Longmen Memoirs

Wise giving up is better than blind persistence.

Chen Aimo's empty eyes were heartbreaking, and Chen Mo's heart gradually became silent. Watching him personally shatter the sad extravagant hopes and illusions in Chen's heart, watching those things Chen cherished crashing in the heavy rain. Collapse, along with the memories and past of him and Chen, will also be seen as hatred after this shameful betrayal.

There is no possibility of looking back.

Chen Mo was lying on the water-logged ground, as if falling into the rain under his eyes and the narrow hazy sky in the alley above his head.

A feeling that something was being lost but could not be stopped spread in his heart.

does it worth?

Maybe.

Sometimes, just saying sorry can solve many things easily, but sometimes, just saying sorry has no effect.

What Chen wants is not a word of sorry, nor a word of long time no see.

What she wants is just a sentence that I have not forgotten. What she wants is the scene she once thought she had when she grew up. Even after so many years, even if we have become strangers, you are still you and I am still me.

But she couldn't wait. What she waited for was the answer she least wanted to face.

An answer she could guess but wasn't willing to think about.

Not even a trace of leeway was given.

She once believed in Chen Mo, she believed in him so much.

But if she didn't ask for the answer and chose to avoid and deceive herself, she wouldn't be Chen Huijie.

She doesn't know how to retreat or compromise. She insists on breaking her head and bleeding, and insists on cutting off her own retreat.

Chen's eyes were not dead, but full of trance, as if the past ten years of her life had passed in a daze every minute, so that when she looked back, she didn't even know what had happened.

The narrow sky in the orphanage in his memory has long gone, but after so many years, whenever Chen raises his head, what he sees is still the same narrow sky as before.

A small, dark cloud that always hangs overhead.

The days and nights of the past ten years were like a dream, a dream from which she could never wake up. She found support in the dream, so the three of them cuddled up to each other and hid in the dark room. To comfort your lonely soul, tell yourself that you are not alone.

But they still have to separate one day. As they grow up every day, time will not always be on their side. What should pass will pass sooner or later, and no one can stop what should happen.

All Chen Mo can do is choose, and he only has the right to choose.

When Wei Na appeared, no one expected that she would suddenly take action.

Perhaps in her opinion, Chen Mo is her friend, and it is normal to take action for a friend, but she does not understand what happened between Chen Mo and Chen Mo.

No, maybe even if she knew, she wouldn't have any hesitation.

The relationship between people is like a thread, becoming more and more tangled, and in the end no one can figure out where it begins and where it ends.

"Vina!!"

Chen Mo stopped her. Wei Na's fist stopped a few centimeters away from Chen Mo. She turned her head to look at Chen Mo. Her eyes were not angry, but questioning. Her long golden hair was scattered in the heavy rain, like a crazy lion. .

"Don't meddle."

Wei Na understood what Chen Mo meant. Her punch failed to land on Chen Mo, but she pushed Chen Mo away from him.

The absent-minded Chen did not respond and staggered back.

"It's all over."

Chen Mo looked at Chen, and Chen's eyes fell on him. Heavy rain fell on the three of them. Further away, Chen's companion arrived belatedly.

Vaifan supported Chen who was shaking. She hadn't figured out what was going on. She just looked at Wei Na who was about to attack Chen. She quickly stood next to Chen and protected Chen behind her. She held the folded umbrella in her hand. Looking at Feilin who just wanted to take action against Chen.

"Are you okay, Chen Chen?" She turned her head slightly and asked, wary of the two people in front of her.

Chen finally came to his senses.

"...I'm fine." Chen said softly, but his eyes fell on Chen Mo who got up from the ground.

Chen Mo looked extremely embarrassed, and Wei Na stretched out her hand.

Chen Mo held Wei Na's outstretched palm.

Chen Scarlet's pupils narrowed suddenly when she saw this scene.

Chen Mo, who was holding Wei Na's hand, slowly got up from the ground and raised the back of his hand to wipe away the blood from the corner of his mouth and the visible bruises on his face.

The rain has lessened.

"In your eyes, this is indeed my fault, but it has been ten years... We are no longer the children we were before. We should have a life of our own."

Chen didn't answer, but there was no nostalgia in his eyes, only contempt and hatred.

"I don't expect your forgiveness or understanding." Chen Mo said. "I don't care. I don't care what you think."

He saw Chen's eyes, but held Wei Na's hand tightly. Wei Na frowned and did not break away.

She seemed to understand Chen Mo's thoughts and moved closer to Chen Mo.

That small movement stung Chen again.

"I have my own life, and I just want to live it out peacefully. Those things in the past are no longer important to me now."

Chen's hanging hand suddenly tightened again, and she remained silent.

Maybe she is the only one who is like a clown. She is unwilling to forget things that others don't care about after so many years.

How easy it is to forget.

But there isn't much worth remembering for Chen.

People cannot live in the past forever. Chen understands this truth. Ten years have made people grow up a lot. Those innocent nonsense from childhood will eventually dissipate like clouds under the torture of reality.

But for some people, whether it has been ten years or twenty years, what they should remember will never be forgotten, because it has penetrated deep into the bone marrow, so when it comes up again, it will be heartbreaking.

"...That's easy to say." Chen said coldly.

Those things that are not important to you can never be forgotten to some people.

"Can you also say these words to her?"

She asked, her red eyes staring into Chen Mo's eyes, her burning gaze seemed to see through his disguise, the gaze was both ridiculous and pitiful.

Chen Mo suddenly remembered that many years ago, Chen also asked him similar words. At that time, she looked at herself like this and asked him this question. The only difference was that they still trusted each other and could smile at her. The answer is, no or yes, because that is irrelevant, because whether it is yes or no, Chen will not take it to heart.

"It makes no difference to you or to her." Chen Mo did not hesitate: "We are not the same kind of people after all, Chen Huijie, you should understand that you and I have never been on the same journey."

"...You misjudged me. No matter how you looked at me before, I was just a selfish ghost in your eyes. From now on, we have nothing to do with each other."

Chen gritted her teeth and her eyes were cold. Chen Mo's words finally shattered her last extravagant hopes.

Wei Na helped Chen Mo leave from the alley. They passed by Chen Mo. Chen Mo couldn't help but glance at Chen. Chen did not look back at him, nor did he say anything to stop him.

Chen Mo could only see her side face soaked by the rain and her clenched fists.

After all, I am not that important to Chen. I have understood this since I was very young. I can only be regarded as a playmate. Tallulah’s buy-one-get-one-free accessory, maybe I will pay attention to it in my free time. She will also help selectively because of past interactions, but she cannot stand on my side without reservation.

There are other people standing behind her. For Chen, right and wrong are very important things, but over the years, I have lost the concept of right and wrong.

What I did has become a sin in Chen's eyes, a sin she can't believe.

Some things can be understood but cannot be forgiven, and some things can be forgiven but never understood. Although there are various reasons, no one can deny or change the things you do with your own hands.

If you want to survive in this world, you can only keep struggling. No matter whether you fail completely or bring it on yourself, you will inevitably die without a whole body in the end, but as long as you can live, who will care about these things.

If I could live a peaceful life, no one would think so. But in my life, after I made that decision, I was destined to never be stable and peaceful again.

Bagpipe watched all this silently until the two figures left the alley. Chen finally couldn't help turning her head to look. She opened her mouth and then clenched it tightly.

Bagpipe, who noticed Chen's movements, opened his umbrella.

She didn't know what to say, because in her memory, Chen Chen, who was always strong and unbelievably strong, had never shown such a sad and powerless side. The look of Chen's loss made Bagpipe feel uncomfortable.

She gently put her arm around Chen's shoulders.

"Let's go back, Chen Chen. It's all my fault. If I didn't drag you out with me, this wouldn't have happened. If you feel uncomfortable, just scold me to vent your anger. I won't be angry with you. So angry."

"I'm fine." Chen whispered: "It's really fine. It's not your fault, it's my own..."

It’s me who knows better than to have those unrealistic fantasies, but it’s me who still clings to those things and refuses to let go.

"But you look so sad now."

"I just... need some time, yes, it just needs some time." Chen clenched her hands, she took a gentle breath and looked up at the dark sky.

The things that were about to pour out of my eyes finally failed to flow out.

Chen Huijie is a fool.she thought to herself.

If I didn't ask, would it be possible? No, some things would be the same even if I asked or not.

Wei Na followed Chen Mo with an umbrella.

After leaving the alley and disappearing from the sight of the two people behind him, Chen Mo immediately let go of Weina's hand and pushed away Weina who was supporting him.

Vina said nothing.

Rain dripped from the edge of the umbrella in broken rain lines. Vina tilted the umbrella in her hand, and the raindrops hit the shoulders of her leather jacket.

"I am fine."

"Ok, I know."

"Thank you for what happened just now. It seems I can only buy you clothes next time."

"It's ok."

"..." He was silent for a moment: "What don't you want to ask?"

"I won't ask if you don't want to say it." Weina said. Chen Mo's eyes came into contact with her, and his delicate face was calm. His current appearance was reflected in Weina's golden pupils. He must be embarrassed and ridiculous. Chen Mo Turned his head.

He really wanted to talk to someone, he was not so calm in his heart.

"There's nothing to say."

Wei Na hesitated for two seconds, as if she understood what he meant.

"That person just now was your friend?"

"Yes, friends, friends from many years ago."

"Very important?【#

"Why do you ask."

"Why did you lie to her?" Weina said suddenly: "Someone taught me how to guess a person's behavior and thoughts before. I don't like doing it very much, but if she is not important to you, why did you lie at that time? Those words you just said are actually lying to her. I don’t know how she can believe your words, but I can see that you know she will believe it if you answer like that."

Chen Mo stopped in his tracks.

Wei Na's words are irrefutable.

"It's okay if you don't want to answer. This is your own business. I don't necessarily want to know the answer."

Those golden eyes still fell on Chen Mo. Wei Na is a very smart person. Although she usually looks lazy and undisciplined, there is no doubt that with her identity, she can think of a lot through a few clues. thing.

"Do you think this can sever the relationship between you?" Wei Na asked, standing next to Chen Mo, on the sparsely populated street, she held the handle of the umbrella, a gust of wind blew by, and the raindrops falling under the umbrella fell. On that messy blonde hair.

"She is my friend, maybe not just a friend. We haven't seen each other for almost ten years. Weina, you guessed it right, she is very important to me. I never thought I would meet her here, but now that I have , some things cannot be escaped and must be faced. She still remembers me. I don’t deny that I feel lucky for this, but it is precisely because of this, Wei Na..." Chen Mo paused for a moment: "Ten years can change a lot. Things that you thought were possible before will be difficult to find when you grow up, do you understand?"

"So you want to sever ties with her, and you think this is a good thing for her?"

"Just like when you asked me if I was not afraid of death," Chen Mo said. "You don't want to involve irrelevant people, and neither do I. She should have her own life instead of being dragged down by me."

Being dragged down?Vina thought to herself.

"But what if she still doesn't want to give up and she sees through your lies? What are you going to do?"

"She will."

"I mean, if the worst happens, you can't guarantee it."

"To be honest, I haven't thought about this problem. What do you think?"

If, as Wei Na said, Chen would come back, Chen Mo really hadn't thought about how to face her again, because he had never thought about this problem at the beginning, but now Wei Na suddenly reminded Chen Mo that Remember, Chen has never been a person willing to give up easily.

"Your best option now is to get out of here and leave Victoria."

Wei Na came up with a way for him, just like the advisers around her who made suggestions in the past, she didn't mind acting as someone else's adviser for once.

"I can't leave now, and I can't leave."

"Because of me." Wei Na pointed at herself. "Because of me, you can't leave here now, and because of me, you don't want to involve her, right?"