Longmen Memoirs

"Even if you say so, I can't help it, Miss Frost Star. We checked the equipment before the guerrillas left, but now there is a problem. Unless you can find a replacement electric board, this radio station will not work. "

"There is no other way?"

"No, the communication equipment in the camp lacks maintenance. It is rare for it to last for so long. Not to mention us, even the long-distance communication equipment equipped by the Ursus army often has various problems." Ilyich sighed. He looked at Shuangxing with a stern expression and said, "To be honest, this type of radio station should have been discontinued a long time ago."

"..."

"So, we have lost contact with the guerrillas now?"

In the meeting tent, the snow monsters and soldiers who stayed in the camp learned the bad news from Frost Star. Everyone looked at Frost Star. After the guerrillas and Tallulah left, she became the leader of the entire camp. .

"It looks like this at the moment. We can't get any news from the guerrillas. In other words, we have to walk the next step on our own."

"What about the plan we discussed before?"

"No change. We have discussed the plan with the guerrillas and deduced their itinerary from the map. It doesn't matter even if we lose contact temporarily."

"But without a reply from the guerrillas, we can't get their progress to plan the time for the camp to evacuate, and their movements may also be related to the direction the camp chooses to evacuate, in case we encounter a picket searching for the guerrillas. Team……"

"Then we will be responsible for this ourselves." Frost Star said in a decisive tone: "The Snow Monster team will be responsible for the reconnaissance mission in the camp's retreat direction. You should follow the Snow Monster and keep a certain distance between the two sides to allow buffer time."

"anymore question?"

"It can only be like this for a while."

Shuangxing turned his attention to Chen Mo, who was standing on the left side of the tent and had not expressed any opinions since the beginning of the meeting.

"What's going on at the camp?" she asked.

Before Chen Mo could speak,

The snow monster standing nearby who came back with Chen Mo replied: "The picket team came and left the village after confirming that everyone in the camp had evacuated. Before leaving, the bastards set off a fire and burned the place clean."

"Are you sure they left?"

"Sister, we watched them leave with our own eyes."

"You didn't go into the village, did you?"

"Uh."

The snow monster was stunned and glanced at Chen Mo out of the corner of his eye in surprise.

"Why don't you speak?"

"No, to be on the safe side, the snow monsters did not enter the village, lest the picket team create suspicion and deliberately set fire to stimulate the emotions of the people lurking around." Chen Mo added.

Frost Star glanced at him, then looked at the snow monster. Although he didn't speak, the look in his eyes made the snow monster fearful.

Did the eldest sister see it? Fortunately, we didn't actually enter the village in the end.

"He's right, we didn't go in." He said hurriedly.

Shuangxing finally looked away and felt relieved.

"That's good."

What makes the snow monster a little strange is when did the eldest sister become so cautious? Froststar had never asked about this before.

Chapter 15 Snow Ridge and Valley ([-]): Being young means being prone to making mistakes, and it also means being gullible

Most people think that courage means not being afraid, but not being afraid actually does not mean courage. Courage means being able to face difficulties even though you feel afraid. Courage means being able to face difficulties even though it makes you feel painful. Even though I know I will lose, I am still determined.

Growing up does not mean maturity, but maturity is the best symbol of growing up.

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April 12

Weather: Blizzard

Chen Mo recently heard Alina mention something about Frost Star.

Yelena, in Ursus language, this name means sun and warmth, but Frost Star is a person who looks extremely cold, and she seems to have no connection with this name.

Perhaps it’s because Chen Mo doesn’t know Shuangxing well enough. In Shuangxing’s eyes, Chen Mo, a recent arrival, has a pitifully low connection with the infected camp. He is not like Tallulah, nor is he like the people in the camp. Any infected person on the snowfield is incompatible with everything the infected person strives for.

Because he stayed here for Tallulah. To put it simply, he and the infected people here were actually not from the same group.

"Sister, we can't go any further. The snow is too heavy. If this continues, we won't be able to keep up."

The blizzard spread, blurring the vision. What came into view was the overwhelming heavy snow that swept across the field of vision. The sound of wind and snow continued to roar, and the white cloak of the snow monster made a sound.

The snow monster Petrova grabbed the arm of Frost Star in front of the team. She roared loudly, and her voice was instantly drowned in the overwhelming sound of wind and snow.

We couldn't go on any further. We couldn't tell the direction at all if we kept going like this. The blizzard came so suddenly that the team didn't have time to prepare.

The road will become increasingly difficult to walk in a snowstorm, and body temperature and physical strength will drop sharply. Once someone gets lost, it will be difficult to follow them.

"How could it be? Our traveling speed has been slowed down."

Shuangxing turned around. The team could no longer be seen a few meters behind him, and the blizzard obscured his vision.

She felt that her traveling speed was already very slow. According to the usual speed of the snow monster, she should have reached the first scheduled node by this time.

The work in the camp these days has made Shuangxing feel tired. She is a warrior and a top magician, but this does not mean that she is an excellent leader or that she can handle various tedious matters in the camp. Froststar is not very good at arranging various things in the camp.

She has always been afraid that she has not done well enough, and if there is any omission, it will affect the entire team's schedule and the guerrillas' plan.

She didn't dare to take a good rest these days, and she couldn't rest assuredly.

"The infected people in the camp are different from us. They are not soldiers, and their bodies are already weak. If we continue to move forward in this weather, our bodies will not be able to bear it, sister."

Shuangxing's frown relaxed slightly.

Petrova knew what Shuangxing was worried about. She was worried that their already slow speed would affect the actions of the guerrillas. There was not much food left in the camp. If they were delayed on the road again, such weather would There was no way they could fill this gap, and now they have lost contact with the guerrillas.

The safety and survival of the entire camp depend on Shuangxing alone.

"Let the team stop and rest for a while, sister, and wait until the blizzard passes before continuing."

"But……"

The blizzard cannot pass so quickly. Shuangxing knows that they all know that in the snowfield, if it stops like this, there may be no progress for several days.

"Everyone can't walk anymore, eldest sister, and so can you. You have never closed your eyes in these few days."

"It doesn't matter to me." Shuangxing shook his head.

She was a lot haggard, but compared to physical fatigue, what made Shuangxing feel more powerless and unwilling was her own shortcomings. At this moment, Shuangxing seemed to finally understand why her father wanted her to stay. [{

She still has many shortcomings. In the past, she thought she was ready. She had been able to lead the snow monsters and pickets and even fight the imperial army and defeat them. She was not afraid of injury, let alone death. She might have thought One day she will fail. In Shuangxing's mind, even if that day comes, she can only die in a battle, and die vigorously without any complaints.

But she never thought that she would be so powerless or even insignificant. This was different from what Shuangxing had imagined.

Just temporarily leading the camp to retreat and temporarily acting as the leader of the camp already made Shuangxing feel that this was more difficult than any battle in the past. She did not dare to relax at all, but even so, the situation was inevitably getting worse. It's getting worse.

Shuangxing seemed to finally realize why his father rarely slept, and why he had never seen his father take a good rest for so long. He was either looking at the map and making strategies or waiting in the conference room all night long.

He also always said that he should pay attention to himself.

Pay attention to what?

Shuangxing didn't understand it in the past, but at this moment, she seemed to finally understand the answer. She understood that when a person is responsible for the life and death of everyone in the entire camp, it is inevitable that he will have many worries. He is afraid that he will miss something, and he never dares to have the slightest chance. Relax.

She has to think about the ideas in the team, plan the route, consider the distribution of supplies, and weigh the daily speed against the plan.

This is far more difficult than fighting.

Leaders and soldiers are different. A leader can be a soldier, but the responsibility that a leader has to bear is much heavier than that of a soldier.

If I go to the south, if the team gets bigger and bigger in the future, will one day I have to really take on these things? Can I lead a team well? Can I really do this well?

Shuangxing didn't know that if it were before, she would have given the answer without hesitation, but now, she suddenly lost this confidence.

"Stop, Petrova, find a leeward slope, let the team stop and rest first, inform the snow monsters in front not to relax their vigilance, and pay attention to avalanches."

Watching Petrova leave, Frost Star raised her head under the hood of her cloak and looked at the wind and snow in front of her, her gray eyes reflecting the coldness and ruthlessness of Ursus in winter, and she sighed softly.

Get over it quickly, this snowstorm.

The team temporarily stopped for three days. The snowstorm blocked the road, but it also reduced the possibility of the team being discovered. The picket team and the patrol team at the Ursus sentry post were determined not to have such visibility. Going out on patrol in low weather, this may be the only good news that can reassure Froststar at the moment.

Perhaps it was because of the blizzard march a few days ago. The weather was so cold. The temperature could instantly drop by more than ten degrees at night. It was difficult to ignite the felled firewood in the humid winter. Fuel was already precious in the team, and guerrillas The team took away most of the fuel, leaving only enough to provide electricity for lighting and maintain the operation of communication equipment and some equipment in the camp.

The heavy firewood could not provide much warmth, and the thin tent could not withstand the chill of the Ursus night. The cold wave spread from the ground to the tent, and soon the warm bedding was soaked wet and heavy.

Without the shelter of a camp, without a wooden hut off the ground, in a valley blocked by a snowstorm, backed by icy rocks, food was being consumed rapidly.

Bad news comes one after another, but it makes people powerless.

Froststar knew that once they stopped, it would be impossible to continue moving forward, and no one in the camp mentioned the need to continue moving forward despite the wind and snow.

It is natural for someone to get sick, but this is not the worst. The worst thing is that a low sense of despair is beginning to spread within the team, and even Froststar himself has begun to have this idea.

What would Tallulah do if she were here?

Looking at the food consumption reported by the soldiers and the heavy snowfall that continued day by day, Shuangxing couldn't help but think.

Could Tallulah do it better than me? If so, she should have something to do.

Where are the guerrillas now?Have you encountered Ursus' advance team? Are they drawing the enemy away as planned?

But we, we stayed here, not even crossing the Solawor River, and stopped in a valley to wait for the snowstorm to pass.

Is it because I decided to stop at that time? If I persisted a little longer, if we persisted for a few more days, would we be able to find a more suitable place to camp.

Shuangxing didn't know, she didn't know anything, but she still couldn't help but have this thought, this thought that might give rise to the emotion of regret.

Her words became less and less. In the past three consecutive days of meetings, Shuangxing spoke less and less often, and her face became more and more haggard.

The snow monsters are very worried about her, but the snow monsters don't know how to change their current situation, because they know what Froststar is worried about.Even knowing the answer doesn't help.

The weather is not the enemy, it is better to say that the weather is the biggest enemy and opponent. They cannot defeat the harsh natural environment of Ursus. They don't even know who to aim their weapons at.

The sky?Or the cold and ruthless wind and snow blocking the way, or the hungry and cold infected people in the camp.

"Chen Mo, aren't you going to the meeting?"

In the valley, damp firewood burned hard, providing weak fire and warmth. The children gathered around the bonfire. When Chen Mo came, Alina was softly humming an Ursus lullaby, wrapped in a quilt. The children leaned against the deer and slowly fell asleep.

When Chen Mo put down the heavy knife and came in, Alina, who watched him come in, put her index finger up in front of her lips and let out a soft hiss.

"The kids are asleep."

"Well, I finally fell asleep. It's too cold. I'm afraid they'll wake up as soon as I leave." Alina said softly, and then asked: "Has it stopped snowing outside?"

"not yet."

Chen Mo stretched out his hand, and the flames of the bonfire became brighter.

"I guess it won't stop for the next two days."

"There have been more and more people sick in the past two days. The fever has caused infections on the body. Everyone's physical condition is not good to begin with. What will happen if this continues? We don't have much food." Alina asked worriedly.

"This is not something you should consider, Alina."

"But I couldn't help but think, and the people in the camp couldn't help but think that, too."

"It's the same even if you don't think about it."

"Then we can only wait like this? If the snow continues, what will it be like when the food runs out? I'm worried..."

"Worried that everyone will have differences?" Chen Mo asked, looking at Alina in front of him.

Alina hesitated.

"No?" she asked.

"Have you heard those discussions?" Chen Mo asked, and added: "Some people think that more rations should be provided to the sick, but some are opposed to this proposal, and there must be some who feel that those who are seriously ill should not continue. Food is wasted. Food should be provided to people who need it more, because there is not much. "

"In normal times, no one would have such thoughts." Alina shook her head.

"You also said it was normal, but now we are trapped here. No one wants to move forward, at least until the snow stops. No one wants to continue moving forward. The reasons they found are also very good. The patients in the camp cannot move on. Do we have to leave them behind? If not, we can only stay here and watch the food dwindle day by day. "

"Miss Shuangxing, she must be under a lot of pressure now, right?" Alina asked suddenly.

"She rarely speaks these days." Chen Mo replied, "I think she probably doesn't know what to do."

"If it were you, Chen Mo, what would you do?"

"Me?" Chen Mo paused. He looked at Alina, and Alina looked at him. After looking at each other for a moment, Chen Mo said, "My answer may disappoint you, Alina."

"Really?" Alina said, and then asked: "What if Tallulah was here, would you answer her the same way?"