Longmen Memoirs

"You will be regarded as a spy, Brother Chen."

"Have you ever seen a spy as stupid as me? Scout, no, at least Ms. Kelsey will not treat me as a spy. Just like before, I am a prisoner, a prisoner, and I want to stay with you."

Ms. Kelsey came earlier than I thought.

Before daylight, she pushed open the door of this ward, and the light from the bedroom illuminated the dim room. Kazdale had a more brilliant starry sky than Longmen and Columbia, even if this starry sky was exchanged for desolation. of.

"You're early, Ms. Kelsey."

She was dressed just like what Chen Mo had seen the day before yesterday. She was a doctor. She looked like a decent doctor, but the doctor's dress was actually not much different from that of a researcher. The two were completely different professions. .

"You seem to know I'm coming?"

"I met Your Highness, Your Highness Theresia yesterday." Chen Mo: "I know Scout will report to you."

"What's the reason?"

"Hallucination, delusion, you are a doctor, you should have a more reasonable explanation than me."

"A common mental symptom, which is a perceptual disorder, a perceptual experience caused by the sensory organs in the absence of external objective stimulation." Kelsey replied coldly.

"You are indeed a doctor."

"Doctors can't save a patient who is seeking death, nor can he save a patient who deceives himself. Scout said you wanted to stay. What made you have this idea?"

"Scout told me a lot about Kazdale, but that wasn't the main reason I changed my mind."

"main reason?"

"Her Highness Theresia is a unique person. She gave Kazdale hope, but Dr. Kelsey, you know that hope without results is poisonous. You are a doctor, but you can unlock this kind of hope." Is it poisonous?"

"No doctor would jump to conclusions without trying something," Kelsey replied.

"Are you trying?"

"I have tried to save this diseased land, but my attempts have not yielded the results it should have. This land has bred rot, cancer, decay, and death. No special medicine can save it."

"No doctor would watch a patient die in front of him without doing anything [

"You want to stay?"

"want."

"Yes, but your movements will be restricted, and... you are prohibited from contacting His Highness. If you can comply, I can allow you to stay instead of putting you in jail."

"I can't comply." Chen Mo shook his head: "I'm not sure I can bear not to contact that person, but I also know that Dr. Kelsey you won't kill me, because I still have the value of existence, and you are not as good as your appearance. As decisive and ruthless as you are, you are a hypocritical person like me, but my hypocrisy is to cover up my ugliness, while what you cover up is your kindness."

"Are you asking me to make a choice?"

"Choice is a two-way street." Chen Mo said, "So is respect. I am a prisoner and you are a doctor. I respect you, but you don't need to respect me. I can understand that."

"Chen Mo...very good. I hope you can remember your words and deeds today in the future."

"Remember."

I don't know how many words and deeds I can remember today. People are creatures that can easily change, let alone people like me.

But once again I met His Highness.

April 7

Small Tower: The Sakaz people are very eager for bonfires. In the bonfires, you can see their faces reflecting the flames. This country is very backward, backward and poor. Their poverty has led to their chaos. How many of them are known on the land of Kazdaele? How many lords does the king dominate?As numerous as grass.

The oppression of the nobles, the continuous wars, and the fighting between compatriots seemed to be happening tirelessly in this land. No one thought about coming to end it all, at least until she appeared, no one thought about it.

Theresia sat in front of the bonfire, the flickering firelight illuminated her long pink hair, and the sharp horns on her head seemed to gradually soften under the warmth of the flames.

Her figure is so slender, yet she seems so tall. She is so tall that people look up at her and follow her back.

She is so gentle in her singing, symbolizing the elf in the flames, walking into the world and bringing a touch of warmth to this cold world.

It was a song that Chen Mo had never heard before. With Theresia's soft voice slowly flowing into Chen Mo's ears, the song seemed to contain some kind of hope, something that was unreal.

People put down their swords in the singing, gathered together, and became brothers. Flowers spread, sparks dispersed, and the wilderness of Kazdare seemed to usher in the dawn of the night.

"Mr. Chen Mo, haven't you left yet?"

As Theresa stood up to leave, she noticed Chen Mo standing outside the bonfire. She unexpectedly stopped and asked Chen Mo.

"I'm staying, Your Highness."

"Stayed? Well, Lord Kelsey mentioned this to me. Sorry, I was too busy and didn't think of it for a moment." She said, and then asked: "Did you come to me specifically?"

"I heard singing, with all due respect, Your Highness."

"You don't need to call me Your Highness. You are not from Kazdaele. Just call me Theresia."

Her smile was as bright as the midday sun.

"Your Highness, are you different from other nobles?" I asked. "You are always alone. I have never seen any noble or lord who would bow down to a group of civilians and warriors and play for them. Your Highness, you don't care about your identity."

"Kelsey told you the same thing, Mr. Chen Mo." Theresa turned around and looked at the bonfire behind her. The crowd gathered in front of the bonfire, including adults, children, soldiers, and women. There were many people in this camp. There are only Sakaz mercenaries.

"Do you know how I answered?"

"How did you answer?"

"I am also a Sakaz. The only difference between me and them is that I was born in the royal court, but this does not mean that I can be nobler than them, because we have the same blood flowing in our bodies and will be sad. They will laugh, feel lost, and feel pain." She said: "If I was born in the royal court, then they are my responsibility, and I have the obligation to lead them to a better life."

Her tenderness is not just for people like Chen Mo, her tenderness includes everything he can see. People thrive on this land. Spring goes to winter, life continues, and everything revives, even Kaz Dell also deserves a future of her own.

She longed for the Sakaz people to be tolerated in the world, so she tried her best to tolerate others. She longed for the Sakaz people to be understood, so she also tried to understand others. She was not afraid of war, but she did not long for war.

Chen Mo didn't know how to evaluate this ideal. It seemed to Chen Mo that it was so false, but maybe it was because of this, because we all felt it was false and unrealistic, that she picked it up and it made it appear to us. It became so dazzling in front of me.

"But not everyone will be willing to believe you, Your Highness."

Everyone has greed, and they also have things they fear and care about. Not everyone is willing to risk everything for an illusory future. As Scout said, people only care and can only see and touch what is in front of them. , things that can be seen and obtained, hope, it is too far away, I am not willing to lose everything for a hope.

"That's why I have to do it. If I don't do it, I will never be able to do it, right? Mr. Chen Mo, there is no hope if you stand still. Kazdaele has waited long enough."

"Even if there is a war, as far as I know, the war in Kazdaele has already begun. You are here now, and the lords everywhere are gathering their mercenary groups. I can foresee that Kazdaele will experience a war in the future. The long war.”

"I don't want to start a war." Theresa said: "I don't want anyone to lose their precious life in this war, but if it is necessary, if we cannot avoid it, I will not escape. , even if I will become a sinner because of this, I think I have already made this preparation."

"What about failure? Didn't you ever think that you would fail?"

"Of course I have thought about it, Mr. Chen Mo." She smiled softly and turned around. Dawn had just broken in the sky. She turned her head and the night wind blew her long hair. She reached out to press down the messy hair.

"Of course I thought I would fail, but if this is Kazdaele's fate, I will resist it. Even if I can't do it, someone will continue."

Chen Mo was later given a severe warning by Kelsey, who warned Chen Mo not to approach His Highness again, but it was obvious that a person like him could not be stopped with just one or two warnings.

Chapter 74 The blade should be guarded

Since when did weapons have the only meaning of killing, and since when did killing become the simplest and most convenient thing in the world.

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Chen Mo slowly settled here. He tried to integrate here and do some things that he could do. He would help the soldiers unload the camel beasts and the goods on the truck. He would run errands and do odd jobs behind the kitchen tent set up. Occasionally He plays a guest role as the teacher of the Sakaz children. Black Steel's battlefield first aid knowledge allows him to help the members of the medical team a lot.

After night, he would also sit in front of the campfire and listen to the Sakaz people telling some local stories. At the same time, he would also tell some of his experiences.

This is an introverted foreign boy who talks little.

He put down the knife and saw a different world in Kazdare, and a different Sarkaz.

[Xiaota: This is my second month living in Kazdale Camp. Someone told me that I can’t decide where I am born, but I can decide what kind of person I become. I started to try to integrate into them. I I found that there is actually no difference between Sakaz and other people. They can also laugh, cry, be sad, shed tears, cry when the bodies of their loved ones are returned, and feel grateful after eating steaming food. , children are eager for knowledge, old men are kind, and women are gentle.

They are not as cruel and ruthless as we think of them. You should come and see them. They have hope for tomorrow. They still believe that in Kazdaele, even in this land of continuous war, there should be Her future.

There is no oppression, no discrimination, no exclusion, and no nobility here. It seems like the world I once told you about, where people should be equal, and should not be alienated by high or low, and should not be separated by rich or poor.

But after all, it seems like my hallucination. Even though I am in it and can see it with my own eyes and hear it with my own ears, it still feels unreal to me. 】

Under the light of the desk lamp, Chen Mo wrote this letter. He didn't know why he wrote it down. It was like when he was in the orphanage, he would write a letter to the fox cub every year. Of course, the letter could not be sent. I didn’t have an address before, but now I don’t dare.

But he still writes, fearing that he will forget.

Can I live here forever? Even if I live like this, it’s not bad.

Chen Mo couldn't help but have this idea in his mind, because the existence of a certain person allowed him to witness all this.

Chen Mo didn't know why Ms. Kelsey and His Highness saved him, but it didn't matter. As Scout said, they allowed him to see a different future.

After taking off the black steel uniform and the blade, Chen Mo seemed to have become an ordinary person. Chen Mo had always imagined that he would be an ordinary person, but he did not expect that he would fulfill his long-cherished wish for many years in the most chaotic place of Kazdale. .

"Karien, didn't you go to class?"

On August 8st, at 21:3 pm, this time was supposed to be the time for the children in the camp to go to class. Her Highness Theresia specially set aside a place in the camp to build a school. In fact, it was not a school. , it was just a different house nailed up with wooden boards. The children and adults told Chen Mo that she had personally participated in it despite Ms. Kelsey's reminder. So far, if anything in the school is broken, she will still repair it herself.

She is so peaceful that she doesn't look like a princess, and she doesn't feel that she is noble because of her bloodline. She feels that this status is a responsibility for her, but in fact, people like her should not bear this kind of responsibility. , she wanted to change Kazdale, and she took action starting from the side.

Her Highness is also the principal and honorary principal of the school. She occasionally spares time to teach the children a lesson, telling the story of the world outside Kazdare, which is prosperous, stable and peaceful. Her words are full of yearning. He told the children that one day Kazdaele Dell can also be like Londinium and Colombia, but it is up to them to achieve these futures.

She is a guide, not a politician. Everything she does comes from her heart, not a political show to win over the people. Chen Mo once doubted what she did. He stayed here not only because Scout told Everything about him, perhaps subconsciously, he still does not believe that someone like His Highness will appear in this cruel world.

But when he saw her innocent smile, Chen Mo understood that he was wrong. He was so wrong. He thought he could understand the hearts of people in this world with his own narrow vision.

"Brother Chen Mo?!"

The sneaky Karien seemed startled by Chen Mo and hurriedly hid something behind his back.

"You should call me Teacher Chen Mo!"

"What? You've only been here for a few classes."

"Teacher Chen Mo! Teacher Chen Mo!" He hurriedly put on a shy face and pulled Chen Mo's sleeves: "The story you told last time, is it true that if you find the Dragon Ball, you can make a wish with the dragon?"

"What do you wish for?"

"I'm just asking. Isn't it okay to ask?"

"I haven't asked you yet, why did you run out? I remember it's class time now, right?"

"There are no classes this afternoon!" He let go of my sleeves, as if he was afraid that Chen Mo would take him back: "Brother Chen Mo, you learned our words very quickly. You couldn't even speak a complete sentence a month ago, but now Now that we are so familiar with each other, we are just like the Sakaz people."

"Don't think I'll let you go if you praise me..."

"How is that possible! I'm telling the truth!" Karien patted his chest, "I've been learning Colombian for a long time, and I haven't learned it yet. Brother Chen Mo, you are the best."

"Tell me, what are you doing sneaking around here...what are you hiding behind your back?"

"Brother Chen Mo, you are also sneaking behind the tent, and you still have the nerve to accuse me!" Karien looked disdainful and rolled his eyes: "Brother Chen Mo is waiting for His Highness, right? Do you like His Highness?"

"..."

"Oh, just say it if you like it. We Kazdare people are not as coy as you. In our Kazdare people, if you like a girl, you have to tell her immediately. If you are strong enough, you can hug her even if she doesn't like you. Enter the tent." He looked like a young adult and said, sizing up Chen Mo: "But you, to be honest, Brother Chen Mo, we don't think much of you. There are more people here who like His Highness than you can count on one hand, and you are probably There’s no hope.”

"Including you?" Chen Mo remembered the last time he passed by the school gate: "I remember the last time you had a fight with someone because of His Highness."

"This..." He suddenly blushed and was speechless. After a while, he said fearfully: "You still say this, but I was severely punished by my father after I went back. "

"Ah, I know, this matter has spread." Chen Mo said deliberately: "Oh, His Highness also knows."

"Your Highness also knows, it's over, it's over!"

His whole person suddenly lost his luster, just like when you first fell in love with a girl in middle school, but it turned out that the whole school knew about it, and the girl also knew about it.

But Theresa was obviously not that kind of girl.

"Didn't you just say that if you Sakaz people like a girl, you should tell her immediately? If you are strong enough, even if she doesn't like you, you can help her hold the tent tightly?" Chen Mo imitated Karien's tone just now: "You are not a Sakaz."

But the pair of horns on top of your head and the slender tail are not the symbols of the Sakaz people.

"But that's His Highness!" He was a little flustered.

"Your Highness is not Sakaz."

"Your Highness is different."

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Your Highness is different, Theresa is indeed different.

"So you made a Dragon Ball?" Chen Mo asked. In fact, he had already seen what Karien had hidden behind his back. It was a glass ball with several stars painted on it.

Children are easy to guess, otherwise they would not ask me those questions.

"You saw it." He subconsciously wanted to hide it, but after a few seconds he took out the gift. "Brother Chen Mo, do you think the Dragon Balls can really make wishes?"

"I don't know, I'm just telling you a story."