Longmen Memoirs

Chen didn't like Chen Mo very much, maybe it was just because both of them had the word "Chen" in their names. For Tallulah, Chen was no longer the only one.

She was afraid that Chen Mo would take away Tallulah, just like when Chen Mo had been by Tallulah's side during these days in the orphanage, Chen was afraid that Tallulah would never need her again, but at the same time, it was ridiculous Unfortunately, Chen Mo also had the same idea in his heart.

But he is not like Chen, who is as cunning as he knows how to hide his thoughts and will not show them clearly on his face, so Chen is still a child.

An afternoon in the orphanage.

When Tallulah was not with him, Chen Mo held the cardboard box that Ms. Kamiya asked him to put in the warehouse. The cardboard box contained the sundries left over from Christmas. He passed by the small balcony on the second floor, where At that time, he saw Chen sitting alone in front of the balcony, holding the wooden fence with both hands and staring down.

Next to the sink in the small square is Ms. Lan Min washing clothes.

"What are you looking at?"

Chen Mo stopped and asked. Chen turned around and looked at him, then looked away as if nothing happened.

"none of your business!"

In her eyes, Chen Mo may have become the same person as Tallulah, a loyal fan of Tallulah. However, Chen Mo's relationship with her was limited to being a friend of Tallulah's friends, and he still disliked her very much. That type of person, no wonder she behaves so coldly.

"You are looking at Ms. Lan Min." Chen Mo stood behind her and followed her gaze.

"Have you thought of another way to tease her? I won't tell you, but although Ms. Lan Min is a very good person, she can be very scary when she gets angry!" Chen Mo reminded kindly.

He could never forget the two unfortunate guys who were thrown out of the kitchen by their collars.

Chen turned around and glared at him.

"Did Tallulah send you?"

Chen Mo was not caught by her ferocious look. On the contrary, Chen's look in his eyes was even a little cute, but if he wanted to continue to say something to her, he couldn't answer this question.

"Didn't you see it?" Chen Mo shook the cardboard box in his hand: "I'm working."

"Hmph." She glanced at the cardboard box in Chen Mo's hand and hummed softly.

"Tallulah told me that you are her sister, but to be honest, I don't think you are like a sister at all." Chen Mo put down the cardboard box and sat on it.In front of him was Chen's figure sitting on a small bench.

"You look like a sister. I'm curious, why did you find this place? Do you know where this place is?"

Chen didn't look back.

"I know even if you don't tell me, you came here because you felt you were in debt to Tallulah. Your surname is Chen, and that's the Chen Mansion."

"Don't act like you know everything!"

Chen suddenly stood up, her scarlet eyes staring at Chen Mo's plain and childish face, and her clenched fists made people think that she would not be able to help but take action at the next moment.

"You want to hit me?" Chen Mo glanced at Chen's fist and raised his head to look at Chen's angry face.

"How dare you try talking nonsense again?!"

"If you hit me, I'll tell Tallulah!" Chen Mo choked.

"You... despicable!"

"I can help you. I am the only friend of Tallulah here." Chen Mo said, "If I want to help you, you can make peace with her soon."

"Well..." She became a little confused and put down her raised fist: "...you want to help me?"

She looked at Chen Mo with distrustful eyes. She really didn't believe Chen Mo.

A person's feelings for another person are usually determined by the impact of their first meeting, and unfortunately, because of Tallulah, Chen's first impression of Chen Mo was not very good.

"I want to help you." Chen Mo nodded, stood up, and kicked the cardboard box under his feet.

Chen understood, so he picked up the carton with a face full of reluctance and reluctance.

"Are you okay now?" She stared at Chen Mo and asked, "How are you going to help me?"

"Have you never thought about the reason why Tallulah would do this?"

"Of course I know!" Chen squeezed the corner of the carton tightly with his hands and sunk deeply into it, but his voice suddenly dropped and he lowered his head, leaving only his tightly clenched fingers.

How could I not know, how could I not know, because I said it, but I didn't keep my promise.

"You are very selfish, Chen Huijie." Chen Mo stopped and said, "You know she doesn't like it there, you know she had a hard time escaping from there, but you want her to think of that again, you come here, you come here She, you know she will forgive you.”

When he said these words, Chen Mo didn't have revenge in his heart.Revenge against an eight-year-old girl was easy for him, even with words.

"I..." Chen wanted to retort, but facing Chen Mo's naked gaze, she couldn't say a word.But her stubbornness and the courage she finally mustered up did not allow her to retreat like this.

Taking a step back, she was afraid that she would never be able to muster the courage to convince herself again.

"But I promised her to protect her." She found an excuse for herself.

"You can't protect her forever."

"What does it matter if it lasts a lifetime!"

She said this very seriously, as if she was speaking to Chen Mo, and as if she was trying to persuade herself.

"Are you serious?" Chen Mo looked surprised.

"She is my relative. How can a person like you understand what a relative is?" Chen seemed to be suddenly stimulated and dropped the cardboard box in his hand.

Chen Mo watched her run further and further away.

The debris in the carton fell to the floor, splashing and falling. Broken blocks, cards, and paper flowers fell all over the ground.

You are only eight years old. You will inevitably make some mistakes. You are just a child. It doesn't matter if you make mistakes. Adults will forgive you because you are a child.

How can a person like me understand what a relative is?

Chen Mo raised his head. He thought of some bad things.

But...yeah, you're right.

I am not qualified or worthy to mention these two words.

Chapter 26 New Year’s Eve

A person's life may sound long, but it is also very short. What is long is that when you get together with the person you like, time will always pass by very briefly, but when you lose that person, time will feel like a long time. It's like pressing the slow play button, it seems extremely long.

Before meeting Tallulah, Chen Mo's every day was boring, but after meeting her, the distance from morning to dusk suddenly became blurry. Often the first thing he saw when he got up was The bright sunshine in the morning, but when I came back to my senses, it was already sunset.

Miss Chen will not always stay in the orphanage. Although she would like to do so, she cannot.

She had no right to choose, just like Chen Mo had no right to choose at that time. Their lives were quietly moving forward on a certain path that had already been planned, without allowing the slightest deviation.

She has her own life, her own school and her own classmates. Only on weekends can she take time to come to the orphanage and spend a whole day with them.

She cherished this day very much, cherished it extremely much. It would be better to say that she only cherished Tallulah, and other people in the orphanage were not that important in her eyes. Of course, these other people also included Chen Mo.

Especially Chen Mo.

When she comes, she always talks about some interesting things that happened in school, such as who she taught a lesson today, who has a long runny nose, and who was forced by her family to wear girl's clothes. clothing.

Thanks to that person, she has been liberated from the private school teacher at home. She is innocent and romantic when she is free.

Chen Mo was just a listener, listening to her and Tallulah talking about these things. When she first heard this, Tallulah was very yearning, but then she slowly became disappointed.

She was unwilling to hear Chen talk about these things at first, so that Chen never mentioned them again.

Gradually, the relationship between Tallulah and Chen slowly became better again due to her "efforts", and then... Tallulah betrayed her and Chen Mo's shared secret.

Chen Mo was not surprised by this, so the secret of the two of them became the secret of three people. Maybe there will be more people in the future, or maybe not, he doesn't know.

And every time Chen Mo came, Chen Mo would see the man standing at the door. He came in the morning, and then again in the afternoon, but he never entered the door of the orphanage.

He would never set foot here, as if he was guarding something, and there seemed to be something in the orphanage that was difficult for him to face.

Although the relationship between Tallulah and Chen was getting better and better, Chen Mo had never seen Tallulah send Chen off. Her eyes told Chen Mo that what she was actually thinking about was what she was avoiding.

Chen probably knew that, so even though he was reluctant to give up, he never asked for anything.

She already felt satisfied.

There seems to be a subtle distance between the three of them, and it seems to be a set of rules that only Chen Mo doesn't know.

He could vaguely sense the relationship between Tallulah, Chen, and that man.

And that man probably already knew about the relationship between himself, Chen, and Tallulah, so whenever Chen Mo sent Chen Mo off on his behalf, he would give Chen Mo a gentle and gentlemanly smile.

Their childhoods were mixed in the intricate mist between the three of them. Chen Mo could vaguely feel that there was an invisible web woven behind it, which was unfathomable enough to shatter him to pieces.

But he still couldn't help but want to step into it, so that in the next many years, his life was bumpy and stumbling.

Chen always had endless things to say and endless energy. Chen Mo envied her at this point, but what he didn't know was that the side of her shown to him was actually far different from her past.

In that tall, spacious building with deep lights, even simple breathing would feel difficult and depressing. The air seemed to be so stagnant that it was almost suffocating. Even trying to force yourself to smile seemed far-fetched.

While Chen Mo envied her, she actually also envied Chen Mo, envied his free life, envied his unfettered life, envied him being able to stay with Tallulah, if it could be exchanged.

Chen Mo had no doubt that Chen would choose to leave there, leave the cage that was called "home" but only had a superficial appearance.

Tallulah's departure made Chen regretful and at the same time feel a little happy for her. But at the same time, she also had a selfish heart and selfishly wanted to keep the other person by her side.

After all, Chen actually felt lonely and scared when he stayed there alone, and it would be a long time before Chen Mo truly understood this.

It has been so long that Chen Mo can no longer remember what happened in the past, so long that they have been separated and can no longer see each other's figures, and can no longer hear the laughter that echoed in the streets and alleys of Longmen.

New Year's Eve, February 1079, 2, Crystal Era

The orphanage prepared another sumptuous dinner today. Different from Christmas, today the orphanage was filled with a festive red color.

But what was rare was that neither Chen Mo nor Tallulah showed too much joy.

In the small attic on the third floor.

Tallulah snuggled next to Chen Mo, and they looked at the city in the distance outside the glass window. It must be more lively than Christmas there at the moment. After all, it is New Year's Eve, and it is such an important festival after all.

No matter how busy they are, everyone will take time to spend time with their loved ones at home, even if it is just to make a phone call.

"She won't come."

Tallulah's red eyes reflected the lights of the city, but she was missing someone deep in her eyes.

"I knew she wouldn't come," Tallulah replied softly.

But he still couldn't help but hope and expect that she would suddenly appear next to him, just like she suddenly appeared at the door of the orphanage that day.

"Chen Mo, do you think we will live there in the future?" She pointed at the city outside the glass and murmured.

"Longmen is very beautiful." Chen Mo said, "If you wish, we will stay here in the future."

Tallulah hugged Chen Mo's arm tightly. She turned her head and leaned lightly on his shoulder.

"But Longmen is so big. It's so big. Where should we stay?"

"Anywhere is fine." Chen Mo tilted his head and leaned on Tallulah's head, the tip of his nose filled with the faint fragrance of the girl's hair.

"I will be with you every Christmas, every New Year's Eve, every spring, summer, autumn and winter, every sunrise and sunset." Chen Mo held the girl's hand and said:

"We can walk together on the streets of Longmen, pass the tram, walk through the park, and walk through the crowd. We can also leave here and go to Colombia, Yanguo, Victoria, and everywhere you want to go."

"What about Chen?"

"That's great." Her eyes were full of expectation and she squeezed Chen Mo's hand.

"Chen Mo, why are you so nice to me?" She raised her head slightly and asked.

"Why?" Chen Mo looked at the tall buildings under the dark sky, thinking of the day she first saw Talulah.

It was raining so heavily and the orphanage was pitch dark. She was brought in from the rain wearing a coat that was dragged to the ground. She sat on the edge of the bed and stared blankly at the unfamiliar things around her. At that moment , he suddenly felt that the child in front of him was a little pitiful, like a little transparent child who had been thrown away and no one wanted it.

Everyone knew what she was thinking, but no one cared.

But when she looked at herself and at the crack in the door, her eyes suddenly became vivid.

Maybe from that moment on, he had inevitably had the idea of ​​picking her up, washing her, and taking her home.

"Because you found me." Chen Mo said: "I went to open the door and met you on the day you came, and you opened the door again and found me. You were the first person to find me. As a My first customer, how could I not take special care of you."

He was talking like a new restaurant opened on the roadside.The restaurant opened the door and the first customer walked in. Everyone cordially invited her to sit down and told her that she could enjoy a lifetime of free drink service.

"So am I so lucky?" Tallulah asked in surprise.

"No, how can you be so lucky?" Chen Mo couldn't help pinching Tallulah's face.

That's a lifetime.