Longmen Memoirs

"You're complaining about the Guards Bureau."

"How dare I." Foxhound waved his chopsticks nonchalantly: "I just hope this city can be better, but I don't have anything to say. Most of us can't decide what we can do."

Foxhound got drunk as he talked.

His drinking capacity was not very good. Chen Mo knew that he probably wasn't very good, but he didn't talk nonsense or drive people crazy with alcohol. He just slowly lay down on the table and became quiet.

His words were filled with the concerns of a young and upright police officer about the future of the Guards Bureau, as well as the melancholy that gradually became helpless under the polish of reality.

Chen Mo couldn't tell whether he really valued Longmen, or whether it was just a temporary statement he made up. He seemed to have lowered his guard in front of him, or maybe he felt that he would not do anything to him.

This confidence comes from him.

On the way back, Chen Mo walked in the night with the foxhound on his back.

The rain finally stopped. He put his hand on Chen Mo's shoulder, and his gentle breathing sounded in his ears. He was not heavy, and was much lighter than expected.

The noise gradually faded away.

The night wind after the rain blew against his face, and Chen Mo could clearly feel the warmth coming from his back. Walper's tail was twitching and his pointed ears were drooping.

The voice-activated light in the corridor did not light up, so Chen Mo had to climb upstairs in the dark. The sound of footsteps was very clear in the dark stairs. With one hand, he took out the spare key he put in his bag and opened the iron door.

The lights on the elevated road had dimmed a lot when they came over. The distant lights of the city in the distance were brilliant, and only the sound of wind could be heard in the night.

After placing the foxhound on the bed, Chen Mo breathed out gently.

He looked down at the man on the bed. After all, he didn't kindly take off his clothes for him. He just covered him with the quilt and closed the door.

The room fell back into darkness.

In the darkness, Foxhound's closed eyes opened. He looked in the direction of the door, his raised hand pressed on his forehead, and his orange hair was scattered on the pillow.

Some memories flash through my mind, but they are not so clear.

Chen Mo opened the long box containing Chi Xiao again, and the scarlet blade was placed in front of him.

He remembered what Foxhound had said.

Longmen is not as peaceful as it seems.

He felt that he would always know Wei Yanwu's intentions, and when the news about Kazdel came back, everything would come to an end.

He had already told Wei Yanwu his intention.

They could have used the most plain way to understand, but the arrogant Governor of Longmen didn't seem to feel the need to lower his head.

This is normal.

Because he stood too high.

The years of ruling Longmen had made his life too smooth. He needed someone to help him remember that he was just a mortal.

Chapter 6 Past events

[The death of a person is just one more grave for the world, but for those who depend on each other, it is the whole world buried in the cemetery]

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Later, Su Li would always recall her encounter with Chen Mo. She was almost treated as a door-to-door salesperson. Although they all knew that it was probably just a joke, which was enough to show Chen Mo's distrust of Foxhound, a stranger. He was quite wary.

After more than ten years of separation, Chen Mo failed to recognize him. Su Li couldn't help but feel a little disappointed, but he also felt a little lucky. Fortunately, he was still alive to see him again after ten years of separation. In this world This is a rare but rare story on earth, even if he may have forgotten himself.

He forgot every bit of that little resettlement camp in the corner of the city, and that there was a shrugging Wolper kid who always liked to follow behind him.

He has always been a bit disgusted, but he can't get around being soft-spoken and soft-hearted.

Longmen is a very big city, and its hugeness is a barrier that two little children cannot get around. Even if they both know that each other is somewhere in this city, even if they both know that once they are separated, they will not be able to get around it. The chances of seeing each other again are frighteningly slim.

But Su Li didn't care about this at that time. She just waited for Chen Mo to write to her. She waited for an autumn, a winter, a spring, and a year and two years. Three years.

She never gave up.

She likes to sit under the stairs next to the entrance of the orphanage. Sometimes she suddenly realizes that someone is reading his name and calling her fox cub, but when she looks over, that person has never appeared behind the iron gate. figure.

He should have forgotten what happened back then, or maybe he just lost news about himself. The little fox is always used to comforting himself like this.

She spent her childhood in the orphanage like this. Among the friends she made in the orphanage during her childhood, there were also older children who would bully her. Because she seemed to be easily bullied and she didn't like to talk, so people called her mute. In fact, she Regardless of what these children thought, she didn't have much nostalgia for her life in the orphanage.

When she was 13 years old, a couple from Longmen wanted to adopt her. They took a liking to this quiet Wolper girl at first sight because that couple was also a Wolper.

But Su Li didn't want to be adopted. She didn't want to leave the orphanage. This was his only chance to find him. Su Li didn't know how she would find her original place in this huge dragon gate after she left here. That boy.

That was the first time she expressed her opinion, the first time she showed her resistance. Fortunately, the director of the orphanage was a nice person, but she still told Su Li in a serious voice, urging her to follow the couple and leave. Because after the age of 16, she must leave the orphanage whether she wants it or not, and by then, how will she survive in this city as a completely different person.

She is a girl and she will have a hard life.

Su Li never thought about this.

"I want to find someone." She asked the dean at that time: "What should I do?"

This was not the first time the dean had seen the pleading look, but the firm look in the little girl in front of her still surprised her.

"Is it your friend?"

"Well, but we later separated when we were in the resettlement camp. I knew that he was also in this city. I didn't know how to find him."

"So you want to stay here and wait for her, right, Xiao Su." The dean said with a gentle expression, "But Xiao Su, Longmen is a very big city, and your friend may have been adopted by others. "

After all, the dean couldn't bear it and told the little fox in front of him that your friend has probably forgotten you. Yes, how could he not forget you?

How can one year or two years be inferior to the short few months in the resettlement camp?

Su Li didn't speak. She just looked at the dean. The weak little girl who kept silent after being bullied showed stronger courage, or in other words, stubbornness, than those older children.

She didn't know, she just felt that if she agreed with the dean, she might lose something, something she didn't want but couldn't keep.

She is a homeless fox. She has lost her last family member, but the orphanage cannot be her home. She has only one thing left to think about.

Sometimes, people just need a thought and a hug.

So later, the dean told her that the Guards Bureau had information about everyone in the city, including the original personnel distribution of the orphanage resettlement camp. Only the Guards Bureau had the most detailed filing information.

But almost no one would believe that a child had tried this as her only hope at that time. Maybe even she herself felt that that person would never come to her. Even though she had waited for so long, she was a stubborn child. , she has huge obsessions hidden in her heart, and these obsessions can easily turn into courage.

She didn't leave many memorable memories in the orphanage. She just lived step by step and kept living. No one cared what this Wolper girl thought. There were too many children in the orphanage and there was nothing worthwhile about her. Others care.

She is ordinary, pitiful, and just like many children here, except that he doesn't like to talk and seems to be easy to bully.

The children who left the orphanage held the hands of their adoptive parents and left. Before leaving, some would take away the belongings they left behind, and some would give the belongings to their friends.

Su Li also has a friend, a gentle and timid little Feilin.

When she left, she gave Su Li her only children's watch. The cheap watch was worn on her hand. It had stopped moving after losing its battery, and the display screen went dark.

Time has been stopped forever, but it seems that time has never stopped moving.

She got a souvenir, but lost something. She didn't know what she lost. She had never gone to school or studied, so she didn't know how to describe her feelings at that time.

Later she realized that it was called envy and reluctance, but compared with these, it was even more lonely.

Since.

The silent fox disappeared and was replaced by a fox terrier who always liked to talk. She quickly became a star among the children in the orphanage by using the stories she heard when she was a child and her own fabrications. We loved listening to the stories she told because they were the only fun besides the cartoons played on the only TV in the orphanage.

The 13-year-old Fox fought for the first time. He pushed the child Wang who always liked to bully to the ground and beat him until he ran away. Even though she had scars from the opponent's fists on her body, the Fox was even more cruel and she couldn't help it. However, girls of the same age always develop faster than boys.

From then on, she became the new child king of the orphanage. The boys who usually liked to bully her had fear in their eyes when they saw her. No one came to please her. She still lived step by step, but at this time she had become The less popular group in the orphanage.

She would occasionally slip out of the orphanage wall. The low wall could not stop a escaping fox, nor could it stop the curiosity and yearning in her heart.

But the gantry is too big.

The older fox could no longer tell the difference between east, west and north after leaving the wall of the orphanage. The older fox sat on a bench and watched the people coming and going in front of her but was helpless.

She didn't know where those cars were leading, nor where she should go. No one was standing in front of her, asking her to follow her footsteps, so she didn't have to think about it anymore.

No one came to protect her from the wind and rain, no one paid attention to whether she would like it, and no one would take her to get some candies in front of the police officers of the Guards Bureau from time to time.

But she still goes out from time to time.

Autumn, winter, summer, spring.She felt that they would always meet.

She didn't care about time. In one year or two years, she had a small diary, in which she drew a picture of the young fox's exploration and understanding of this Longmen. In it, the teacher in the courtyard told her about the urban life of Longmen. distributed.

She wanted to find the orphanage hidden in a corner of Longmen and send those letters she wrote every year to someone.

But she would never have thought that the person she was looking for had already disappeared in Longmen.

14 years old.

She left the orphanage. In fact, she had stayed long enough. New children came in and old children left. Long enough that there were only a few children left that he knew. With her, she became the orphanage. The slow-moving goods inside.

She was always good at using her advantages to please the volunteers and students who came to the orphanage. Perhaps from that time on, the fox cub turned into a fox terrier.

She can be cunning, alert, glib and flattering, but at the same time she can also be calm, calm, and even harsh and indifferent. She can always show a side that is compatible with others, but because of this, no one has ever really tried to No one who knew her would understand her and what she was thinking about a child in an orphanage.

She looks so happy and she makes a good impression every time.

Relying on these and five or six years of exploration, she managed to avoid losing her direction the moment she stepped out of the orphanage.

She can no longer protect her, nor can she accompany her anymore. She has to protect herself and find a way to survive in this dragon gate. She not only has to survive, but also has to live a better life, so good that when When someone finds her, it's good enough that she can find that person.

She didn't think about what she would do after she found him, and she followed him as usual. Or maybe by then, he had forgotten her and became a complete stranger.

She has not thought about this result, and she can't even say like or love. She doesn't understand those things. She just knows that that person is very important to her, so important that if she can't find him, she will definitely regret it for the rest of her life.

She is always so stupid, silly and naive, she doesn't like to talk, she is just bitter and hateful.

14-year-old Su Li left the shelter of the orphanage.

Living alone in this city, just like most homeless orphans do when they leave, hiding her age, she has done many things.

Longmen never lacks ways to do things, even if it’s just a child.

She cut her long hair short and dressed like a brat, imitating a boy's tone and dirtying her face.

Unconsciously she has learned to disguise.

I worked as a part-time worker, a waiter, picked up garbage, and went to a supermarket. For a period of time, I lived in a slum in a slum and made a living on rotten vegetable leaves from the vegetable market. That was compared to the corner of an alley or in front of someone else's door. Of course, if possible, she would occasionally hide in an abandoned building in the edge city, or an old apartment that had long lost its owner.

It is very common in places like Longmen. Either one disappears without a trace one day and is beaten to death in an alley corner at night. Or one gets into trouble with a gang and is killed at will. Or the Source Stone disease has reached an advanced stage. , painfully losing breath.

The public security in Longmen is very good, but that is compared to the upper city area. People living in the lower city area always have this kind of secret, stealing, robbing, drug trafficking...

She could no longer remember that the prosperity of the big city was always far away from a small character like her. She lived cautiously and did not mess with anyone. She regarded those gangsters as her big brothers and booed in front of others. He walks his horse and doesn't stand up for anyone, hoping that they won't give him a slap if they don't like him.

She became more and more able to speak, and became more and more accustomed to this bleak life.

She doesn't have many abilities, nor does she have the support left by her father's generation. She is even thin and weak due to malnutrition. She is the lowest group of people in Longmen, and even some of the infected people are more comfortable than she is.

If she could, she could drop everything and join those gangs, big and small, and still live a good life. She has the ability, but she doesn't, because the black information and criminal records left behind make her unwilling to contact them.

She would rather live like this.

No one looked at this little guy who was barely living in Longmen. She seemed to be living in freedom, but only she knew how.

Sometimes huddled in a dark, cold and smelly shack, she would wonder what it would be like to be adopted.

Maybe now she should be lying on a soft and warm bed, hugging the white quilt, thinking about what to talk to her friends and classmates when she goes to school tomorrow. Maybe she will talk about the latest movies, magazines, clothes, or maybe talk about a certain hotel. I made an appointment to try the desserts from the dessert shop in the afternoon after school.

She shouldn't have been wearing this old cotton-padded jacket that hadn't been replaced in several years, and a crappy watch that couldn't be started even after replacing the battery. She should not have walked past the window and stopped outside to look enviously at the beautiful views and sample pastries inside.

She has not tasted sweetness as a taste for many years. She has only eaten up all the bitterness and spicyness.

Do you regret it?Of course, she would regret it more or less, and it would be abnormal not to regret it, but if it happened again, she would still make the same choice.

Su Li knew.

She could no longer recognize two strangers as her parents, and she was not sure. She was afraid that once she was immersed in that kind of tenderness, she would forget many things.

She was afraid of forgetting it, because it was the only thing she could decide to keep.

After turning 16, life became better and better, not only because she had grown up, but more importantly, she had adapted to the life in the lower city.

She has never forgotten how to study, even though she has missed many years of studying, and there is not much leisure left for her.

There are always things in the world that many people think are impossible, but there are indeed people who can do it.

She is that kind of person.

She learned to be a philistine in Xiacheng District, learned to tell lies, and learned how to make her smile look sincere. In this way, she wore too many masks.