Longmen Memoirs

Chen finally made a decision. Although she knew how rare this decision was, she had already made her decision, and she had always been a stubborn person. Perhaps to put it nicely, she was determined.

"Happy New Year...Chen."

"Happy New Year, soft rice Chen!" Chen smiled. "And the little tower."

"Tomorrow, we will be together too."

"it is good."

Chen Mo has never liked sad farewells, just like after the fox cub left, he would write a letter without an address every year.

Chen Mo sent them back to Tallulah's room and watched the door slowly close. This reminded him of the snowy weather that day when Chen just arrived. Chen Mo still remembered Tallulah's eyes when she looked at the car. The uneasiness and worry inside, the faint rejection.

She didn't think about what to say to Chen.

In fact, Chen Mo didn't think about it, but Chen Mo still comforted her and said that he would accompany her. When she went in, he began to regret it again, as if he had lost something.

Ms. Theresa said that Chen Mo didn’t look like a child at all.

But when I think back to the past ten years, there was a moment when I was not living like a child, letting others rewrite my life, letting fate play tricks on me, and unable to grasp the past even if I wanted to.

Ms. Kamiya stood behind Chen Mo at some point, and Chen Mo turned around and looked at her.

"Thank you."

She nodded.

In fact, at that moment, Ms. Kamiya discovered that the single bed in the orphanage could not hide the two children, but she only tucked the exposed corners of the quilt for them.

I played this scene for Chen Mo so that I would have no regrets.

But Chen Mo didn't know that if possible, Ms. Kamiya would be willing to continue acting out this scene until the day she died.

There are too many things that he and they have no control over in their lives. If they all lament their fate, then how unfair the fate is.

Chen Mo was already very grateful to her.Thank you to everyone here, and thank you to fate for keeping me from being displaced.

Life is just a play with many fate and difficulties. Although it is hypocritical, he has already stepped onto the stage and he wants to play it well...

Chen Mo walked out of the orphanage again. The car that had been parked outside the iron gate had its lights turned off, leaving only the figure of the man standing in the heavy snow before the New Year.

"It seems you have made a choice?" he asked.

"I left Chen behind."

"I know."

"Is it okay?"

He raised his head and looked at a corner of the orphanage.

"It's ok."

"When are we leaving?"

"Tomorrow, someone will come here to adopt you tomorrow."

"Morning?"

"It should be morning."

"Very early? I didn't want to alarm anyone."

"If you wish."

"……thanks."

Chen Mo returned to the bedroom of the orphanage. He opened his drawer, picked up the police badge, and rubbed the rusty scratches on it with his fingers. He noticed the small tooth marks on his palm. He suddenly thought of Chen Mo. , with Chen's temperament, becoming a police officer would be the most suitable choice.

She likes Longmen, and Longmen also likes her. She wants to protect Tallulah. She has such determination and talent. She is strong and persistent, which is a perfect fit.

Have both ability and political integrity.

Chen Mo put down his police badge and closed the drawer together with all the unsent letters.

He kept everything he could here.

ps: I think a person’s mentality should change with experience, even if he is a time traveler, unless you have a system.

Chapter 39 Goodbye, my childhood

Texas, tell me, what do you see?

Longmen?

It's a prison.

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There are no heroes in this world. It is a common knowledge that everyone will die if they are injured. This is the case for everyone. It is fair to you, me, and her, so we are ordinary little people.

So small that life becomes a doodle in the hands of others that can be changed at will.

Dawn of February 1080, 2, Crystal Age

On the morning of the next day, scattered snowflakes began to fall from the sky, fluttering and getting bigger and bigger.

"Are you ready?"

"Ah."

"Not going to say goodbye to them."

"No." Chen Mo said, "Can you please give this to Tallulah? Tell her... forget it."

Ms. Theresa was the only one standing at the door to say goodbye to Chen Mo. It was still dark, and it was still a long time before the children in the orphanage got up.

Ms. Theresa held Chen Mo's hand and walked to the door, just like the day he first arrived. The only difference was that Chen Mo didn't know her name yet.

Chen Mo could have a new family. As long as he was willing to accept being adopted, he could live in Longmen until he grew up, but he would never meet Tallulah or Chen again.

For Chen Mo, Longmen without Talulah and Chen is not the Longmen he wants to stay. Without them, where would he go?

It’s just that when you have someone you want to be with for the rest of your life, you feel like you can’t bear to leave.

Maybe he could have a new life, just like meeting a fox cub and then meeting another fox cub, but he would not regret it. He felt that he would not regret it.

It has been three years since I came here and then I left. It seems that my life in these three years has been so short and long.

"May God protect you and grow up safely and happily in the future, my child."

Ms. Teresa kissed Chen Mo's forehead and blessed her softly. Chen Mo almost forgot that she was once a nun.

"Bless you too." Chen Mo said sincerely:

"Thank you very much for your continued care and concern. I will always remember it, Teresa...Mom."

Chen Mo called out this term for the first time. This ancient term was so raw and unfamiliar when he said it.

His last hug with her was in the orphanage getting farther and farther behind him. She stood in front of the door of the orphanage, and her figure gradually disappeared from Chen Mo's eyes.

Chen Mo watched the familiar building go away from the rear window of the car. In that corner, in the utility room on the third floor, no one could listen quietly in his arms on rainy days one after another. Those scattered stories.

Perhaps one day the children in the orphanage will leave one by one, or perhaps new children will come in. Familiar faces and unfamiliar faces are constantly alternating, just like the dragon gate that I am no longer familiar with, but it is different from it. , if he comes back again, the person waiting here will not make himself a stranger.

The warm Ms. Teresa, the stern Ms. Kamiya, the kind Ms. Lanmin, the soft-singing Ms. Theresa, and the deft Ms. Essi.

Chen Mo didn't dare to say goodbye to anyone.Where did he leave everything about himself, his memories, his happiness, and the tenderness he finally got.

It seemed that from that day on, Chen Mo didn't dare to think about these things anymore, and when he started to think about it, he suddenly realized that he had lost it again.

In Tallulah's room on the second floor, Tallulah covered the dim police badge. Tears fell from the corners of her eyes again and again. She gritted her teeth tightly, just like that strong woman, unable to make a sound. sound.

Their lives have been transformed.

She thought he opened the door and found him. He made a promise to stay with her and never left her.

You are so stupid, he is a child, he is a liar, how can you take everything he says seriously.

He is just an insignificant, despicable person. If you hadn't left the Chen Mansion and wandered around, how could he have taken advantage of it?

He is so despicable and shameful.

If he should leave, someone will still be with you.

Because Chen is still with you.

[To Xiaota:

I'm breaking my promise, Tallulah.

But don't be afraid, Tallulah, never be afraid. Think of the day you mustered up the courage to face Chen. Even if I'm not by your side, even if you don't need me anymore, you will spread your wings and fly over the strong wind. In the rainstorm, you have to stand in the lightning and thunder and become the person you want to be.

You can't be weak, don't cry, let alone get sick. In the days without me, you must learn to be strong, brave, and resist.

Tallulah, the crybaby.

I hope you never have to face disappointment and withdrawal.

——February 1080, 2, Crystal Era of Lies]

Chen Mo's soft comfort over and over again was so weak and weak amid the clear crying.

She wanted to get up and look for the person who had left. Just when she wanted to do so, Tallulah held her and she did not dare to let go.

Because she knew how Chen would tell her the truth when Chen came back, and she didn't know if she could still forgive the person who left without saying goodbye.

She could only hold Chen tightly, and they hugged each other's bodies tightly in this cold and long winter.

Have you ever heard someone say to you:

You are so much like your father.

The car drove smoothly on the streets of Longmen, and you could still see the traces left by last night's hustle and bustle. Snowflakes fell in front of the car, flying farther and farther away.

Neither of the two people sitting in the front seat spoke, even though the smiles on their faces when facing Ms. Theresa were so sincere and eager, as if they regarded Chen Mo as their child.

And after leaving, who was left blank between Chen Mo and them【>

As the car passed by Longmen's pier, Chen Mo opened the car window. The cold snowy wind blew his short black hair, and he gently let go of the folded paper airplane in his hand.

They had done the same thing that day.

Watching it fly out of the car window, across the pier, stumbling across the Longmen Pier in the wind and snow, climbing over the high wall, and flying towards the sea of ​​clouds and mountains in the distance that can no longer be seen clearly.

【Will you forgive me? 】

Chen Mo closed his eyes.

Goodbye, Longmen...

Chen Mo was placed in a small white building with all the daily necessities. After going through various tests, he quietly waited for the day he left.

Then one day, I get in another car.

Sitting in a closed carriage, the carriage was illuminated by a pale but not dazzling cold light. There were a total of twenty people in the same car, seated separately in the car.

The bumpy and swaying car, the sound of the engine vibrating gently, kicked up the snow, and threw the huge car behind it into the distance.

Getting smaller and smaller.

Everyone was quiet, no one talked or made any other movements.

Everyone was the same. Their eyes showed uneasiness and confusion, but they couldn't believe that anyone around them was stuffed into this closed carriage from all corners of the city.

Chen Mo suddenly thought of the car that took me out of the resettlement camp, as if that day reappeared in front of his eyes. He felt the same uneasiness, the same confusion, the same fear of trusting anyone around him easily.

He finally smiled and said goodbye to the fox cub, but he never thought that after saying goodbye, he would never see him again.

He was picked up from the corner of the city, put into a van, walked to the orphanage, came out of the orphanage again, and was put into such a car.

The life that I finally thought I could hold in my hands was quietly taken away by someone at a certain thought.

But many years later, looking back, he should still be grateful to that man.

He gave him a chance to choose. Although Chen Mo still chose the same path in the end, at least he gave it to himself.

Not only because of the dim and rusty police badge, but also because of Tallulah and Chen who were around him at the time. They made him luckier than others.

How many people hope to be as lucky as you, to be lucky enough to meet someone they think they can stay with for the rest of their lives, let alone two people.

Their sincere affection moved Chen Mo. Even a selfish and despicable person like him had to admit that Chen Mo was much better than himself.He had to admit that Chen was indeed the best person to accompany Tallulah.

But like most of the people sitting in this carriage, he had no choice.