Longmen Memoirs

People will always change and get stuck due to various circumstances.

Chen didn't even dare to prepare the tools and equipment needed for the long journey, because Chen knew very well that whatever she did would leave traces, and she couldn't hide it from Xing Xiong or other people in the Guards Bureau. More importantly, she was not sure whether she could hide it from Wei Yanwu.

Chen knew Wei Yanwu very well. There was no way that he would let himself leave Longmen to go to Ursus at this time. Even if Chen gave up his identity as the Inspectorate of the Guards Bureau, Wei Yanwu would never let her escape from Longmen easily. After all, he This is the kind of person who, for the sake of this dragon gate and even the slightest mistake, will not allow anyone or anything to be beyond his control.

Just in case.

Maybe Xingxiong is right, maybe Chen himself doesn’t understand Wei Yanwu well enough, what he has done for this dragon gate, what he has done for himself, and who the past and secrets he has deliberately concealed are for. good.

Chen didn't want to spend any more time understanding him or her uncle, because the way they got along had been fixed for more than ten years. Chen's impression and memory of Wei Yanwu had already been in her childhood. I have gained a profound understanding in the process.

It is difficult for people's cognition to change again.

Ever since Chen left home, ever since Talulah was kidnapped, ever since she practiced Chi Xiao's swordsmanship day after day but never got his approval, Chen has been disappointed with Wei Yanwu. She doesn't care to continue to be disappointed. After all, it has been a long time. In the past, she had naively thought that maybe one day she would be able to see recognition and encouragement in his eyes, but there was always only majesty and arrogance on his face.

It seemed that no matter what Chen did, no matter how well she did, it was not worth mentioning in Wei Yanwu's eyes. He didn't care about anything except this dragon gate.

Thinking of this, Chen couldn't help but clenched the sword in his hand.

The fox won. Even if Chen defeated her here, the time she delayed was enough for Longmen to prepare to prevent a senior superintendent from leaving, even if she was Chen Huijie.

A person is extremely insignificant in front of a city, just like in a torrent. If a person tries to resist the tide by himself, he will be torn into pieces.

"There's no need to keep fighting, right?" Fox said. She didn't show any dissatisfaction with Chen's cold eyebrows, with a frivolous smile on her face.

Chen didn't answer, she raised the sword in her hand.

"Oh?"

"I just have to break you before those people come."

"Then?"

"Let's talk about it later."

"I see, even after reaching this point, I still refuse to give up. It is indeed the Chen Huijie that Longmen said." The fox sighed lightly.

Chen watched her let go of the short knife in her right hand, and the short knife fell to the ground. She held the long knife with both hands. The blue flame spread along the fox's hands holding the knife, extending all the way to the entire blade. The blade was wrapped in the swallowed blue magic energy. , the scars and bloodstains on the fox's body reflected the free blue light on the blade as she gradually slowed down her breathing.

Her spell state was calm, but not gentle. The flame-like light had no temperature, but the blue light and shadow illuminated the entire dark entrance to the underground passage.

"An infected person left the Dragon Gate and traveled thousands of miles to the land of Ursus. You know better than me what this behavior means."

Chen watched her bend her legs to hold the knife, and the blade was pointed straight in his direction. The blue flame seemed to have found a breakthrough at that moment, converging on Wolper's arm holding the knife, and the torrent of energy slanted upward until it was completely It is solidified on the entire long sword, with a condensed broad blade attached.

"The way Ursus treats infected people is different from that of Longmen. What can you do on that land alone? Ah, you must be thinking now that this is your own business and has nothing to do with others. You You didn’t bring any trouble to anyone, you just wanted to leave Longmen. Could it be that leaving Longmen has become something that is not allowed? Who will make the regulations?"

"You think so because you are Chen Huijie. You feel that you have been living in the shadow of being arranged by others all your life. You hate this kind of life being controlled by others. You think that you already have the ability to decide what you do, and you also think that you have the ability to decide what you do. We should bear corresponding responsibility for this.”

"But for many things, you don't necessarily think that you should follow your ideas. For many things, the part that people can decide is always very small. And more often than not, we can't do anything. It's not that we don't want to. It’s not that I can’t, it’s that I can’t do it.”

"You are also an infected person, Su Li. You know what this dragon gate looks like better than I do. You also know what Wei Yanwu did in this dragon gate. I just want to leave. I just want to leave. A Chen Huijie is against Longmen. Words don’t matter, even without Chen Huijie, the lives of the Longmen people are still their lives.”

"The lives of Longmen and Longmen people will not change in any way just because one person leaves."

Chen said, he put down the broken standard long sword in his hand and held the hilt of Chi Xiao's sword. The red sword energy raged around her as she spoke.

She wasn't sure how to use Wolper's magic in ordinary ways.

She must use Chi Xiao.

"Let me go! Su Li, there is no need for you or me to throw anyone's life here."

"Do you really think you can beat me?" The fox asked with a smile: "In Londinium five years ago, if I hadn't let you go, you wouldn't have been able to pass in front of me."

"You know? Chen Huijie, one thing I have always regretted over the years is that I didn't stop you. I should have stopped you. Those things should have been settled many years ago. If I hadn't let you go, this matter would have happened today. It won’t happen, he won’t come back to Longmen, and I don’t have to continue guarding this useless city.”

"I've had enough of living like this, I've had enough of this dragon gate, I've had enough of this life! People like us shouldn't be alive in the first place, but it's so good to live. Who would want to die if we could live! But! Living, for some people, is more painful than death for some things, until one day, I don't even dare to say the word death."

"You should stay in Longmen, Chen Huijie. No matter what he said to you, staying in Longmen will not do any harm to you, Longmen, or him. You should also be more pragmatic. Don't always close your eyes and be unwilling to see what's in front of you. The real appearance is immersed in one’s own dream.”

The contempt in the fox's words seemed to irritate Chen.

"How dare you say that...!"

"Because you think no one can understand you? You need people to understand you, understand what you do, and understand your thoughts. What a ridiculous idea is this? Are you still a child who has not grown up? You need others to understand your difficulties. So you can live?"

"you……"

"Look, a few words can stimulate your emotions, but you still can't learn, Officer Chen, how to hide your emotions in your heart, how to control your feelings." The fox said: "Because I stabbed you What's the pain point? A lady like you should live honestly in Longmen and fight with your elders, find ways to defeat them, make them look at you with admiration, become your senior official in the Guards Bureau, and continue your transformation of this Longmen. , after all, this is your own business, I can’t control it so much.”

"Don't always imitate some people who do things half-way and are soft-hearted at critical moments. In the end, the only person you will harm is yourself. You think this is good, but no, this is stupid. It's surprisingly stupid. There is no such thing as this in the world. Such an idiot."

Chen quieted down.

She didn't speak until the fox finished speaking: "I've heard enough of your nonsense, and you've been stalling for long enough."

The fox was not surprised.

"You are not stalling for time, so if you rest enough, you can still draw the sword again."

Her eyes fell on Chen's hand holding the hilt of Chi Xiao.

"I say it one last time, let me go."

"Then I have to remind you, what will he think if you kill me? You can really face him after killing me, but I will not kill you, Miss Chen, because I will kill you, Chief Wei and Longmen It's impossible to let me live, so the possibility of my death is higher than yours." The fox looked at Chen calmly and said: "If you want to leave, you can only kill me. This is unfair from the beginning, no matter to you You're still treating me, but on the other hand, I think it's fair. Think about it, I just stopped you here but lost my life, can you really get over this hurdle?"

Chen was stunned. She knew that the fox said this on purpose. She also knew that she could not control Chi Xiao now. Once he used the spell, she would not be able to hold back.

So Wolper deliberately used these words to stimulate her and told her that he would not take Chen's life, but Chen was not sure that he could hold back.

Chen gritted his teeth.

"mean……"

"Chengzheng, the way to deal with people like you is very simple."

"You really think I don't dare to kill you."

"You won't." The fox said very firmly, "You and I are not familiar with each other, but in your eyes, I am not guilty enough to die. You care too much about this, or maybe these years of life in the Guards Bureau have turned you into It’s like this now.”

"If you can really kill me, you know in your heart that I can't stop you. Don't always take chances, Chen. Since you can risk your own life just to leave Longmen, why bother caring about someone else's?" It’s my life.”

"I must stop you, even if I die in your hands, because this is my value to this dragon gate."

"It's not worth it."

Fox shook his head.

"People always have to be a little persistent. As an infected person, you should pay the price if you can still receive the current treatment."

After the fox finished speaking, she added:

"I die and you leave. I live and you stay. Choose one. There isn't much time left for us. The longer you wait, the less likely you are to leave."

The fox did not choose to attack, but maintained the spell to block Chen's face. Chen did not dare to easily disperse the spellcasting precursors maintained by Chi Xiao, because she was not sure that while she was dispelling the spell, the cunning Wolper on the opposite side would not After all, she would definitely do such a thing by rushing to attack, and the initiative was completely out of Chen's hands.

In fact, in the final analysis, the fox's way of dealing with her was too simple. Because Chen had her own bottom line and because she was an upright person, she often fell into passivity when things went beyond her expectation and control.

What happened to Afa in the slums last time was a profound lesson. If Chen could have decisively killed Afa at that time, she would not have been stunned by the aftermath of the explosion. If she had not protected Afa, With her ability, it is not impossible to ensure her own safety.

Because she is a police officer of the Guards Bureau, and because she is an upright person, she is easy to deal with, because good people will be pointed at guns, and people like Fox and Chen Mo may really kill people.

The moment a good guy is pointed at a gun, the person holding the gun is no longer innocent.

So the fox said, there are many things, the part that people can decide is always very small, and more often than not, we can't do anything, it's not that we don't want to, but that we can't, it's not that we can't, but that we can't do it. .

Chen shouldn't have given Wolper a chance to speak. Her ability to play tricks was much more powerful than the weapons in her hands.

In the final analysis, it is because in Chen's eyes, Walper is not a bad person. She has not done anything evil that Chen hates. If she deserves to die, then Wei Yanwu deserves to die even more. But Wei Yanwu is still alive and living well. If Chen Zhen because This little thing could kill her, but Chen couldn't do it yet.

There are ways to get the best of both worlds, but Chen doesn't have this ability yet.

Chen closed his eyes.

"Chixiao... spread out."

The red sword energy dispersed in all directions, and Chen gave up the spell. She just stood there, standing at the last gate leaving the dragon gate. The sky outside the city was getting darker and darker.

Su Hujie, who was desperate, stopped Chen Huijie, who was also desperate.

Chen is still not cold and ruthless enough. If a person is hindered by feelings, he will naturally fall into trouble.

Even if you don’t care about your own life, there are some things that you can’t do without caring about your own life. Most people only give a little, so they should ask for more in return. Do you feel that you don’t even care about what you have given? For your own destiny, everyone should understand you, recognize you, and accept you.

But that's not how the world works. It never has been.

Chapter 32 Its color is red

Chen gave up.

Fox didn't feel happy at all, or she was disappointed because Chen Huijie was finally a person with a bottom line.

The imagined attack did not come. The spell in the fox's hand slowly extinguished, and the blue light dispersed like dust, revealing the originally bright silver blade.

The fox was holding a long sword, and the sword was hanging upside down on the ground.

Both she and Chen knew that even if Chen Huijie was stopped today, Chen Huijie still did not extinguish her idea of ​​leaving Longmen, but it only temporarily stopped her from leaving. As for whether she would face Wei Yanwu or others later, the fox didn't care, Chen Don't care either.

"It seems that I still overestimated you, Miss Chen."

There was no irony in Fox's words, but listening to Chen's ears and facing her calm expression and the smile on her lips, Mr. Chen felt that her words sounded harsh.

"You should be grateful that you survived."

"So I still want to thank you?" Fox asked back, and she added: "Superintendent Chen of the Guards Bureau is Superintendent Chen. He can't act like a villain if he is upright. Now you must feel that I make you hate me, but But you can't convince yourself to kill me here, even if you kill me, you can leave Longmen smoothly."

Fox said, pointing outside.

"Is this okay? It's just one step away."

"If you just want to get a cheap deal and still come to mock me, you have found the wrong person. I will not kill you, Su Li. You are not worthy of dying by Chi Xiao's sword."

"Even though I'm a jerk?"

"You deserve to die, and Wei Yanwu deserves to die even more. Maybe there are more people in this dragon gate who deserve to die than you, but they are all still alive and well. My original duty is to protect the safety of this city, but not to decide who should die. Judge who deserves to die and who deserves to live.”

"In the eyes of many people, the Guard Bureau does this kind of thing. At least in your eyes, those people in the slums see you and your Guard Bureau this way. Maybe you can make them change their view of you personally. But Longmen doesn't." The fox shook his head and replied: "Since you don't plan to leave, we can have a chat here."

"I have nothing to talk to you about."

"Yes." The fox nodded: "There is nothing to talk about, because you and I are different people. Some people have the same fate but different fates, and some people have the same fate but different fates. You and that Tallulah... you belong to that kind?"

Chen didn't seem to expect that the fox would suddenly bring up this topic. She hesitated for a moment, but finally didn't shut up or answer. She didn't want to talk about Tallulah with outsiders. This was a secret that only belonged to Chen. She didn't want to talk about this place. She doesn’t love her city and the past that happened long ago in this dragon gate.

"Don't want to say it?" Fox asked.

Before Chen could answer, she continued to add: "You don't want to talk about this name, Chen Huijie, but I know who that Tallulah is. The orphanage on the outskirts of the city when you were children, there were several nuns and The converted chapel, she had beautiful silver hair. When you were a child, you often went there to find her on Sundays, because the nuns said you called her sister, but she was not in the Chen family. You went to school together, but then she Left Chen Mansion."

"Not many people in Longmen know that you have a sister. Chief Wei never mentioned it, and the big shots in Longmen are also silent. It's as if this person has never appeared in Longmen. All traces of her have been wiped away, except Outside of that little orphanage, she never belonged to Longmen."

Chen's eyes widened slightly. She looked at the fox who slowly said this in disbelief. Wolper's face was calm, as if he was explaining a story she overheard.

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Chen suddenly thought of something, and she seemed to suddenly realize where the fox knew this.

The fox seemed to read her thoughts.

"Wrong." The fox shook his head and said, "Compared to you, he is even more unwilling to talk about these things with others. Even if it is me, as long as he is in this dragon gate, he will not talk about these past things with anyone."

"Because he doesn't care about what has happened, and I don't care about your past, but I know the name because I have been to that orphanage. I told the lady that I was his friend, and we talked about your past. I got some photos from her."

"Then Chen Mo left, and not long after Tallulah left too, and you took away all the things she left there, so...actually, he wasn't that important to you at that time, was he?"

Chen didn't answer. She pursed her lips. She couldn't refute the fox's words.

"I can think of the reasons why you went to Ursus, where your sister is, and how guilty you feel about her. The conflict between you and Chief Wei also comes from this, including the reason why he went to Ursus and now between you. So the reason will be in front of me.”

The fox said, and then asked: "Then what does Chief Wei think? How does this dragon gate treat a buried secret that does not belong to this city? It depends on you now insisting on running to Ursus to find that Chernobog, go get involved in the dispute between Yan and Ursus."

"Don't act like you know everything!" Chen looked at the fox coldly: "It's not your turn to teach me these principles, so who do you have the right to say such things to me in whose position you are? , it’s easy to say, it has nothing to do with you, you want to say you are doing it for my own good? Thank you for your concern, but I don’t need you to worry about it for me. "

"Ah."

The fox laughed.

"why are you laughing?"

"I'm laughing at you, Chen Huijie turns out to be such a self-righteous guy." The fox looked at Chen with a smile. Even though she was covered in blood, she still couldn't hide her frivolous smile.

"Do you really think these things are all yours to decide? Do you really think... your life should be in your own hands?" The fox said slowly: "Ah, you are moving forward, do you think these things You should do it because you think it’s right and you think it’s your responsibility.”