I'm not a womanizer for Chihaya Aine

Of course, the two of them were sitting on the same bench, and Qing could hear Xiangzi's mumbling clearly. She showed a surprised expression and said: "You said it was your fault. Could it be that the real reason for Crychic's disbandment was actually you?"

Hearing Qing's surprised question, Xiangzi's hand, which was originally on his other arm, involuntarily grabbed his arm, even causing some wrinkles on his uniform jacket.

Seeing this, Qing stopped asking and said, "It's okay if you don't want to tell me. I don't have to know the answer... Besides, judging from your reaction, I already know the answer."

Hearing this, Xiangzi gripped his arm even tighter.

61

Chapter 61: Plan, laning, birds of a feather.

A year ago, Toyokawa Shoko might be an innocent young lady, or an unrealistic dreamer, but she would not be a liar full of lies.

So whether it was "the band is a community of shared destiny", "I want to hold another live performance", or "I want to become a human being", these were all Xiangzi's sincere thoughts at the time.

It’s just that these ideas were eventually shattered by the bloody reality, and now we have to give up our innocence, dreams and the right to shout elegantly in order to fight against the cruel reality.

But the other people in Crychic shouldn't fall with her because of her downfall. It was so hard to get Crychic and Deng back on the right track. Xiangzi sincerely hoped that Crychic and Deng could continue to shout.

Therefore, in order to prevent Crychic from becoming her burial companion, Xiangzi made a complete cut-off with Crychic, and for this, she did not mind telling lies.

But he didn't expect that Mu would say such words in order to share the pressure with him, which made Crychic reach an irreversible point.

What he didn't expect was that the words he said in order to completely cut off ties with Crychic and stop Deng from having any thoughts about her, ended up causing Deng to blame himself for a whole year. Xiangzi felt regretful, resentful, and fortunate at the same time.

She regretted the harm she had caused to Deng; she was sad that after Deng had gone through the time with Crychic, he was back to his original state after she left, without any progress; she was glad that Deng met Qing, who could cheer him up again, and Qing was now atoning for her sins.

This is why Xiangzi remained silent even though Qing's words hurt her heart. This wave was her own problem. Qing not only played well, but also helped her.

On the other side, Qing saw that Xiangzi still didn't speak, so he changed the subject a little stiffly and said, "By the way, did Su Shi invite you to join the band?"

"Eh?"

Xiangzi was surprised again by the question raised by Qing. Her mind had not yet figured out why Qing would ask such a question.

Qing explained: "Because Su Shi also invited Li Xi to join the band today, I was wondering if you, who also used to be in Crychic, also cares about Deng, and your position does not conflict with that of a current band member, would also be invited."

After listening to Qing's explanation, Xiangzi finally understood why Qing asked this. After all, Qing was not clear about her relationship with Su Shi, and it was even more impossible for her to know that she had blocked Su Shi. It was normal to have such thoughts. It was even possible that Su Shi had really sent her a message inviting her to join the band, but she could no longer see it.

However, how should he answer Qing? Xiangzi could answer casually, but Qing also had a way to get information from Sushi without exposing Xiangzi's information. After thinking about it, Xiangzi told the truth: "I haven't paid attention to the news, so I don't know, but whether Sushi invites me or not will not affect my answer to you this afternoon. I still won't join the band."

Obviously, here Xiangzi further thought that Qinghui mentioned Su Shi because they wanted to use Su Shi's relationship as a member of Crychic to win her over.

But Qing didn't actually think so, she just wanted to lead the topic to what she was going to say next.

"Is that so? I thought Sushi would really like to get everyone from Crychic into the band."

Qing said in a calm tone.

Xiangzi just shook her head, obviously she didn't agree with Qing's statement, she said: "You didn't experience the disbandment of Crychic so you don't know, but it is impossible for me and Mu to continue to form a band with them... and your band has been pulled into the band by Su Shi, why do you look like you don't care?"

Qing answered, "I really don't care who joins the band, as long as Aine agrees. Also, the purpose of our band is for everyone to play together happily, so if there are any wishes that need to be fulfilled by the band, we can set them as the band's goals and try to achieve them together. Although Su Shi didn't say it explicitly, I think her wish is to rebuild Crychic."

Xiangzi frowned and said with some dissatisfaction: "It is impossible for Crychic to be resurrected. Whether it is you or Su Shi, you should give up this thought as soon as possible."

If Qing had not revealed in her previous words that she didn't know much about herself, Su Shi and Crychic, Xiangzi would have suspected that Qing was another mouthpiece cultivated by Su Shi. Er Laimu was sending her messages on behalf of Su Shi again, which made Xiangzi feel very distressed.

Qing tilted his head and asked in confusion: "Is it really that impossible? Could it be that one of you and Mu has injured his hand and can no longer play?"

Xiangzi sighed and said, "Don't ask why. Anyway, reviving Crychic is impossible. Instead, I want to ask you, if Su Shi really wants to revive Crychic in your band, wouldn't you feel that your band is offended? Why do you still want to help Su Shi?"

Qing folded his arms and closed his eyes and answered: "First of all, whether or not there is a place for me and Aine in Su Shi's Crychic, as long as Deng, Su Shi, and Li Xi can continue to participate in our band's activities and coordinate their time, I have no objection. Just think of it as Su Shi and the others taking on positions in another band."

At this point, Qing slowly opened his eyes and looked towards Xiangzi's amber eyes. The corners of his mouth curled up slightly, and he said with a hint of cunning: "Secondly, Crychic can be reorganized, so there is no reason why it can't be disbanded again? As long as we reorganize Crychic, if it is really like you said, that you and Mu and Su Shi are no longer compatible, it should be disbanded again immediately, right?"

"By then, Crychic will know better, and Su Shi should also know to give up her unrealistic fantasies and form a band with us, right?"

After listening to Qing's explanation, Xiangzi realized that Qing was not too kind and was willing to be used by Su Shi as a tool to resurrect Crychic.

On the contrary, Qing is too resourceful. Qing's purpose in helping Crychic resurrect is not to fulfill Su Shi's wish, but to completely destroy Su Shi's wish and make Su Shi give up on reorganizing Crychic.

At this moment, a small drama emerged in Xiangzi's mind: Su Shi finally reorganized Crychic with the help of Qing. His wish for a year was finally fulfilled. Su Shi raised his arms and exclaimed, "There has never been such a wonderful start."

Then Su Shi gradually realized that something was wrong, and he and Mu soon proposed to quit the group again. Crychic, which had been reorganized with great difficulty, was in danger.

Su Shi finally realized that it was impossible for Crychic to be resurrected, and after experiencing ups and downs, he fell into despair.

At this moment, Qing, who had been helping Su Shi without complaint, appeared in front of Su Shi, stretched out his hand and said, "Crychic doesn't want you, but our band still wants you"... He stretched out his hand when Su Shi was at his most vulnerable and pulled Su Shi out of despair. With a strong sense of gap and the guilt of having taken advantage of Qing before, Su Shi could not resist Qing's offensive...

In the end, Su Shi transferred all her feelings for Crychic to Qing and her band, and from then on, she devoted everything to the band...

Thinking of this, Xiangzi couldn't help but shudder - Liu Zeqing was a terrible woman.

Even Xiangzi felt a little sympathy for Su Shi. If this plan was really carried out, Su Shi would probably be controlled very well and would have to say thank you to Qing!

But then Xiangzi thought about it again, thinking about the constant text messages that Su Shi had bombarded him with, and how she had been pressuring him to contact him. Then he thought about his current financial situation, and then thought about how Su Shi was still her eldest daughter in Yuezhisen. Suddenly Xiangzi felt that there was nothing to sympathize with Su Shi.

How many dishes do you eat in this meal? Why do you feel sympathy for other people’s young ladies?

Of course, there is one point that must be resolved if Qing wants to implement his plan to revive Crychic, and that is that Crychic must be reorganized, especially Qing should play a key role in the reorganization of Crychic.

And this cannot avoid the question of how to make himself rejoin Crychic again, which is probably the reason why Qing would say this to himself.

Although Xiangzi firmly believes in principle that Crychic cannot be resurrected, if, as Qing said, Crychic is rebuilt and then disbanded again immediately, it actually won't take much effort for Xiangzi, so he can actually consider it.

But compared to the effort to be spent on Crychic, Xiangzi was more concerned about another thing, that is how to disband again.

The reorganization can be left to Qing and Su Shi, but if Qing wants to achieve the goal of winning over Su Shi, he will not be able to participate in the disbanding of Crychic. At that time, the only ones who can do the disbanding again will be Xiangzi and Hemu.

Honestly speaking, although what happened on that rainy day caused Crychic to disband after Xiangzi quit the team, caused Xiangzi and Lixi to quarrel, caused Deng to be injured, caused Su Shi to be obsessed with Crychic, and made Mu say things against his will...but in Xiangzi's opinion, the disbandment of Crychic was still decent, at least it did not let others see his most embarrassing side.

However, if Crychic were to be disbanded again, not only would Su Shi be completely disillusioned with her wish, but Deng and Li Xi would also not be able to accept such a result that seemed like they were being fooled. Deng would definitely be hurt again, and Li Xi's impulse would probably lead to more than just a quarrel.

Unless... Xiangzi is willing to tell the real reason why he quit Crychic, a reason that can make Deng, Su Shi, and Li Xi understand and completely accept that Crychic cannot be reorganized.

But Xiangzi couldn't accept that. If she wanted to do that, she would have done it long ago.

If he insisted on not telling Qing about his situation, it would probably play into Qing's hands. Then the person Qing would be trying to appease and win over would not only be Su Shi, but Deng and Li Xi would also be completely conquered by Qing and would completely forget about Crychic and turn to Qing's new band.

Therefore, Xiangzi would never agree to Qing's request. After thinking about this, Xiangzi's face turned cold, and her favorability towards Qing dropped a lot. She snorted coldly and said, "You are so calculating. You are using me as a gun, right? Aren't Su Shi and the others your teammates? Why are you calculating against them like this?"

Qing sighed and said, "You have to know that the premise of my helping Su Shi to reorganize Crychic is that Su Shi wants to use our band to reorganize Crychic. In that case, I am just fulfilling her wish. What happens next is not something I can control. If the rebuilt Crychic can continue to operate, I will happily send my blessings; if Crychic disbands again, I will comfort my teammates. It seems that I have done nothing wrong, right?"

Indeed, the brilliance of Qing's plan lies in the fact that everything Qing does is a good thing, whether it is helping Su Shi realize his wish or comforting his teammates afterwards, these things are not bad things, but these things added together become a calculation to play with people's hearts.

Moreover, even from a God's perspective, Qing's plan was impeccable. Because to implement this plan, it means that Su Shi had planned against Qing first, and Qing just saw through the opportunity and used the same trick to counter it.

As for whether the rebuilt Crychic will continue to operate, Xiangzi has personally rejected this possibility, so Qing can come up with this plan so boldly.

Xiangzi gritted his teeth and said with some disdain: "But this will also affect Deng and Lixi, right? Did they do something wrong?"

Hearing this, Qing's tone also turned cold, and he said tit for tat: "Did Su Shi's Crychic plan have the consent of Deng and Li Xi? Do you think Deng and Li Xi are not among the targets of Su Shi's calculations? There is nothing we can do about it affecting Deng and Li Xi, because Su Shi also did it."

After that, Qingye snorted coldly and said, "Besides, I don't think it's your turn to question me about this matter, as the person who caused Crychic to disband and caused them the greatest harm!"

Qing's words hit Xiangzi's heart like a heavy hammer, and for a moment Xiangzi was even a little breathless.

There is no doubt that Xiangzi is the culprit who caused Su Shi to be obsessed with Crychic. What Qing is doing now is actually to cover up Xiangzi's irresponsibility. Therefore, no matter how excessive Qing's actions are, Xiangzi has no reason to comment.

Seeing Xiangzi's devastated look, Qing Jian felt that he had almost recovered. His voice became calm again and he said, "You should know that people with naive ideas cannot survive in the cruel reality. I originally just wanted to deal with the band with the means that students should use, but someone stepped out of line first."

Yes, in the past year, Xiangzi has changed from a young lady who knows nothing about the world to a bad woman who can lie without blinking an eye to achieve her goals. Xiangzi should be the one who can understand Qing's behavior the most, right?

Xiangzi once again saw his own shadow in Qing... No, perhaps he was more of a shadow than Qing in Qing's eyes. It was just that Xiangzi's feeling about Qing and himself being similar was a feeling of sympathy before, but now it was a feeling of repulsion.

The only reason she is repelled by the same sex is that she is not mature enough inside. It seems that the naive and weak Toyokawa Shoko has not completely died yet.

Ignoring those unnecessary emotions, all Xiangzi needs to consider is interests.

If he agrees to Qing's plan, he can permanently resolve the situation where Su Shi is interfering with his peace with him, and he can make the final cut with Crychic. Deng and the others can completely get rid of their feelings for Crychic. If Deng is handed over to Qing... and that dazzling Aine, he should be able to move on.

After pondering for a moment, Xiangzi raised his head, met Qing's gaze, and said seriously: "If you can find a way to disband Crychic peacefully, I will consider joining your plan."

Xiangzi and Qing are actually the same kind of people. Perhaps they can become birds of a feather.

62

Chapter 62: Going home, all parties, troubles.

Although Liu Zeqing didn't want to spend too much time on Xiangzi, she still firmly grasped the rhythm of this conversation so far.

You have to know that the person in this conversation is Xiangzi who has always been very self-centered, not Deng who has difficulty speaking, nor Aiyin who is willing to listen. Under the circumstances where Xiangzi took the initiative to talk to Qing, the initiative of the conversation finally fell into Qing's hands. This is somewhat incredible.

But in fact, what Qing did was very simple. He kept taking the initiative to tell Xiangzi what he wanted to know. In this way, he could achieve the purpose of the conversation without having to take the initiative in the conversation. Naturally, he would not care that Qing took the initiative in the conversation.

Qing's purpose in taking the initiative in the conversation is actually very simple, which is to prevent Xiangzi from asking questions about her work and financial situation.

In this respect, Qing and Xiangzi are somewhat similar. They both don't want anyone to know their financial situation. The only difference is that Xiangzi does so because of her self-esteem, while Qing does so because she is afraid of trouble.

As for the plan to help Su Shi revive Crychic, it was something she had thought of before and just mentioned it. By the way, she also let Xiangzi know that Su Shi came to her because he was obsessed with Crychic and wanted to revive Crychic, not because he wanted to take revenge on her for leaving Crychic without permission.

Now Qing wasn't sure if Xiangzi still wanted to continue the conversation, so she tentatively said, "Let's put Su Shi's matter aside for now. Do you have anything else you want to ask about the lamp?"

Xiangzi shook his head and said, "I originally had a lot of questions to ask, but I have figured it out. The light follows you, so I have nothing to worry about."

Xiangzi now understood why Qing suddenly mentioned that plan just now. Qing was very friendly to him at the beginning, but it was only after Qing learned that he was the culprit of the disbandment of Crychic that he suddenly turned the topic to the plan to revive Crychic.

In other words, Qing was so rude to Xiangzi only after he knew that Xiangzi was the one who hurt Deng.

In addition, the information revealed in Qing's words just now has always shown that she and Su Shi are in a potential antagonistic relationship, and she and Aine and Deng are companions.

So Xiangzi thought there was nothing wrong with letting Qinglai be the guide of the lamp, and she didn't need to ask questions over and over again like a nymphomaniac who couldn't forget her ex.

Qing shook her head and said, "The light didn't follow me. She walked the path on her own. Also, our band has decided to hold a live show in early June. You can come and see it then."

Xiangzi hesitated for a moment, then shook his head and said, "No, I won't go. Your band's affairs have nothing to do with me anymore."

Qing supported himself on his knees and stood up, then turned around and said: "Don't be so sure, I think you will still come when the time comes... Well, if there is nothing else, I will go home first, and you should go home early too."

After saying that, Qing waved his hand and disappeared into the night without looking back. Although the road Qing took was the one Xiangzi also took, Xiangzi was very tactful and did not follow him. He did not want him to know where he lived, and she was the same in this regard.

Xiangzi sat on the bench and took out his mobile phone. After unlocking the screen, the phone automatically displayed the content that Xiangzi had browsed before. It was the employee group of the customer service company. Although there were more than a dozen unread messages below, Xiangzi was still staring at a message shared by other employees in a daze.

The content of this shared message is a link to a piece of music called "Happy to Serve".

……

On the other side, Takamatsu Deng, the main character that Qing and Xiangzi had just discussed, was sitting in his room. Under the not-so-bright light of the desk lamp, Deng wanted to try to write the lyrics in his notebook, but he was unable to start.

Deng was unable to write down her thoughts on "love" over the past few days. When she thought about having to show her immature understanding to everyone, and even sing it out loud herself, she found it difficult to put pen to paper.

So Deng decided to write some lyrics on other themes, just like he wrote "Spring Shadow" before.

But when he was about to start writing, Deng hesitated again. Would Qing and Aine really like the lyrics he wrote?

To be very objective, the lyrics that Deng wanted to write were very radio-style, very abstract, not so romantic, and even a bit negative and self-pitying.

Since the Crychic period, the only person who has been praising Deng's lyrics and who can understand Deng's lyrics is Xiangzi. Although Su Shi also praised Deng, Su Shi praised the act of writing lyrics itself rather than the content of the lyrics. And Li Xi lost contact with Deng before he could express his love for Deng's lyrics after changing his opinion of Deng in the Live.

As for Qing and Aine, Qing has never read the lyrics written by Deng, but Qing said that she does not understand abstraction and pursues romance. Although Aine read the lyrics of "Haruhi Kage" very seriously, she did not express any opinion on the lyrics. However, would Aine, who is such a sunny character, really approve of such negative lyrics?

There is no one in this band now who can give Deng the confidence to write down the cries in his heart.

In the midst of the dilemma, Deng thought of Xiangzi who encouraged him to shout and agreed with his lyrics. He also remembered that everyone was saying this afternoon that the disbandment of Crychic was not his fault.

But if it wasn't his fault, why didn't Xiangzi want to talk to him?

Can I try to find Xiangzi to confirm it? Also, why did Crychic disband? Why did Xiangzi quit Crychic?

Unlike the original animation plot, the current Deng has not experienced the incident where Aine escaped and was arrested by her junior high school classmates, nor has she experienced the heart-to-heart talk at the aquarium. Naturally, Deng cannot write "Bi Tian Ban Zou".

In addition, although Aine and Ao have both spoken of their frustrations and confusions, Deng's impression of the two is still as tall and dazzling as the sun, so Deng is worried that they will not like some of the lyrics.

I think that even if everyone in the band doesn’t like the lyrics written by Deng, they can still tolerate Deng and complete the arrangement well, and each of them can perform according to her lyrics.

But Deng doesn't want that. She doesn't want people to force themselves to cater to her. If that's the case, Deng would rather not be the lyricist or the lead singer.

……

After returning home, Lixi had a simple dinner, took a shower, and went straight to his room, closed the door, and opened the composing software in the dim room.

Then Lixi found the song "Spring Shadow" that had been preserved from a year ago and began to adapt it.

Even though the only part that needed to be changed was changing the keyboard to guitar, which shouldn't have been a lot of work, and even most of the chords were corresponding, Li Xi still revised it over and over again for a long time.

The reason why it took so long to revise is simple, because her adapted version is not as good as the original "Haruhi Shadow".

"Haruhi Shadow" itself is a song that emphasizes the bright tone of the piano. At first, Li Xi wanted to use a clean guitar to create the same effect, but it made her feel like it had lost its soul.

Li Xi wanted to create the feeling of the warm spring sunshine, but he was never able to do it, or he could do it barely, but his level was only "passive", not as good as Xiangzi's "excellent".

In fact, this is not difficult to understand. In the original story, the lead guitar part of "Kasuga Shadow" was actually composed by Riki and improvised by Renai who suddenly broke into the rehearsal room. And the subsequent songs are basically similar, which can be regarded as the arrangement completed by Riki and Renai together.

Moreover, the artistic conception of the Mygo version of "Haruhi Shadow" is completely different from that of the Crychic version. If the Crychic version gives people the feeling of the warm sun in spring, the Mygo version of "Haruhi Shadow" already has a feeling of the beginning of summer.