Longmen Memoirs

The pale light of the car lights illuminated the shadowy shadows of every operator in front. Chaos was no longer enough to describe the current scene. If I had to use an adjective, it would be battlefield.

He devours everyone's mind and kindness, so much so that humanity is about to be discarded into this dark night.

That was the first time Chen Mo saw her.

A Sarkaz.

After evacuating the canyon, Black Steel's convoy found a sudden explosion that overturned the vehicle.

"It's a mine!"

Chen Mo heard someone yelling. The car was flipping around in flames and heat waves. Chen Mo held on to the car body tightly. The bumps and the impact inside the car made his whole body about to fall apart. He felt like something hit him hard. The blood flowing from his head quickly blurred his groggy vision.

He forced himself to crawl out of the carriage. In the dark night wilderness of Kazdale, the fire and wind and sand obscured the stars and moonlight in the sky.

He couldn't feel any sensation in his left hand, and his brain was almost numb. Chen Mo breathed heavily, suppressing the severe stinging pain in his lungs. Only then did he finally understand why Sfeldt was so angry when he heard that he would go to Kazdaele. Show that angry expression.

This is indeed not a place where a person should come.

One after another figures began to appear in the blurred vision in front of him, and the swords they held in their hands were flowing with blood.

Chen Mo took out his long knife. The heavy blade made him regret why he chose this weapon in the first place and why he owed so much debt for it.

He knew he couldn't run away, but he wasn't ready to die yet.

Pale blue flames flickered on and off, illuminating the blood-soaked desert.

She just walked towards Chen Mo and appeared in his blurred vision.

Chen Mo thought he was hallucinating, otherwise it would be impossible for someone to walk towards him under the bright moonlight, and it would also be impossible for someone to appear beside him silently.

It was even more impossible for him to see the face that had left him long ago.

Maybe he was too tired, maybe the frequent bursts of heavy knives caused hallucinations in his brain, maybe...

I miss her so much.

Chen Mo thought like that, but he couldn't lift his hand no matter what, and he couldn't hold the sword in his hand tightly.

This winter is both colder and warmer than ever before.

It's warm, as if it's going to melt you.

It is hard to imagine that a Sakaz man would say: Enough people have died tonight.

But there is no doubt that this is who she is.

do you died?

Maybe this is hell, but why is this pale light so familiar.

Didn't die?

But I can't feel the existence of my body, as if moving has become the most difficult thing in time.

Chen Mo slowly opened his eyes. The dazzling sunlight shining in from the window made his pupils shrink suddenly. He wanted to subconsciously reach out to block it, but found that he didn't even have the strength to raise his hand.

"you're awake?"

Chen Mo heard someone ask in his ear, "How do you feel? Are you feeling better?"

Chen Mo rolled his eyes slightly. Sitting next to him was a Sakaz man with sharp black horns on his head. He was wearing a simple black coat. Under the coat was a pair of black combat pants and military boots. He also had a sniper scope. Stone firearms are placed next to tables and chairs.

"Sarkaz people?" Chen Mo asked weakly. When he saw the pair of horns, the first reaction in his heart was to be vigilant, but then my weak body made me lose this vigilance.

"Yes." He smiled, and the smile with some fine beard was very plain: "As you can see, he is a Sakaz."

"You saved me?"

"Saved you... I think there is something wrong with your statement." He said: "You should say that we found you, little brother, do you know how many people you killed when we found you? There were corpses all over the ground. , if it weren’t for Special…if someone hadn’t ordered us not to do anything, you would be dead now.”

There were corpses all over the ground, but Chen Mo had no memory of these in his mind. Chen Mo only remembered that he saw a person, a very familiar person.

"Can't remember?" he asked.

I looked at him with a look that spoke for itself.

"Doctor Kelsey said that you may forget some things after you wake up." The Sakaz man said: "It's okay if you can't remember some things, but it will be a kind of torture when you think about them. Then again, your handle The weapons are really heavy, can you really get used to them?"

"Dr. Kelsey?" An unfamiliar title.

"Oh, that's the doctor who saved you." He said, looking around and lowering his voice: "But when you see her, you have to call her Ms. Kelsey, or Lord Kelsey. Your injuries were so serious at the time. , the entire medical team was helpless, thanks to Ms. Kelsey’s spell.”

"Lord Kelsey? Noble." Chen Mo asked. The title "noble" never had a good impression on him.

"It's not really a noble. In fact, we prefer to call her Ms. Kelsey. Even though she has a noble name, she doesn't have the airs of a noble. Otherwise, if you have seen that noble, she would become a doctor. ." He said, as if he remembered something: "By the way, you can call me scout, what do you call me?"

"snake."

"Snake, code name? Not a bad name." He nodded and sat next to Chen Mo again: "Brother Snake is from Black Steel, that Colombian security company."

"When you rescued me, you must have already found out my identity." Chen Mo said. There was a very obvious BS logo of Black Steel International on his uniform. They should not be able to miss this.

"It's never wrong to ask," he said.

"Where are my comrades?" Chen Mo asked.

He was suddenly silent for a while, and the expression on his face became a little hesitant and serious. Chen Mo suddenly understood what happened.

"Are they all dead?"

"When we arrived, you were the only one alive." Scout said, but hesitated: "There is one thing, I don't know whether I should tell you, maybe... forgetting it is also a good thing."

Scout didn't tell Chen Mo that they compared the injuries on the corpses on the battlefield and found that most of the injuries came from the same weapon. They were decisive and cruel, and most people had only one fatal wound.

"Why...why did you save me?" Chen Mo asked.

In Chen Mo's impression, no Sakaz mercenary had ever been so kind as to help people from outside forces.When people mention Sakaz, they are undoubtedly known for their cruelty and indifference, but the Sakaz man in front of them seems to be a little different.

"Can't I save you because I'm a Sakaz?"

Scout's face was not irritated by Chen Mo's words. He replied calmly: "Even Sakaz is not all cruel and cold-hearted. We are also human beings, and we also have things to love and be loved. What's more? It’s to save you.”

"Feel sorry……"

"It doesn't matter." He shook his head: "We all know how the outside world affects Sakaz. We were once exactly what the outside world said we were, but we have also thought about changing. We are not born to be evil [%

He stood up, picked up the gun placed next to the chair and carried it behind his back.

"Okay, Brother Snake, I have to tell Ms. Kelsey that you woke up first." He said, turning back: "Remember what I said, and call Ms. Kelsey when you see her."

Chen Mo quickly saw the Ms. Kelsey he was talking about, a film woman wearing a white coat, with long light green mixed with white hair and black and white pointed ears on top of her head, and green pupils full of indifference.

"Ms. Kelsey?"

She nodded and stood beside Chen Mo's bed, holding a plywood with a document on it.She feels more like a judge than a doctor, and she is the criminal awaiting trial in the court.

"Snake, I heard from Scout that this is your name." She seemed to be confirming.

"Yes."

"I want to ask you a few questions, and I hope you can answer them truthfully." She said, without waiting for Chen Mo to speak: "Are you an employee of Black Steel International?"

"Yes."

"Do you know why we saved you?"

"do not know."

"I saved you because you have the value of living. Everyone has the value of living. As a doctor, I cannot watch a patient die in front of me. This is my dereliction of duty, but as myself, I I don't want to save you, and my intuition tells me that saving you might be a mistake." She said, the indifference in her words seemed to make the air stiffen a bit.

But in fact, what really made her choose to save Chen Mo was when she saw the figure on the battlefield that even she felt terrified. She seemed to have seen the same scene more than ten years ago, when the man came out of the sarcophagus. , when he opened his eyes and came into contact with the world, he was just like him, cold, confused and ruthless.

In fact, her guess was not wrong, because that was the case with that man now.

"You are an infected person. Don't deny it. When we rescued you, we found the Originium crystal on your body. You are an infected person. How long have you been infected with the Originium disease?"

"Is this a necessary question?"

"You can choose to answer or refuse, but you cannot deny the fact that you are an infected person." She sat on the bench next to the hospital bed, raising her legs slightly.

"Five years."

"Five years, it has been five years since you were infected with Originium Disease. Have you noticed anything strange in your body during these five years?"

"What should happen to me?"

"Pain, hallucinations, physical weakness, or the spread of the Origin Stone, I have not found the latter in you." She said: "Your physiological characteristics show good, it seems that the Origin Stone does not have much impact in your body. This is very abnormal, I can conclude that you have not experienced these common phenomena, right?"

Chen Mo didn't know how to answer. It was like a secret in his body. In fact, he had never noticed that he would have a series of symptoms such as those after being infected with Originium Disease. Except for the occasional stinging pain, it reminded him that he was a Apart from being an infected person, he almost doesn't look like a real infected person.

"Infected people generally live less than seven years. Even if better medical equipment is available for them, this time will generally not exceed ten years. During these ten years, their physical condition will gradually deteriorate and their mental state will gradually deteriorate. They were weakened by the erosion of the Source Stone, their thinking was scattered, and their internal organs failed, until the Source Stone slowly changed their physiological systems and turned them into another person."

Her index finger tapped lightly on the edge of the splint.

"But in your case, none of this happened. Your body is still strong, the Origin Stone did not cause the collapse of your physiological system, and your sanity is clear, unlike a person who has been infected for five years."

Kelsey's tapping movements stopped and she put away the splint.

"What the hell are you?"

Are you another being who has awakened from ancient times, or are you another terrifying doctor? Will your existence bring chaos to this continent or bring a glimmer of invisible hope?

What am I?I have been asking myself the same question for a long time, what am I? Coming into this world with memories that do not belong to this world, who am I?

"I am Snake, an operator from Black Steel International, an infected person, an ordinary person who wants to survive in this world."

"Ordinary person?" Kelsey pursed her lips and looked at Chen Mo with a certain look in her eyes: "You really want to be an ordinary person, but if one day, you find that you are not an ordinary person in the first place, If one day you find that you are not ordinary, you are still willing to be an ordinary person. No one is willing to be an ordinary person because people have greed in their hearts. This is an undeniable fact."

"Dr. Kelsey, I don't deny the fact you said, but you can't deny that some people are born as ordinary people, and some are born without great ideals and ambitions. People all have what they want to do. But not everyone can go the way they want.”

Chen Mo was originally not willing to become an operator of Black Steel, nor was he willing to come to Black Wall, let alone Colombia. He just wanted to have an ordinary life, the life he wanted, even though what happened to him later Unexpected changes, but he didn't have much ideals in the first place.

He knew he couldn't be that person.

He wanted to live peacefully in Longmen, which had everything for him. It was once Chen Mo's home, but Chen Mo had too high expectations for this home, so he became more and more desperate later.

Everything I am doing is my own fault. I cannot lament the unfairness of fate because it once gave me the opportunity to choose.

"You couldn't go on as you wanted, right, Mr. Snake?" Kelsey suddenly asked.

"Do you know where I was born?" Chen Mo asked.

Maybe it was just because I had held it in for too long, or maybe it was just the indifferent person in front of me who gave Chen Mo a sense of trust he shouldn't have. In fact, Chen Mo shouldn't trust anyone, even if she once saved my life.

Chen Mo does not deny that he is selfish and a liar, but every selfish liar has a time when he wants to tell the truth to a stranger who has nothing to do with him.

"Your profile shows you are from Colombia."

"No, it's Longmen. I grew up in Longmen. Doctor Kelsey, I once had two best friends. They were the only family members I cherished after losing my family. Do you understand that feeling? One day you suddenly meet and then suddenly lose."

"Do you think this world is cruel and unfair because of this? It is inherently unfair. There is never anything fair in the world. Some people are high and others will fall into the dust. Some people are noble and others should be low."

Kelsey put away the splint, her green pupils less scrutinizing.

"What makes you mention this to me? You think I am someone you can talk to. I may not be worthy of your trust, Mr. Snake."

The snake in front of him, how should I put it, gave Kelsey a very strange feeling, because he was only 17 years old, and could probably be regarded as a teenager. Kelsey was afraid that he would become the next Doctor, but it was obvious that the snake in front of him This man is not the same as the Doctor, but Kelsey is certain that there must be some kind of secret hidden in him.

There is a secret that may cause huge waves once it is known, but he may not know it yet.

"I don't trust your thoughts, Ms. Kelsey." Chen Mo said.

He could only turn his head now. What he saw behind him was the strange sky in Kazdaele. Was it strange?But it is actually not much different from the sky above Longmen.

We may be standing under the same sky now, Tallulah.But I can't find you, and you can't find me. I didn't go back to Longmen, and I didn't dare to go back. I was afraid that everything would be different after I went back.

I'm afraid you won't be able to remember me. Yes, I am a pitiful and pathetic person.

"You are a doctor. Isn't it the duty of a doctor to listen to the patient's confusion? Just like you would choose to save me. In fact, I am not worthy of your saving, but you still saved me." Chen Mo said :

"I once thought that the Sakaz people in Kazdare were all cruel and ruthless guys. This idea came from the education I received, but scout told me that I was actually wrong. There are also some Sakaz people. Good people, not everyone in Colombia is a bad person who does all kinds of evil, the words good and bad are never clear, right?"

"There are so many evils in the world. Who are the people who cause them? Man himself? Some people say it is right, and some say it is wrong. For a while, I really couldn't tell what is right and what is wrong. Can you tell me? What should I do? What should I do that is not wrong?"

Kelsey was silent for two seconds.

"Perhaps living is a wrong thing, but most people should live, because death is not the end, but as long as you make a wrong step, you will have no regrets. You only live once."

Death is not the end, but death is the end, a person's last, and the most direct way to end suffering.

"So I want to live." Chen Mo said: "You don't know what happened to me, and I don't know where you came from, Ms. Kelsey, but these are not important. What is important is that I survived. , even though it is very difficult, even though I am so close to death, I still want to live and find ways to live, because only by living... can I have a future."

"The future may not be as good as you think," Kelsey said. "Future is an adjective used to refer to something that might happen but has not happened."

"None of us have seen it." Chen Mo replied: "Because it is an ethereal word, but it is precisely because of emptiness that it can have many possibilities. The premise of the possibility is that I can survive."