Longmen Memoirs

Chen clenched his sword tightly with a determined look in his eyes.

"If you stand in front of me today, even if it is a natural disaster, I will not just surrender, let alone a shield or a ghost?"

"The craftsman who forged this shield was killed by a group of wandering evil spirits. His resentment was much more vicious than natural disasters, and the blood stained on this shield caused tragedies that were much more evil than natural disasters. "Xingxiong said: "I know you have always been dissatisfied with Longmen in your heart. Old Chen, Mr. Wei is not a good person. We can work together to beat him up. If you want to do anything, I will go with you. Anything is fine. , but not now, I can't just watch you leave Longmen, don't force me, this is the last thing I want you to promise."

"Forcing you?" Chen was stunned: "I never thought of forcing you, Xingxiong, you have always been forcing me. If you ask me why, I have told you everything, but you still choose to stand in front of me. .”

"I want you to live!"

"You should ask me for my opinion! One or two of you, you are all like this!" The sharp sword pointed at the star bear holding Prajna on the steps: "You don't understand at all, why can't you try to understand Me once!”

"Then you want me to watch you die. I can't do it!" Xingxiong looked at Chen and replied: "More than once, once, again and again... I destroyed my home and my family."

"Every time I was covered in blood, and every time I fought until the end, until I was the only one left standing." Xing Xiong's eyes fell on the black shield of Hannya, with a deep scratch on one corner. Hen: "It's not that I never thought that I would fall down one day, Lao Chen, but maybe falling down is also a good thing for me. The closest I got to death, I never told you, I saw your Chi Xiao, That was the closest I got to death. The sword cut through Prajna's protection and stopped at my neck. If it had been any closer, I would have died by the sword."

"Just because I thought it was right at the time, just because I decided it was wrong, I made countless mistakes, and I almost lost my life."

Star Bear sighed softly.

"I also often wonder, do I deserve to survive? I don't deserve it, but I still survived. I can't live just for myself anymore." She looked at Chen: "I decided that I was right or wrong, so I stepped out... ...This is the stupidest thing a person has ever done in his life. The taste of regret has always been in my mouth, and I still have the opportunity to regret it. Many people have no chance to think about it again. Do you think you only have a lot to carry? , Miss Chen!”

"Don't talk to me like that!" Chen suddenly shouted loudly. She looked at Xing Xiong and said, "Don't call me that."

You don’t understand at all, Miss Chen, do you think everyone’s life is the same as yours? Look, this is the life of ordinary people, so when you are struggling and suffering for certain things, in fact, other people are not even suffering. There is no time, because they have to fight desperately to survive.

Chen hates this title, she hates being called that.

"Then why can't you understand me a little bit?" Xingxiong looked at Chen and asked, "We have shared the joys and sorrows for so many years, what is there that we can't openly talk about!"

"Then why can't you understand me!" Chen asked: "You have difficulties, and so do I. We all know it, but we all know it, but why don't you understand it? I didn't implicate any of you. Why didn't I understand it? you?!"

Xingxiong sighed heavily. She looked at Chen's raised sword. She raised Prajna, and her momentum increased step by step.

"Because I've seen too many worthless people die."

"I'm not in your shoes, but I care where you go," she said.

"I won't let you go. If you just rush into the battlefield without even thinking about what you should do, you will die in vain."

"I can't watch you die in vain. No one wants to see it. Sometimes when people die, nothing is left. I can't allow you to become like this. Instead of doing this, even if I beat you seriously, I I want you to stay too.”

"You can hate me if you want. It's your business whether you forgive me or not. Anyway, I will definitely apologize to you afterwards."

Chapter 28 Tears

Chen fell silent.

She remembered that in the past three days, she had recalled many things that only she knew in her memory. Sometimes even Chen herself could not remember the fragments of those memories. When she recalled them again, the vague memories became more and more blurred. I can't remember the details of the past, I can't remember what I once said, I can only vaguely remember the beautiful things in my childhood, and they gradually fade away as time goes by.

The big oak tree in the orphanage still stands in the courtyard, and the children are always surrounded by the swing under the oak tree. There were already many fewer people there last time. The nuns were still struggling to maintain the life of the orphanage, so they became guards. The superintendent of the police station later mentioned to them that Chen never thought they could still remember him, but at that time, the memory of Xiaota became clear again.

That night, a clear night with stars in the sky, a small adventure that only they knew in their memory.

I quietly escaped from the house in the night with light snowfall. The night was colder than I imagined, and the road was longer than I originally walked. The bright fireworks that illuminated the gloomy sky of Longmen reflected the splendor of the night sky on the river.

How can people keep up with time and memory?

Over the years, there has never been a day when Chen was so close to what she had always wanted to do. Maybe the decision to join the Guards Bureau did change her original intention. Maybe after becoming a police officer in the Guards Bureau, she After getting to know this Longmen City better, I also thought about what to do for it.

Past family, present friends, past life, present life.

Time hindered Chen's steps. It was she who trapped herself in the knot of her past. It was not that she had never thought about moving forward, but before she saw the result with her own eyes, Chen could not decide whether to move forward.

People know a lot of truths. They know what they should do is right and what they should do is wrong. Chen certainly knows that it is not easy to leave Longmen alone to find someone in Ursus. She knows that she is in Putting herself in danger, she knew she would be in danger.

But sometimes, even though the future is uncertain, people still want to move forward, and even though they know it is wrong, they still refuse to stop. In fact, it doesn't matter whether it is right or wrong. For people, she has a reason to do this. That's all that's left.

"Thank you, Xing Xiong." Chen said aloud, staring at Xing Xiong in front of the steps, "But I must go."

"really?"

"If you really want to use the sword, I won't be afraid of you [$$

"You have to pass it, right?"

"I have a reason to go. I don't ask you to understand what I am doing. Just like you are standing in front of me now, I have the same reason as you."

"No matter Longmen? No matter our efforts and persistence, no matter Xiao Mo, no matter those people who believe in you, do you feel that your heart is as hard as iron now?"

"As you wish."

"That's all." Xing Xiong shook his head slightly, and she raised Prajna: "Only after being beaten hard once, will you know that all those ridiculous persistence of yours are just impulses, like me in the past."

"Since you want to fight, Lao Chen, I will not show mercy to you."

"The same thing, I'll give it back to you."

Xingxiong jumped up, and the heavy Prajna collided with the sword in Chen's hand in the air. Amidst the sound of steel clashing, the air waves set off by the spell made their long hair fly in the air.

Prajna was like a ferocious battering ram, dancing in the hands of Xing Xiong, with a heavy sound of wind, forcing Chen to retreat step by step. In terms of strength, Chen was no match for Xing Xiong.

Chen dodged Xingxiong and the Prajna in her hand time and time again. Occasionally, she would draw her sword in the gap between Prajna's dancing, but it was easily blocked by the wide shield. The sharp Guards Bureau standard long sword could not even stay on the black iron of Prajna. Next scratch.

The piercing buzzing and the wind pressure brought by Prajna hit his face. Chen turned sideways, and Prajna hit the long sword blocking his side. Chen felt that his whole arm was shaking under this powerful force, and the hand holding the sword Pain came from the tiger's mouth, and he almost couldn't hold the weapon and let go.

She took advantage of the collision between Xing Xiong and Prajna to retreat back, kicked on Prajna's shield, and followed closely with the long sword in her hand. Xing Xiong bent down to avoid the long sword slashing towards the top of his head, and a strand of hair flew away. The silk fell to the ground as the sharp blade passed by.

When he looked over again, Chen had already retreated a few meters away, widening the distance between him and himself.

The star bear is not good at skills, but this is relatively speaking. The star bear holding the Hannya is better at defense, but these words are very dishonest to the gang thugs in the lower city who have angered the ghost sister. When the Hannya is waved When used, the sharp edge of the triangular shield is not much weaker than ordinary weapons.

"That's a big statement, but it turns out that you only have this ability. What about your Chi Xiao, Lao Chen, if you only have this ability, I will never let you go."

"Don't push me."

"I can still fight. You think I can fight with you all day. If this dispels your idea, you can't go anywhere today. Just stay in Longmen."

Xingxiong said that she saw Chen's hand move to the handle of the Chixiao knife behind his waist. The red air waves began to gather around Chen, lifting up the rubble and dust of the old city. With her as the center, a heart-stopping breath flowed along Chixiao. The scabbard climbs up.

"If I pull out Chi Xiao, you might die."

"Don't think that I'm as weak as you, Lao Chen. If I don't force you to do something, you won't realize how self-righteous you are." Will, the ferocious evil ghost decoration on the Prajna Shield began to emit black-red light, and the color of the light was like solidified dark red blood.

This is a precursor to surgery.

"Come on, Lao Chen, let Prajna and I see if you are really capable of defeating me."

Chen lowered his eyes.

He released his right hand holding the sword issued by the Guards Bureau, but before the sword slipped, her eyes suddenly stared at Hoshikuma and the Hannya she held in front of her eyes.

【It's yours. 】

【I do not need. 】

[Just think of it as something I loaned to you temporarily. 】

【You are not afraid. 】

[Afraid that you will attack me with swords? 】

【right. 】

【No, I'm not afraid. 】

【why? 】

【Because I am not that afraid of death. 】

[Chixiao is not an ordinary weapon. You will slowly understand it. Don't squander its evil energy on daily basis. The dragon-slaying sword should have its value out of the sheath. 】

[It is up to you to choose whom to draw your sword against. 】

Chen held the hilt of Chi Xiao's sword. She could hear the slight sound of the scabbard opening and closing. Chi Xiao was resisting Chen's will, unwilling to be pulled out so easily.

Chen has rehearsed every move and style of Chi Xiao's swordsmanship, Ben Ye, Drawing the Sword, Tearing Edge, Yun Split, countless times in her mind. From childhood, Chixiao swordsmanship has almost been integrated into Chen's life. It is her urgent need. The only way to catch someone and something that has been lost from your side.

But Chen has never really understood Chi Xiao, nor the sword that it carries with her. Although she has learned the Chi Xiao swordsmanship, Chi Xiao has never been willing to obey her will. Chi Xiao seems to have a life of its own. , the more eager Chen wanted to use the power of this weapon, the more Chi Xiao resisted her, and the easier it was for him to be on the verge of losing control.

Chen never thought that one day this weapon would be used to target his friends and Star Bear.

"I'll say it one last time, don't stop me, Xingxiong." Chen lowered her voice. She seemed to feel her hand holding Chi Xiao shaking slightly. Chi Xiao was on the verge of losing control, and she was forcibly suppressing it in the scabbard. Inside.

The red sky buzzed and vibrated, causing the red sword energy surrounding Chen to roll and surge.

"I will only say this for the last time, Lao Chen, if I die, you can leave!"

"Chi Xiao—"

"Draw the knife!"

Chen's voice roared past along with the red air waves. In Xing Xiong's brown pupils, under the gloomy sky, red energy poured towards Prajna like a torrent.

Prajna shattered the ground beneath Star Bear's feet.

It was just a moment, but it seemed like a long time had passed, until Xingxiong lowered her hand, blood flowing along her arm, and there was a roar behind her, and the 15-meter-high abandoned building was passed by everything, with the loud noise of collapse and the dust rising all over the sky. The air wave swept all the way from the collapsed old building to the street where the two of them were.

Something sounded in Xingxiong's ears, and a corner of Prajna fell to the ground, waking her and Chen up.

Xingxiong's eyes fell on the severed corner of Prajna. For many years, she and this Prajna had never experienced such an embarrassing moment. In the turbulence of spells set off by the red sky, Prajna protected the star bear behind it. , but even so, the cutting turbulence released by the red sky still drew blood on Xingxiong's arms.

"You cut in the wrong place."

Chen was no better than Xing Xiong. The bitter fruit of Chi Xiao's forced removal was raging in her body. Although as the main caster, Chi Xiao's spell did not cause damage to her body, but she felt mentally torn. And the exhaustion of a lot of physical deprivation is still uncomfortable.

"Next time, I won't chop off the target again."

She couldn't even pull out the sword completely. Just for a moment, the energy emitted by Chi Xiao made Chen exhausted.

"Look at your appearance now, are you sure you can still pull out that sword?" Xingxiong couldn't help but taunted, even though she felt that the bones and muscles all over her body were being stabbed with pain.

Chi Xiao's energy flow cut the ground in front of the two people into a mess, and the dust from the collapsed building gradually subsided.

"How can you be better? Ha, you can still raise your shield." Chen Qing gasped and retorted.

"I stopped your sword."

"Don't talk too much."

"You, Old Chen, what do you want me to say? Didn't you swear that you would not show mercy? Hey, what do you mean now?"

"..."

Chen didn't answer.

But Xing Xiong knew very well that her current situation was much worse than Chen's. At least after facing the energy emitted by Chi Xiao, Xing Xiong was sure that she would never be able to pick up Prajna again, and even raising her arm would be implicated. Muscle and bone pain.

"...I didn't expect, I really didn't expect that you and your sword could actually force me into such a situation."

"You shouldn't have stopped in front of me, Xing Xiong. I have been hiding in the dragon gate for so many years. I thought I had enough courage to face the past..." Chen suddenly said: "But I was wrong, Xing Xiong, I It’s just that I have been running away, and I have never really entered this city.”

"You are saying things that only you can understand again, Lao Chen, when will you get rid of this problem?" Xingxiong said, she let go of Prajna's hand, and Prajna fell to the ground.

"In the end I can't stop you anymore, just go."

"...I'm sorry, Star Bear."

"After I leave, please go to the slums for me. The residents of the slums are in shock. Someone should protect them on behalf of the Guards Bureau. There are also colleagues from the Guards Bureau and Shi Huaiya. Say sorry to them for me. If I didn't...Xiao Mo, please help me take care of her, she has reached the age of remembering things, if she asks, she asks what I did...don't hide it from her."

Star Bear lowered his eyelids.

"I can't do it, Lao Chen. I can't do the things you told me. You should do it yourself."

"I'm sorry, I owe you."

"I don't want to hear your apology. To be honest, you are not suitable."

Xing Xiong's impression of Chen Huijie is that she is always upright and confident. She can quarrel with others even if they are ignored. She scolds even more fiercely when they are ignored. No matter who she is targeting, she never knows how to compromise or stop. Xing Xiong is used to Chen Huijie like this. , perhaps because there is something familiar to her about Chen, so Xingxiong is used to dealing with people like Chen, being her subordinate and obeying her orders.

They are colleagues, superiors and subordinates, and even friends.

It's not because Chen is her commander that Xing Xiong obeys her orders and opinions, but because Chen is someone she recognizes, so Xing Xiong is willing to stand by her side.

She watched Chen go to put away his sword and push the motorcycle past her. She walked past her, but Xingxiong still couldn't hold it back. She suddenly turned around and called Chen.

"...Old Chen."

She wanted to say something more, but Chen stopped and she didn't look back. Xing Xiong looked at her back at the entrance of the stairs leading to the outer city, after their swords were facing each other.

Xingxiong wanted to keep Chen because she had seen too many people die without incident. Their deaths were meaningless. They often lost their lives for their own persistence and so-called loyalty. Only in the end did they realize that it was nothing. It is more important than living. Even if it is death, Chen Huijie's death should be more meaningful. Her death should not be unknown. This is not Chen's destiny. This should not be her ending.

In a foreign land, I died alone for a certain obsession, and later I realized that I had accomplished nothing. Only later did I realize that my arrival would not help at all.

People often like to think highly of themselves, especially people like Chen. People think that they have right and wrong in their minds. Once they identify right and wrong, they will be able to achieve their dreams. But in fact, reality will not help anyone. Xingxiong understands the slightest wavering of will.