Why play in a band if you don't form one for life?

"Did they have a quarrel?"

Shizi gently wiped away the tears from Yili's face.

"And... 'her'."

ps: Last Friday night, I updated Xiduo Jiaojiao, and I was full of confidence, but no one discussed it qwq

This time, I don’t believe it. I spent an entire afternoon writing a 1600-word youth version of Shimamura’s Blade. It must be…

Chapter 34: Paranoia

"Did you have a fight? With... 'her'."

You can hear the needle drop at the scene.

"'She'... means..." Kita came out from her hiding place, her eyes were still red, but she didn't bother to hide them.

"Hmm? I made it very clear. I meant -" Shizi sat in the crowded Haizhijia. She spoke in a low voice so that no one could hear her. But her voice remained unchanged. "Another me."

"You... know?" Shizi turned her head and saw Mizuchi Jingjiu, a girl with long sky-blue hair and a mature figure, looking at her calmly.

Shizi smiled at her. "Shuizhi-senpai, no, Jingjiu. And..." A blonde girl who looked like a doll and a brown-haired boy came out of the kitchen.

"Tsumugi, Haneri." Shiko called out their names.

"Nice to meet you." Yuiri greeted politely.

"Mum! Hello~" Tsumuga greeted naturally.

They are all characters from Summer Pockets. Shizi had checked before and found that in this world, Summer Pockets is just a game.

Shizi looked at the three people and smiled. However, her hands clenched behind her back turned pale. After a long while, she seemed to have made up her mind.

She lowered her eyelids: "You...are all fake, right?"

As Shiko's voice fell, the world in her eyes stopped for a moment. The other guests in the Sea House stopped all their movements and the conversations suddenly stopped. Except for Kita, Ichiri, Shizuhisa, Tsumugi, and Yuiri, the whole world lost its color.

Jingjiu and the other two still looked at her with the same expressions.

"Why do you have to point it out?" Yuiri said, "You can continue like this, no one will blame you."

Shizi turned his back and said, "I often find that people are talking to me about this one second, and the topic changes to something completely different the next second. Also, people say that I wrote the music score even though I have no recollection of it."

"There are many such things. I also had some strange dreams. In the dream, I was fighting disgusting monsters with others. Injuries were commonplace."

"I gradually began to wonder if there was another me, living in a completely different world from mine. And it was a world that was very different from the real world, where my existence would only cause trouble. I could only try to make up for the trouble and do what I could for everyone, so, 'make you smile', I said."

Shizi stood up and paced between the five people and the customers who looked like plaster sculptures: "But a patient is a patient. A second personality with delusions will sooner or later be dealt with."

"We will find a suitable solution." Yili calmed down a little and controlled his emotions, "Absolutely - we will not harm Shizi."

Shizi smiled and looked at her: "I know that everyone is a gentle person and they don't really want to kill me. I was just a little worried, so I pretended I knew nothing. But when I woke up today, I saw Yili crying so sadly."

"I have never been so sad. Maybe the other me did something excessive? Maybe the time has come. I think so. Anyway, it will be done sooner or later, so why not be cruel and solve everything now. There is still something to be done."

"Do something?" Kita asked.

"If we want to mediate, both parties have to be present," Jingjiu said.

"Then go ahead. Go and bring her back." Yuiri walked to the kitchen door and took out a key.

Shizi saw it and grinned: "This is Ou's key, why is it with you?"

Yuiri nodded his head: "Ask yourself. There is not enough material." He opened the door, and there was only darkness inside, as if inviting Shizi to come in. He turned around and waved to Shizi: "Bon voyage."

A stuffed duck fell to the ground.

Then it was Tsumugi. She was still smiling, but tears welled up in her eyes: "Are you going back?"

"Yeah." Shizi picked up the duck doll, and together with Shizuku, they held Tsumugi's hands on each side, saying goodbye to her like in the game: "Happy birthday, Tsumugi."

What they were holding was a teddy bear stuffed animal.

"Finally, is it me?" Jingjiu covered his chest with one hand, looking a little lonely.

Shiko's face was already covered with tears. But she continued. "Thank you, Shizuku, you helped me a lot." She looked at Kita and Ichiri, "When they had a conflict before, you helped me to persuade Ichiri."

Jingjiu shook her head: "That's you. But if you think this is my role, let me do you one last favor." She took out a notebook like magic and handed it to Shizi.

"Do you know what's inside?"

"Yes." Shizi took it with a smile, "It's a record of Jingjiu helping others."

She was talking to the cow doll in front of her.

"Shizi..." Yili came closer.

Shizi wiped away her tears with her sleeves. She placed the three dolls on the front desk and walked to the kitchen door with her notebook in her arms. She turned back and made a cool gesture: "Ichiri, Kita, I'll be back soon."

Then he jumped into the abyss.

The voices behind him soon faded away. It seemed as if ten thousand years had passed, and yet it seemed only a moment.

dark.

After this infinitely long and infinitely short moment passed, she adapted to the darkness and successfully moved inside. She couldn't tell up from down, left from right, but she knew she was moving and where she was going. She floated up naturally -

Towards the only colorful direction in the distance.

Shizi was floating in the darkness with her eyes closed. Shizi floated to her side and touched her cheek.

"From a third person's perspective, I'm really cute." She muttered, and tried a few more times, gradually increasing the force on her hands, "Wake up, wake up, Shizi."

Shizi's tightly closed eyelids fluttered slightly. Finally, she opened her eyes.

"Where...is this place?" She saw Shizi, "Who are you?"

"I am you." Shizi shook his head helplessly.

Shizi suddenly realized: "It turned out to be me!"

"It was me." Shizi nodded and casually continued the other party's joke, "You made Yili cry. She has never been so sad. What happened?"

Shizi smiled bitterly: "It's because I said something I shouldn't have said." She explained the reason. Shizi gradually understood: "Is that so, that's what you think."

Shizi asked, "So what do you think? About ending the band."

Shizi rubbed his chin and organized his words: "I used to...be the same as you. I thought that the band should end with four people, no more, no less. Gradually, this idea began to change, until a certain moment, it was almost when the summer vacation started, this idea disappeared, I just wanted to form the closest partnership with the girls I loved the most, forever, nothing else mattered."

"What happened at the beginning of summer vacation?" she asked Shizi.

Shizi was silent for a while, then answered, "Ms. Marina is dead."

Chapter 35 Rainbow Butterfly

“Eh?” Shizi’s pupils trembled. “No wonder. If there hadn’t been such a thing, I wouldn’t have been born.”

Shiko lowered her eyelids. "And, from that time on, contrary to you, my original idea became even more stubborn. Also... it was because of Ms. Marina."

"Anyway, what are you doing here?" She changed the subject and raised her face to face Shizi.

"Didn't I tell you? Yili is very sad." Shizi picked up the notebook and hit it on Shizi's head. The notebook turned into stardust and flew into Shizi's head. "Go and comfort her."

"Just to call me out earlier, you come to see me on your own initiative?" Shizi thought it was ridiculous. "Aren't you afraid that I will kill you here? Then I will become a normal person directly." A long sword appeared in Shizi's hand at some point.

Looking at the sword, Shizi chuckled: "Can you do it to me? I know my own business best - you are the last person to kill me." She took the initiative to lift the sword and put it against her neck.

"come?"

Shi Zi didn't move.

Shizi looked sarcastic and continued, "But I know that I can't show up so often anymore. Ms. Marina is dead. Isn't your world very dangerous?"

Shizi sighed, and the sword in his hand turned into particles and flew away: "I'm thinking of a way to have the best of both worlds, such as creating a body for you, and then find a way to move you into it."

"Can you do it?" Shizi's eyes lit up, and she grabbed Shizi's shoulders, trying to see hope in the other's eyes.

"…Not yet. A body that can function normally and be controlled by the soul is too complicated. I can't just create one. There is only one thing—" Shizi broke away from the other party, and a jade slip appeared in his hand. "I have made some progress in analyzing this thing, and I can transfer you into it."

"Then, let's mold it into a human shape?" Shizi rubbed his chin.

Shizi thought about it seriously. "I will try my best." Shizi made a solemn promise to Shizi.

Shizi finally felt relieved and waved his hand: "Then go back quickly, we can talk about this later, Yili is waiting."

However, Shizi lowered his head: "Not yet."

"what?"

"How should I reply to Yili? You know, I was determined to leave the band at the beginning. I started to hesitate recently, that is, when I started to get in touch with you." Shizi was distressed, "I am still hesitating even now."

"Even when she jumped on you and performed Shimamura Blade, it couldn't change your mind?" Shizi looked at her with disdain, "Scum."

"That's exactly it." Shizi sighed, "I'm very happy that she likes me... But when I think about Ichiri actually liking someone who shouldn't exist normally, I start to feel uncomfortable. I must be mentally ill. The former feeling can't suppress the latter. If this continues, I'm afraid I'll have to have another personality."

"I'm sick in the first place..." Shizi answered reflexively, but then began to rub her chin, as if thinking about something. "My love for them is nothing compared to my persistence in the original work... and I love them completely and don't care that much about the original work..." She seemed to have thought of a possibility.

Shizi held his forehead with his hand: "Ha~ what a hassle."

"I understand. Then, I will share my feelings with you."

Shizi was stunned: "Is this also possible?"

"The feelings I took away from you in the first place, I'm just giving them back to you. You have to give me your feelings back too." Shizi was not sure, "Our feelings for them now are incomplete. You lack love for them, and I lack love for the original work. The two should have been one, so I took the initiative to greet Ichiri and planned to get Kita to join the band."

Shizi recalled his past experiences.

“Maybe it’s not completely severed.” She said, “I still participated in the band practice for Hongxia.”

"That would be great, wouldn't it?" Shizi held out his hand to Shizi. "Since we have a tendency to influence each other, why not do it faster?"

After a moment of hesitation, Shizi took the hand. Shizi pressed against Shizi's forehead. Glowing blue butterflies emerged from the bodies of the two Shizis. These were the Seven Shadow Butterflies, Shizi's memories. More and more Seven Shadow Butterflies gathered in the darkness, dancing and gradually enveloping the two.

"Do you know what to do?" Shizi asked with his eyes closed.

"of course."

A ray of light, like a butterfly, flew out from the fingertips of the two people and was held by the other party.

A faint light shines in the endless darkness and lasts for a long time.

When the butterflies flew away, the two stood facing each other, their eyes filled with emotion.

“It turns out that the band is so important to me.”

"It turns out that you have been living in such a world."

The two looked at each other and smiled.

"See you later, Shizi." Shizi's figure gradually faded away.

"See you later, Shizi." Shizi's figure gradually faded away.

White light flashed before Shizi's eyes. The darkness began to fade away. Gravity began to return, and she was standing in a study.

"This is..." She glanced around, and her gradually forgotten memories began to return.

This was her home in her previous life. Bookshelves, desks and chairs, test papers, reference books, all neatly arranged. She pulled out a chair, sat on it, picked up a pen, and opened the test paper.

I can't even do the first question.

She chuckled, dropped her pen, stood up, and looked out the window.

Outside the window was a familiar scene, with cars running on the road. Opposite was a high school, next to other residential areas, and office buildings. In the distance, across two streets, was the riverbank. She passed through the glass, opened her arms, and flew towards the riverbank.

The tide was coming. Not high, just the size of a wave. She watched a few people taking pictures on the shore. So she slowly descended toward the shore. Standing on the ground, in front of her was the gate of the high school. Shizi looked up with her schoolbag on her back. The banner at the school gate said that today was the day of the college entrance examination.

"College entrance examination? I can't answer any questions." Shizi walked into the school timidly.

She stepped into the door of the examination room. In an instant, she was standing in the university classroom, with no one around. She crossed her arms, walked to the window, glanced at the university scenery, and then turned around without any nostalgia and walked out the door.

She stood in mid-air, at the end of a metal platform. Below her feet was a thin layer of clouds, and below that was the hustle and bustle of the city. She saw Tokyo Tower. The strong wind in the stratosphere blew up her long hair and the hem of her clothes. But she was able to stand firm.

At the edge of the city, the world was collapsing. Steel and concrete were silently shattering and falling into the void. Outside was endless darkness, the same place where Shizi was before.

"The fantasy is shattered." A voice came from behind.

Shizi turned around. Her hair blew into her eyes, and she pushed it away.

"I see."

A giraffe stands behind.