Longmen Memoirs

"Who do you think you are?" Chen frowned: "One last time, get out of the way."

"Why should a decent man hide behind a woman?"

He turned his eyes to Chen Mo again and clenched his lowered hands tightly.

The Guards Bureau behind them seemed to have noticed the movement here. It would be better to say that the police officers on duty had noticed this a long time ago, but they were a little further away and could not hear what they were saying clearly. Only then did any police officers move towards this place. Come.

Chen, who discovered this, didn't have to think about it to know what rumors would spread in the bureau tomorrow. She already felt that the recent events were enough to make her unhappy.

Chen no longer paid attention to Qi Jin who was standing in front of him. She pulled Chen Mo and walked in the other direction without looking back. From the beginning to the end, she didn't seem to care about any of Qi Jin's thoughts.

At this moment, Qi Jincai finally did not dare to catch up. His tutor did not allow him to do the same thing again.

Chen's footsteps were getting faster and faster, and Chen Mo, who was being pulled by him, could only fall one step behind and see her cold side face, her brows furrowed as if she was thinking about some trouble.

Chen Mo knew that it was definitely not because of Qi Jin. What Chen was thinking about was another thing that made her conflicted and difficult to identify with.

But Chen Mo did not speak, because being dragged along the streets of Longmen reluctantly by Chen seemed to be a past event that he had not experienced for a long time, even though he was looked at with curious eyes by passers-by all the way.

"If we keep going, we may be on the news in Tianlongmen, Chen." Chen Mo suddenly said.

He had already thought of the title. A young policewoman from the Guards Bureau was openly pulling a young man from Longmen on the street. What was the unknown story behind this?

Chen finally came to her senses, and her hurried steps slowed down.

"Is it still a matter of work?"

When she heard Chen Mo's question, she walked forward again. She never thought of letting go of Chen Mo's hand. In fact, at this time, the person holding Chen Mo's hand had become Chen Mo. Maybe even Chen himself didn't realize this.

“Regarding the ghetto proposals, it seems like when I want to do something, some voice pops up and makes it difficult to do what I want to do.”

Chen said that it was rare that Chen Huijie, who was fearless in Chen Mo's impression, would also have hesitations and embarrassments, and would also feel that she was confused. Maybe it was not confusion for Chen, but a kind of tempering.

"Really, but I think you already knew this was possible, didn't you?" Chen Mo said.

Chen was stunned for a moment, turned his head and looked at his face without saying a word.

"Why are you looking at me like that?"

"Well..." Chen didn't answer. Chen Mo felt Chen's palm tighten slightly.

"Why do you say that?"

"Why, maybe it's because in my eyes, doing something even if you know it's wrong is more like your character." Chen Mo said uncertainly: "If this thing goes smoothly from the beginning, if this thing doesn't have any Suspense is destined to have no second outcome. I think it will definitely not make you irritable. It will make you irritable precisely because you think it is worth it and you think you should do it, even if they don't say it is right."

"That's easy to say," Chen said.

"Easy words are spoken, but hard done." Chen Mo replied.

"It makes sense again." Chen said dissatisfied.

"I can't reason with you. It's the truth. My truth is, no matter how others think you shouldn't do this, no matter how many people block your actions and say you are wrong, I will always be on your side."

"..."

"what happened?"

"Someone just said to me, it's easy to talk but hard to do." Chen suddenly repeated while looking into Chen Mo's eyes.

"Then I will revise the preface and add the words except me." Chen Mo said shamelessly.

Chen's eyes seemed to indicate her mood at the moment. Who are you fooling?

But Chen didn't say anything.

Chen Mo, who was wearing a Guards Bureau uniform, looked up at Chen Mo. Her blue hair was slightly swaying in the afternoon breeze, and her beautiful and clear red eyes reflected Chen Mo's face.

Chen Mo slowly stretched out his hand, and his fingertips gently brushed Chen's delicate face.

"Hui Jie..."

Chen Mo later discovered that Chen Huijie's every smile, every nuance of her expression, her joys, sorrows, sorrows and hardships made him miss her so much.

"I have thought more than once about whether I will ever see you again. Every time I think about this question, I begin to find that I am becoming more and more afraid of death. But on the battlefield, there are people who are there every day. Death, of course I can’t be an exception.”

"I'm afraid I'll never see you again after I die. I'm afraid you'll be sad when I die. I'm afraid you'll be like my mother, who can only live by relying on memories. I'm also afraid that Xiao Mo will become another person from the past. Chen Mo, I am afraid that one day you will forget me a little bit."

"So I told myself that I cannot die. Even if I make mistakes, even if I am heinous, even if my sins are heinous, I have to live selfishly and come back alive, because I dare not die without your permission."

Chen raised his hand and held Chen Mo's fingers touching the side of his face.

"Then I will never allow it," she said, adding: "You'd better remember it for the rest of your life."

"A lifetime is not enough."

In the past, I always felt that life was too long and could not wait for a lifetime, but now I am afraid that it is too short and will pass by in the blink of an eye, so that I start to look forward to the next life and want to keep time.

Chapter 51 Miss Chen Huijie’s great victory

I have always heard people talk about starting a family and starting a business. This is one of the most common ideas that runs through the minds of people in the Yan Kingdom. I have thought about it before. A long time ago, I thought about having a home of my own in Longmen. I thought I could find it in this city. A place of your own.

At that time, I didn’t understand anything. At that time, I felt that although this little dream seemed far away, at least it could be seen, at least it could be touched.

I never imagined that things would turn out to be so rough later on, nor did I imagine that the original simple and ordinary fantasy would have almost no possibility of being realized from the beginning.

I thought about it later.

I always feel that I am too naive. When I was a child, in that orphanage, the spring, summer, autumn and winter under the narrow sky, those memories have become blurred and almost forgotten.

I can't remember much of it, and I don't dare to think of it often, for fear that I will hate it, and for fear that one day I can no longer hold on and decide to forget.

So the days went on like this day by day, and I just allowed myself to grow up in a muddle-headed way.

What will happen when you grow up?

When I grew up, I no longer thought about the innocent and extravagant hopes I had when I was a child, because I already knew what this land looked like, and I also knew my own situation.

But it is unavoidable that there will still be regrets. It is better to say that it is not just a regret, it is a scar, a scar that will still leave a hideous scar even after it has healed. It seems to be reminding myself at all times, reminding myself to recognize myself and recognize myself. Clear reality.

Most of the future that people think is very different from the real future, because most people cannot predict what they will encounter in the future, because in the process of chasing this future, they will always encounter various problems. And these problems force people to make a certain choice.

Most of the time, it is impossible to get what you want. It is normal to not be able to get what you want. If everyone can get what they want, then the word dream will naturally not be so fascinating, and this will give rise to some kind of hope, something that seems possible but unrealistic. Practical hope, and hope usually indicates small and humble possibilities as well as one's own powerlessness and helplessness.

For Chen Mo, meeting Chen again at the Londinium Karma Club, her appearance was an untimely medicine and it was undeniable that it was also an unexpected surprise.

The unexpected joy of meeting an old friend in a foreign land, and the appearance of Chen Mo. After growing up, Chen Mo unexpectedly became what Chen Mo had imagined. Although her features were no longer as childish as Chen Mo remembered, even though the grown-up Chen Huijie, There is still something familiar and strange about it.

At that time, Chen Mo had already returned from Longmen.

For Chen Mo at that time, his feud with Longmen was over, and he no longer wanted to have anything to do with Longmen, so that all the beautiful fantasies he once thought were completely a thing of the past when he left Longmen.

He no longer had any expectations. In fact, he should have no more expectations.

But after meeting Chen Huijie, Chen Mo still couldn't help but think of Si Feierte's words. Si Feierte said that he shouldn't be so persistent. He asked whether the people he thought would still remember him. He said that people are moving forward. When you are in trouble, you often leave behind some things, some things that you once thought you cared about, but now you don’t care much about them.

Sfeldt said that he once had a girl he particularly liked in middle school. He felt that he liked her very much. He even thought that one day he would marry that girl. Until now, Sfeldt still remembers the girl's name and appearance. , but that’s all.

After losing contact for many years, when I look back and think about this, I realize that the girl she once had has her own husband and family, and Sfeldt is still Sfield, but she is no longer the Sfeldt she was in middle school.

He patted Chen Mo on the shoulder and said, "This bullshit thing about life is just telling you, don't have high expectations. If you don't have high expectations, you won't be disappointed. That's how he is with some things. What you thought before may not be true later." What you want may not necessarily become what you want, but no matter what happens, people still have to move forward, because they can only move forward and cannot look back.

Chen Mo couldn't deny that what Brother Si said made sense. Maybe he knew it in his heart. Brother Si just said this because he didn't want himself to feel the same as he did at that time, although both he and Chen Mo knew that this outcome was very likely. , rather it is not surprising at all that it will happen.

Forgetting a less important person and starting a new life is actually not as difficult as you think, and you are not as important as you think.

What Chen Mo should do is to live well. In Colombia, he already has a pretty good job. It is conceivable that when he retires from Black Steel, he will be able to live a prosperous life and maybe set up a company. , perhaps becoming an executive within the black steel department.

He has this talent and this intelligence. The only thing he lacks is time, and he just needs to convince himself to live a life that he can already see.

And one day, he may be able to start a family of his own in Colombia and have a new family. When he finishes doing this and looks back on the past, he will find that it is not a big deal.

In fact, it is just the most common thing in this land. It is not worth nostalgia or stubbornness.

But Chen Mo still wonders if Brother Si has any regrets in his heart, regrets about the girl in his heart, even though he said it so lightly, even though he unreliably fell in love with Huwei.

Chen Mo felt that Brother Si's encounter with such a thing was probably inseparable from his character.

It was hard for him to imagine that one day Sfeldt would dress himself up and down, and it was also hard for him to imagine that one day when he returned to Longmen, he would happen to meet Chen Huijie and Talulah, who were holding the hands of another strange man. When the hand is coming, can I be as calm as Sfeldt?

Probably will.

Chen Mo thought that because he had made a choice, and because people can't look back, if he was lucky enough not to die on the battlefield in Kazdare, Chen Mo thought that one day he would return to Longmen to visit the cemetery.

He hoped that Chen Huijie and Tallulah would not recognize him at that time. He hoped that he was a passerby, walking into someone's life inadvertently and leaving quietly.

Apart from this, Chen Mo no longer expected anything.

If Sifeldt can really get married on the day, he will stay in Colombia, because Colombia is more familiar to him than Longmen. There are people he is familiar with, his friends and life there, and it is the only place where he can be stable.

Also because Colombia is far away from Longmen.

He learned that life was not going to be what he wanted it to be.

But Chen Huijie broke this story that should have happened naturally. Chen Huijie always seems to be like this. She doesn't want to be trapped, so she struggles desperately. She often makes things change as they should be. She often likes Bring some surprises to people.

She seemed stunned and wanted to beat her head to pieces, but she refused to compromise.

In fact, if Chen Huijie is willing to compromise, many things, many things that people take for granted, will not be too difficult for her.

But if Chen chose to compromise, she would definitely not be at peace in her heart. She could not convince herself that she would rather choose a road full of thorns with peace of mind than walk uneasily and have a smooth road.

Chen Mo didn't understand Chen Huijie well enough, didn't understand Chen Huijie well enough when she grew up, didn't understand her thoughts, her experiences, or the hopes in her heart.

He didn't have time to learn about this slowly.

Chen Huijie didn't understand him, his concerns, his actions, or what kind of person he had become, but Chen Huijie didn't care about this.

This is the only difference between them, and it is also the biggest difference, because once Chen Mo decides on something, she will never change it. No matter what happens, she must have an answer, an answer that can convince her, but Chen Mo No, Chen Mo doesn't need an answer, he can find a way to convince himself.

In the past, I always heard people say that once a family is established, the descendants will be stable. But I don’t think so before. I think there is no connection between the two, and I think it is easier to talk about starting a family after you have established a career.

But now I seem to understand a little bit. I understand that starting a family is starting a family, but starting a career is not a career. I understand that when a person cares about someone in his heart, I understand that when someone is tied to him, the things he could say and do easily before, There will be changes as a result.

I understand that I can actually let go of many things, and I understand that I have to let go of those things because Chen is there, so even if I let them go, I won't feel unwilling to do so.

I finally understood why my mother became like that when he left.

When Longmen quietly entered the night after sunset, when the gentle light shone on this strange apartment, and when Chen Mo sat across the dining table and stared at Chen without saying a word, Chen finally couldn't help it anymore.

"Why are you still staring at me? You don't need to eat anymore?"

Chen Huijie's face was not very good. She pressed the chopsticks in her hand on the table, unable to hide her irritation. To be precise, she should be angry, although Officer Chen was not unaware of this.

After changing out of her uniform, she was wearing a white T-shirt, hanging loosely behind her [<=

Family is a relatively distant word for Chen. Ever since he was a child, Chen has never experienced the feelings between family members. This is probably the reason why Tallulah makes Chen so persistent.

Although Chen Huijie herself was unwilling to admit that she longed for this word in her heart, she did not dare to have any expectations for it.

Just like the day she learned the Chixiao Swordsmanship, she thought Wei Yanwu would take a second look at her. From then on, Chen no longer had any expectations for this.

Chen's life had so many shortcomings in this area that she couldn't figure out how to face Chen Mo and the extra family she had. Although she actually asked for it, Chen would not regret it. , she never regretted it, nor did she think she would regret it.

"Are you breaking the law, Sir Chen?" Chen Mo asked.

Chen felt that he called himself that on purpose.

She was momentarily speechless.

It is indeed not illegal. Is it illegal to watch his wife in his own home? It is probably not illegal, but for Chen, it is a very strange feeling to be stared at all the time while eating.

"Who cares about you."

Chen grabbed the chopsticks angrily, looked away, and deliberately looked like he didn't want to talk to Chen Mo.

But soon she couldn't ignore it any longer.

Because she noticed Chen Mo's smile.

"What are you laughing at?" She frowned.

"It's nothing."

"I always feel that I have bad intentions." Chen Hu asked.

"How dare I."

"When exactly do you want to see it?"

"What's the problem?"

"It's weird how anyone can continue to eat when you keep looking at me." Chen said, and then warned with suspicion: "Let me tell you first, if you dare to look at me like this again, then don't blame me for taking action. What do you want to do?"

"Why are you so nervous?" Chen Mo asked puzzledly.