Longmen Memoirs

But I know that I shouldn't hate them. I have no reason to hate the evil deeds of thugs who took to the streets because they were infected with an incurable disease. I also know that I should hate all those who are infected with Originium Disease and tortured by it. I can hate them. Someone, but I can't blame all the victims of Originium themselves for the evil these people did.

Maybe it’s just that I’ve lived too soberly, so that when I get to this point, whether it’s Longmen or Wei Yanwu, whether I’m in Kazdale or Victoria, I’m trying to use self-deceptive excuses to deceive myself and others. other people.

Chen Mo walked inside the black wall.

He must admit that w's last meaningful words touched him a little.

[You can think so, what are you going to do in Ursus this time?Didn’t you keep saying that he was your friend?That Vina, I remember you said the same thing. 】

she said so.

He was impartial, but seemed to have guessed what Chen Mo was doing. Occasionally, this disliked Sakaz mercenary would come up with some thought-provoking words.

He stopped and touched the cold black wall with his fingers. Those shallow scratches vaguely remembered the days when he was here. It was the scene when he first came to this building. It has long been forgotten by now. It became blurry and fragmented like an old yellowed photo. Only a few memories of that year could be intercepted from the fragments.

Black Wall—Kemosol Source Stone Research Institute, a Level II fixed natural disaster defense facility, a semi-permanent building, even the years will be difficult to erode its traces in a short period of time.

More than ten years have not brought about many fundamental changes in this building, and how many people are left struggling to survive here now.

"Are you thinking about something? Chen."

Only when I turned around did I see Alina standing behind me, a white-haired deer【>@

"Ah, I'm sorry, I saw you were lost in thought. Did I...did I disturb you? I just came from the classroom. I originally planned to go find Tallulah, but it's still too big here. I saw it while walking. You are in front, am I disturbing you?"

"If you are looking for Tallulah, she should be in the conference room now. And I remember that the conference room and the classroom are on the same floor, not far away. The way here is blocked." Chen Mo looked at the person standing behind Alina: "So...are you on an adventure? Alina."

"Huh?" Alina was stunned.

"I also planned to say that I got lost accidentally." Alina breathed out and looked at the gray-haired man in front of her: "As expected, I still can't hide it from you."

"You came to me?"

"I heard from Miss W that you came in this direction."

"Want to go for a walk together?"

"Now?" Alina asked in surprise.

Chen Mo nodded.

"Now."

They walked side by side in the black wall, and the lights above their heads were turned on several meters apart, making the passage seem a little dim, but the footsteps became clearer because of the dim light.

"Did the education team receive the books that Red and the others brought back from Kazdale?" Chen Mo asked.

"Mr. Reid came over that afternoon. Everyone was shocked. They didn't expect that they would bring back so many books."

"They are all Kazdel's theories and ideas in recent years. Although they are somewhat different from Ursus and the infected, good things can always be learned."

"Well, it's very difficult just to recognize those Victorian texts. Most of us can't even recognize all the Ursusian characters. Moreover, the words in those books are fine individually, but when they are put together, they have completely different meanings. I can’t understand it.”

"..."

Chen Mo paused.

He considered that Kazdael's ideas and theories were of great help and influence to the infected, but ignored the actual situation of the infected themselves, as well as their level of knowledge and whether they could understand those obscure and rarely used words. What do you want to express when connected together, and whether you can understand the thoughts implicit in these words.

It's probably impossible, at least for the majority of infected people with low levels of education, it's very difficult.

He was a little eager for success. Perhaps he was talking about Tallulah's eager Chen Mo. To a certain extent, he also felt eager.

"It's me who didn't think well."

"This is not your problem, Chen. It's very good now. Compared with before, everyone has books to read and learn. Tallulah has always said that we should pursue more in life, not just food, bread, and warm quilts. , but also to pursue music, art, knowledge, and better things. The infected are worthy of pursuing these."

"She always talks about it."

"Yeah, I used to hear her tell the soldiers, ah, she was still a young man who came out of the city. She used to always say that everyone has their own ambitions. My old mother told her many times because of this. Obviously at that time, we only had sparse food in our bowls. Even though she is eating moss and wheat porridge, she can say such heroic words."

Alina put her hands behind her back. When Chen Mo looked over from the corner of his eye, there was a slight smile on the white-haired Lubi face.

"Didn't you see the expressions on the faces of the infected people who were with us when they heard her words? Tallu Lala, she has a very stubborn temper."

"She didn't tell me about your previous life." Chen Mo said, and then asked: "That...old mother, she was the one who later adopted Tallulah, after she escaped from Shevata?"

Alina's voice became a little deeper, and her smile slowly faded away.

"She doesn't want to mention it. It's been years and she still can't forget it."

"Then are you willing to mention it, Alina?" Chen Mo asked.

Alina stopped. She watched Chen Mo look at her. After a brief look at each other, they moved forward again.

Alina told the story of how she and Tallulah met. That night, Drac, who was covered in blood, knocked on the door. She was seriously injured. The anxious old mother and old man found Alina. It took them most of the night to tend to her injuries.

In fact, most of the blood on her body was not hers. It was just that the military uniform had been soaked in blood countless times. When she woke up the next day, something happened. All she remembered was that her eyes were full of vigilance and she wanted to leave. Finally, under the words of my old mother and Alina, I chose to stay in the village.

At that time, she must have been very nervous, uneasy, full of doubts about her surroundings, exhausted and in pain, and wanted to find a place to rest. Fortunately, she met a pair of kind old people who had lost their children because of the war, and met a man who had lost his children due to suffering. A gentle girl with both parents.

That's how she got a new family.

Somewhat similar, but different. The difference is that Chen Mo is not a child who is not familiar with the world, so she can find a way to settle down and live in the mobile city in Colombia.

The difference is that Chen Mo is not so easy to accept other people's kindness. He has always been a cold person.

Fortunately and unfortunately, the experience of the black wall became Chen Mo's support for surviving in a foreign country. Otherwise, a teenage boy would have died silently in a dark and cold alley in the city.

Alina told the story of Tallulah, and then of the fire and the Ursus picket that found the village.

"Someone betrayed you?"

"Probably not, we thought about it later." Alina said: "But Tallula has been in the village for several years, and everyone knows her. Although she sometimes behaves differently from us, even if she is reported to the picket team Nothing good can be gained, everyone is afraid of the pickets and no one wants to lure them here.”

"But the pickets came anyway."

"Grandpa Ivan contracted Originium Disease when he went to work in the mines. He hid it from Tallula and didn't tell her. In fact, I was also infected with the disease at that time." Alina whispered: "Grandpa originally I want to use myself to lure away the pickets... They will come sooner or later. Tallulah had a conflict with them because her grandfather was beaten by the pickets. They want to come to take revenge, and not a single villager has the courage to deal with the pickets. .”

Chen Mo said nothing, he had already guessed the result, and Alina's words confirmed his guess. The young and upright girl could not see the pickets doing evil, so she taught the pickets a lesson but brought disaster to the village.

The kind old man wanted to use his own death to quell the disaster, but it led to an even greater tragedy.

Alina lowered her head slightly.

"Alina..." Chen Mo shouted.

"Ah."

"Do you resent her? I mean, if she hadn't had a conflict with the pickets at that time, if she hadn't come to your village, you should be doing fine now."

"Chen thinks I should blame Tallulah? No, I have never thought about it that way. Even if Tallulah doesn't come, our life will still be difficult. The tax collectors in the city will take away most of the grain in the fields. , the pickets also robbed the village's few belongings from time to time in the name of searching for infected people." Alina shook her head and said softly: "Everyone has been through a very hard life, even without Tallulah, we who are infected with the disease He won’t even have a few good years to live.”

"so……"

Even without Tallulah, the pickets would have come, and even without this incident, fate would not have spared them.

"I know that Tallulah doesn't want to mention this to anyone. I know that she is blaming herself. She feels that it is her fault that this happened. If she had thought more about it at the time, she would not have changed. It's like this now." Alina said: "She will leave the village sooner or later, sooner or later. She often runs outside wearing that military uniform. No one knows what she did. Sometimes it takes several days before she comes back. She may have been contacting the infected since then."

"She will think that her actions attracted the pickets. She will definitely think so, but it is not her fault. I can't evaluate Tallulah's actions for other people in the village, but I know that at least Grandpa My mother and I won’t blame Tallulah, because Tallulah is their daughter and their relative.”

"And you, Alina." Chen Mo suddenly said: "You are also her relative and her sister."

Alina was startled, then she smiled.

"Yes, but there is also you, Chen." Alina looked at Chen Mo and said, "There is also Tallulah's sister who stayed in Longmen... Hui..."

"Hui Jie." Chen Mo added.

"Hui Jie, Tallulah often told me about you. She never talked about her own experiences, but she talked a lot about Longmen. I can tell that she misses you very much."

"Chen and I also miss her very much." Chen Mo said: "After leaving Longmen, I often think of that city, how long it will take for me to go back, and that maybe after I go back, many things will become unfamiliar to me. appearance."

"Chen, you..." Alina opened her mouth but stopped talking.

She wanted to say something, but her words stopped. She didn't know whether she should speak or whether the people around her would accept it.

"Don't be sad for me, Alina, it doesn't matter." Chen Mo said softly: "This is our ending, isn't it? Because we are infected, but I am a little ahead, even without me, she still has You have your own ideals and careers, and these are things worth pursuing for her and you, beautiful things."

"I think, I can do a little more for her and you, which is good for me. Maybe fate is like this sometimes, our respective fates, it makes our different lives intersect, and in One day we are separated, and no one can force us to do more."

Alina lowered her gray eyes.

She stopped talking and forgot her original purpose.

The road under their feet became brighter and brighter in their eyes. They were about to reach the exit. Lights and voices rang out from there, and the bright light reflected Chen Mo's back.

His steps were firm and steady. Alina, who was slightly behind, looked up. She saw the young profile of the gray-haired man. He was facing the bright light, and he did not feel anything about the impending death and separation. fear.

Chen Mo thought that he had never hated the infected. He could hate the people and events that had brought him to this point, and he could even hate the Originium Disease, but he should not and had no reason to hate "them".

He thought that maybe he, like Tallulah, regarded them as disaster stars at the beginning, and maybe over time they also thought so, thinking that they had brought disaster, and that nothing good would ever happen to the people and things they met.

But what is scary is never people and events, nor sufferings and setbacks. What is scary is myself, my cowardly and weak self, the boy who stood in the fire worrying about gains and losses, and the fear of shrinking back after more than ten years.

There must be an end eventually.

Tallulah was lucky. Fortunately, this cold and cold land finally gave her people who loved her, but at the same time, it cruelly took them away.

There should be no so-called fate in this world, and this fate should not take away more.

Many years later, his and Tallulah's lives reflected each other, reflecting that the people and things lost would never come back again, reflecting that the marks and old wounds left in their hearts would still leave a hideous mark even if they healed. Unsightly scars.

Some things have not happened yet, and some things can still be changed.

That scar reminded Chen Mo that he finally couldn't fall into sinking.

Chapter 129 Aphasia

W left with her Sakaz team, and after the snow stopped, Joe left with them.

This was something that was agreed upon from the beginning, even though Chen Mo knew that if he said a few more words, he would probably leave it alone, so he gave Sasha a gift.

A hand crossbow made by himself. The string of the hand crossbow is the spare crossbow string of his original folding crossbow. His craftsmanship is good, although there is still a big gap compared to professional crossbow craftsmen, and there is no adulteration. What a high level of Originium craftsmanship, but it’s very suitable as a souvenir.

Sasha named the hand crossbow Phantom, a name that sounded cool but was actually unscrupulous, which suited his and Joe's personalities quite well.

On the day that Joe left, he sent her all the way far, and only came back lonely when he could no longer keep up.

Under the gloomy sky in the morning, those who left and those who returned took different paths.

Chen Mo didn't know how many farewell words they left between them. Only the two of them knew those words, but for the infected, maybe one separation is forever, and they cannot look forward to a future that is too far away.

To say that we will see each other again one day is for ordinary people, but for the infected, just trying to live is already a luxury that requires gritting one's teeth and struggling, let alone crossing half a continent.

Sasha didn't speak for several days, as if he had returned to his original taciturn temperament. He needed time to adjust. After all, Fidia was still young. He didn't experience much similar things at his age, so he couldn't get used to it. .

It would be better to say that no one can take this kind of parting for granted, but the journey south will continue.

"My idea is to temporarily divide the team into several small teams, march in three directions, contact the infected gathering places and settlements that we have interacted with along the way, and finally meet at Chernobog."

Under the lights, Tallulah spoke her mind at the meeting.

"It's winter now, and the frequency of patrols in the surrounding areas of Ursus is not high. After the teams are dispersed, it is more conducive to covert operations. Although the combat effectiveness is weakened, as long as we avoid important military stations and large mobile cities along the way, The team is relatively safe.”

"We can use the radio to keep in touch and pay attention to each other's movements along the way. The tentative plan is this. I, Red, Vatov and Pavel will form a line from the middle through the Volga River Plain, Kosoland, Mosotov, and Wawel. , moving closer to Chicheng, Frost Star, Kahn, and Avrora from the west, crossing the Ur Mountains, passing through the Caucasus Highlands and the village settlements along the way to join us, Mr. Patriot and the guerrillas headed east, along the Volga River The edge of the plains and the Tharwar valley.”

Tallulah pointed to the map marked with three lines on the wall.

"If there is no natural disaster, the city will not keep moving. It has a certain cruising range."

"The location of the gathering place marked above was last contacted by us three months ago. They should not be evacuated in a short period of time, especially in winter when the frequency of patrols by patrol sentries and warships in the Ursus Wasteland is reduced. They It’s probably still in its original location.”

"Contact them more. They know the local situation much better than we do. But what I mean is that in addition to the strongholds that we have originally had contact with, try to be vigilant about other places where strange infected people gather. After all, we and those The clusters of infected people are not familiar enough with each other yet, so reducing contact can avoid many unnecessary accidents."

"We need to connect the infected people in the south to form a whole. At least we need to maintain stable contact with each other. We don't start taking action after arriving at Chernobog. It would be too late. We should do it while on the way south. Do this."

Tallulah talked a lot about the specific route details, precautions, supplies, and specific contact information with the person in charge of the local infected gathering place. She seemed to remember every gathering place clearly.

It was obvious that she had thought about a lot of things.

This was not the first meeting at the camp.

The meeting started at two o'clock in the afternoon and lasted until the evening.

Patriot still rarely speaks out and expresses his opinions. Now he is used to being a listener more often. His illness has become serious enough to affect his vocal cords. However, the shield guard and Tallulah discussed a lot of opinions about going south. After all, in the past They also served in the South for a period of time. Most of the people in the current camp from Xueyuan have a vague impression of the South, although it was almost ten years ago.

Considering that in winter, the snow in the north is relatively thick, and the heavy equipment of the shield guards is difficult to travel long distances in the snow, so most of the vehicles and sleds in the camp are allocated to the shield guards and guerrillas.

In the regular Ursus shield guard formation, a combat forward shield guard is usually equipped with two to three logistics levies.

After all, Tallulah herself was the one who initially contacted the infected settlement in the south. Therefore, even though the Patriots and guerrillas have more experience and a higher fault tolerance rate, the most dangerous and critical route still has to be led by Tallulah herself. Team.