouchable taboo for boys?

"Just like I told you on the phone, Yin Lili and I have known each other for a long time, and I am the only person she chats with online. During the chat just now, Yin Lili revealed a piece of information to me."

Shen Xixi held the spoon with her slender fingers and stirred the coffee gently.

"On June 23rd, Yin Lili plans to spend it alone."

"June 23rd?"

"That's right. The day when the college entrance examination results are released is only one month away."

"You mean, Yin Lili wanted to die that day?" Lin Yi frowned.

"I found this at Yin Lili's house a few days ago."

Shen Xixi took out a pink envelope from her bag, placed it on the table, and pushed it to Lin Yi.

Lin Yi picked up the envelope, opened it, and inside was a piece of beautifully written letter paper.

The first sentence is, "Mother, I'm sorry to disappoint you. I'm afraid I won't live much longer."

Lin Yi's expression was a little surprised, but at the same time he was relieved.

I'm afraid Yin Lili had already thought about how she would leave. Perhaps on the first day her mother was diagnosed with cancer, Yin Lili lost the desire to live.

Shen Xixi looked at Lin Yi's expression as he read the suicide note seriously, but she didn't show any other unnecessary expression. She clutched her shoulder bag tightly with her fingers.

Waited until Lin Yi finished reading the suicide note.

"Thank you for showing me this."

Lin Yi folded the letter, put it back in the envelope, took a deep breath, and then exhaled heavily.

The reason why Yin Lili wanted to commit suicide was clearly written in her suicide note.

Life, suffering, countless dark threads are tightly entangled around Yin Lili's body.

So she chose to die.

But this suicide note was probably written before Yin Lili came to rent a house, and some of the contents were slightly different from what he saw with his eyes that could penetrate the defenses.

Now that Yin Lili has fulfilled her last wish, June 23rd is the date of death that Yin Lili set for herself.

In other words, as long as he could keep Yin Lili pure before June 23rd, if he missed that day, every day after that would be a new day for Yin Lili.

Since you have lived one more day, you might as well live a few more days. Lin Yi hopes that Yin Lili will think this way at that time.

to this end,

I have to find a way to create for Yin Lili something that is truly worth recalling once, twice, or three times, something to try, and something new that she wants to do, rather than just a beautiful memory or a wish fulfillment.

It's difficult, but not impossible.

While Lin Yi was thinking, there was a knock on the desk.

"Lin Yi, after you read the letter, do you have any other thoughts besides thoughts about Yin Lili?"

Shen Xixi's delicate fingers gently stroked the table top, and her beautiful eyes looked at Lin Yi with a hint of meaning.

"Any other ideas?"

"For example, the font on the letter paper."

"Font?"

Lin Yi recalled the words he had just read on the letter paper. They were very delicate and small, and looked like a handwriting that only a girl would write. It matched Yin Lili's image very well, and it looked like something that only she would write.

When I was in high school, I saw a lot of girls' handwriting. Some of them were beautifully written, some were crooked, and some were written in a very connected manner. It looked very smooth, but the teachers commented that their handwriting was ugly. It might be because at first glance, no one could recognize the words at all, which affected the grading of the papers.

Of course, this is better looking than the handwriting of those boys in high school.

In many cases, it may take you a while to recognize even the words you have written.

If I have to say, Lin Yi remembers that when he was in junior high school, he did see a few girls’ handwriting that was very beautiful, and he also...

Lin Yi suddenly blinked.

I remembered something that happened in the middle of my first year of junior high school.

That was the second week since Shen Xixi transferred to another school.

At that time, the new seat had just been arranged and he and Shen Xixi were still sitting at the same table. Then Shen Xixi left and no one came to fill her seat. The books that Shen Xixi had not taken away were also left on the table. Lin Yi sat alone for more than a week.

During that period, I sat alone in class and was often called upon by the teacher to answer questions, so I have a very deep impression of it.

The next week it was finally time to change positions again. Lin Yide had to organize and clear out the things on the desk, and also sort out all the things left by Shen Xixi.

During this time, I opened Shen Xixi's homework book and found that her handwriting was very beautiful. Every word was clear, whether at first glance or after careful examination. It was elegant and very feminine.

While sorting, Lin Yi accidentally found a pink envelope.

There were two pieces of letter paper inside.

I took it out of curiosity and looked at it carefully. The first sentence I saw was,

"I like you very much."

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"If possible, I hope to tie a rope around your neck, and you hold my neck, I pull you towards me with all my strength, and you hold my blood tightly."

This is a love letter, without a doubt a love letter.

The naked words were somewhat dizzying.

Lin Yi read it all out of curiosity, then silently stuffed the letter back.

It was put back into the Chinese textbook.

He could tell that these were words written by Shen Xixi herself, which meant they were a love letter written by Shen Xixi.

I just don’t know who this love letter was written to, and why it has been kept in the Chinese textbook and not sent out.

love letter.

What a two-dimensional word! It is hard to imagine that a girl would write a love letter in real life, and write two whole pages of letter paper.

It's not those simple words like I love you, you love me. Some of the words above really make people feel that there is something wrong with XP.

Are there really boys who like to have their faces stepped on by girls’ small feet?

814 The Thirty-year-old Kirin

Or are there boys who like to be sat in the arms of girls, then have their feet lifted up, put on their shoulders, and then have their faces stepped on?

These words were written very clearly in Shen Xixi's love letter.

It seems that Shen Xixi has quite unique ideas on certain aspects.

As for the other things like pulling the wrists with ropes, pinching the neck, burying the head between the thighs, feeling the warmth, being tied to the bed, doing something with the hands, doing something with the mouth, and then doing something with the buttocks, every sentence is really embarrassing.

For Lin Yi, who was in junior high school at the time, this was truly an eye-opener.

At that time, Lin Yi sorted out all the things left by Shen Xixi and put them into the box.

Then they were all handed in to the office.

If Shen Xixi hadn't suddenly asked these questions now, he might not have remembered that he had found a love letter in Shen Xixi's desk.