Longmen Memoirs

"It's okay." Chen Mo replied nonchalantly. "You are not in good health."

"Ha, Xiao Mo is a smart kid." Wei Yanwu chuckled, as if he didn't hear Chen Mo's sarcasm: "It would be great if Tallulah could be half as smart as she is."

If Tallulah was half as smart as Xiao Mo, she wouldn't have done that kind of thing. But despite saying this, Wei Yanwu knew very well in his heart that Tallulah was not Chen Xiaomo, and Chen Xiaomo was not Tallulah.

But they were so similar that in the eyes of Wei Yanwu, Chen Mo, and Wen Yue, it felt like they were back when Tallulah was a child.

For a while, Wei Yanwu had always suspected that Xiao Mo was the child of Tallulah brought back by Chen, otherwise there would be such similar people in the world, but he knew it wasn't the case because he had promised Chen that he would secretly search for Tallulah. 's whereabouts.

He knew what Tallulah had done.

Although I don’t know why Wei Yanwu suddenly mentioned [&{

Chen Mo's voice became much colder, because ultimately, Wei Yanwu in front of him was the culprit of all this, and what he had done in his life was to make up for the mistakes he had made.

"They are different. Xiao Mo is not her, and she is not Xiao Mo. You should know better than anyone."

Chen Mo knew very well what kind of person Wei Yanwu was. He might feel regretful, but he would never say regret for his words and deeds.

Most of his indifference and ruthlessness come from this.

"You are right, I know it very well."

Is Tallulah not as clever as Xiao Mo?No, if Tallulah wasn't smart enough, she wouldn't have been able to stay with Black Snake for so long, nor would she have risen in the Northern Plains of Ursus to become a firm spiritual leader in the hearts of the infected.

Both Wei Yanwu and Chen Mo knew very well that perhaps Tallulah was more precocious and smart than Xiao Mo when she was young, because Tallulah's situation as a child was more difficult and helpless than Xiao Mo's now.

But she would never mention it to anyone, except Chen Mo, so Chen Mo knew, and Wei Yanwu, maybe no one knew better than Wei Yanwu what Tallulah and Chen had done at that time.

They secretly climbed out of the wall, what they did, what she and Chen Mo said, their whereabouts. Ms. Kamiya and Wei Yanwu's secret spies in the orphanage will put everything on Wei Yanwu's desk in every detail.

Do you really think that Wei Yanwu will leave Tallulah in the orphanage with peace of mind, and Chen can sneak out of Chen's house alone from several city blocks away?

The dragon gate is very big. Even if it becomes temporarily chaotic due to the sudden invasion, Wei Yanwu's skills and the elites left on his hands are still sure to take back Talulah, even if it involves paying a huge price, but Wei Yanwu doesn't care about the price, but there is a problem The key is whether Tallulah is willing to come back to Longmen and whether she is willing to stay here.

Wei Yanwu 20 years ago was unable to give Talulah a stable life and fulfill his sworn brother's entrustment, because at that time, he did not have the final say in Longmen alone. At that time, he had to face many decisions, constraints, and was unable to gain a foothold. It is stable and may be squeezed and marginalized by the local forces of Longmen at any time.

He is not a god, he has no skills at all, he is cold-blooded and ruthless, but is he really cold-blooded and ruthless? It's just that the fact has been determined, everything is a done deal, and there is no chance for another chance.

But even so, Wei Yanwu was willing to sacrifice some of his strength that should have been used in other more worthy places, and was willing to endure greater pressure to rescue her.

He didn't do it, it's not that he couldn't do it, but he weighed the pros and cons, but time didn't wait for me, and the cause and effect cycle happened.

Tallulah will not come back. After Wei Yanwu heard those words from Chen's mouth, he already understood that Tallulah would not come back. She was not forced to leave, but left voluntarily.

She didn't want to stay with Wei Yanwu, the "enemy who killed her father". Longmen left her no affection and warmth, only cold eyes and ridicule. Even the only Chen Mo left because of Wei Yanwu, and Tallulah had nothing to stay with anymore. reason.

It was Wei Yanwu who took away everything around her with his own hands. She wanted to take Chen with her, but Chen did not leave with him. Perhaps from that time on, the last concern that Longmen left for her was gone.

As helpless and desperate as she felt, she would hate Wei Yanwu and this dragon gate.

How do children know right from wrong?Where does it matter what is right or wrong?

Later, Wei Yanwu missed the time and could not explain it, and he indeed failed to protect her, so that the young girl suffered so much in Chen Mansion and Longmen that she would be bewitched by the black snake, and he would do the same to the other.

Perhaps a little desperate, in Wei Yanwu's heart, Tallulah had lost great value at that time, and his feelings for Tallulah were not worth weighing among the 50 people in Longmen.

For Longmen, he is a qualified ruler, but he has never been a qualified elder.He understands it himself.

But in the final analysis, as a ruler and a high-ranking official on the pastoral side, Wei Yanwu had no choice between his relatives and the hundreds of thousands of people in Longmen.

After losing his rights, not to mention Tallulah, he couldn't even save himself.

No one can judge whether Wei Yanwu is right or wrong, just like the infected people who follow Tallulah have no right to judge Tallulah's actions.

Only Tallulah and Chen, as a relative of Tallulah, could hold hatred towards Wei Yanwu, but if Chen really couldn't understand Wei Yanwu's position at that time, she would not choose to stay in Longmen.

She just couldn't get over the hurdle in her heart.Always hate someone, hate yourself, and give yourself a reason and excuse.

It was a long time later when Chen Mo heard this story from Tallulah.

It had been so long that he no longer cared. It had been so long that when the dust settled and he returned to Longmen later, he had already understood Wei Yanwu's true thoughts.

Maybe Wei Yanwu owed a lot to Chen, Tallulah, and his sister, but he didn't really care about them, she just didn't have the ability to take care of them all.

Just like himself later, he couldn't balance between Ursus and Yanguo. Chen Mo could understand that feeling, but he was not Tallulah or Chen, and he had no right to forgive them.

In fact, Chen Mo had one more amazing thing that he didn't say. If Xiao Mo were Tallulah, if Xiao Mo was put in Tallulah's situation, after losing his parents and being helpless, who would be willing to stay in a house? In an indifferent city, you have to accept the life arranged for you by others, and accept the upbringing of the "enemy who killed your father." What's more, Wei Yanwu is indeed excellent at what he does. It's no wonder that Chen's mother will resent him until her death.

This is a fact that Wei Yanwu cannot escape in his life.

If, maybe if, Chen Mo had not left the orphanage and Longmen 17 years ago, with Wei Yanwu's debt and guilt towards Tallulah, there would really be a chance for her to choose the life she wanted, and maybe Tallulah wouldn't be willing Following Black Snake's departure, they will stay here, or maybe they will leave Longmen just like he promised Tallulah, and go to Colombia, Letania, Victoria, and Yan Country every sun, day, and sunset, spring, summer, autumn, and winter. …everywhere they would go.

But unfortunately, there is no if in the world.

Chen Mo felt resentful and unwilling.He longs for the chance to change everything, and he is unwilling to be powerless and ordinary.

There was helplessness and consideration in his smile that was not for his age.

He was afraid, and he knew it.

Tallulah and Chen were too far away from displaced ordinary people like him. He was unwilling to let everything be a seemingly beautiful childhood, and he was unwilling to be strangers in different worlds in the future.

He is an ordinary Longmen civilian.

He didn't know who he was yet, and he didn't know that the closer he was to Tallulah and Chen, the farther Wei Yanwu wanted him to go.

So, this is the last glimmer of possibility.

In fact, it is impossible.

Time goes forward, memories go backward.

Once it's been missed, there's no way to get it back.

Everyone has the helplessness, reluctance, and regret left in their lives by being unable to control what they say or what they want. There are too many kinds of things. Some of them have a chance to make up for it, and some of them are over.

People will lose a lot, and there will only be more in the future, but they will also gain, and often between gains and losses, countless overlapping memories of you and me will be left.

ps: I'm not whitewashing Wei Yanwu, but let's just talk about it. Fighting the world for one person is awesome, but it is also the most selfish. You have to divide people. There are many people who rely on you, and everyone has family members who will follow you. It would be nice if you died, but what about others?

ps2: Chinese New Year, um... how many days do you owe?

ps3: There are a lot of twists and turns involved below, and the amount of information is relatively large.Also, of course Chen Mo can't fight, nor is he special and omnipotent, but there are people who can, such as the undead in the Tower of Babel and so on.

Chapter 63 Everyone can do their best, Chen Momo

Destiny is the most ridiculous and helpless joke in the world.

I have been searching for this word all my life, and finally I can't escape it.

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Chen Mo couldn't easily say the word "forgiveness" for Tallulah. He also knew that Wei Yanwu didn't care at all whether what he did deserved forgiveness from others.

He is a person who is not even willing to admit regret easily, let alone deny what he has done.

Just imagine, it would be difficult for anyone in Wei Yanwu's position and position to find a better way.

What was before him was the life and death of countless innocent people in Longmen and the ambition of Black Snake.

Yes, he is Wei Yanwu, and he is the ruler of Longmen. In his eyes, Longmen is always the most important, and it is the place where he has spent countless efforts and costs to settle down and settle down.

Just like what he said to Chen Mo himself a long time ago, this city belongs to him, but it doesn't just belong to him.

He has his helplessness and powerlessness.

Just like Tallulah now, their status has already destined them to weigh the pros and cons before making every decision, and they cannot do whatever they want.

Chen Mo lowered his eyelids gently, and the smell of nicotine smoke that he inhaled into his lungs was suppressed and slowly exhaled from his mouth, blending into the gloomy night.

He did not have any more entanglements with Wei Yanwu on this issue.

It’s already useless, right?

Even if Wei Yanwu is really willing to explain everything he did back then, what's the point.

"The matter has come to this, there is no point in talking more." He said softly. "Mr. Wei, why don't you tell me why you came to me, a small citizen of Shengdou?"

Wei Yanwu stared calmly at Chen Mo who said these words. Two seconds later, a rare faint smile appeared on that majestic face, mixed with indescribable melancholy.

"Don't you hate me?" Wei Yanwu asked.

"What's the use?" Chen Mo asked.

"Maybe I'll feel better."

"If it was a few years ago, when I first came back." Chen Mo held a cigarette: "Well... to be honest, I hate it. Even if there is nothing I can do, I still have to hate it."

"Oh?"

"I am different from Chen." Chen Mo met Wei Yanwu's curious gaze: "I still have this self-awareness. I understand that you don't want me to get close to them. I also know in my heart that a commoner like me has nothing to do with them. It’s a little bit possible, so even if I don’t leave, after five or ten years, when I see the gap clearly, I should quit.”

"It was rare for you to think of this back then." Wei Yanwu nodded lightly, acknowledging that what Chen Mo said was the truth. "Even if they are willing to admit you, the Chen Mansion will not allow you to exist if I don't stop them."

"Is that why you gave me a choice?" Chen Mo asked deliberately.

"It's more than that." Wei Yanwu didn't answer directly, but looked at him with interest, as if to say it again, you already understand it, don't you?

Chen Mo was not surprised at all.

"Of course it's more than that." Chen Mo said: "The reason why you did this is not just because of my father who died in the line of duty. Jin'anbo Mansion is a good place, but it's a pity that it has become a neglected place after more than 20 years." The ruins of the city."

"Been there?"

Chen Mo nodded.

"I saw him once from a distance." Chen Mo sighed: "Maybe it wasn't because of me, but he is still alive and well now. Not to mention being famous at the time, he is also rich and prosperous."

"I don't remember who said before that my younger brother is kind-hearted, well-informed and knowledgeable about etiquette, noble and thrifty, and has long been expected to be like a benevolent lord." Wei Yanwu chuckled lightly: "My benevolent lord, a benevolent prince. Why would anyone criticize the impeachment? Only I know that he has been looking at that seat in his heart and calculating when he can sit on it. He wants to build on the unfinished achievements of previous emperors and establish the achievements that have never been done by previous dynasties."

Wei Yanwu said and asked: "Such a person, do you think he would allow some omissions and setbacks?"

Chen Mo was stunned.

There will be a fart.

He found that he could not refute Wei Yanwu. Wei Yanwu's words shattered the last trace of innocent fantasy in Chen Mo's heart, but made his heavy heart seem to feel lighter.

He knew the emperor's personality better than he did, so after Wei Yanwu saw through his disguise, he left Dayan without any hesitation, stayed away from the center of power, and came to the borderland of Longmen.

Although the land of the capital is as prosperous as a dream, the ups and downs and dangers therein cannot be explained to outsiders.

"Ever since I saw the letter your father sent to Longmen, I have guessed that this day will come." Wei Yanwu said in a deep voice: "You are the continuation of his ambition. Those people may have also seen this. , knowing that if this continues, Dayan will sooner or later be dragged into the quagmire because of someone's desire for power."

"From the Four Emperors' War in 1053, to the Tenth Uka War in 1063, the Battle of Blood Peak in 1075, and the Yanwu conflict in 1077, a detailed list of the major and minor wars, frictions, and foreign wars in Great Yan has continued in the past 40 years. It has not been interrupted. I was a member of the war more than 20 years ago. No one knows better than me the disaster and pain that the war brought to the people of Dayan. Many of the causes of the current situation are more terrible than natural disasters. Man-made disaster.”

You are a man-made disaster...

Your existence symbolizes man-made disaster.

You were born wrong.

In the rising smoke, the sparks on Wei Yanwu's pipe kept lighting up with his breathing. The orange-red light seemed to allow Chen Mo to see some intermittent fragments through it.

Only those who have experienced war can better understand the horror of war.

The cigarette held between his fingertips burned out at some point, and the fluffy ashes fell to Chen Mo's feet in the night wind. The floating lights and prosperous scenery in the city seemed to have become a dream that could collapse at any time.

Just like those cities that were once prosperous and prosperous, they have long been reduced to ruins with the passage of time. The ancient ancient cities of Victoria and the remains of Ursus's snow-stuck moving cities.

The building was deserted, and the intertwined scars and withered blood looked like fragments of history.

"In this case, you should have killed me long ago?" Chen Mo asked slightly ridiculously.

Is Wei Yanwu someone who cares about the life and death of the people?

Maybe, but the premise is that his interests are touched. Chen Mo will not believe all Wei Yanwu's words. More importantly, his own existence will threaten Longmen and his plan.

If my birth was wrong from the beginning, then you should kill this mistake in time, even if there is a slight possibility.

Chen Mo understood in his heart. 【*

Wei Yanwu said that his brother, His Majesty, would not allow any setbacks or accidents, but in fact, he was also such a person.

But he didn't kill himself.

"It's not that I haven't thought about doing this."

"Who can stop you?"

Wei Yanwu seemed to have remembered something, with some sigh and nostalgia: "I still remember the first day I met you. He guessed what I was thinking and hoped that I could take you in or that he would take you away."

"But he stayed..." Chen Mo's voice was a little stagnant. He remembered what the woman holding him said to him on that night when the fire was burning, hoping that he could live safely.