Longmen Memoirs

That was indeed a lie, a lie that couldn't be further from the truth.

But Chen Mo did not choose to argue.

"Answer my question!" Chen Mo's silence finally made Chen unable to bear it anymore.

It would be better to say that she could no longer stand Chen Mo like this.

"Why..." Chen suddenly asked, as if she had finally admitted the fact: "Why are you unwilling to tell me until now! Why... Obviously, it's obvious that I found you, and it's obvious that your road is still long."

She suddenly thought of what she said during the day.

Now it seems that it was so funny, and those words were like a sharp knife cutting into the heart of the person in front of me. Your road will be as long as you think.

But he has no way out, but his road is coming to an end.

He is still young, about the same age as himself, in his early twenties, young and energetic.

he is dying...

The shock and disbelief on Chen's face, her tears and loss of concentration are heartbreaking.

But that doesn't change anything.

Chen Mo didn't answer. He just leaned down and picked up his weapon. He didn't say any more words to comfort the person in front of him who had been thinking about him day and night. He didn't promise or guarantee anything.

When he turned around, Chen suddenly hugged him behind him.

Chen Mo's embrace came so suddenly, but when Chen Mo looked up, he saw a darkness so thick that there was no end in sight. The warmth of her embrace seemed so insignificant and precious in the deep and cold night.

"...let me go, Chen."

"I don't want it!" Her answer seemed to be unquestionable: "I will never allow you to disappear from my eyes like this. I will never allow you to die so casually. You can come and leave when you want. Do you have any rights?" You didn’t consider my feelings!”

ps: Ah, love (Xiao Mo) comes so quietly. (Understand?), Chen Mo is going to be raped.

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[People always like to talk about the word hate, as if if they don’t say it, they will forget something. In fact, most people don’t understand what hate is. Hate is a kind of madness hidden deep in the heart. A kind of catharsis of powerlessness, a kind of revenge on oneself.

Most of the Avengers will lose themselves in the end, falling into a kind of confusion and shackles to the world. In fact, what really bothers them is themselves.

It's hard to forgive, really hard, but for Chen Mo, what's even harder is to forgive himself.

Forgive yourself for destroying everything for yourself and others, forgive that murderous monster, forgive that humble and shameful villain. 】

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Chen never let go.

Chen Mo couldn't see her face, and naturally he couldn't see the emotions expressed on her face, her reluctance, her determination, the guilt hidden in her heart, and more things that were unexplainable.

How can one person have so many complex emotions appearing in the same pair of eyes.

But in fact, if Chen Mo turned around, he would indeed be able to see this.

It is easy to turn back, but difficult to go back.

Chen Mo knew in his heart that Chen Huijie's best destination was not here. No matter how much she hated the city called Longmen, it was undeniable that her destination was indeed there.

For many years.

What is different from her is that the girl behind her stayed and grew up in the city called Longmen. She lived there. There was everything she was familiar with in Longmen, including a home she didn’t like, relatives she didn’t like, and everything she didn’t like. There are things she likes in Longmen, streets she likes, scenes she likes, customs and customs she likes.

She is not a wanderer. Living a wandering life sounds cool, but people who have no home are the most miserable. They don't know where they are going, and they don't know how long they can stay at the next place.

Stop and go, stop and go, you are on the road all your life, and you will never be stable in your life.

Chen Mo's home disappeared in a fire, and he lived like this for the rest of his life.

Home……

When he was young, he also thought that he would have a new home in Longmen, but she was just another person in the family. He had lost traces of her for many years, but there was still a Chen left in the family, but he could no longer realize what he had originally been. Small vision.

Time changes everything. In the days when they have never met each other, they have already embarked on their own paths, and some paths, once embarked on, can never be turned back.

There is no option for a do-over in life, and no one will be spared because of anyone's wishful thinking.

People always have to learn to accept, learn to lose, learn to bear, learn to give up, and learn a lot more in the future. In this process, it is usually called growing up.

The so-called growing up means that you understand that the things you could do when you were a child cannot be done when you grow up. The wishes you made when you were a child are nothing but empty joy in the end.

Chen Mo just suddenly thought of Tallulah again, as if the same thing had happened before. Tallulah failed to keep him, and because she failed to stay, it became what it is now.

He has never seen that girl again, never seen the girl who was engraved in his heart when he was a child. More than ten years have passed, and Chen Mo has almost forgotten Xiaota's appearance, what she should look like, and whether she will be like the one in Heigangli. There are some similarities between Tiao Wa and Yifan. Did she also lead a different life, and did she... meet someone who was the same as her former self to accompany her.

All the grudges, right and wrong, worries and unforgettable things in the past, now it seems, are just a dream that is destined to be shattered on this land.

"You know you can't keep me, Chen." Chen Mo didn't look back. "Can't you just let the two of us get together and get away easily?"

Chen didn't answer.

Chen Mo could feel the hand holding his waist a little harder, as if he had responded on Chen's behalf.

"You always have to go back..." Chen Mo's voice rang in Chen's ears. The night wind blew the bonfire, and their shadows overlapped and swayed on the ground: "Longmen is the best place for you. This land is very big, Chen , you still have a lot of things that you haven't finished in time, and there are still many things that you have to do on your own. Longmen can help you. You should understand in your heart that Xiaota has left Longmen, and you have to find her back. Come on, I can’t do this anymore, and there’s no way I can do it, only you can.”

"She is your relative, the one you want to keep no matter what in this life." Chen Mo grabbed Chen's wrist: "Not me, you don't have to be so persistent for something that is destined to be fruitless, you What you should do is look for those you can find, those who will always get something if you pay, good or bad, instead of wasting your time on me."

"Shut up!" Chen finally spoke. She didn't let go of her hands, but her words did not hide her anger: "What I should do is my own business. It's not your turn to teach me."

"You..." Her voice paused: "Do you feel that you are dispensable? No one cares about you even if you die. Do you feel that you deserve it and you deserve it?"

Before Chen Mo could speak, Chen made his final decision.

"That's right, you are a person who deserves it. You are the one who brought it upon yourself. You brought it upon yourself." Chen suddenly said loudly: "...You deserve it. What happened now is your own fault. It's all your fault." your fault."

Her voice dropped. 【>~

"Leave when you say you want to leave, and show up when you say you will show up. You never consider my feelings. You never ask others if they are willing. It is always like this. You are self-righteous and do your own wishful thinking. You think I don't understand the truth you say. Understand, you think I'm still a three-year-old child, a kid who hasn't graduated from kindergarten, and can't even tell what's good or bad, and you want you to teach me what to do!" Chen Qing gritted his teeth: "Who are you looking down on? ! Bastard thing!"

Chen's verbal abuse was like venting out her inner dissatisfaction and the hidden grievances in her heart, and all her emotions came from Chen Mo in front of her.

Couldn't she understand the meaning of Chen Mo's words? Chen certainly understood. She also understood that leaving or returning to Longmen was the best result. No matter how you looked at it, it was best for Chen Mo and herself.

Keren is always complicated.

If you can distinguish between good and bad and know right and wrong, you can stop doing it. People can never be rational and calm all the time. The ones who can always be rational and calm and weigh the pros and cons of everything are machines, not people.

Parents do it for their children, soldiers do it for their mission, and police officers do it for their responsibility. There are always some things that cannot be measured by right or wrong, there are always some things that are more important than themselves, and there are always some people who can make people forget about themselves, regardless of their lives.

It has many names, including family affection, love, friendship, emotions, and responsibility.

"Where do you want to escape this time? Chen Mo." Chen asked: "You want to leave me here again like before, and then let me watch you leave, just like when Xiaota left, you can't do anything. .”

"No, I won't do this again. I told myself these years. What I have done all these years is not to let this happen to me again. I won't just watch you go and have someone tell you." Me, if you want me to deceive myself, this is not my fault, this is what is destined to happen, and no one can stop it."

She said: "Just for myself, I will never allow this to happen again. You are right. I let you leave and go back. This may be the best result, but I can't Forgot about this, I know I can't forget, I have seen you, watched you go, know what you are going to face, but I pretended not to know anything, do you really think I can do this, again Are you deceiving yourself and others and living with peace of mind?”

Her voice suddenly stopped, and her face was gently pressed against Chen Mo's back.

She closed her eyes and cursed softly:

"What on earth do you need me to say so that you can understand... You despicable villain, do you think I will live in your shadow my whole life and never be able to forgive myself until I die?"

Her words suddenly stunned Chen Mo.

Chen loosened the hand that was holding him tightly. Before the warmth left, Chen Mo suddenly felt a trace of nostalgia in his heart, but then Chen held his hanging palm tightly, and Chen Mo hesitated for a moment.

Their fingers were clasped together, and Chen held his fingers firmly.

At that moment, it was like I was suddenly put on some kind of shackles, but the warmth in my heart came so suddenly, so sudden that I felt nostalgic and reluctant to let go.

"You must ask me to speak so bluntly and leave no room for me to make you happy?" Chen asked. She looked at Chen Mo's back and walked to him.

Chen raised his head slightly and looked at his face. Chen Mo seemed to realize something. His hand holding the heavy knife clenched slightly, and Chen stood on tiptoe.

"Ahem, it seems I came at the wrong time?"

The sudden sound interrupted Chen's movements. Chen Mo came back to his senses. He pulled Chen behind him and pointed the heavy knife in the direction of the sound.

Vaifan's figure slowly emerged from the night.

"...Ceria?"

Ms. Seria, the former head of the security department of Rhine Life and now independent from Rhine Life, appeared within the light of the bonfire. The firelight illuminated her dress, making her look dusty.

"It's me, I hope I didn't disturb your good things, Snake." Seria opened the hood of the cold-proof cloak, lowered her eyes and looked at Chen Mo and Chen's clasped hands, with some teasing, and looked around again .

Chen Mo subconsciously wanted to let go, but he couldn't.

"Is this your new friend?" Ceria asked with a raised eyebrow, her eyes finally falling on Chen.

Can you believe it?Although she didn't say that, Chen Mo understood what she meant.

"Instead of this, you should show up at the rendezvous point now?"

Ceria's eyes were less wary.

"It was originally like this."

"original?"

"Something happened midway. The target made a request and Sakaz agreed to her request."

"Sakaz? Sakaz shouldn't be meeting you at the border, they..."

"You agree?"

"...There are many of them." Ceria replied.

Chen Mo glanced at Seria in surprise.

"No conflicts?"

"If you are referring to a person named Indra among the group of people you asked us to pick up, well, except that he kept shouting about going back, there was no big conflict."

too big?

It was not difficult for Chen Mo to imagine Indra's treatment from Seria's words.

"What requests did the target make?"

"I don't know, but it probably has something to do with Londinium and your plan. The person responsible for leading Sakaz is not a Sakaz, but a Felin named Kelsi. You may have heard of this name. I'm leaving. They planned to enter Londinium before, but if nothing else happens, they have arrived in the city now."

"You mean Kelsey came here in person? At this time." Chen Mo asked subconsciously.

"Isn't what I said clear enough?" Ceria asked.

"Wei...the target didn't enter the city with them?"

"No."

"Okay..." Chen Mo hesitated for a moment, then she looked at Ceria: "So you are here now..."

"I'll pick you up." Ceria replied.

"In other words, I want to tell you that the plan has changed, so as not to cause an accident. It's not easy to find you." She said and glanced at Chen: "But now it seems that you have other things to deal with."

She took something out of her arms and stuffed it into Chen Mo's pocket.

"New meeting place, don't miss the time, Mr. Snake." Seria retracted her hand, turned around, stopped, and looked back: "Oh, by the way, Helmer and Ifrit have successfully left Rhine. Life, I owe you a thank you for this, but now may not be the time. I told her about you. They are in Kazdaele now. Find a time to meet her. You should have something to say."

ps: Don’t worry, Pengyu who has watched the extra story knows that this happened in the city.

ps2: The content of this chapter is about the relationship between the lion and Theresia. Well, why else would the relationship between Weina and Chen Mo be so good? It is also a two-way street here.

ps3: Character creation is very important. Then, try to write the content in more detail, but this is not my fault.

Chapter 88 Keep Chen Gui silently ([-]): It’s easy to say goodbye but hard to meet again

Seria's departure was as quick as her sudden appearance.

Chen Mo thought he would see Ceria again, but he never expected that it would be now, on such an occasion, and that it would come so unexpectedly. He was supposed to see her at the border of Kazdaele after the incident in Londinium was settled. She and the weird team were responsible for picking up and escorting Vina to the end.

But Seria's appearance broke the original plan and a series of steps that should be carried out step by step in the plan. The news she brought caught Chen Mo off guard.

Kelsey came to Victoria in person, what was she doing here?

Didn’t she always have to stay by Theresia’s side?

How bad is Theresa's illness?