Longmen Memoirs

Tallulah turned to look at Chen Mo. She suddenly felt that it was not bad to let Chen Mo be a teacher in the camp. At least she knew he was here and could see him when he came back.

She smiled.

"Actually, it's not bad now. It just so happens that the children in the camp lack suitable teachers."

"Just now a snow monster said the same thing as you." Chen Mo replied, lifting the teaching aid in his hand, Tallulah reached out to take it, and he walked into the snow under the wooden steps: "But I think it's still... Someone like Lina is more suitable to be a teacher.”

"Why?" Tallulah asked doubtfully.

"I'm not sure if I can do this with peace of mind now. Alina is more suitable than letting me be half-hearted." Chen Mo said: "It's still too early to say this, Tallulah, until Alina can Before you can teach your children well, you must first give them a land where they can study with peace of mind.”

"This is my duty." Tallulah said. She looked back at the simple classroom: "If one day we want these children to go to the battlefield, I'm afraid that day will come when they all still have to go to war." It’s too small and it’s not their responsibility.”

"I think you will stay on the battlefield before they do until that day comes, Tallulah."

Chen Mo said, looking at Tallulah in front of him.

"Have you ever thought that you are just an ordinary flesh and blood body. If you are injured, you will bleed, and if you are seriously injured, you will die. So don't put too much pressure on yourself, and don't think about things that are too far away, Tallulah, I just chatted with Frost Star, and she didn’t seem to agree with the outcome of your meeting?”

"Froststar told you?" Tallulah asked.

"No, I guess, her face is not very pretty." Chen Mo said, "And she seems to be a little against me."

"Shuangxing doesn't have any ill intentions. Maybe we have encountered a lot of things that went back on her word during this period. Shuangxing is resisting these. You just came here and she doesn't know you well enough. In fact, she is a nice person, but sometimes it's difficult to be serious. Handle."

"for example?"

"If, I mean, if she invites you to train together in the future, you'd better not agree easily."

"How to say?"

"She won't kill her, but the feeling of having half her body frozen by a spell is not pleasant at all. Don't ask me how I know that."

Tallulah seemed to have remembered something, and she was slightly wary, as if she didn't want to talk about it.

The food rationing in the camp is unified, because the few remaining supplies must be strictly rationed to avoid waste and allow everyone in the camp to eat food. Of course, the ration quota for soldiers is higher than that for ordinary infected people. Some, because they have more characters to take on.

There are actually less than 500 people in this camp. They originally had more people, but some people left midway, and another group of people are at different strongholds. Tallulah has numbers that contact various villages and infected areas. Bo, she wanted to use this method to connect the infected people in the snowfield as a whole.

But in Chen Mo's opinion, this may be difficult.

Because trust between people is usually difficult to establish, let alone whether it is reliable after it is established. Tallulah does not have the ability to take care of the infected people in the entire snowfield, and she cannot feed so many people at the same time. To avoid the search and pursuit of Ursus pickets.

The human heart is unpredictable and capricious.

She should not give those people expectations and promises that are difficult for her to fulfill. These can only increase her pressure. Once her hopes fail, they can easily turn into hatred. Too much kindness for no reason will breed laziness that she shouldn't have.

She looked too far ahead, far beyond her own abilities, and inevitably became unrealistic.

A thick mixture of common potatoes mixed with some coarse grains and sometimes a little minced meat from hunting formed the lunch of the infected at noon in this cold winter.

There was no abundance at all, even just to fill their stomachs was just barely enough. They still had a few snowmobiles and tractors seized from the pickets, not many camels, not many supplies to speak of, and even less fuel, but This winter is still very long, and there are still many months to spend in the winter in Ursus.

"Now there are no villages that can trade supplies with us anymore. If you want to trade supplies, you have to go farther and are more likely to be discovered by picket posts on the road. So these days the soldiers and I have been discussing plans to move the camp. "

she said so.

Different from the little tower in Chen Mo's memory, she was more mature and tough in the wind and snow, and also thinner and haggard. She should have lived a better life, and Chen Mo should have given her a more stable life.

But when he came back to his senses, time passed too fast. It was so fast that Chen Mo was unable to change anything. It was so fast that everything was already on the established track.

He could only watch Tallulah move forward.

"Are you listening? Chen Mo."

"You're not picky about food anymore, Xiaota."

"I...food is very precious here. It is obtained by everyone taking risks. How can I dare to be picky about food again."

Chapter 12 You bear the scent of countless deaths of my compatriots

Because food was hard to come by, Tallulah got rid of her picky eating habits when she was a child. Only then did Chen Mo suddenly realize the changes in Tallulah in front of him.

"The Frost Stars and Snow Monsters will stay to protect the camp. After the guerrillas and fighters lead the Ursus advance team elsewhere, they will be responsible for bringing the rest of the camp to a safe location." Tallulah Said: "But Shuangxing doesn't agree with this arrangement. I understand her thinking. She believes that the snow monsters can play a greater role in the front. She is a relatively proud person. Staying behind and leaving the difficult battle to others will make her I feel slighted.”

"That's why she left the meeting early?" Chen Mo asked.

"I don't worry about letting others stay. Froststar is the top magician and commander in the camp. What she says can attract everyone's attention, but others can't. Moreover, the snow monsters are better at finding their way in the snow. They are all good at investigating." Tallulah said, putting the fork in her hand into the food box in front of her legs and sighing softly.

"The manpower we can use is really too small. Even if we are training and training, it will be difficult to fill these vacancies in a short period of time. So I have always wanted to leave the snowfield and go to the south to contact the infected people in the southern cities. Some of them There are a lot of talents we need, and as the team grows, the snowfield will no longer be able to support so many people sooner or later. We cannot sit back and wait and put the battlefield on the snowfield, so that we will have no possibility of winning."

"Are you asking for my opinion?" Chen Mo asked.

"What do you think?"

"I'm not sure, Tallulah, because I'm not familiar enough with your camp and plans, but in my opinion, there are pros and cons to staying and leaving." Chen Mo said: "How can you be sure that there are infected people in the city?" I will definitely believe you. Moreover, even if you can reach the south, the defense in the south of Ursus is much tighter than on the snowy plains. You will have to face tougher opponents than today. They are everywhere, and once you gather a crowd, Have you thought about how to fight against the Ursus army and military police who discovered your traces? They will definitely not let a group of infected people grow, and even... what if there are infected people who betray you, Tallulah, what do you want? Go fight them, what can you do to support the people who are willing to follow you and make them believe that your ideas can be realized, once or twice, if you can't do it, there will be fewer and fewer people around you."

"I have thought about the problems you mentioned, but only if we can leave the snowfield and reach the south." Tallulah shook her head and said: "Otherwise these problems will never arise. If it does come then, then wait until Let's figure it out then. Whether we stay or leave, we will have to face these problems sooner or later, and I am ready."

After Tallulah finished speaking, she looked at Chen Mo.

"I think……"

"You want me to stay?"

"Yes, I'm still a little worried just because Frost Star and the others are here, so I think if you stay in the camp, you might be able to help them. If you agree, I will go and stay in the camp in advance. Say hello to the soldiers inside."

"What if I don't agree?"

"I hope you can stay. Last time you talked about Alina, I thought about it for a long time. I didn't think about what I would be like if you didn't show up at that time, so I hope you can stay to protect them. , protect them for me."

Tallulah said that they were sitting on a bench under the eaves at the back of the camp. Not far away were the infected and warriors gathered together. Children were running on the snow. In the distance, snow monsters surrounded Frost Star, and further away There are also warriors teaching new recruits how to use weapons.

In this winter, it looks lively and warm.

Tallulah looked at the scene over there, and this scene was reflected in her pupils. This is what she cherishes most now, and it is also the motivation that supports her to continue walking.

She didn't want to lose these, these people, this weak and small ideal, her faith and vision.

For a moment, Chen Mo suddenly felt that Tallulah was moving away from him. Even if he could reach out and touch Tallulah's palm, the feeling still could not subside.

In the end, Chen Mo failed to refuse. He could not refuse Tallulah's idea that he should stay to protect Alina and the camp.

In fact, Chen Mo would rather act with Tallulah than stay in the camp, but just like Tallulah said.

She said: "When you weren't here, the soldiers and I went through many tough battles, so this time it's the same. The camp needs you more than me, so I want you to stay and protect them for me."

"When to set off?"

"Early tomorrow morning, the equipment of the guerrilla shield guards needs to be transferred in advance by snowmobile. Otherwise, it will be too heavy. Even if it can be eaten by people, the marching speed will be greatly reduced. Two days ago, we sent a team of reconnaissance magicians. Responsible for paying attention to the news in the direction of the Fourth Army's station, they should be back soon, and there may be a meeting to be held in the afternoon."

"Then I won't accompany you there. I will continue to have classes with the children in the afternoon."

"it is good."

"be careful."

"Well, see you tonight."

"See you tonight."

June 1092, 12, Crystalline Era

Chen Mo was a little absent-minded in his afternoon class. From time to time, he would pay attention to the room where the meeting was held in the camp. Tallulah was discussing tomorrow's actions with the guerrillas and infected soldiers. The heavy equipment of the shield guards needed to be deployed in advance. , otherwise carrying heavy equipment in the snow will be a burden that outweighs the gains.

In the Ursus army, heavy-armed units like shield guards have corresponding logistics units to provide them with various supports. However, in the snowfield, the shield guards who exist as guerrillas will bear most of the logistics tasks themselves.

At this time, Chen Mo suddenly felt a feeling that he had not seen for many years.

A sense of powerlessness, a person's power is limited after all, because people have no way to do it, because it is impossible for people to pay attention to two things in different directions at the same time.

So usually some people are used to taking everything into their own hands to offset the powerlessness and hesitation about the unknown and waiting. They will never put themselves in the same scene again.

But in the snowfield, faced with Tallulah's ideals and their struggle with Ursus, what Chen Mo could do for her alone was limited, even when facing an Ursus advance team. , Chen Mo couldn't even provide him with any help.

If it were in Kazdare, if there was an army similar to Li Ting's in hand, would there be a different result? Chen Mo knew this in his heart.

He knew that when facing a huge enemy, a single person needed help. For example, when he went to Dragon Gate, he had already mastered a well-trained Sakaz mercenary group through the Tower of Babel, but Ursus would never To help this group of infected people, the people under the Ursus policy will never regard the infected as a group of people who share a common status with them, or even as aliens. This is a common attitude and way of treating infected people in various countries.

夜

Chen Mo opened the long box. The heavy sword and the sword named Juque lay quietly overlapped in the box. Under the light of the candles in the room, the cracks on the silver sword became clearer. Compared with when they left the dragon gate, Kazdel's sword has reached its limit.

The array of Origin Stones inside can no longer be replaced, and the cracks on the blade have become increasingly dense. Perhaps it can no longer support more intense battles. In these days, the heavy sword has become less and less in Chen Mo's hands. It may not be that this weapon is not handy enough, but that Chen Mo has passed the time when he needs to rely on it.

He took the two weapons out of the box, put them back into their sheaths, closed the long box, and placed the weapons next to the bed.

It was at this time that a knock on the door sounded.

That tall figure standing outside the door usually brought some heavy weight to those who saw it.

"Excuse me, I want to see you alone."

As he said this, he looked at Chen Mo in front of him and looked down. The black steel armor seemed to be attached to his body after being cooled by molten iron, exuding a deep coldness and the coldness of steel.

The Patriot's voice was as low and cold as the impression he gave people.

Chen Mo didn't ask him why he came. Maybe he knew that the tall Sakaz would come to see him, or maybe they would meet sooner or later.

"Please come in."

"Thank you."

"I heard my daughter mention that Tallulah brought back a strange infected person. You and I met once during the day. We were too far away, but I can feel that you have an aura that is familiar to me. .”

After sitting down, he spoke in a gentle but clear and powerful voice, looking at Chen Mo sitting opposite him.

"I want to know if you have ever been to Kazdaele, because you have the scent of countless Sarkarz deaths on you."

"I did go to Kazdaele."

"That's good, don't worry about it. I have no intention of exploring your origins. I just want to hear about what's happening in my compatriots and hometown. I know a lot of things happened in Kazdale."

He explained: "I have heard about it, but I don't know the details."

"You are Sakaz."

"I am indeed a Sarkarz, but I am also an Ursus. There is no conflict between the two. The bloodline has never changed. Although I have not cared about it, I cannot shake it."

He said slowly: "In Ursus, the guerrillas and the infected called me a patriot, but I know that I am no longer worthy of this title. Although you are contaminated with the breath of countless deaths of my kind, I You can feel that she has also left her own traces on you."

"She means?"

"Theresia, I met her a long time ago."

"..."

He breathed, his breathing audible.

"She is a hero, at least that is what is speculated. She is also a great warrior and a rare monarch." The patriot broke the calm with a voice: "My flesh and blood is loyal to Ursus, and my tribe self-exiled, but I am still Sakaz , I want to know what happened to her Kazdale, I just, want to know.”

"I once heard in Kazdare that a powerful ethnic group left Ursus due to the war. Their royal court was vacant and the whole family moved away. Theresia tried to persuade them to stay, but they refused to stay in Kazdare. , because of the chaos in Kazdaele, because of the war, they gave up their homeland."

Chen Mo looked at the patriots in front of him: "I didn't expect to meet a Wendigo here. When Kelsey once talked about you guys, there was always a trace of regret in her words."

"Have you met the Lady?"

"She was half of my teacher. Maybe she didn't think so." Chen Mo said: "I served as Theresia's escort in Kazdare. As you said, I also participated in Sarkaz. The war between them, and now that the war is over, Theresia has returned to her original position, and Kazdaele has also been given the opportunity to recuperate."

"...The war is over?"

"The war was over, before I came here, in the spring of 1092."

"..."

The huge figure suddenly fell silent. He remained silent, lowered his head slightly, and seemed to be thinking about something. Opposite the Patriot, Chen Mo did not ask any questions, let alone urge him.

Does this Wendigo regret ever leaving that land?

Perhaps this option did not exist in the heart of Sakaz, who was beyond the scope of a warrior, but he remained silent, like an old and rusty part, accepting something beyond his imagination.

"I vaguely remember that when I left with my tribe, the lady and your highness did not stop us." After a long time, the patriot sighed: "That was a long time ago."

He looked at Chen Mo and seemed to recall something.

"I was young and vigorous at that time, but now I see that it was all impulsive. I misunderstood His Highness's intentions."

"You can still go back now." Chen Mo replied: "Kazdale is in full swing. The return of the Wendigo can inject new vitality into Kazdale. The Sarkarz still have many problems to face. Now It’s not too late.”

"No, it's too late." The patriot shook his head and said: "I turned my back on Kazdaele when it needed me, and now its war is over, but I can't tolerate my despicable way of obtaining her asylum, even if she I am willing to forgive my past actions, but I have regarded Ursus as my motherland, my Majesty has been buried in the vast land of Ursus, and my ethnic group has also withered here."

"Besides, I have something I really need to do."