Longmen Memoirs

I've had similar dreams.

But I usually wake up in the middle of my dreams. When I wake up, I am still in the same place, in the training camp of Black Steel. There is no silver-haired girl whose appearance I have almost forgotten by my side, and there is no that Chen Huijie, who was always at odds with me, got into my bed.

Surrounded by unfamiliar but familiar students, what awaits me after dawn is a new day of extremely tiring elimination training at Black Steel.

This is my reality.

I never dared to think that I was a good person.

Assuming that I am a good person, I think I may have died somewhere now, with no bones left. In order to live, I killed many people. In order to live, I have done many evil things and helped others.

Assuming that I am a good person, are all those who died by my hands evil?

Of course, maybe there is still a little kindness in my heart, a little bit of conscience that has not been wiped out in my ordinary soul, but this is what is left.

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Texas put on his seatbelt.

"Did the wound break?"

"Ah."

The faint smell of blood filled the carriage. Texas held her open wound, her forehead covered with sweat. She braced herself, but her eyes looked heavy with fatigue.

"Hold on, it will be safe once we leave the city."

"How do we get out?"

She bit off the bandage and wrapped it around the broken wound on her waist, temporarily stopping the blood loss.

The chasing police car was left behind.

"There will be a way." Chen Mo said. The numbers on the dashboard were still rising. Amidst the vibrating roar of the engine, he was still pressing the accelerator under his feet.

Perhaps due to an oversight, both people in the car were killed on this highway.

A car caught up with their car, the windows rolled down and a crossbow sticking out of the car.

"Put your head down!"

Texas lowered his head without thinking. Chen Mo clung to the car seat. The pitch-black crossbow arrow in his sight trembled in the air, penetrated the glass and flew past his eyes.

The car window shattered, Chen Mo raised a hand to protect his head, and the strong wind outside the car mixed with the broken windows and poured into the car.

The car accelerated again and briefly overtook the car that was driving parallel to it. In the rearview mirror, several cars from behind were clinging to it.

"They're coming after them."

"I can see it." Chen Mo said. He opened the storage box next to the car seat, and inside was a dark gun.

The car behind followed again, and the Luper shooter inside raised his crossbow and was about to shoot. The man in the driver's seat in his sight raised his hand, holding a blunderbuss.

Luper's hand on the trigger paused for a moment.

"Look down."

Texas lowered his head.

Bang, bang, bang—

Continuous gunshots broke through the howling wind first, flames exploded at the muzzle of the gun, and orange-yellow hot bullet casings were thrown into the car.

The car lost control in an instant, tilted and flew off the road with the body in the car, and crashed into a building.

"pay close attention!"

Texas saw the blunderbuss in the snake's hand, and he heard her roar. His voice became blurred amidst the wild wind in his ears. Texas gripped the seat, and gunshots continued. rang out, trying to fight off the vehicles that were approaching on either side of the vehicle.

The sound of crossbow arrows hitting the car from behind was like dense raindrops. Several arrows penetrated the glass at the back and were nailed to the dashboard of the driver's seat. The tails of the arrows trembled.

The off-road vehicle crashed into the vehicle next to it. The two steel beasts squeezed together amidst the gunfire, causing a large number of harsh sparks to rub against the guardrail. The interior of the vehicle bumped and vibrated. During the continuous collisions, the front of the vehicle began to deform, and the off-road vehicle suddenly changed direction. The car had just turned a corner and had no time to stop before hitting the fork. The steel and parts were thrown away, and the car body rolled over and blocked the middle of the road, temporarily blocking the passage.

"Knock him away!"

"Our guys are still in the car."

"They won't survive. What will happen to us if we let those two run away!... Collision!"

Luper stepped on the accelerator.

I'm sorry, he thought.

The remaining pursuing vehicles rammed directly into the blocking car, causing the windows to crack in the impact and obstructing the view.

And taking advantage of this time, Chen Mo's car was almost driving out of their sight.

"We can't catch up. In this direction, they want to go out."

"They can't escape. The leader and his family members are guarding the city gate. The city gate has been closed long ago. They are seeking death. Inform the leader and other members of the team and drive them over."

"clear."

Texas could no longer hear the sharp whistling that passed by the traffic. From the close contact with the explosion, to the sudden violent murder, and now to the escape in the car, this night's accident had shaken her mental and physical state. All are declining.

The wound was obviously torn twice. During the hotel explosion, she withstood the aftermath of the explosion in order to protect Fiya in her arms. Debris from the building scratched her back and shoulders, and there were many scrapes and bruises of varying severity. Green and possible damage to internal organs.

After she relaxed, she tilted her head and leaned on the car seat. Her breathing gradually became lighter. Chen Mo called the girl's name, and she could hear the call.

Texas's face grew paler from the loss of blood.

22:05P.M/night

The lights went out and the car stopped, deep in an alley among a group of low old-fashioned buildings.

Chen Mo breathed a sigh of relief and leaned back on his seat.

He held a gun with a hot muzzle in his hand, and there were scattered bullet casings on the ground of the driver's seat.

"Texas, are you still alive?" He tilted his head.

"I'm here."

Texas' weak voice was almost whispering, but she had not lost consciousness yet.

The girl leaned back in the car like him. The night and the chase for more than half an hour on the road had spent too much energy on them. The blood from the cracked wound soaked the seat, and Texas' body trembled slightly.

He put down the gun, unbuckled his seat belt, and leaned against the passenger seat to check the injury on the girl's waist.

It's warm blood that touches your fingers.

"They must have sent people to block the city gate. We can't get out for the time being. They will send people to search during the day. This city is not big. It won't take long for us to be found."

"Ah."

"Can you hold on?"

"I do not……"

Chen Mo retracted his body, his blood soaking the passenger seat. He was highly stressed and injured [$

"We have to go to the hospital, otherwise you may not survive tomorrow. Even if we get out of the city, you will die in the wilderness."

He reached out and turned the key, but the car failed to start. After several times, it still failed to start. Texas's bloody hand suddenly grabbed Chen Mo's arm, and she didn't have much strength in her hand.

"do not go."

She gritted her teeth and wanted to say something else, but after saying these two words, she lost the energy to continue.

"Save your strength, I know what you want to say."

In the past, they would have definitely been discovered and then besieged. Going to the hospital was no different than throwing themselves into a trap. Even in their current state, whether they could get treatment in the hospital was still a problem, and other people might be involved, just like before.

Chen Mo didn't know whether Texas was worried about the former or the latter, maybe both, maybe at this point she still had time to think about it.

"If you are not injured, we will definitely be able to get out, but now we always have to take a gamble. I first agreed that if you can't hold on, I will definitely leave you behind. Don't blame me. I will give you a solution later at most. A monument."

"...Leave me alone."

Texas pushed him weakly.

"Do you know what will happen tomorrow? Tomorrow people will find an abandoned car here, and there is a girl who died of stiffness and blood loss in the car. Maybe they will wait a little longer until your body starts to stink. find you."

He told a bad joke, maybe not a joke, but a fact that might happen.

"……Not funny."

"It's not funny, but it could happen." Chen Mo said, the engine finally started and the remaining headlight came on.

"You are so stupid, what good will this do to you..."

"No good."

"Then...why do you want to help me?" she asked.

She could feel her consciousness blurring, but she wanted to know the answer, and she held on to find out why.

Why did he help her for no reason? Why didn't he keep her when he could escape? Texas didn't understand. This kind of unfounded kindness made her uneasy and made her unable to calm down.

She had asked the same question before but she didn't get a real answer, she didn't care then and now she asked the question again.

"If you survive, I'll tell you why."

Chen Mo said Texas did not answer.

In the alley, there is no clothes on the intertwined clothes drying lines stretched overhead. Old wires are scattered on the wall, and there are no lights on, indicating that no one lives here.

No, maybe someone.

The car lights were on, and the front and back of the alley were blocked by crowds of people who appeared at an unknown time.

Their clothes were a little shabby, some had empty hands, and some were carrying roots and bricks.

Chen Mo picked up the gun again.

He guessed the identities of these people, infected people hiding in the city.

He pushed the door open, and a shell casing fell to the ground as the door opened.

Chapter 12 Commonly seen

In fact, people rarely have the good luck described in the story. When you are in trouble, a good person happens to save you. It is like when you are being chased, the door on the street suddenly opens and you hide in.

There will be a kind-hearted old man. If it is night, there may be a lit candle in the room, and you will receive treatment, food, and even warm quilts.

The old man treats you very well, for no reason. You will think that this is really a kind-hearted old man, and you have to leave as soon as possible to avoid involving her.

But is it really so?

In fact, just when you are covered in blood and have nowhere to go and are being hunted, you will find that the doors and windows on both sides of the road are tightly closed. No one wants to get into trouble because of a stranger. People are worried. , this is not a question of kindness or not, this is just... the essence of life.

Or maybe, to be a little more cruel, when you wake up the next day, the kind old man last night is hiding behind a military policeman. You see the food and bonuses distributed by the military police to the old man, and you suddenly realize something.

You realize that your carelessness has harmed you, you realize that you have suffered betrayal and deception that cannot be called betrayal, and you realize... there are not so many good people in the world.

In fact, you should have known better, but you still took chances.

The old man didn't even have any ill intentions. She really didn't have any ill intentions from the beginning to the end, otherwise she wouldn't have saved you or given you food. She just did something that ordinary people think she should do and it's normal.

But that makes it even more unacceptable for you.

Have you never encountered it?

I haven't encountered it either.

But this kind of thing is very common in this land, and people who usually encounter this kind of thing are called infected people.

It's like these people in front of me.

"What do you mean?"

Chen Mo knows the infected people very well, because he once lived a life similar to them. This group of people were forced into a desperate situation. Those who were able to save themselves were okay, but most of them were ordinary people who were unable to save themselves. You can't expect them to have any beliefs in their hearts that can support them in maintaining their kindness, rationality, and common sense as a person in a life that is oppressed and unsustainable, because just being alive is already a waste for them. Used all his strength.

Not everyone is born evil. Most ordinary people would not be willing to do evil if they could, but sometimes it is not their own decision that people become evil.

They just have no way out, no choice.

Especially the infected people who live in the city. They have no dignity, no rights, and are scorned and bullied. Their lives are not much better than those of wild dogs. But when they go out of the city, even food in the trash can becomes a luxury. Some kind of To a certain extent, the infected in the city are luckier than outside. The wilderness is very dangerous, there are natural disasters and wild beasts outside. Although they may have a little freedom, that freedom must be exchanged for their lives. This is the consensus of everyone. .

But maybe, in fact, there are some good people among the infected people, some people whose lives are not so miserable. They have reasons and have the luxury to remain kind, but they are in the minority after all.

But in the end, too many infected people were forced to take the road that ordinary people thought they would take, so they really became the kind of people ordinary people thought they would be.