Why play in a band if you don't form one for life?

Shizi listened to their conversation with a smile and continued walking forward.

After walking out of the construction area, we came to the lake. Not far away there was a small pavilion with a few ice buckets and three people sitting inside talking.

It's Maya, Kuro, and Yukina.

There was something spread out on the table, and fragments of the conversation drifted past Shizi's ears with the breeze:

"...How far away..."

"...There's not much room left..."

I guess they were discussing the "battle plan against Nana Ohba".

Shizi thought that he was of no use now and there was no point in going over, so he ignored it and continued walking forward.

There was a noise in the distance. Shiko looked in the direction of the sound, but couldn't see what was going on, but she guessed it was Mahiru who was making the noise.

Karen's death was a big blow to her. It was said that during that period, Mahiru would occasionally lose control of her abilities, not recognize anyone, and wield her leaf hammer and the scorching sun that could melt sand and gravel, destroying everything. At such times, Nana would forcefully subdue her, take her outside to kill a group of monsters, and vent her anger.

After Hua Lian came back, the situation improved a lot and there were signs of recovery, but it still occurred from time to time.

The noise soon died down.

Shiko didn't want to join in the fun. She didn't want to see the angelic Mahiru go crazy.

The desire for reproduction in my heart becomes increasingly intense.

The library is obviously taller than other buildings, even bigger than the restaurant. In fact, it not only serves to store books, but is also divided into two floors: the first floor is the library, and the second floor is the dance studio where the stage girls practice daily, and the recording studio for the band girls.

Shizi gently pushed the door open, and the creaking sound echoed in the silent air.

It looks like no one is there.

Although the name of the library is intimidating, many people actually come here - thanks to Brother Jiao and the Xianjuan family, there are all kinds of books here. From the most serious philosophy and history books, to the most exam-oriented study materials, to the most literary poetry and drama, to the most popular comics and light novels, there is everything, and there are even headphones and a CD player hanging in one corner.

For example, Liang is a frequent visitor to the audio-visual and comics sections, and Shizi often runs into her there.

But he didn't seem to be there today. Shizi went to the comics section as usual. She just finished reading a volume yesterday and she came to look for the next one.

"(I can't find it...)" She looked around but didn't find the next volume that was supposed to be there, "(Is it not updated in reality yet, or was it put in the wrong place?)"

She shook her head.

Forget it. I always feel a little ashamed when I come to the library to read only comics and light novels. Let's read some serious books today.

Shizi paced between the bookshelves. "Here are all literary works... The Manyoshu... They are so heavyweight right from the start, it's hard to even think about them... The Four Books and the Five Classics... Ah bah. I heard that The Tale of Genji is a little interesting, but I'm not interested in it. Romance of the Three Kingdoms... It's a classic among classics, and it's the standard stereotype of Lao Zhong in Japanese works..."

As I walked, I had already walked around a bookshelf.

Next……

Shizi looked at the first book: "Postpartum Care for Sows"... What?

Why does this thing exist?

Can’t even she understand Xiao Xinxin’s radio waves?

She didn't read the following books and just walked past them.

The next bookshelf contains some miscellaneous books.

Shizi saw a book called "Basic Hypnosis" at a glance.

The corners of her mouth twitched. According to the stereotype, this kind of book is mostly designed to deceive elementary school students with chuunibyou and middle-aged and elderly people. It is too thick to be used as a table leg.

However, since it was provided by the Xianjuan family, maybe it would be unexpectedly... useful?

No, it feels even less reliable.

Anyway, Yazi must not be allowed to see this kind of book... She tried to hide it behind other books.

However, when she came into contact with the book, her face became hesitant again.

After thinking for a while, she actually took out the book and went to the reading area behind several bookshelves.

Although it's only a slight possibility... Anyway, I can't let others find out that I'm reading this kind of book, otherwise I'll really be considered to have a mental problem... Although I really do have a problem.

However, after walking past the bookshelf, she found Junna sitting at the table, reading seriously.

Chapter 13 Quotes Are My Strength

Shizi instinctively hid the book behind him.

Because of this noise, Chuna noticed this place and turned around: "Ah, classmate Wu, are you here to study too?"

"Hmm...hmm." There was no other table, so Shizi took a few steps like a crab, pulled out a chair with one hand, and sat down diagonally opposite Junna.

She glanced at the book Junna was reading.

Sure enough, it was another study material. This time it was a math book.

Although it was not nice to disturb others while they were reading, Shizi was too afraid to show her own book, so she had to find a topic to talk about: "Ahaha...Juna seems to have been reading textbooks recently."

"Yeah." Junna simply put down the book, pinched the bridge of her nose, closed her eyes and took a rest. "To be precise, ever since this library was built, I have been reading textbooks."

"Why?" Shizi asked, "There is no need to take exams here."

Junna shook her head gently, something in her eyes sparkling. "I hope I can still keep up with school when we return to reality. 'If you don't move forward, you will move backward. - Goethe.'"

"But didn't Nana tell us not to work in this direction? She doesn't care?"

"Why should I care?" Junna's eyes looked a little strange. "Having hope is never a bad thing. She's not a tyrant."

What a stupid question... Shizi hit his head in his heart.

However, Junna didn't seem to notice Shizi's embarrassment. She pushed up her glasses and looked behind Shizi curiously: "What book are you reading?"

I can't hide it anymore.

Shizi's face twitched, and he took out the book tremblingly: "Don't laugh..."

The large words "Basic Hypnosis" made the air stagnate for a second.

Junna's hands trembled unconsciously, and she pushed up her glasses again: "Well, Mr. Wu, I feel I have an obligation to remind you that the Xianjuan family didn't know what books we would need, so they moved all the books they could get and stuffed them into boxes and packed them for us, so..."

"I knew it..." Shizi hugged his head in pain, "Don't say anymore, I do have a problem with my brain, please be gentle to the mentally ill..."

"..." Junna didn't know much about Shizi yet, and didn't know whether she was joking or she had accidentally touched her minefield. "Anyway, can you tell me why you want to read this kind of...stuff?"

Shizi put away his expression and became serious: "I want to understand my memory."

"Memory?" Junna also became serious, "Have you lost your memory?"

"Not completely." Shizi shook his head, "There are some... possibly crucial memories that I can't remember."

What she was talking about were memories related to her past life.

These days, she has been thinking about how to recreate her own brilliance. After all, what is her own brilliance?

After calming down and reflecting on herself, she began to doubt herself: I am just an ordinary idol otaku, why do I have the same shining charm as the glittering girls in the band and on the stage?

Why on earth could she stand shoulder to shoulder with them?

"To figure this out and get rid of the confusion I've been feeling, I can only review my life from the beginning and analyze myself." Shizi explained slowly, "But at this moment, I found that I couldn't remember some memories that I had never paid attention to."

When did I travel through time?

No matter how I recall, I woke up in this world as soon as I opened my eyes. But what did I experience before that?

Blank.

Have you ever died?

If people cannot remember their own death, this explanation is reasonable.

However, Shizi didn't want to give up this possibility. There was an impulse in her heart, reminding her that this memory was very important. Even if there was only a little hope, she wanted to have another child and get out of the current situation.

"…Didn't you ask Hina-san for help? Isn't her ability to hypnotize people?" Junna offered advice.

"It's useless." Shizi shook her head. "I asked her. To hypnotize me, I first need to crack open the layer of filth wrapped around my soul. If the filth exists in her own mind, she can easily remove it. But it's different for others. Not to mention, the amount of filth accumulated in my soul is far greater than what she once had."

After all, it was the filth that overflowed from Xingtian's liver that had accumulated for countless years.

"So, you want to try self-hypnosis using ordinary methods." Chun understood.

"That's right." Shizi became discouraged again, "But this thing... is definitely hopeless."

"Well, although I can't help you too much," Junna thought carefully, "but there is a saying: no matter how outstanding a person is..."

"...There are times when you lose yourself." Shizi continued naturally.

The two smiled at each other. Chunna saw the sunlight shining on half of the face of the man who was looking at Shizi.

"...——William Shakespeare." Junna completed the sentence.

Shizi nodded gratefully: "Thank you, I will try my best."

They didn't speak to each other for the whole afternoon. Junna was still reading the math book, taking notes, and making rustling sounds. And Shizi also put aside her shyness and looked for a method that might be useful in "Basic Hypnosis".

The setting sun gradually entered the small window opposite Shizi, stinging her eyes.

“(It’s OK.)” She closed the book, “(I found several methods, I’ll try them later.)”

She looked at Junna, who had just finished a test paper and was correcting it herself.

"Would you like to have dinner together?" She looked at the pile of numbers on the test paper and made the invitation.

Junna raised her head: "Okay, wait until I finish changing these."

"Yeah." Shizi nodded obediently, "It's okay."

Junna obviously quickened her pace. Soon after, she put down her pen, closed her book, and put everything into her bag: "Haha - 'Before climbing a steep hill, it is necessary to walk slowly. - William Shakespeare'. Let's go to eat."

The two walked in the shadow of the building, avoiding the still oppressive heat.

"Jun Na always comes up with a lot of famous quotes." Shi Zi said while fanning himself with his hands.

Junna blushed a little: "I just like it more. You can say... it is the power of the famous saying that has supported me until now."

Unconsciously, she opened up: "My parents did not support me going to Shengxiang. So, after school, I never went back home and decided to go back after graduation. However, without the support of my parents, I would often fall into self-doubt and wonder if I had chosen the wrong path."

"As long as you still have a passion for the stage, you will definitely not go wrong." Shizi said firmly.

"Yes." Junna smiled and nodded, clenched his right fist and raised it to his chest, "But this alone is not enough. Therefore, the words of the sages have become my support. If those who are far greater than us say so, then I can't be wrong. As long as I do what they say, I can move towards my own stage."

Hearing this, Shizi was suddenly startled and stopped.

"Ah, what's wrong?" Junna almost bumped into her. She stretched out her hand and tried to pat Shizi on the back.

Chunna's words created ripples in Shizi's heart.

Something seemed to resonate with these words.

She suddenly changed direction and ran to her room: "Sorry, Junna, I suddenly had an idea, go eat by yourself!"

"Oh...oh." Junna's hands were still in the air. She stared blankly in the direction where Shizi left, not knowing what was going on.

On the other side, another person came: "Xingjian classmate."

Junna turned around and saw Maya. Her expression was as serious as ever.

"Tonight," she said. "Whether we can leave here depends on tonight."

Chapter 14: Hymn of Rebirth

"Just..." Junna repeated halfway before she realized, "So soon?"

Maya handed her a piece of paper: "Tonight's plan." She looked at Shizi who was running away, but the latter had disappeared behind the corner of the wall.

"Has she not recovered yet?" Maya asked.

Junna nodded: "Yeah."

"I'll go inform her," Maya said as she was about to go over, "Tell her to stay in her room tonight and not come out."

"Wait," Junna called her, "Her condition is critical right now, don't disturb her."

Shizi ignored the heat and almost fell into the door.

With the ice bucket in the corner, she finally breathed a sigh of relief and calmed down.

Her heart was beating wildly in her chest.

There seemed to be something in my mind that was about to be revealed, but there was always a layer missing. When I tried to explore it carefully, it hid deeper and there was no trace of it.