Longmen Memoirs

"What did she tell you?"

"She said that she had always remembered a certain proposal you made before, but if she fell ill, she would not be able to accept it or agree." The doctor said slowly: "She said that if this was the fate of her and Kazdaele, she would She will not complain about her ending, she thinks you can find a new path, because you are Kelsey, you know what to do next, protect Amiya and the Rhode Island."

"...She has known for a long time, Kelsey, she has already made arrangements."

Kelsey was stunned.

"No, no, I never agree, I never accept this ending!"

"Kelsey..." The doctor wanted to raise his hand, but his hand stopped in mid-air. He looked at the absent-minded Kelsey and put it down again. He turned his head and stared at Theresia on the hospital bed.

"This is not a failure. Theresa made her choice. No matter what the outcome is, we must choose to accept it. She believes that we have not failed because of this, but... the Tower of Babel and her mission may have ended." Doctor Said: "Let her rest well, she has suffered enough for so many years."

Kelly didn't answer.

The doctor heard footsteps coming from behind, and he turned his head. Kelsey's figure was walking away, stumbling.

"PhD?"

"I'm here, Theresia."

"Can I ask you something?"

"Please say."

"If...I mean, if one day I fall down and I can't wake up when you need me most, I hope you can continue to lead the Tower of Babel in my place. Maybe it's not the Tower of Babel, but I I hope you can lead them. They need your guidance, as well as Amiya and Kelsey. Kelsey may not be able to accept it, but doctor, if it is you, I believe you will have a way to solve it."

"...We are almost winning, Your Highness, why don't you hold on for a while."

"That's why I said what if, as a commander, you don't usually only consider one possibility, doctor."

"really."

"Kelsey and I made a certain proposal, but I can't do it. Everyone has the right to choose the way they live. I can't arbitrarily deprive them of this and take away their life. I really want to talk to you. Let’s continue walking together. I want to create a future that belongs to us with you, a new future. It must be wonderful to watch our ideals become reality bit by bit.”

"Teresia..."

"But I know, I shouldn't expect too much, but sometimes I still can't help but think about how great it would be, that must be great, the vision Chen Mo said."

"Theresia!!" The doctor increased his voice, faintly angry.

This was the first time he showed his anger, and the only time he could no longer remain calm.

"……do not give up."

"I have not given up, Doctor. Even if there is only a slight possibility, I want to continue walking and walk with you."

She said this, but the doctor couldn't feel at ease with her answer. He could only feel helpless and...sad.

"Then I'll leave it to you, Doctor. I know this request embarrasses you and will put you into a trap, but for the sake of the Tower of Babel and the soldiers still on the front line, when that time comes, please take your own hands..."

Chapter 23 There are too many things between us

Afterwards, Chen Mo rarely talked to anyone about what happened in Kazdale.

War is cruel, and it has never changed, but war is not only cruel, sometimes it also symbolizes hope, or in other words, a new beginning.

Many scholars believe that the civil war in Kazdare led to a new redistribution of social resources in the barren and chaotic Kazdare. During the ordering process, although a large number of mercenary groups in small units disappeared due to this war. , many Sakaz dignitaries lost their wealth, rights and even lives in this war.

After the two forces led by the regent and the orthodox king of Kazdaele united all parties to fight, and started a war in Kazdaele with different ideological orientations, their war caused the various forces scattered in Kazdaele and Kazdaele to fight. The stragglers were forced to divide their camps, which ended the chaos in Sakaz to a certain extent and laid a good foundation for the stability of the new order. The mercenaries and nobles who were constantly consumed in this war, their deaths, created a new chapter for Kazdaele. This freed up huge amounts of reusable wealth and resources, which played an important role in stabilizing Kazdare's society after the war.

So far, scholars from all sides who have studied this war are still discussing whether this war is a huge conspiracy. The differences between the orthodox royal families of Sakaz were originally a drama used to create the current situation. The war has changed many problems of noble forces and mercenaries left over from Kazdare's long history, swept away the haze of Kazdare's past, and allowed the country to unite under one voice and sovereignty under this huge conspiracy.

Undoubtedly, if this is a conspiracy, then many of the problems and unreasonable secrets that occurred during Kazdaele can be explained. Of course, this also comes from the inevitable outside world's personal feelings about Sakaz. Prejudice and arrogance.

But suppose this is all a predetermined plan.

It has to be said that the current monarch of Kazdaele is a hidden and terrifying politician and power pusher. She has established an extremely positive image for herself, which is deeply rooted in the hearts of the people and has won the support of all Sakaz. Respect and admiration, and her image played a vital role in the future unification of Sakaz. She got the response of all Sakaz as she wished, and created a grand image of herself in their hearts that is deeply rooted in the hearts of the people.

A monarch with deep scheming and great talent.

She dominates the cruel war game of Kazdare. On her chessboard, every Sarkaz is clearly marked with a price, position and outcome predetermined.

Another figure similar to the Empress of Ursus.

Later, this is how the outside world viewed Theresia. At the same time, they were also controversial about the policies she promoted and her attitude towards the international situation.

At least Kazdaele is the first country that openly does not exclude infected people. Of course, this is inseparable from their huge base of infected people, but it is also seen as a serious bias of Thearesia’s policy under the current situation. After moving, she ambitiously tried to use the infected, who were numerous and involved in a wide range of areas across Terra, to rebuild and revive her new Kazdaele.

In the face of many visits from foreign reporters and press conferences held, she and her royal staff did not publicly deny this statement, otherwise what awaited them might, no, be a bunch of people with serious independent conjectures. inference.

They have various speculations, but none of the scholars and so-called experts who have argued for these speculations have ever really gone deep into Kazdaele, and none of them have actually experienced this war personally.

They always look at what is happening around them with their own eyes, some kind of research, metaphor, some academic master, or in other words, they have never looked at the history of Sakaz, but just held it in their eyes. They look at the war that has happened with a spectator attitude, and use their own mentality and concepts to pay attention to and judge the changes and trends of this country's ideology.

This is not surprising.

For Chen Mo, who had been in it, if it were him in the past, he would inevitably have thoughts like this.

This is a conspiracy.

And he, or rather they, were just increasing this number almost numbly.

Lists of those who died in battle were placed in front of the generals' desks. The ever-increasing string of numbers and unfamiliar names were constantly being replaced in just one afternoon.

No one could remember so many names, and they were all given the same title.

...Sarkaz.

Demons, that's what they used to call them.

More and more people died, but Chen Mo became calmer on the contrary. The war surrounding Belgrade formed a cruel and bloody meat grinding ground.

On the Thalia Plains, countless armies, soldiers, rangers, magician groups, reconnaissance teams, and mercenaries are fighting each other every day. Their blood dyes the only river on the plain red, and corpses pile up in Under the trampled and ravaged mud, the blood-stained pupils looking up to the sky have long lost [|&

Occasionally, you can see blood spreading in the air around the wound. The Origin Stone flowing in the dark blood quietly dissipates in the air after the owner dies, as if it has never been in this world.

As a result, life has long lost the weight it should have. It is regarded as a bargaining chip that can be discarded and obtained at will. It is weighed on the balance of interests. Those who are alive and those who have died, their existence is As a chess piece that is constantly being replaced in this war.

The indifferent chess player looks down at his own chess board, adding weight to the scale based on his opponent's strength.

Chen Mo failed to participate in the command of the frontline battlefield.

He was not good at dealing with those Sakaz generals. Of course, those generals might not be happy to see an executioner sharing the same room with them and making irresponsible remarks.

Everyone was unhappy.

He had heard the remarks circulating among Sakaz, and it seemed that he and his departure from the court were being exaggerated into a very sinful and vicious existence.

They unreasonably killed the kind people of Sakaz, and they used high pressure to try to get the Parliament of Babel, which led this just war, to give in to them. The Parliament would never respond to a jester who had bewitched Theresia. The traitor surrendered, and their Highness Theresia was only temporarily deceived, deceived by the smooth words of a despicable foreign liar.

She would finally, with the integrity of the Council, banish the Fool and make him come to justice and repent for the many crimes he had committed in Kazdaele.

Especially after Chen Mo appeared in parliament.

It was regarded as an extremely despicable, disgusting, and absolutely unbearable evil act, trampling on the solemn parliament of Sakaz and spreading threatening remarks in the parliament, hoping to make the members of the parliament surrender to him. Under the power of.

The things they said were simply getting worse and worse.

"Ah, maybe the word "ugly" is too flattering to them, but they are indeed doing similar things, making embellished remarks and arbitrarily fabricating evidence and facts. I know what they are thinking, and they are afraid of me." Chen Mo put down his pen. , looking at Weina aside: "Perhaps they have already thought about how to deal with me as an outsider at this moment. In their eyes, I may have become a ridiculous clown, but for the sake of profit, they can choose to tolerate it temporarily."

"Look at the faces of these people, Vina, maybe one day you may face the same group of people." He said, holding his hands and looking at the blond Aslan who was sitting opposite and frowning as he read the report: "The more you give in to them, the more they will become Bengali, they will only want more, and they will not look back even until they die."

"But you don't look angry at all?"

"I was actually quite angry."

Wei Na slowly closed the report in her hand. She heard Chen Mo's answer, but she could not see a trace of anger on Chen Mo's face.

"Angry doesn't have to show on your face. I remember you told me this sentence before, so I was very angry." He reached for the report that Wei Na put down and threw it into the trash can: "But I shouldn't do it for a group of people. People who hate me get angry, and the anger makes people lose their minds, and that's what they want to see, even if I hate them, they still live well."

"You never thought about defending, and even...you stopped your people from defending you." Wei Na asked: "...Why?"

"You know it in your heart, don't you?"

"Because of Kazdale, I have read the recent battle reports from the front line. More and more people are dying. The same is true here. But on the contrary, you are becoming calmer. You ignore these changes. I feel..."

She looked at Chen Mo and hesitated to speak.

"What does it feel like..."

"It feels like you are deliberately waiting for this day to come."

"Why do you say that?" Chen Mo was slightly surprised: "Do I look like someone who would do such a stupid thing?"

"I can't see through you, Gurney. I thought I knew you, but after coming to Kazdare, you are becoming more and more strange to me."

Chen Mo's voice was reflected in the golden pupils. Weina's eyes were bright, as bright as dazzling gems, but only one person's figure was reflected in them.

She is no longer so lazy. On the contrary, she has become inexplicably majestic at this moment when she calms down. She is examining and watching, but Chen Mo is within reach of her.

She didn't reach out.

Even later, she didn't reach out, not sure if the Gurney in front of her was still the same Gurney she knew.

Maybe he is also a little lazy, but she still likes that little citizen who lives alone in the lower-class area of ​​Londinium. He occasionally tells some not-so-funny jokes, occasionally does some embarrassing things, is philistine, shrewd, and vulgar, But he knows clearly in his heart that he can always find a way. He never stays out of things, but he often doesn't let people down easily.

Veena fell in love with that man.

I fell in love with that person's attitude towards life, fell in love with his plain and even slightly boring life, fell in love with that short and free life.

"You don't have to look through me, Wei Na." Chen Mo shook his head and said, "Because I am a fickle person. I have always been fickle and lie constantly."

"...Ha." Wei Na chuckled lightly and did not refute: "Yes, you lie so much that people can't tell which one is the real you."

"We all change. Maybe everyone you see in my eyes is the real me. It's just because I meet different people and different things happen, so it will inevitably make you think that I have changed."

"I wasn't involved in those things?" Wei Na's eyes became extremely serious.

she asked.

"You're sitting in front of me now."

Chen Mo replied.

A slight smile finally appeared on the corner of Wei Na's cold mouth.

"But I'm not very satisfied with your answer, Gurney."

"You always have to learn to accept everything that doesn't go your way."

"for example?"

"Some unpleasant remarks, some opinions that repel you, some proposals that you don't like but have to pretend to accept." Chen Mo said: "My king, sometimes we have to make some compromises and concessions for something. , but you don’t have to give in all the time, sometimes giving in can be seen as weakness, and weakness often means nothing is accomplished.”

"But I am not your king."

"In my opinion, you are already a prince. You shoulder responsibilities and missions. Even if you are forced to live in the land of Sakaz, one day you will return to the royal court that belongs to you and wear the crown that belongs to you. "

Wei Na slowly lowered her face.

"Are you kidding me?"

She deliberately looked dissatisfied.

"How dare I do this?"

"I do not believe."

"You can ask Hannah. Not surprisingly, her answer is the same as mine."

"..."

"Indra and the others voluntarily followed you here. They are growing rapidly in this war. They are fighting for you, hoping to alleviate your current difficult situation in Kazdaele. I can see it, and you should too. Come out." Chen Mo said: "You sitting here, doesn't it prove that you are worried about them? Compared with fighting side by side with them on the battlefield, you can play a greater role here. A monarch should not show up on the battlefield and put himself in danger. situation, but the monarch should also see the situation clearly and make a choice. No qualified monarch maintains her rule with words instead of swords."

"You seem to know a lot about this, Gurney?"

"It's just hearsay."

"...How many secrets do you still have that you haven't told me?"

"There's not much difference between killing an archduke and killing a civilian. It's just that the former's status looks a little nobler, but the blood they shed is the same color." Chen Mo said: "Don't force yourself too much. Na, you can make an excuse for yourself, it is an inevitable result, know how to endure it and know how to weigh it."

"What about you, what did you tell yourself?"

"Me?...I told myself that these will eventually have a result."

Vina didn't answer any more.

She just sighed softly and withdrew her gaze from Chen Mo.

Chen Mo looked at her leaving figure.

The Glasgow Gang has been injured a lot recently, even though Hogg has given them some "preferential treatment", and even though Vina has been forcing herself not to be with them these days.