Longmen Memoirs

"What's the result?" Texas held the steering wheel.

"Result? I'm waiting for the result." Chen Mo said, "But I'm sure of one thing. Seeing you standing there, I'm a little surprised. I'm also a little happy at the same time."

"What are you happy about?"

"I'm glad that even though I know the road ahead won't be easy, there are still people who knowingly want to go with me." Chen Mo said, "Over the years, there are fewer and fewer such fools."

Texas fell silent.

She turned her head and glanced at Chen Mo.

"Because of your self-righteousness?"

Texas asked, his tone flat but with a hint of certainty.

Her emotions are far more delicate and sensitive than her cold attitude.

"Yes." Chen Mo said. He met Texas's gaze and replied calmly: "So there are fewer and fewer."

"I can't afford the price. Although I actually have some extravagant hopes in my heart, I am a practical person. I am more afraid of losing than the extravagant hopes in my heart. I think that if I never interact with people, I don't have to accept the consequences of losing these. , but how can people not interact with others? Texas." Chen Mo said: "We met, talked, and even fell in love with each other, so we were involved. So later, some people said that I brought it on myself, and I also felt that It’s my own fault, but I won’t regret it and I won’t look back.”

"You think it's right."

"It's not that I think it, but from the perspective of most onlookers, it's mostly right. If a person can live, he doesn't have to die. If he knows there is a better choice, then why do the worst? Intend."

"But those people who make you feel self-righteous are not bystanders."

"That's why I think they are right."

"..."

The car restarted and drove out of the city. As the streets of the town gradually woke up in the early morning, the scenery and pedestrians passed by outside the car window, and the sun illuminated the body of the jeep.

Texas couldn't tell whether what the snake said at this time was true or false.

This was the first time she heard such words of confession from this man. Texas felt that what he said should be true, because there was no need for him to lie to herself again at this time.

What good could that do.

Snake said that he was a self-righteous person, but Texas didn't think so.

If it were in the past, perhaps with Texas's character, it would be difficult for her to have anything to do with people of this character. She is self-righteous, and from a certain perspective, it can be called selfish.

But Snake's selfishness comes from his fear of loss. He is afraid that those who are related to him will lose because of him, just like Texas himself.

Life has never been precious, it was before, and it is now. The disappearance of a life is easy, although it is an unacceptable tragedy for those who value it.

Texas didn't tell Snake. His words reminded Texas of herself. She glanced at Snake slightly, which is why Texas suspected whether he said that on purpose.

It was said as if it had happened to her.

Texas suddenly felt a little emotional. Maybe he was just like Snake now, as self-righteous, so Lapland caught up with him and hated himself so much.

Because she had never considered the wolf's thoughts, never asked her if she was willing, and never told her properly. She would definitely not accept it. She would try her best and even do anything. Let herself go on the path she wants, the ending.

Texas knows Lapland all too well.

Therefore, she can only be self-righteous. Any result that is acceptable to both parties cannot be said to be self-righteous. It is precisely because she knows that the other party will not accept it and that it is impossible that she chooses this slightly extreme method.

But just like the snake said, Texas will not regret it, and she will not look back.

Kazdale

Western front, just north of the border with Letania

Night/21:20.PM

The light of the bonfire lit up among the tents stationed in the wilderness. When the night wind blew, the light of the fire swayed in the direction of the night wind. The shadows reflected on the ground floated, and sparks floated into the dark sky.

A team chose to stop temporarily at this place. Under the black cloak, the pair of horns on their heads and the sophisticated equipment on their bodies announced their identity. They were a team of Sakaz with extraordinary origins.

"I received news from the palace that you are coming. Calculating the time, with your speed, you will probably arrive tonight."

Hedley turned around.

The tent was opened and he looked at W who followed Sakaz in.

"Long time no see, w."

"It's been a long time. Last time you lost an arm, I thought you had found a place to retire."

W's eyes fell on Hedley, and then moved slightly to his right arm covered by the cloak, with a corner of gray-black metal exposed underneath.

She raised the corner of her mouth slightly.

"I didn't expect you to be the person responsible for this operation. So, they really chose a suitable candidate this time. Hedley, with your identity, you can block the mouth over there and make them unable to You can talk, and you can avoid uncontrollable accidents caused by letting them come." W said, and then asked: "How does it feel to be caught in the middle?"

"...It's terrible." Hedley said bluntly.

Hedley understood what w meant, because he had been a member of that group of people in the past, but he was not like that group of people. Hedley's position was not clear, and he ignored the meaning in w's words. ridicule.

"Since it's bad, why don't you take the opportunity to express your position? I know that those people are still in conflict with the royal family, so you are not afraid that you will be involved in becoming, alas...how do you say that word? I just said Learned... By the way, being a victim of politics is not very common for Sakaz.”

"It's normal when there are contradictions, and it's scary when there are no contradictions, w." Hedley replied: "Your Highness and her court are very clear about this."

"So can you tell me who is targeting you, so that I can be prepared."

"That's what the doctor meant."

"Doctor, oh... So you are also forced?" W asked: "Since when will Sarkaz also obey the orders of an outsider?"

"Watch your attitude, W." Hedley reminded, looking at the indifferent W and sighing: "The doctor is just making suggestions. After all, the person who issued the order is His Highness, and we all know the reason why His Highness did this. "

"How long has it been since the war ended? There are so many invisible infightings lurking under the hard-won peace in Kazdaele. Every step taken by His Highness and the royal family must be carefully considered to avoid accidents and more conflicts. I am indeed very worried. Apart from me, there are only Ines and you, the three of us, who are suitable to carry out this mission."

"They don't trust me." W raised his eyebrows and sneered.

"But you're still standing here, you should understand why?"

"Although His Highness recognizes what he has done for Kazdaele, His Highness must also consider the stability of Kazdaele's country. The hard-won unity and peace of Kazdaele are buried underneath countless Sakaz. The dead bones and blood, not just one person, not just one person." Hedley said: "His Royal Highness is responsible for their sacrifice and contribution."

"..."

W's smile slowly disappeared and his expression calmed down.

"I see."

"You don't look like you understand now." Hedley looked at W: "I know you have ideas. Since His Highness agreed to your coming, I have nothing to say, but I understand you and you have to make a promise to me. w, ensure that everything you do in this operation must have my order."

"Otherwise..." W didn't answer immediately, so she asked.

"Otherwise, I can only temporarily control your actions on the grounds that the security mission takes priority." Hedley said, looking at W's hand that moved slightly near his gun.

"I can't take the risk."

The atmosphere became stagnant at this moment.

w did not take action in the end.

"I met Ines before coming here." W looked at Hedley and said: "She said that we are no longer the mercenaries we used to be, and Kazdaele is not the Kazdaele we were familiar with before. In the past, we could live in the way we were good at, but now we can’t. The battlefield has changed, so we all have to make changes for the current environment.”

w smiled softly as he thought of something.

"I think what she said makes sense. After just six months of war, Kazdaele has changed. You have changed, Ines has changed, and even I have changed. But aren't we people always changing? In the past, for In trying to survive on the battlefield, we hid ourselves in the smoke rising from the battlefield, but now we just hide ourselves deeper in a more complicated way."

If the mission fails, what will happen to Hedley as the chief officer.

If a bigger accident occurs due to W's willful behavior, then who will pay for it?

Scattered mercenaries are always in vain. Mercenaries and soldiers have different lifestyles, because the former do not have to consider responsibilities, while the former often only need to work hard to prevent themselves from dying on the battlefield.

Hedley couldn't tell whether what w said was true or false. The smile on her face reminded Hedley of the w she was familiar with. Has she changed?

Maybe only w himself knows.

"exactly."

"So I promise you, Hedley, if you think that my behavior affects the risk of this operation, I will obey your orders." W stood up straight and raised his hand: "Wangting Imperial Guard Regiment directly under w, seconded here during this mission, now officially reporting to you, Sir Hedley."

"..."

It seemed that from this moment on, their past had become a thing of the past.

Hedley opened his mouth, but the words finally got stuck in his throat.

He just felt a little helpless.

Until w leaves the command post.

Should w be bound by Kazdaele's rules?Still like most mercenaries who left the war, it was difficult to find peace outside the battlefield.

Hedley once saw his own shadow in W, but he understood that if W didn't die, he would be even better than him.

She is the most talented Sarkaz mercenary that Hedley has ever seen. With her personality, the best place for her is undoubtedly the battlefield, but there is no place for her to realize her potential in Kazdale, and there are no mercenaries left. this industry.

Chapter 29 Arrive at Ursus tomorrow

Sometimes when looking at Texas, Chen Mo would suddenly have the illusion that he saw his own shadow in her.

The Chen Mo when he was young.

Just like Texas, he thought he had experienced a bleak and glamorous life. From then on, it was difficult for him to show a smile on his face, and it was difficult for him to look at everyone around him with an ordinary person's mentality. A person gradually becomes taciturn and makes people feel difficult to contact.

The coldness on his face became a disguise for self-protection, subconsciously rejecting anyone and anything that came into contact with him.

He was wary of his surroundings, wary that one day things would happen that made him feel the same. Chen Mo thought that he was no longer unfamiliar with these things, and he could treat them calmly.

But every time I came back to my senses, I saw the quiet girl next to me.

Chen Mo also understood.

He and Texas are different. Although they may have some similarities, people's lives can never be exactly the same. Texas is more determined than him. Chen Mo has never been a determined person. He If you can’t be as free and easy as Texas, you will never be able to be a free and easy person.

The journey around the border passed slowly by.

April 7

After leaving Warren Mud, his relationship with Texas became much better. If he had to use one word to describe their current relationship, they could probably be regarded as good friends and traveling companions. Gradually, Texas Getting used to being a driver is similar to what Chen Mo said when joking. Her driving skills are good and the car is very smooth, but she still rarely speaks actively. Most of the time Texas is silent, and her eyes occasionally fall out of the car window. on the road.

I don't know what she is thinking, maybe she is not thinking about anything, maybe she is just used to being quiet.

She gives off a passive vibe.

However, as a passive person, she often needs others to take the initiative.

Chen Mo felt that with a personality like Texas, it would be difficult to find a partner in her lifetime. She was talkative and cold, and not many people would like this type of girl.

You need time to get to know her, but her cold temperament may not give you this opportunity. She doesn't have many friends, so you can't expect to learn about her past from this aspect. She has no idea about these things, so you can't Don't even think about her taking the initiative to talk to you.

After you finally think you understand her a little bit, take the initiative to mention this matter to her. However, she may look at you in surprise. Only then will you realize that in her opinion, you are at best her only one. Familiar friends.

How will she reject you?

She would probably say calmly, "I understand," and then nothing more would happen. She would not feel any embarrassment or discomfort about it.

Yes, she has never wanted to know anything about you. Naturally, she also feels that you don't need to know about her. She has no intention of staying out of the matter, but she also has no intention of getting involved.

You know that underneath her cold appearance there is actually a sensitive and delicate heart, and you know that she has an unknown past.

But unfortunately, she never thought of adding your place in her past and heart.

You will be a little disappointed, disappointed, stunned, and then relieved, because you know that she is such a girl, because you know that when you decide to get to know her, this possibility will inevitably arise.

Texas was not a good partner, and there was no way she could be one.

Of course, if you don't consider her personality and just look at Texas' appearance, she is indeed a very good girl. It's hard not to notice her slightly cold eyes, so she left a deep impression on her. Her cold face sometimes It gives people a cold and glamorous feeling. Under the dark blue hair, the girl's face has soft lines and a bit of heroism.

She is a bit like Chen, but Chen is not as cold as her.

Her figure is not tall, but her straight back makes people feel upright, and she is thin but not fragile.

When she stands in front of you covered in blood and holding a sword, there will only be one feeling in your mind. You will think that this girl is so damn handsome, but it is a pity that she is a girl.

She is a girl who is difficult for people to get rid of easily. Maybe she didn't deliberately build a high wall in her heart, maybe she didn't deliberately keep alienated from anyone, but she just makes people feel so far away, and there is a sense of distance between them. Separated by something, some distance that is difficult to approach.

There are no roads in the wasteland, only the trade routes left behind by the caravans, which are scattered all over the moving [{#

People can always find a way to survive, just like the most tenacious and common insect on the earth, no matter how harsh the environment is, as long as they can survive, they can find ways to survive.

The car went all the way north, along the border of Letania, stopping in small towns and wilderness, occasionally replenishing food and water, and occasionally stopping for half a day to renovate.