Longmen Memoirs

"I'm sorry, Konkov, no, maybe what you need is not my apology." Theresa said: "But can you let me go? Let Theresia go instead of your Highness, just Theresia.”

Konkov hesitated, and after a long time he got out of the way, and the soldiers behind him also made way.

"Only you."

"I'll stay," Scout said.

The wall composed of warriors slowly parted in the middle. Theresa walked through the crowd and walked up the stairs. The hundreds of warriors blocking the corridor separated in front of her like a black tide.

Those pairs of eyes looked over, and their eyes were no different from Konkov's.

Theresia's mood became heavier because of this, her steps slowed down, and she found that it took even more effort than before to take a single step.

Until she stood at the door and heard the quarrel coming from inside the door.

[…Now the Tower of Babel no longer needs you. They don’t remember, not even Theresia. Yes, they can choose to forget, ignore, slander, and slander. You don’t have to care, they don’t have to go. Care, but we!Those of us who remember it all! 】

【shut up! 】

【…】

Theresia stopped【}

She saw the soldiers looking at her with suspicion, although they were still respectful, and that suspicion made her feel a little ashamed.

[If Kazdel’s crown needs to step on your body to be crowned, we will never allow this to happen before our eyes, even if she is Theresia! 】

[…We are Sakaz, but we are never anyone’s slaves. 】

That’s very well said, Theresa couldn’t help but think to herself.

[... Before I can tolerate what you are doing now, get out of here immediately and go back to where you should be! 】

【We are not going anywhere today! 】

Chen Mo opened his mouth to say something more, but his words were stuck in the back of his throat. He saw Theresia standing at the door.

Mud Rock also noticed this.

She turned around and Theresa was standing at the door.

She was stunned.

"...Your Highness."

"It's Theresa, it's just Theresa." Theresa shook her head and said: "I remember you were called Mud Rock, right? Lieutenant, you are right, Sakaz is definitely not who he is. His slaves are not mine or anyone else’s slaves. Sakaz is Sakaz. You are your own masters and you don’t have to kowtow for anyone.”

"You...heard everything?"

"I heard it all."

"...Even if you want to punish me for this, I will never change my words about what I just said, let alone regret it."

"I won't punish you, Mud Yan. No one should be punished for saying the right thing."

Mud Yan took a breath, trying to calm down the anger that was rising in her heart due to her dissatisfaction and disappointment with Theresia.

"Forgive me for being presumptuous, but since you said that, should someone be treated unfairly for doing something that is not wrong? Your Highness!"

The mudstone looked a bit aggressive at the moment.

"No, no one."

"But you..."

"Mudyan, shut up!" Chen Mo suddenly shouted coldly.

Mud Rock wasn't ready to stop.

"Sorry, can you let me talk to your leader alone? I'll be fine in a moment."

She saw a trace of prayer in Theresia's eyes, and that prayer prevented Mud Rock from continuing to ask.

"Yes."

she said, leaving the room and closing the door.

The room fell silent, and Theresia breathed a sigh of relief.

"It's difficult to deal with, right? Your Highness, Ni Yan is such a person. She is overly persistent in some aspects and has always been difficult to deal with." Chen Mo said suddenly.

"This just shows that they agree with you, Mr. Chen Mo."

"They also identify with you, and there is no Sakaz who doesn't identify with you."

"You're always like this. You know exactly what I mean, but you always like to find an excuse for yourself."

"..."

"I'm afraid I can't accept your reward."

"You said you were looking forward to it at the time, but you never thought of giving me this opportunity from the beginning." Theresa replied.

"But I did kill a lot of people. After you were unconscious, I burned down your parliament with my own hands. I also personally executed some of the generals and dignitaries on the Eastern Front without orders from the Tower of Babel. I am the same one who hanged those MPs and nobles, confiscated their wealth, executed their families and implicated many innocent people. My crime is worthy of the name. My hands are stained with the blood of Sakaz. I A sinful butcher of Sakaz."

"If the crime you just mentioned is true, then at least half of your crime should be borne by me." Theresa said: "Kazdare can no longer withstand the war. We have lost a lot in this war. , these things may never be restored. Rebuilding Kazdaele requires a huge amount of wealth. The Tower of Babel is simply unable to support these. And those congressmen, I know they have other demands for me and the Tower of Babel. Maybe in the future Kazdaele will once again fall into overt and covert fighting due to various interest disputes, which will at least make me tired of dealing with it. They have all made efforts and contributions to the war, and they are equally qualified to take away the victory that belongs to them."

"But Kazdale will stagnate as a result, and many people's newly raised hopes will become lies." Chen Mo said.

"That's why you killed them?" Theresa asked sadly.

"So I had to kill them. I had to end this before the war was over."

"But you chose this time when I was sick, in order not to embarrass me."

Marco committed suicide in order not to embarrass his monarch.

The same thing happened again in front of Theresia.

"You are wrong, Your Highness, because I understand what kind of monarch Kazdaele needs in the future. I have done everything I should do for you. Those nobles who are still alive still trust you, because you have nothing to do with all this. It has nothing to do with it, Sakaz still trusts you because you are the monarch who led them to victory. You gave them hope and you never broke the promise you made to everyone."

"What about you?" Theresa asked: "Do you think Kazdaele has never left a place for you in your eyes?"

"Not Kazdaele, but if you have, that's enough."

Theresia was stunned for a moment.

She never dared to think this way, and her condition and responsibilities never allowed her to have similar thoughts.

But now it may be too late.

"Do you still remember what I said to you when we first met? Your Highness, you tell me your ideals, and I tell you that you are the monarch of Sarkaz first, and Theresa second. That was the case then, and now Same thing."

"We had imagined many possible but unrealistic paths, but we rejected them one by one. I later understood that what this land needs is not to stick to the rules and follow the script. It has its own path to go. Now you are We are walking on the prototype of this road, but it is not strong enough and still needs to be built brick by brick.”

Chen Mo stood up and straightened his collar. His back was still straight. It had never been straight. In the past, he had been bent over for too long, and even once he was crawling in the mud.

"Judge me, Your Highness, and then order me to be executed and my crimes to be made public. Sakaz needs to know that their monarch is still their monarch. The nobles under your command need you to give them a guarantee. If I don't Fall down, if I don’t die, Sakaz’s prejudice and suspicion towards you will not be eliminated. You have more important things to do, and I have become an obstacle on your way.”

"No...I won't do that, I won't...I will never allow it!"

Theresia backed away slowly.

She clenched her hand slowly.

She knew what to do, but she didn't want to.

"They are right, Chen Mo. If this Kazdale needs a person who has made no mistakes to admit that he has made a mistake, then this Kazdale is not the Kazdale we expected."

"If you think so, I regret to tell you that there probably won't be that kind of place on this earth. Individuals and collectives, minorities and the majority. This is not a difficult choice to make. Your Highness, you have to make some choices. By giving in and giving more people opportunities and hope, I am just returning the merits that do not belong to me to the people who belong to them. I am just doing something I think is right." Chen Mo said:

"Kazdel may have to face heavier hardships in the future. The war of Sakaz is over, but the war of Kazdare's revival has just begun. Your Highness, the future is still far away, but you can continue to pursue your dream." The ideal has just begun.”

Theresia saw Chen Mo smile. The smile was shallow but dazzling, and the smile was rare and gentle.

“I gave Kazdaele a firewood that I didn’t expect would light the way forward for this suffering and disputed land and its people, but now Kazdaele is in everyone’s sight. With the joint efforts, we have embarked on a route that belongs to it, and everything is running as usual. Your Highness, I just arrived at the destination I wanted to reach ahead of schedule."

He stood in front of Theresia.

He stretched out his hand to hold Theresia in his arms as he retreated, and leaned gently on her shoulder. His white hair crossed the side of his face, and Theresia's scent filled the tip of his nose.

Theresia slowly raised her clenched hand. She hesitated, and finally gently hugged the former boy with her backhand.

Her guard has always been a taciturn person in the past. Her guard has rarely shown a smile in the past. Her guard has been living with the heavy past from beginning to end.

"... Please forgive me for being rude, but you also said, It's just Theresia, let me abandon those heavy honors and reputations. I have stayed for you and Sakaz for too long. I should do it. Everything I ever wanted to do.”

He let go of his hand, but Thearesia unusually did not let go, holding tightly on the back of his uniform.

"If you still can't let go, as you once said, no matter where I am in the future, I will always be your companion. I promise you that it will not change no matter how long it takes."

It would be great if you were Sarkaz too.

I am very happy to have【}%

It is precisely because I am not always Sakaz that I can understand your suffering. It is precisely because I can withdraw from this war that does not belong to me at any time that I value the things we have fought for even more. everything.

Chapter 38 W is still the same W

"You all heard it? I know you all heard it."

Theresia left without anyone stopping her.

Chen Mo's eyes swept over the people standing in front of him.

"Very good, you are all here." His eyes fell on the leader Mud Rock: "You come here just because you want a result. You just think that this result is unfair to me. You just think that our victory is ours. Being trampled wantonly, the Tower of Babel and His Highness chose to give in."

He asked slowly: "You think it's not fair, it's wrong, it shouldn't be like this, right?"

They didn't answer, and they didn't deny either.

"I said, yes, yes, of course it's not fair, of course it's not right, of course it shouldn't be this way, but it's just as fair, it's just as right, it's just as reasonable, because you forgot those fallen warriors, they died , they couldn't breathe like us, they fell in the mud, in a pool of blood, in the days when victory could not be seen. They were not one or two people, they fell in groups, they They can’t complain that they have been treated unfairly, and they can’t say that this is wrong and that this result should not be deserved.”

His eyes moved away from Mud Rock and fell on Carl and Hogg.

"Many of you... are older than me and have been exposed to war earlier than me, so naturally you can understand this truth better. You know that Sakaz in the past could not tell these things, and he rarely even went there. Thinking about it, I am a layman and know nothing about war, but we have stumbled and struggled together to get to where we are today. Starting from Gelei, some of us were the same people who came out together at the beginning, and some joined in halfway. Now it looks like today How many faces are left that we were familiar with each other? Our people are dying all the time, but our people have never been reduced but have become more and more numerous. However, we cannot forget the past because of this. It is precisely because of the past, because of these It’s a painful lesson, so it’s worth cherishing now and in the future.”

His eyes fell on Su Enyang.

"...I've never been very good at saying this, and I don't think it's necessary for me to say it. In fact, you all know it in your heart, because some of you have actually seen the future."

He looked at everyone in front of him.

"You are Sakaz, and you are no one's slave. You don't need to say this kind of thing, it's worth keeping it in your heart."

"You asked me just now. I am your commander. If I also fall, what can you people do even if you are alive?"

"Let me tell you my answer. If you still think that I am still your leader, I want all of you to hear it clearly and keep it in your heart."

His words paused.

"If I fall, if the court is disbanded, if you are still alive...you still have a lot to do. You are more worthy of the trust of the Tower of Babel and the new Kazdaele government than those mercenaries. , you are more worthy of being entrusted with the important task by His Highness than that group of nobles and their army. You will, can, and can become the new backbone of Kazdaele. Your weapons can be used to defend your country and the lives of your compatriots. Above all, this is a responsibility and mission that has never been experienced before the outbreak of the Sakaz Mercenary War, and it is also a mission that is more worthy of your efforts and dedication."

“I’ve been to a lot of places and I can give you more than one example.”

"Victoria, Colombia, Ursus, and Yanguo, these countries have all built magnificent mobile cities, and these countries have built great achievements. Can't Kazdel do it? Why can't Kazdel do it? Sakaz You can also have these, in this land destroyed and broken by war, if you are willing, these can be born from your hands."

"...Sargon, Bolivar, the former Gaul, Gaul has long been destroyed, Sargon and Bolivar were controlled and oppressed by Colombia, these countries can not even maintain their sovereignty, the former Kazdaele is compared to They are even worse. The former Kazdaele was not even qualified to stand side by side with them, because you are Sakaz. When you go abroad, people will discriminate and prejudice you because you are Sakaz. Your country is constantly in war. This makes it difficult for you to hold your head up outside."

他 说:

"You actually know this very well in your heart, and I know this very well. I know how unfairly its citizens will be treated when a country is too weak to maintain its sovereignty or even integrity. Their citizens will be treated as Pigs and dogs.”

“But I also know, and I can assure you, that even for such a country, even for Kazdaele, if you are willing to pay for it, if you will never compromise, if you are unwilling, if your blood has not cooled and become numb. , one day, you will stand again in the forest of nations in the world. You can raise your head proudly, puff up your chest and tell others, tell those foreigners that the men of Sakaz are equally arrogant, and the women of Sakaz are equally proud. Noble, you are Sakaz, you are never pigs or dogs, you have gone through hardships, and you can also build your own glory."

His words paused, and outside the window was the setting sun.

Reflect people's shadows on the ground inside the house.

The sun will set, but it will also rise. The rising sun will be brighter and more brilliant.

"...You can also build your own cities, your schools, your hospitals, armies, high-rise buildings, and factories. You no longer need to envy outsiders, and you no longer need to be regarded as cruel mercenaries who only kill people. To be honest with you, Actually, when I first came to Kazdaele as a black steel mercenary, I was a little worried like most people outside. I would inevitably feel that Sarkaz looked like a human being as they said. Wild beasts, murderous and even cannibalistic."

"Wendigo does have this custom, sir." Someone interrupted.

Everyone looked over at the same time, and the young man standing at the back lowered his head and whispered softly.

"Don't look at me, my grandma said that."

Thanks to this silly boy, the slightly dull atmosphere in the room relaxed a lot.

"No." Ni Yan suddenly said. "The Wendigos moved away en masse from Catsdale a long time ago."