Longmen Memoirs

Tallulah only felt a little regretful. She regretted that she still had many things to say to Tallulah. She regretted that she could not see her sister again. She regretted that the person who disappeared on the way southward did not know his current situation at this time. how.

It is inevitable that people cannot remain calm in the face of foreseeable death. If they can wait calmly for the arrival of death, there may be nothing in this world that can make people miss it.

Froststar's return was beyond Tallulah's expectations.

When the cold wave and explosion roared together and hit Ursus's cavalry net surrounding them, even Tallulah could not help but lose consciousness for a moment.

Especially when she saw the infected warriors and snow monsters rushing away from the Ursus cavalry, Tallulah, like all the warriors, felt that something was clogged in her chest, and some emotions spread and hit her. eye sockets.

None of them expected that Frost Star would come back, not only her, but also the soldiers in the team who had evacuated.

Froststar's disdainful eyes made Tallulah feel so kind for the first time. Even though the white rabbit looked cold and haggard due to excessive use of magic, even if there was no trace of a smile on her face, Tallulah Still feel happy.

A kind of joy that is difficult to describe in words, a kind of happiness that is different from the rest of the life after the disaster. Even if Shuangxing laughed at her with a cold face and looked like she was rolling on the ground several times, she could only learn from Shuangxing's cynicism. Concerns were heard.

Only then did Tallulah truly feel the meaning of the word alive.

Because people are alive, they are also afraid. Because they are not omnipotent, they naturally hope that someone can help them when they are in desperate situations.

"What's your look like?"

"I just didn't expect you guys to come back."

"If it were you, would you come back?" Froststar asked, but Tallulah did not answer: "I just did what you would do. If you can still run, we should retreat. You How long do you want to stay there in a daze?"

Her attitude has never been very friendly, and she has never expressed her concerns too directly. She has always been a sharp-tongued girl, but on the contrary, she has always been outspoken and straightforward about things she doesn't like. .

The local time was the evening after the encounter, and night had completely enveloped the entire land.

The attack by Frost Star and others disrupted the previous arrangements of the Ursus Cavalry. In the evening when it was getting dark, the infected team finally broke out of the siege of the Ursus Cavalry. As the night spread, they might be able to escape in a short time. Time to escape the pursuit of the Ursans.

Without this sudden attack, there would be no loopholes in the Ursus cavalry array. Even at night, the infected people who were demoralized and surrounded would not be able to burst out with the same desire to survive as now.

The arrival of Frost Star was like a shot in the arm. Although it could not change the fact that they were defeated by the pursuing troops, it could change their sluggish morale and mentality in a short period of time. Moreover, they did not need to persist for too long. Just cross the Yanwu border.

On the Yanwu border.

In the night, the cavalrymen in uniform and armor leaned down from the hillside.

The young general in armor held a spear and sat astride a black war horse. The horse's hooves restlessly trampled the soft turf under his feet. He stretched out his hand and gently stroked the horse's neck, soothing the restlessness of the riding beast in the night.

The black banner behind him was fluttering in the night wind. Below the banner, the black armored knight stretched endlessly and the heavy black armor blended into the rich night.

One of the Sixteenth Army of Great Yan, Wu Wangwei, who originally belonged to the Yumen garrison, was under the jurisdiction of the Xuanjia heavy armor battalion. The Ursus people often boasted that five groups of shield guards could defeat a group of knights, and they could defeat Casimir dozens of times. During the conflict, Ursus's shield guards were repeatedly defeated and unable to advance.

The Ursus people often like to brag about their power, but they have failed time and time again in the long river of history.

Everything seemed extremely silent in the night. Apart from the whistling of the flags in the night wind and the restless movement of the horses, there was no other sound.

Until on the horizon not far away, an unreal roar accompanied by the sound of wind reached my ears.

There were cavalrymen driving horses from a distance.

"confirmed?"

"Yes, a pair of Ursus light cavalry crossed the buffer line a few minutes ago in pursuit of an unknown group."

"Order Cao Jianzhi to lead two teams of cavalry to intercept the Ursus cavalry's pursuit target, and order Li Xianming to lead his headquarters to intercept the Ursus cavalry's retreat."

"The general will be saved in the end."

"The entire battalion is covered with armor."

He pulled up the reins, and the knight behind him pulled down his visor.

"The rest, follow me."

King Wu of Dayan defends the Xuanjia camp, with a deputy commander in charge, and the leader of King Wu's guard personally takes the position of chief general of Xuanjia.

present and past

All my life, I will regret it

When she was seven years old, Chen caught a cicada. He was so happy that whole afternoon. She thought she had caught the whole summer. In the summer, there were only three of us and a small orphanage.

I can’t remember the taste of the candy that Her Highness put in my mouth at that time. Was it also like the candy that Xiaota put in my mouth later when I found her? It was spicy and sweet, and it could keep the taste. Live in the warmth of your body and feel that you are still alive.

Over the years, my memories have been broken and broken, I have woken up again and again from dreams, and I have never really fallen asleep at that moment. I always thought that I could live well, but what is the meaning of living? It is to hear the singing in my ears, It was hearing Vina's breathing, or the biting cold wind blowing on the snowfield.

w said that she had a room of her own in Rhode Island. Her room was next door to mine. I actually didn’t want to live with her because he always liked to sneak into my house quietly and mess up my room. It was such a mess that she would even put a bomb somewhere. She wanted to blow me up to the sky, but when I gave her the candy given by His Highness, she showed reluctance and couldn't help but take the candy. He walked over and stuffed it tightly into his bag, as if he was afraid that I would snatch it away.

That scene reminded me of many years ago, when Xiaota was a child who didn’t like eating sweets. Although Ms. Lan Min always carried countless candies in her bag, she was never willing to come forward. At that time, I still I didn’t know her, and she didn’t know me. Later I found out that it wasn’t that she didn’t like sugar, she just didn’t like the sweetness. She told me that sugar was sweet, but she felt it was bitter, and she didn’t Knowing what sugar should taste like, she took away the sugar that belonged to me because she couldn't feel it and didn't allow me to feel it.

She has always been so unreasonable, overbearing and domineering, but actually I don’t like candy either, because the days with her are sweeter than any candy.

Chen is different from us. Chen likes sweets very much. She will occasionally peel off a candy and stuff it into her mouth. When she was a child, she has always relied on this taste.Wei Na also likes candies, but I refuse the extremely sour taste. She generously wanted to share her candies with me several times, but I knew that she just knew that I would refuse.

When I left Victoria, she might have returned to her rightful place, with Morgan, Indra, Gedag, Gawain, and the entire Glasgow gang by her side.

Although Indra has a ruffian look on her face, compared to any of Casimir's knights, she is surprisingly very chivalrous. The little brat's chivalry is beyond the reach of the big shots.

I have been looking for a gift for Wei Na, but I don’t know if she will like the gift I give her. He is obviously a guy who advocates freedom too much and longs for the ordinary, but he always suppresses himself.

She should be a natural leader, someone who should be admired and looked up to. Unlike people like me, her life should not be ordinary, nor should her life be unknown.

She just couldn't find it. I helped her look for it for a long time.

I remember the day I met her on the U-shaped staircase in the park. The dusk in the city of Londinium was reflected on the glass of the high-rise building. Her golden eyes reflected the sunset in the sky, indifferently like a dying giant.

She asked me: "Nothing can be worse than now." How did I answer her at that time? I can't remember. I am a liar. How could I even tell myself so many lies? I can remember it.

It's a pity that Xiaota seems to have learned from me. Froststar always said that she is a liar. After I met Alina, in front of the campfire, Alina also talked to me about Talulah's past. .

She had fled to their village for several years. At that time, she was wearing blood-stained clothes. He said it was given to her by an old gentleman and was of great souvenir value. But when asked about it later, she said it was a relic of her father. It’s unbelievable, Alina said, that Tallulah could wash it off even though it was already soaked in blood.

She must like that dress very much. It has a past that she doesn't want to forget, reminding herself of the kind of person she wants to be.

Alina told me that Xiaota has always been a very gentle person. She didn’t know what Xiaota was going to do, but she would always stay with Xiaota. It seemed that she had really become what I thought before, and she would meet Tallulah. With more friends, she will learn to be independent and become strong until now she can stand alone in the wind and rain.

Maybe she doesn’t need me anymore. After seeing that she can stand in front of the infected people, and there are such a large number of people who believe in her so much and follow her, I think she really doesn’t need me anymore. .

I can't help but worry about gains and losses like before. I have done so much, spent so much effort, and walked such a long way to come back to her, only to find that she no longer needs me. I feel relieved. , I think, I will no longer feel jealous, resentful, or regretful like when I was in a black wall.

But the two of us will never be seen again in that orphanage. Let the past pass.

Every Spring Festival and New Year's Eve, the fireworks in the sky of Longmen are the promises we made when we were young. Because we don't understand anything, we can promise each other so easily.

052 taught me that after I got out, I was no longer the same person as before. He used his life to drag me out of hell, but I selfishly left him there.

Mr. Patriot asked me if I would regret everything I did. My answer was: No. As Alina said, Xiaota has always been a kind person, and this did not change until she grew up. , I am very happy that she has not been distorted by this world. She is still the kind-hearted but indifferent Tallulah in my memory who dare not contact others.

It was the silver-haired girl who sat quietly by the bed the day I met her. She was the little girl who would drive the carrots from the dinner plate into my bowl. She gave me half of my luck. I should give that half of my luck back to me. Give it back to her.

Xiaota is very similar to the person I met before. They all put candy into my mouth. I have to do something. Bad people should do bad things. There is always someone who wants to be the villain, and there must be someone who steps on the road. Take the first step, then why can't it be me.

Mr. Patriot said that in his opinion, I was a better leader than Tallulah.

I told him that he was wrong because I was not born to be a leader.

I have met Vina and His Highness. They are all born leaders. I can’t do it. I don’t have such lofty ambitions and abilities. My life is mediocre. There are always ups and downs in my life. People like me cannot Suitable to be a leader.

I should be a qualified executioner, just like I did when I was in the black wall, raising the knife in my hand and taking away one life after another that did not belong to me. I am familiar with the way, and no one is more suitable than me.

And, I'm an outsider, right?

I can see that Xiaota can and will not go on alone after losing me. She has found her justice. When she was young, I didn’t want her to find her justice, but most things are counterproductive. In this case, how can I I can't accept it.

I think I'm ready for this.

Nian said that I shouldn't hang out with bastards like them. She said that I was born to be superior to them. Even though my blood was contaminated by something, I couldn't deny this fact.

But in that dark underground station, when the thunder was cut off by Chi Xiao, I already understood that who I am is not important, and my past is not important, what is important is what I want to be, what I want to do What.

Chen's angry and sad expression was reflected in my dark pupils. How many years have passed since we left this city, and we have never stared at each other as angry as today.

I don't deny that I felt a little happy at the time, even though I was resentful of Chen like this, even though she had never understood what I had gone through in my life.

She shouldn't have to understand, and I wouldn't have to tell her.Even if I tell Chen everything, what's the point? I'll get nothing except making her sadder and blaming herself. She will sympathize with me and forgive me, but she will also be troubled by everything I have done. , and regret, in the end, turned into something I didn’t want to see.

The sword of tears should be abandoned when it is time to abandon it.

I am like a chess piece on the chessboard. When it is time to get out, I will get out of the game, otherwise I will only mess up the good chess game.

Chen had not been to the Black Wall, walked into the snowfields of Ursus, nor participated in the civil war in Kazdare, let alone the great purge of Londinium.

Miss Chen left No. 88 Taiheng Road and the home she hated. Over the years, she has been following her uncle's teachings and following in Tallulah's footsteps.

She has grown up, so strict and harsh, and has also grown into a look that is unfamiliar to me, just like the photo we left at the door of the orphanage that summer. My photo is lost there, I can't find it. .

I don’t know how much I cared about her when I was a child. Even though she and Tallulah have found their own way, the right way, only I seem to be stuck in the same place.

I watched them walk further and further away, leaving me at the door of the orphanage without looking back at me, but I didn't feel sad. Maybe I would be disappointed, but this was what I expected.

When Chen was a child, he asked me, "If you don't understand what family is, what do people like me know?"She wouldn't understand either, because I foolishly thought of her as my relative and my concern.

Foxhound has always felt that if I continue like this, I will leave nothing behind, but what else can I leave behind? All I can leave behind are my memories.

Indelible, the old is new again, the new is old again, year after year, day after day.

Theresia was right, the memories left me with more than just pain.

I personally wiped out the group of infected people that Tallulah had gathered. I personally used them as pawns and pushed them into the Ursus army. It was also me who privately contacted Kazdaele's Tower of Babel and let Tallulah get them. With help from outside, I walked to Londinium. The great purge took away my right eye. In exchange, I picked up the crown that Vina dropped on the ground and put it on her head, letting the whole Victoria and Kazdaele The alliance allowed Her Royal Highness Theresa and Queen Victoria to sit at the same long table in Buckingham Palace.

Letania, Colombia, Victoria, Yanguo... so many countries, Tallulah will find what she is supposed to do, she is never alone.

This is all I can do. I have always been a selfish villain, but a selfish villain should also have what he wants to do.

The same goes for Chen, poetry, star bears, and even bagpipes. Speaking of bagpipes, I met this silly girl during the great purge in Londinium. She was involved in the rebellion of the old nobles. If I hadn’t heard By the time she mentioned Chen's name, she might be dead now.

She talked to me a lot about Chen. I didn’t want to know, but she still kept chattering in my ears. What did she want to know? She knew that the cold-blooded and ruthless Lord Judge in the Inquisition also had his own feelings. Did you know that the famous leader of the Judgment Army who could stop children from crying at night was actually a child who was pinned to the ground by Chen Chen and could not get up when he was a child?

I put her in a dungeon.

I have never regretted giving half of my life to His Highness, nor have I regretted having to bear the pain of the half that should not have been mine. I have never regretted becoming a devil in the eyes of the world and losing my right eye.

I don’t know if Seria, who has left Rhine’s life now, has reconciled with Helmer. That child, Ifrit, may have been able to live a normal life, although I have always felt that with her weird personality, she was in trouble at school. It will definitely give you a headache.

Ino and Sasha should have gone to school in Chernobog.

The days of Black Steel International are actually quite nostalgic. My juniors, Jessica has probably become strong enough. Don’t attribute your mistakes to yourself every time. Has Franka’s Traveling Fox replaced Sphy? Walter has become the new king of the Black Steel intranet, and Razer, it would be better if you two stop causing so many ridiculous things.

Franka, don't try to pinch Razer's breasts every time. You post the size of other people's underwear everywhere and tease Razer every day. It's no wonder Razer puts your face on the target. .

And Stuart, have you caught up with Foxtail now? I should have promised to be your best man, but now it seems there is no chance.

Chen has a new life and Tallulah is on the path she wants to take.

In the end, I was the only one left alone.

I was born a little person, and I never thought about becoming a King of Martial Arts, nor did I ever think about returning to the Yan Kingdom to become the so-called heir. My surname is Chen, Chen Mo, and this is my original name.My father is a police officer in Longmen, and my mother is a music teacher in Longmen. I was born in Longmen.

If you want to make memories with someone, you have to be prepared to shed tears, but enough tears have been shed over the years.

I want to laugh, and I also want to live a good life for myself one day.

Even in the end, he failed to marry Tallulah.

ps: So here comes the question, readers, do you want to read the present story or the past story? If it is the latter, then the past story will be written in the memory fragment. If it is the past story, I will continue to write.

As for me, if it were a current story, it would start from Longmen, with Penguin Logistics and the Guard Bureau, but it would be very sad, interspersed with past memories, and some sweet ones, such as being robbed by several parties. , in fact, it is just a flashback. There are not many people now, and the foreshadowing is enough. There is still a chance.

Chapter 1 Trip to Chernobog

Chernobog North docking level port area, May 1097, 5, Crystal Era

Starting at 9 o'clock in the morning, the entire north docking level was cleared by the city guard, as if they were specially prepared to welcome the arrival of certain people.

Two years after the end of the Northern Xinjiang War, the Integration Movement, an infected organization that had been active among the people, raised the banner of resistance to the tyranny of Ursus because of its equality, tolerance, eclectic governance style and the concept of being kind and close to the people. , now one-third of Ursus has moved in the direction of the integration movement.

As the political center of the integration movement, Chernobog announced that it would break away from Ursus and join it after the war in northern Xinjiang ended two years ago. The leader of the integration movement was the hero who successfully ended the war in northern Xinjiang two years ago. At least Among the people, she is undoubtedly the national hero of the entire Ursus, and among the upper class, her identity is even more undisputed, and she has the legal claim of Ursus.

What is different from the way all cities treat infected people is that within the sphere of influence of the integration movement, infected people are given certain rights. They also live here as human beings. The governor treats the infected people and ordinary people. Different governance policies have been implemented during the period. So far, this rare governance method has caused an uproar in the academic and political circles. This is another country that has implemented similar policies since Kazdaele, especially in Ursus. In such a militaristic country, sociology at the University of Leitania and the National University of Victoria held many discussions on this rare policy. However, each meeting had mixed reviews, but it is undeniable that it is indeed It happened in this land.

Compared with the original harsh, severe penal system and high-pressure rule of the Ursus Empire, both ordinary people and infected people can live more freely, tolerant, and more like individuals in this land of integration movement.

It is not pity, nor charity, nor pity. The leader of the integration movement once said something. She said: "Whether you are an infected person or an ordinary person, the right to live in this world should be fought for and granted by yourself. You To be able to build your own home, you do not rely on the emperor or the nobles, but on your own hands, live on this land, resist natural disasters, resist oppression, resist poverty, resist injustice, and resist fate. 】

"Ms. Kelsey, the people here seem very peaceful. Just like His Highness thought, infected people and ordinary people live together equally. The integrated movement is really amazing."

The 14-year-old Custer girl was lying on the edge of the car window, her brown pupils reflecting the world outside the car window. Unlike other cities, on the streets of Chernobog, you can see people walking on the streets. of infected people.