Longmen Memoirs

Chen Mo looked at the dusty Sakaz.

Did she really chase her all the way from Leitania to Ursus just to take her own life?

Of course not, if it were, once in Kazdale, when Chen Mo went to face the so-called trial, she should have applauded instead of stupidly intercepting him.

Chen Mo thought that maybe W saw her own shadow in him, just like she had seen her own shadow in this little mercenary. But the difference is that W is good at disguise, while Chen Mo is good at lying. .

They are the same type of people, but they are also different people. Their different experiences, different lives and subsequent different views and encounters have shaped each other's subsequent appearance.

W just wanted an answer, an answer that could convince her. As for what the answer was, she didn't know, so she caught up.

She was confused, she was confused, Theresa couldn't tell her what to do, she encountered new problems.

Maybe that answer is Chen Mo's fate, or maybe that answer is just the regret in Chen Mo's mouth, or maybe it's just Chen Mo's hatred for what he is experiencing now, and his hatred for the injustice he has suffered.

But W couldn't see the answer. She only saw this guy living as if nothing had happened. He didn't hate Kazdel, didn't blame His Highness, and didn't feel any injustice. He even said that Kazdale treated him The ending was not unfair in his opinion.

w is disappointed, extremely disappointed.

But W also felt lucky and relieved.

She no longer had any excuse or reason to take this life, but other than that, what was left between him and Chen Mo.

There was nothing, just a void, and in that void they weren't even friends.

w felt confused. She didn't like this feeling. She was at a loss as to what to do, but she felt that it shouldn't be like this.

The Sakaz girl's rusty kissing skills were far less conceited than her flamboyance and madness suggested.

Her actions were so sudden.

Chen Mo even forgot to push her away until the rusty smell of blood spread.

When words can no longer fill the vacancy in people's hearts, people will subconsciously look for a more direct and reckless way.

Chapter 38 Subtle marks

Death does not mean the end. Death is the meaning given by the living to the passing, but the real death begins from the moment of being forgotten.

Chen Mo had heard such a sentence before.

The old Chen Mo didn't think so.

He used to believe that death meant the end, nothing would be left, and nothing could continue.

But later he gradually understood this truth.

Later, he became more and more convinced that this sentence was correct, but he did not want to be a person who was still considered alive after death, because that would require paying a high price.

Maybe there are some costs that he can bear, but there are some costs that he can't bear, and he can't think about it that way.

He couldn't imagine that one day he would lose important people, lose Chen, and lose people he didn't want to lose in order to achieve his greatness.

Perhaps, from beginning to end, he was just a stubborn common man, even though he had gone such a long way, even though he had hypocritically become one of the leaders of the Sakaz people.

Even though he shouted slogans of justice, he spun countless lies with his talk of benevolence, justice, morality and justice.

Sakaz put his hands around Chen Mo's neck and held his head from behind. The girl's arms were close to him, accompanied by a breath that suddenly amplified countless times. The breath seemed to be filled with smoke and gunpowder. the taste of.

The black pupils shrank suddenly.

Chen Mo wanted to push W away, but before he could do it, W released his hand first and stepped back.

Sakaz gasped lightly, and there was a trace of bright blood on the corner of her mouth. She stretched out her fingertips to brush the corners of her lips, looked at the red on her fingertips, and suddenly showed an intoxicating smile.

Chen Mo just opened his mouth to say something, but w interrupted him.

what did she say.

Chen Mo's face was calm at first, then silent.

w looked at Chen Mo, and his silence made Sakaz's smile brighter.

Texas had woken up from half-asleep and half-awake several times, and she could never fall asleep peacefully. The room was dim, with a few dim lights shining into the walls of the room through the windows with undrawn curtains.

Texas is sleepless.

This was the first time she had fallen into this state since leaving Syracuse.

A few years ago, she had the same experience. It was the same when the family was just destroyed. She usually couldn't sleep all night. She was used to keeping the weapon next to her or holding it in her hand.

Occasionally, she would feel the wolf sleeping next to her leaving the room quietly. She would carefully ensure that her breathing was steady, pretending to be asleep, and then open her eyes when the door was closed.

But later, I don’t know when, Texas no longer fell into this state. Maybe it was because she was used to the life of wandering, maybe because the strange wolf gradually gained her trust, or maybe it was just her He has survived the confusion after the family's destruction and has adapted to a new life and new identity.

Texas can't be sure.

All she knew for sure was that it felt bad, really bad.

The difference from the past was that she didn't have to worry about enemies suddenly attacking her while she was sleeping and dying silently in her sleep, but she still couldn't close her eyes with peace of mind.

The snake hasn't come back yet?

What did he do?Why does it take so long? Will we encounter enemies?

Has he quietly left here?

Did he think it would be a drag on him? No, he should have told me in advance.

Will he?

Looks like not.

Texas didn't have much confidence in snakes. She thought that when she woke up, she would suddenly find that the snake had quietly left the town and left her here.

Do you feel regretful, a little overwhelmed, or just accept this fact calmly?

In Texas' heart, Snake was someone who could do such a thing, but he also said that he would not leave him without saying goodbye.

That was in Letania, Texas[*

Don’t you know very well in your heart that his past may be more cruel and heavy than yours? If it were you, what would you do?

Texas has no answers.

Just like she couldn't explain why so many chaotic thoughts suddenly popped up in her mind.

She lay on the bed, closing her eyes several times, and opening them again. The night was very late, and she didn’t know where the time had gone. It was even quieter outside the window. In the silence of Texas, she could even hear her own slight breathing. The unintelligible sound had long since disappeared, but she still couldn't sleep.

Texas felt like he shouldn't have so many ideas.

It was strange that she had never felt this way before, that she would be so shaken by a stranger. Texas suddenly remembered that night.

She leaned against the snake.

When he turned his head, Snake had already fallen asleep. He clearly said that he would be fine after resting for a while, but his words stopped at some point. After the sound stopped, Texas subconsciously looked at him again, and he closed his eyes. Close your eyes.

The snake looked extremely peaceful when sleeping, but when Texas' eyes fell on his face, the dazzling paleness of his temple hair always attracted Texas' attention immediately, as if at that moment, Texas could feel the weariness deep within him.

Heavy, unrelieved fatigue.

No matter how free and easy he was when facing those Sakaz and enemies, at that moment, Snake, this man, did he really think so in his heart? Why did he need to bring weapons to those friends he said? Meet each other.

He frowned with physical pain, but he was still able to fall asleep despite the torture.

Texas didn't have the heart to wake him up.

She took off her coat and covered the snake. She wanted to stand up and go to the car to get the blanket, but the snake's hand suddenly grabbed Texas' palm and held her back as she stood up.

When she turned back, Snake still hadn't opened his eyes, and he was calling something in a low voice.

Texas could only hear his voice when he leaned closer.

"...Don't go."

Don't go, he kept calling so softly, as if to someone, intermittently, he grabbed Texas's hand, as if grabbing the person he didn't want to let her leave.

His dream must not be beautiful, Texas thought, that person must be very important to him.

Texas sat down next to him again. He seemed to be able to feel Texas' presence. His frown relaxed and his words became softer.

Letting her hand be held tightly by him, she raised her head. The dark sky above her head was blocked by the shade of trees, and she couldn't see the stars in the sky.

The wind is a bit cold at night.

Texas leaned against a tree.

She suddenly heard a title called out from the snake's mouth, a title that was not unfamiliar to Texas but had never been familiar with before.

mother.

Texas was stunned.

She turned her head and looked at the snake's face carefully, with an inexplicable emotion hidden in her amber eyes, feeling the warmth from her palms.

The ears on the top of Texas' head softened slightly, and her legs slowly curled up. After a while, she sighed, opened the coat covering the snake, and leaned slightly against his shoulder.

Under the coat, she held the snake's palm, the gray tail behind her gently covering their clasped hands.

On the coats, two souls scarred and displaced in this land cling to each other's brief warmth and fall asleep.

From that moment on, the snake entered Texas's heart and she began to get used to it.

Probably from that moment on, Lengbo Lang himself didn't realize that she had become a little concerned about this person.

It turns out that a person like Snake, who seems to understand everything and makes people feel safe and strong, will also have such fragile moments, like a child, unconsciously calling the names of relatives in his dreams.

The memory slowly faded, and Texas fell asleep.

Maybe Texas wouldn't know that the longing she thought was actually a kind of torture for the snake, a pain that was more profound and painful than the Originium disease on her body.

There is more guilt than missing, and there is more debt than guilt.

But Chen Mo didn't dare and couldn't forget, even though he knew clearly that forgetting was liberation. Only by forgetting could he live a new life. Forgetting was the best and easiest way.

But he didn't deserve or qualify for this kind of relief, and he couldn't bear to forget the past, the person who died in his arms, and those who should have been alive.

So they are all alive, living in Chen Mo's heart. Maybe one day, he will also become the person living in the hearts of others. He does not hope that such a day will come.

Because he knows that it may not be a good thing for the living people.

It is easy for people to change and lose their way in this misery-ridden, terrible land. To a certain extent, excessive persistence is the only way people living on this land can make their own decisions, and it is also the only thing that allows them to persevere. reasons.

Chen is too obsessed with the past ten years and justice.

Tallulah is overly obsessed with justice and justice.

Rhodes Island is overly obsessed with the survival of infected people.

Overly obsessed with Theresia's w.

Chen Mo is too obsessed with fate and the past.

They are all fighting against the fate and injustice of this land, and they are all struggling to survive in their own way.

……

Many, many people live because of excessive persistence, because apart from these attachments, they can no longer find a reason to continue, because apart from these attachments, they only have this little persistence left. If even these are lost, , what else can they have left?

When Texas woke up again, she saw the snake sitting at the table.

Just like the first time she saw the snake, he was sitting on a chair and fell asleep with his hands folded. The collar of his coat was raised, covering half of his face. A few steps away, from the perspective of Texas, he could only See his head slightly buried and his eyes closed.

When Texas woke up in the morning, he was still in a daze.

But the moment she saw the snake, her mind suddenly became clear. She subconsciously wanted to say something, but the words stopped when she reached her lips.

As if afraid of waking him up.

Texas pursed his lips slightly, and just sat on the bed looking at the snake opposite him. A ray of morning sunlight fell through the gap in the curtains on the sheets, and fell on the back of Texas's hand. In the quiet room, that The sunshine is so dazzling and bright.

His mind was calm, which was completely opposite to the sleepless nights last night. The figure of the snake a few steps away was reflected in his amber eyes.

Texas thought nothing of it.

It would be great if time could stand still at this moment. It would be great if it could stand still.

Maybe he noticed Texas' gaze, or maybe it was because Texas' gaze didn't contain murderous intent and hatred, so Chen Mo's reaction was a little slower.

Texas stared at Chen Mo and suddenly met his open eyes.

The former was obviously stunned, and looked away after a brief moment of surprise.